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The Story Of Roxy Decoy by Roxy Decoy
Chapter 23 : Tempers
Rating: MatureChapter Reviews: 1

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Part 1.
Sirius was kissing Roxy. He was actually kissing Roxy! It had only been five seconds, but it felt like forever. His heart was beating faster than it ever had before and everything else in the world had disappeared. His worry for James and all thoughts of his family were gone. All that mattered now was her lips against his.

Unfortunately a bang broke him from his bliss. He looked up to see James and Lily walking through the common room door. James had his arm around her. Her face was red and blotchy and James was looking down at her worriedly. His eyes were also slightly red.

Roxy stood up and ran over to Lily.

“Lily! Are you ok!” she asked hugging her.

Lily nodded but kept her head down.

“I’m going to go to bed,” she said quietly through a blocked nose, making her way up the stairs.

“I better go after her, night,” Roxy said blushing and not meeting Sirius’ eyes.

Sirius watched her go and then turned to James.

He forced the smile off his face and turned it into worry. He put his arm around James.

“You ok mate?” he asked.

James nodded.

Sirius knew he was lying. They went over to the marauders chair and sat down.

“What happened?” Sirius asked.

“She was yelling and crying and shaking,” he said quickly, “But I calmed her down and we talked. I apologised and stuff for whatever I did to make her hate me. I dunno, I couldn’t understand half of what she was saying because she was crying, but I think she was just stressed from school, and she mentioned Snape a few times whatever that was about, and apparently my constant nagging made everything worse. Although I explained that it wasn’t nagging. I think she’s forgiven me. I don’t know, she’s so god dam confusing!”

“You’ll just have to wait till tomorrow mate and see what she does,” Sirius said.

James nodded.

He looked up and saw Sirius smiling happily.

“What?” he asked.

“Hmm?” Sirius said, returning his attention to back to James. His mind kept slipping back to Roxy and how soft her lips were.

“What are you so happy about?” James asked suspiciously, “I’m here trying to be deadly serious and I’m quite upset, and you’re there smiling your head off!”

James didn’t say it meanly, but Sirius still felt guilty. He should be paying more attention to James. He needs him.

Sirius blushed.

“Nevermind! Are you ok” Sirius said, trying to keep from smiling. It was harder to do than you may think.

“No, tell me!” James said sitting up straighter, “There’s something you’re dying to tell me! I can tell dude, you can’t hide it from me!”

“No no no, we’re talking about you,” Sirius said, whooshing him away.

James looked at him suspiciously.

A broad grin spread across Sirius’ face. He quickly tried to hide it, but James hit him.


Sirius bit his lip.

James grinned. “You kissed her?”

Sirius nodded.

“Yes!” he said high fiving Sirius.

Sirius blushed deeply, but couldn’t stop smiling.

“Awh look at you grinning!" James teased, “What did she say when you did?”

“Nothing, you guys came in.”

James looked shocked.

“We interrupted you! I’m so sorry! Don’t tell Lily, she’d be too pleased,” James laughed.

“She really doesn’t approve of me does she,” Sirius grinned.

James shook his head, “I don't think she really approves of either of us."

Part 2.
Sirius woke up the next morning smiling. It took him a few minutes to remember why he was so happy, but then he remembered. Roxy.

His smile broadened, then almost immediately disappeared as he spotted James sitting on the window-frame. His head was leaning against the window, he was hugging his knees, and he was looking out onto the grounds of Hogwarts.

Sirius glanced at the clock on the tablebeside his bed. It was 6 o’clock.

Sirius slipped out of bed and walked up beside James.

“Hey,” James whispered, not taking his eyes from outside the window.

“You ok?” Sirius asked.

James nodded and whirled around, “Breakfast?”

Sirius smiled and nodded, and they both walked down to the great hall, still in their pyjamas.

There were a few early risers dotted along the benches, but the room was virtually empty. They slid into their usual spot at the Gryffindor table.

They both poured a bowl of coco pops and ate it in silence.

Sirius finished first. He dropped his spoon down loudly into his bowl and sighed.

“We’re screwed aren’t we?” he said sadly.

“Yes,” James nodded.

Sirius groaned and lay his head down on the table.

“What are we going to do?” he said, his voice muffled.

“Turn gay and get married to each other?” James suggested.

“James would bottom,” said a voice from behind them. They both jumped and turned around.

Roxy was standing there smiling awkwardly.

Sirius grinned at James, nodding suggestively, but James ignored him and turned towards Roxy.

“How’s Lily?” he asked, his brow furrowed with worry.

“I dunno, she’s still asleep. She seemed peaceful,” she said, buttering a piece of toast.

James nodded and stared vacantly into his empty bowl of cereal.

Roxy frowned at him, worried.

"She’ll be ok you know? She just got over whelmed yesterday,” Roxy said softly.

James nodded droopily.

Roxy lay her head on his shoulder and squeezed his hand reassuringly.

“It’ll be ok,” she said quietly.

“You’d better go get dressed, classes start in a few minutes,” Remus said, appearing behind them.

“Can’t we just go like this?” Sirius groaned.

“No,” Remus said, “Go.”

They got up slowly and then raced each other out the door. James was winning by a few feet when he suddenly ducked in behind a statue. Sirius looked at him strangely as he reached the statue.

When Sirius reached the point where James was hiding, James grabbed him and pulled him behind the statue with him.

Sirius gave him a weird look and James put his finger up to his lips, in an attempt to keep Sirius quiet.

Sirius looked around bewildered.

But then the reason for their hiding became clear as Sirius spotted Lily coming towards them from the distance.

“No,” Sirius said angrily.

“No what? Shh!”

“No,” Sirius said simply. He then grabbed James’ shoulders and pushed him out from behind the statue.

James almost fell over and regained himself just as Lily reached the statue. Sirius stayed hidden.

“Hey,” James said shyly.

Lily said nothing. She kept looking down and Sirius would have thought she hadn't seen if if she hadn't then proceeded to hit into his shoulder as she passed.

Sirius watched James' face drop, and even from behind the statue, he could see James’ eyes watering. He came out from behind the statue. He was now extremely angry. There’s no way she could still be mad at him after last night. There was no way she could be. All he said was hi. Sirius was really beginning to hate Lily. She was screwing with James’ head. Whether it was on purpose or not was no longer an issue.

They walked back to the common room in silence, Sirius left James to his thoughts.

They pulled on their robes quickly. Sirius glanced at the clock and saw that it was five to nine.

“Come on, we gotta run,” Sirius said jamming a shoe onto his foot.

James shook his head, “I think I’m gonna hang out here for awhile.”

Sirius stopped struggling with his shoe.

“You sure?” he asked.

James nodded.

“Ok, I’ll see you later.”

He quickly tied his laces and practically ran to his first class. He got there just in time and slipped into his chair, panting.

Roxy leaned over from the seat beside him.

“Where’s James?” she whispered.

"He went back to bed.” Sirius said shortly. He hadn’t meant to speak to her so harshly, but it was partially her fault James was upset. The pie thing had been her idea after all. If she had just kept her stupid idea's to herself, then James would be sitting beside him, as happy as anything. There was nothing Sirius hated more than seeing James upset. Because when James was upset, he was upset. It was just how things worked.

“Why?” she asked timidly.

“Ask her,” he growled pointing towards Lily.

“What happened?”

“None of your business,” he snapped.

She looked at him taken aback. But her surprise turned quickly into anger. She leaned forward and whispered harshly into his ear.

Actually, it’s as much of my dam business as it is yours. I don’t know what your fucking problem is, but if there’s something wrong with James you’re going to fucking tell me.”

He suddenly felt guilty for speaking to her so callously. He relaxed.

“Lily ignored him and knocked into him when he said hi to her in the hallway,” he whispered.

She leaned back in her chair and pretended to pay attention to what the professor was saying. Sirius knew she wasn’t listening though.

She was thinking.

“Couldn’t you say something to her?” Sirius suggested.

“No,” Roxy said pouting and crossing her arms.

Sirius grinned at how cute it made her.

He leaned forward and tried to put on the most puppy-dog-like face he could.

“I’m sorry I spoke to you like that. I was just worried about James. Do you forgive me?”

She looked up at him and he thought for a moment she was going to say no, but then her face softened and she nodded.

“I’ll try talk to her,” she sighed.

Sirius nodded sadly.

“He’ll be ok,” she said placing her hand on his.

He turned the palm of his hand around so that it faced hers and he interlocked his fingers with hers.

“I just don’t get why she's got to be such a bitch,” he said quietly.

“She’s not a bitch Sirius, she’s just confused.”

“No, I’m pretty sure she’s a bitch,” he said glaring angrily over in Lily’s direction.

He felt Roxy pull her hand away from his. When he turned around he saw that her arms were re-crossed and she was scowling at him.

“What?” he asked, genuinely oblivious to what he did wrong.

“She has a lot going on right now, there’s no need to be mean.”

“I’m just saying it like I see it. Just because she has emotional problems doesn‘t mean she has to take it out on James,” he shrugged.

Roxy scowled at him.

“What?” he said again.

“Just because your life is so easy it doesn’t mean everyone else’s is,” she hissed.

Sirius gaped at her.

“You think, you think my life’s been easy? You think that everything I’ve went through was easy?” he said bewildered.

“No,” Roxy said leaning forward towards him. Sirius was aware at how very near she was to him. He gulped.

“But you’ve always had an alternative,” she whispered into his ear before leaning back in her chair.

Part 3.
Sirius hadn’t spoken to Roxy since their little chat in class earlier that day. The sun was going down, sending a pink glimmer of light into the common room.

Sirius was sitting in his usual chair by the fire, trying to read over his essay, but kept getting distracted at how Roxy’s hair shone under the sun’s pink glow, and the sound of her laugh that carried across from the other side of the room where she sat with Lily. His stomach squirmed with both guilt and anger.

He still believed in what he said and that he had a right to say it, but she had just sounded so angry at him.

He looked away from her and back down onto his homework, but his mind slipped to James. He hadn’t come out of the room since this morning. He hadn’t even eaten since breakfast. There was no way Sirius would be able to last two hours without food let alone the whole day.

With that thought in mind he snapped closed his book and hurried out of the common room. He couldn’t remember the last time he made this trip alone, but he knew the way like the back of his wand.

Part 4.
James wasn’t sure how long he had been lying in bed, but it felt like an eternity. Judging by how much the suns light streaming through the window had changed, he was pretty sure he had been there for the whole day. He wasn’t sure why he had stayed here. It wasn’t like he wanted to avoid Lily, he just didn’t feel like moving. He tried to sleep, but did not prevail. He tried to study, but why should it work now when it never did before? He had even finished all his homework.


His stomach growled loudly, but still he stayed. He stayed lying there, hungry and alone until long after the sun had gone down.

Part 5.
Roxy laughed at something Lily had said, but she wasn’t really listening. Her mind was on Sirius. She couldn’t believe how insensitive he was being. She had really begun to trust him. But what if Lily was right about him all along? What if he really was the arrogant inconsiderate asshole she had warned her he was?


It was only one thing he said, don’t blow it out of proportion, said a voice in the back of her head.


I’m not, she answered back to it. She was just being cautious. She had never felt like this with anyone else in her life before. She couldn’t handle to get hurt right now. She was too tired. Not physically, but emotionally tired.


It was times like this that she really needed her mother.

Part 6.
Lily was sitting in the common room talking to Roxy, but she had a feeling Roxy wasn’t even listening. She was being much too vacant all day. Lily was in a good mood today. Her classes had gone well, and her homework was done and she felt a lot less stressed. She had an inkling it was because she had finally cried out everything she was holding back, but she pushed that thought to the back of her mind for the time being. She would worry about that and James Potter later.


“But it was the bishops wife!” Lily said, concluding the punch line to the joke she was telling. Roxy laughed weakly and Lily frowned.


“And then Dumbledore came in naked with a parrot on his back,” Lily said, trying to get a response out of Roxy.


Roxy nodded absent mindedly and then a confused look spread across her face.


“What?” she asked.


Lily laughed, “Well at least you were half paying attention!”


Roxy laughed too, and then looked serious again.


Lily stopped laughing abruptly at the look on her face.


“What?” she asked worriedly.


“We have to talk,” Roxy said.


“Are you breaking up with me?” Lily asked half-smiling.


Roxy grinned, but then pushed it away.


“Stop! I’m serious!”


“Ok ok, I’m paying attention.”


“I was talking to Sirius today,” she began.


Lily groaned inwardly. She could tell already that some form of a lecture was coming on. Something concerning last night no doubt. Something she did not want to talk about.


“He said you blanked James this morning. I thought you got past all that last night Lils?”


Lily shrugged, “What makes you think that?”


“You cried and he comforted you! That’s generally a situation where people connect Lily! And I’m pretty sure that’s what James thought too. He hasn’t left his room since this morning you know.”


“What has that got to do with me? I didn’t give him any reason to think that,” she said.


At least not on purpose, she finished in her head.


Roxy stared at her blankly.


“Look it was just an embarrassing moment of weakness that I’d rather forget ok? I didn’t mean anything by it,” she said.


But you did mean something by it, she said to herself, you meant everything by it.


Lily pushed that voice away. No, she thought, no I didn’t, it meant nothing.




Roxy shook her head. “You know what I was thinking while you were joking away to me there? I was thinking that maybe you were right about Sirius. That he was a self-centred ass because of some of the things he said about you. But I was wrong. It was him that was right about you,” she said, beginning to sound upset.


Lily felt anger beginning to grow inside her. They had been talking about her behind her back? She bet Roxy hadn’t even stood up for her to her precious Sirius Black.


“Been bitching about me behind my back have you?” she said viciously.


“No that’s not what I s-”


“What did he say about me?” Lily said, raising her voice a bit higher than necessary.


“That’s not the po-.”


“It’s very MUCH the point ACTUALLY!”


“Fine!” Roxy said standing up,” He said you were a selfish bitch. The truth in other words!”


She turned around and stormed out of the portrait hole, leaving Lily gaping after her.

Part 7.

Sirius exited the kitchen a half an hour later, with his arms laddened with food from the house elves for James. He munched on a cupcake himself on the way. It was true what they say, house elves really do make the best food. Even better than Mrs. Potter’s, which he had always told her was like heaven compared to the crap he was usually forced to eat at home.


As he approached the common room door, he heard yelling. He frowned curiously and was then nearly knocked over by someone rushing through the portrait hole.


“Ah!” he yelled, grabbing the wall from support while trying to ensure no food escaped from his clutches.


He looked up to see Roxy look at him apologetically.


“I’m sorry!” she said, flustered. Sirius was startled to see tears running down her face.


“Roxy! What‘s wrong!” he said, alarmed.


“Nothing!” she said blushing and wiping away the tears from her eyes and bending down to pick up a fallen cupcake


Sirius shifted the food onto his left arm and bent down,cupping Roxy’s face with his right hand.


“What’s wrong?” he repeated as more tears ran down her face.


She shook her head and looked down.


“What’s with all the food?” she asked, standing up again.


“It’s for James, I figured he’d be hungry.”


His heart ached at the look in her eyes. It was a look of pure pain.


“You know that place where we sat months ago? The balcony? Do you remember where that is?” he asked her.


She nodded and sniffled.


“I’ll meet you there in ten minutes, ok? I’m gonna bring this up to James and then ill come straight over ok? And we can talk.”


Roxy nodded. “Ok.”


Sirius clambered into the portrait hole.


“Ten minutes!” he called out to her before the portrait shut, blocking her from view.


Part 8.

James jumped as a loud bang followed by something heavy falling on him woke him out of his daze. His eyes swam back to focus to see Sirius standing over him and a bunch of food now strewn over his bed.


“How are you feeling?” Sirius asked hurriedly.


“Ok,” James said grabbing a chicken leg, “I love you by the way.”


He bit into it and savoured the taste of food.


“Still pissed about Lily?” he asked glancing sketchily at the door.


James shook his head. “No.”


Sirius looked at him funnily, “Then why still up here?”


“I dunno,” James said, “But something’s not right. I dunno what yet, but I can feel it. I’ve tried to figure it out, but I can’t. Something just feels wrong.”


“I’m sure it’s just your imagination,” Sirius said walking to the door, “Maybe you should go tell Dumbledore why you weren’t in class, it’ll lesson your punishment.”


This was something the two marauders had found out in fourth year.


James nodded.


“Gotta go!” Sirius said running out the door.


“Hey, wait!” James called after him.


He heard hurried footsteps and Sirius’ head poked back into the door.


“Whaaat?” Sirius said impatiently.


“Where you going?” James asked. It was unlike Sirius to give up the chance to eat free food. James’ mother often said how she was sure there was a porthole in Sirius stomach that transported his food elsewhere so he was always hungry. It was a rare condition among wizards called ‘Portabelly’, but it did exist in some parts of the world.


Sirius said one simple word before disappearing.



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