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Different You by Yasmin93
Chapter 6 : Head Girl
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Regulus sat with me until it was time for dinner. We spoke more about my family than anything, well my dad amyway. Since his confessions about Sirius, Regulus seemed to clam up. Not that I blamed him, it wasn't like we knew each other all that well, but it was finally nice to have someone around that hadn't fallen for Sirius' charm.

By the time I finally left and got to the common room it was nearing curfew. I'd decided against going to my last lesson or dinner, not for the lack of being hungry but more because I just didn't want to face anyone.

The thought of them all agreeing with Sirius made my stomach churn. No one liked being told they weren't wanted, and I was no different. I was just trying to fit in and it was as though Sirius was doing everything he could to make that difficult.

The common room was full of life when I stumbled through the portrait. The group of people I was slowly getting to know were all laughing amongst themselves. Sirius was stood on the arm of the sofa with his back to me. He seemed to be reciting something dramatically. At least he was in a better mood now.

Alice caught my eye and she stood up to make her way over to me. Sirius' eyes followed her, his eyebrows furrowing as they focussed on me.

"Where have you been, Jules?" Alice stood in front of me with a hand on her hip. "I looked everywhere for you!"

As I looked into her dark blue eyes I realised that she was actually worried about me. My heart swelled at the thought of her looking for me, for not agreeing with Sirius and I couldn't help but smile fondly at her.

"I just went for a walk to clear my head." I wasn't technically lying to her. I did go for a walk and I did need to clear my head. That was the only way I could think about it and not feel guilty about withholding the truth. "We must have just missed each other."

"About earlier." Alice started as she looked glanced over her shoulder at Sirius who was back to acting like a prat. "He had no right to say any of the things he did. I don't know what his problem is but he's not normally like that."

"Alice, please don't make excuses for him." I simply shrugged to downplay the whole situation. "He's the one who said those things. No one forced him to. It was all him. It just makes me realise who he really is, I guess."

"But that's not who he really is." Alice's eyes were pleading me not to write him off completely. I just gave her an apologetic smile and let her continue. "Either way, I spoke to him about it. He knows he was out of order. It won't happen again."

I chuckled humourlessly. "Why are you saying all of this? Why isn't he?" I raised my eyebrow in his direction.

"He's too stubborn to admit he's wrong." Alice admitted as she held my gaze. "We really do want you here. Sirius too."

"Yeah, as his emotional punching bag." I rolled my eyes at her, finally getting a musical laugh out of her.

"Seriously, he's just too damn dramatic. He makes everything a bigger deal than it actually is." The desperation had left her eyes and was replaced by the usual sparkle.

"Oh believe me, I know." I laughed, relieved of any tension I had felt when I had left the group earlier in the day.

In the end I decided against joining Alice and the others for the evening, favouring instead a nice quiet night in bed with a book. I said goodnight to Alice and made my way to the girls dormitory. I hadn't even reached the bottom of the stairs when heavy footsteps caught up with me.

"Juliet, wait." The masculine voice spoke as a hand came out to grab my wrist to spin me around.

As I came face to face with hazel eyes I couldn't help but feel bad for the boy. He looked somewhat ashamed. "What's up, James?" I made sure to keep my voice soft. The last thing I wanted was for him to feel bad about anything. None of it was his fault after all.

"I wanted to apologise for earlier." His voice was almost timid. This was a side of James I had never seen. The normal happy-go-lucky, loving life boy was gone a replaced with this embarrassed, guilty boy.

"Don't." I shook my head at him and gave him my most winning smile. "You have nothing to be sorry about."

"I do. You were just trying to help and I let him rip into you like that." He rubbed the back of his neck before moving his hand up to mess his hair up. Not that he needed to, it seemed to stand out in every direction.

"I don't get what it is about you lot but you always seem to take responsibility for his actions." I turned to look at Sirius to find him looking at me. There was something, warm about the way he was watching me and James but that changed the second he caught my eye, his whole demeanour turning icy. "He's big enough and ugly enough to take responsibility of his own actions. It's about time you all realised that."

"I'm not apologising for him." James laughed. "Believe me, he'd kill me if he thought I was doing that. I just could have done more."

"Well unless you have access to a time turner I don't think there's any reason to dwell on it." I gave him a small smile. "But if it happens again I might not be so lenient." I winked at him and turned around to head upstairs.

"Wait, about what you said." Unless I was mistaken I could swear I could hear the nerves in his voice. I turned around, staying on the bottom step, which brought me closer to James' height.

"About Lily?" I couldn't stop the smile from spreading even further across my face. He really was hopelessly in love with her.

"Do you really think leaving her alone will work?" His eyes darted up the stairs to the girls dormitory.

I let out a small sigh which brought his attention back to me. "Yes I do. She doesn't need all your public declarations of love. Let her see that you've grown, that you're not the same person she seems thinks you are. Make her miss you, because she will."

"How do you know?" His eyes reminded me of a puppy; pleading and sad.

"Call it girls intuition." I said with a shrug. "Any girl would love to have the attention you give to Lily. I just thinks she takes it for granted at the moment."

"So, just give her some space?" The more we spoke, the more he seemed to be going back to his usual ways. The smile on his face reappeared and his eyes were full of hope.

"Just give her some space." I nodded, hoping that all my advice would pay off in the end.

"Thanks, Jules." He flashed me a charming grin before heading back to the group.

"Anytime." I mumbled under my breath as I climbed up the stairs.

As though on autopilot I made my way straight to my bed and stripped out of my robes and into my short shorts and vest top I wear for bed. I sang the song Jolene quietly as I went along with my nightly routine.

"You like Dolly Parton?" A quiet voice from one of the beds made me jump. This only brought on a small, delicate laugh.

"Who doesn't?" I turned to face Lily to find her sitting on her bed with a book in her lap. It looked like she had the same idea as I did.

"You'd be surprised within the wizarding community." Her voice didn't get any louder as she shut her book. "You can sing."

A blush spread through my cheeks at the compliment. Not many people out of my family had ever heard me sing. I just found everyone too judgemental so tended not to do it.

"Thanks." I forced out, trying to brush it off as casually as I could.

An awkward silence washed over us as I dug through my bed side table to look for the book I was reading. As I sat down I noticed Lily still hadn't taken her eyes off of me.

"Have you been up here all afternoon?" I smoothed out the creases in my comforter.

"Yeah." Lily sighed. "I just can't handle the public humiliation any more. Just when I think he can't get any worse he goes and proves me wrong."

"I don't think he's trying to humiliate you." I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear. "He really did seem cut up about the whole situation."

"Then why does he keep doing it?" Lily let herself fall backwards with her arms spread out above her head.

"He's trying to tell you how he feels, Lily." As I watched her I couldn't help but smile at her. Thankfully she couldn't see me.

"But I don't want him to. I don't even like the guy!"

"Have you given yourself a chance to like him?" I asked, unsure why I was suddenly trying to play matchmaker. "Have you tried to get to know him?"

"Of course I know him." Lily pushed herself up so she was looking at me with furrowed eyebrows. "He's an arrogant, self-centred bully. There's nothing there to like."

"But he's not self-centred. From what I've seen his world pretty much revolves around you." I smiled at Lily as she scowled at me. "Arrogant, maybe, but self-centred? Definitely not."

"No offence, but you don't really know him." Lily grumbled as she looked away from me. "You don't know some of the things he's done."

I pushed myself up onto my knees. "Are you trying to tell me people can't change?"

Lily's eyes instantly darted back to mine. She seemed slightly taken aback. "Of course not!"

The door swung open and Marlene sauntered in carrying a plate of food. Her face dropped slightly at the sight of me but lit up again as she handed Lily the plate.

"What about Sirius?" Lily continued as if Marlene hadn't just walked in. "You obviously have feelings for him. Are you saying he can change?"

Marlene visibly tensed up at the topic of conversation. Despite her obvious discomfort she took a seat on her bed.

My eyes automatically landed on her. This wasn't the sort of conversation I wanted to have with her around. The last thing I wanted was for her to dislike me even more than she already did, but I knew she was only staying to here what I had to say.

Lily gave me a questioning look as she waited for my answer.

A nervous laughed bubbled up my throat. "No. I let myself fall for a lost cause."

Lily let out a small laugh and it looked as though Marlene relaxed a little bit, her shoulders were nowhere near as tense as when she first noticed me.

The two of us were never going to be best friends, I wasn't stupid enough to think that, but we didn't have to be hostile towards each other. Maybe she could finally start being a bit more understanding of other peoples feelings.

"I'll catch up with you later, Lily." Marlene stood up making sure not to look in my direction. "I have plans with Black. Don't wait up." She winked at her friend before turning to smirk at me, and then she was gone leaving me cringing at her lack of compassion.

"Is she always so," I paused to think of the next word. I didn't want to be too harsh knowing that her and Lily were best friends.

"Inconsiderate?" Lily chuckled with a knowing look in her eyes. "It's hard to get into Marlene's good graces, but once you do she'd do anything for you. Anyone else though, she just doesn't care. She'll say what she wants, when she wants, to who she wants."

I nod at her not wanting to cut her off.

"Sirius is her kryptonite. The one person she has let hurt her more than once and she just keeps on going back. He'd finally agreed to give things a go with her at the end of last year and they spent a bit of time together over the summer. Not much as she was abroad for most of it."

My heart sank at the thought of him seeing both of us at the same time. Everything was starting to make sense. Her reason for disliking me were as clear as day.

"It's not your fault." Lily must have seen something in my face. "She should have known. She knows what he's like. You just happened to fall victim to his charms too."

"He just seemed so genuine." I confessed. "Now it's like I don't even know him. He either ignores me or tries to argue with me. He hasn't even given me a chance."

"He really isn't worth the heartache. He's just as bad, if not worse, than James." Lily's face contorted into obvious dislike. "The things they did to Sev-" She cut herself off, sadness flashing across her face.

"Who's Sev?" I'd not heard anyone mention that name before, but judging from Lily's reaction it was someone close to her.

"Someone I used to know." Was all she said and I knew not to press her any further. There was something about the way she spoke that told me that she'd tell me when she wanted me to know.

I had to keep reminding myself that these people didn't know me. I couldn't expect them to tell me everything I was curious about. There's history there that I would never be a part of, and I didn't need to be a part of. It was becoming clear that they didn't seem to know each other all that well considering how long they'd been in each others lives. Lily was dwelling on the past, and James was suffering because of it. None of them seemed to think Sirius was being himself, but maybe he'd just done a great job at making them think he wasn't this person.

I decided that I didn't need to know what these people used to be like, but it was what they were like now. Sirius USED to be kind and caring, but that shouldn't matter any more. James may have been a bully once upon a time but he had been nothing but welcoming to me. It was time I stopped listening to what everyone else said about each other and made my own decisions.

Sirius and Marlene could crack on. Regulus was proving to be a better friend than anyone. Even Lily, with the supposed stick up her ass, seemed more than nice enough.

Lily snapped me out of my thoughts by offering me half of her pumpkin pasty. It was then my stomach made the loudest noise, reminding me of just how hungry I was. I basically snatched the pasty off of her, but she was kind enough to only react with a kind, amused smile.

"Seems like I'm not the only one who couldn't face dinner." Her laugh echoed through the dormitory. There was something soothing about her laugh. It was quiet and delicate and every time the sound escaped her, her eyes lit up her whole face.

"I guess we were both trying to avoid the same group of people." I took a bite out of the pasty, savouring all the different flavours that erupted in my mouth.

"And we're supposed to be the brave ones." Lily laughed again before taking a bite out of her food. "Jules?"


"What made you first say yes to Sirius?"

I couldn't help but smile at the question. It made me wonder whether she was actually curious about me and Sirius, or if she was asking for her own personal reasons.

"He was very persistent." This time my smile was aimed at Lily. I stayed silent for a moment whilst I thought back to the first time I'd agreed to go out with him.

The Hope and Anchor was a nomaj punk rock pub. I'd never stepped foot in anything like it until then and I was in awe. Even the things everyone was wearing had me staring. Leather was everywhere. Big, bold make up, big boots, big hair. It wasn't my normal scene and despite the sticky floors and lingering smoke I couldn't help but fall in love with the place.

The atmosphere was electric. Everyone was there for one reason, and one reason only. The music. I didn't know much of the music having grown up with Elvis and Johnny Cash, but it didn't take me long to start getting a feel for the place. I even went and added a few items of clothing to my wardrobe so I didn't stand out like a sore thumb.

I had found myself there every night for the last four nights, since I moved there. Every night before it had been nice and relaxed, the jukebox supplying the music. Saturday's, it seemed, was live music night.

The Police were playing there on my first Saturday there. I'd never heard of them before that, but they were pretty good.

There I was, standing at the bar, waiting for a drink, when I saw him enter the pub. He fit right in with that same leather jacket he was wearing the first time I'd seen him.

I decided against the idea to go and speak to him and had a feeling he wouldn't recognise me anyway. I definitely wasn't wearing the sort of clothes he'd seen me in before, this time donning tight black jeans, biker boots and a tight band t-shirt. I'd never actually heard of the band, Iggy Pop, in fact, I wasn't sure if it was even a band but there were a few other people wearing tops with the same name on.

I couldn't help myself, so I watched as his eyes scanned the room. I had no idea what he was looking for, but they stopped searching as soon as they landed on me. A smirk immediately appeared on his mouth when he realised I'd been watching him.

Before I knew it he had pushed his way through the crowd and was by my side, leaning casually against the bar. The smile on his face was intoxicating and I couldn't stop the smile from spreading over my face. It was that or all the alcohol I had drunk since I'd been there was finally kicking in.

"Well, isn't this a pleasant surprise. I didn't expect to bump into you here." His voice was oozing confidence as his eyes raked over my body. "Especially looking like that."

I blushed at under his lingering gaze. "You help a girl out once and suddenly you think you know her." I shook my head as I ordered another beer.

Sirius quickly ordered himself one, paying for them both. "One look at you the other night and I didn't need to get to know you to know this isn't your scene." His eyes sparkled as the grin on his mouth grew wider. "But I'm definitely not complaining. I was hoping I'd bump into you."

"And why is that?" I raised a single eyebrow at him as I tried my best at stopping the huge smile from spreading across my face.

There was something about him that intrigued me. Something about him that grabbed my attention and made me want to find out everything about him. I found myself secretly happy that we'd bumped into each other.

"I'm taking you out tomorrow." The confidence didn't leave him for a single second and his eyes dared me to contradict him.

"What makes you think I even want to go out with you?"

"You would have stopped talking to me by now if that were the case." And he was right.

"I'm just being polite." I lied weakly, neither of us believing it for one minute. "What brings you here anyway? I haven't seen you here before." I moved one of my arms of the bar and turned to face him, my fingers tapping against the bar in time to the music.

"How many times have you been here?" Sirius let out a bark of laughter. I watched as he threw his head back, my eyes running down his neck to his chest where his t-shirt clung tightly.

"Every night since I moved here?" I diverted my eyes quickly back to his, hoping he hadn't caught them trailing down.

"So four nights? That hardly makes you a regular, Sweetheart." He leant towards me slightly. "And you didn't think to offer me a drink for making sure you got here safe the other night?" He took another large gulp of his drink, his throat bobbing as he did. "I don't know how it is in America, but I think it's rather rude."

"Oh, you do, do you?" I put on a fake British accent. A very bad, fake British accent at that. "Well I am terribly sorry."

He let out a single 'HA', his eyes dancing wildly with amusement. "Never do that again! That's the worst impression I think I have ever heard." As he continued chuckling at me I couldn't help but join in.

"It's not that bad!" I jested, unable to stop laughing. "Would you like a cup of tea?" I tried again with a serious face, which only encouraged his laughter.

"What did I say?" He raised an eyebrow at me, but I could tell from the glee in his eyes and the smile on his face that he was making fun of me.

I put my hands up in mock surrender. My face must have been mirroring his, wide smile and bright eyes. "I'm done, I'm done."

He grabbed a packet of cigarettes out of his pocket, offering me one first. When I shook my head he proceeded to light one up for himself, taking a drag before exhaling the smoke moments later. My eyes found their way to his lips as I watched the action.

"So, are you going to tell me your name or am I going to have to guess? I can't keep referring to you as 'the hot, American girl'." His deep, husky voice had me clinging to his every word, and the British accent just made it even more sexier. There was no denying that I found him attractive, and from the gleam in his eye he knew it.

"I guess I have to say thank you for the drink." I paused, taking another sip before wiping the foam from my top lip. "It's Juliet."

"Well, Juliet. It's nice to finally be of acquaintance." Sirius stuck his hand out for me to shake.

"Do people really say that?" I laughed, but placed my hand in his anyway. The laughter died on my lips when he pulled my hand up to his mouth and gently pressed his lips to it. His eyes never moved from mine during the whole process, which only added to the blush that was making its way up my face. Butterflies erupted in my stomach, fluttering around with more force with every passing moment that he had hold of my hand.

He flashed me a toothy grin as he let go of my hand before finally introducing himself as Sirius.

"Seriously?" The word came out before I even had the chance to stop myself. My hand flew up to my mouth as I cringed at myself for mocking him, if it was his name.

The biggest grin I had seen on his face appeared, his perfect white teeth glistening under the light at the bar. "Siriusly."

I visibly cringed at his pun, not even bothering to hide it. "Did you really just?"

Sirius winked at me as he finished off his first drink. "As much as I would love to stay here in your company all night, I have a few people waiting for me." He pointed over to a table where three other boys were laughing amongst one another, one of their gaze landed on the two of us.

The boy with glasses pointed to his wrist, as though pointing to the time, which caused Sirius to hold his finger up to get him to wait.

"As you can see, they're getting a bit impatient." He moved his gaze from his friends to me, the smile on his face never faltered. "So, what I'm going to do is pick you up from here at five tomorrow."

"I never agreed to go anywhere with you." I shook my head, not believing the cheek of him, but the smile on my face stayed put.

"Just be outside at five. Either way I'm going to be there, and I'm not going to move until you turn up to come with me." He picked up his drink before turning and leaving me at the bar. He stopped and looked at me over his shoulder. "Something tells me you're not the sort of girl to leave me waiting there for hours. See you tomorrow." He sent last one wink at me before continuing on his way.

And with that he was gone and I didn't see him for the rest of the night.

Lily was silent the whole time I was telling her my story. By the time I had finished she was chuckling to herself.

"He didn't give me much of a choice." I commented, waiting to see what she had to say about it.

"That does sound like the sort of thing he'd do." She laughed. "Personally, I would have left him waiting."

"And if I could go back, believe me, I would leave him waiting a very very long time." I admitted as I finished off the last of the food Lily had been sharing with me.

That was the first night of many that we would spend sat up talking about our love lives. That was the night me and Lily became friends. At that moment, I didn't care what anyone else threw at me. I had Alice, Lily and Regulus and I sure as hell didn't need anyone else.

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