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The Madness That is My Life by frini19
Chapter 27 : The Madness of Wednesdays
 
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Wednesdays were supposed to be great days for me.


I only had two classes, Potions and Charms, Potions before lunch and Charms after. My two favorite classes on a day where I got to sleep in, go to class, eat lunch, go to class and then head back to the Common Room and relax or do homework.


Wednesdays were always my favorite day of the week.


However, this Wednesday was different.


It was different because it was February 24th.


Also known as Albus Severus Potter's 17th birthday.


And I was still debating whether or not to get him a present.


"So you decided not to get him a present?" Rose asked at breakfast. The Great Hall was pretty deserted, since most classes had started and not everyone were cool sixth years like me and Rose, who got free periods.


"No," I said. "I still haven't decided."


Rose frowned. "So, you haven't decided whether or not to get him a birthday present, despite the fact that it is his birthday and you don't have a present?"


"Exactly," I said, popping a grape in my mouth.


"But by default you didn't get him a present."


"There's still time to get him a present."


"You think you're going to buy a present in the next 15 hours?"


"It's possible."


Rose sighed. "If you were going to get him a present, why haven't you gotten one yet?"


She was giving me one of her Rose looks. Not her annoyed one because I didn't do my homework or the one where she thinks I'm being ridiculous. The one where she knew there was more to the story than I was telling her.


"Because I didn't know if I was supposed to," I said quietly. "We don't exactly have the most functioning relationship and I didn't know if being friends with him meant I could get him a present."


"You're friends," Rose said. "That's what friends do-"


"That's the thing though," I said. "I can't- I don't know how to be just friends with him. I can't be just friends with him. Okay? It is impossible for me to be friends with him when he's moving on and I'm-when I feel like I love- when I feel this way about him." I looked down at my food. "I'm sure his new girlfriend is getting him something great."


"They aren't dating," Rose said, comfortingly. "You know that, don't you?"


"They may as well be," I said. "It's clear he doesn't have feelings for me anymore."


Rose chewed her bottom lip. "Addie, I probably shouldn't tell you this and I know he's going to be pissed at me but Al still-"


"Oi! Ads!" I turned my attention to the front of the hall, where Fred was walking in, waving what looked like a piece of parchment. "This letter came for you this morning, but since you weren't down at breakfast yet, I figured I'd save it and give it to you."


"Thanks Freddy," I said, smiling as he sat down next to me. I turned back to Rose. "You were saying?"


"Nothing," Rose said, waving it off. "It wasn't important."


"Rosie, everything that comes our of your mouth is important," Freddy said, before cringing. "In fact, I once heard Scorpius say that he really loved your mouth because you were an awesome kisser."


"Oh Merlin," Rose said. "I told him that he shouldn't talk about our personal life in front of my family."


"Yeah," Freddy said. "It was disturbing."


"You can always just make him disturbed as well," I said, shrugging. "I mean, you've done basically the same thing as him. Only difference being that I'm more of his sister than his cousin."


It wasn't until Rose dropped her fork that I realized exactly what I said.


I was such a fucking idiot.


Rose looked between me and Freddy with wide eyes, putting all the pieces together. Freddy stiffened beside me, feeling very awkward that I had just revealed our (very enjoyable) snog that we were never supposed to speak of again.


"Well," Rose said, standing up. "I- ugh, I have to go. Study. Yeah. Study for that thing that I have a test in- in that class- MUGGLE STUDIES- yes for my test in Muggle studies that is happening. At some point. Anyway, ugh, I'm leaving. Don't- um, don't do anything." Her face turned red. "And if you do- uh- use protection. Since-um, we don't want awkwardness. Yeah. Uh, bye."


She nearly ran out of the Great Hall.


I dropped my head onto the table.


"I'm sorry," I said. I lifted my head up and hit it against the table. Repeatedly. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm a complete idiot and I'm sorry."


"Okay, first stop hitting your head against the table before you get brain damage," Fred said. When I didn't stop, he grabbed my face and made me look at him, his hands on either side of my cheeks. "Second, don't worry about it. It was a dumb mistake. We just need to hope that she doesn't do tell anyone about it. It's not like it's going to happen again."


Something about that statement made my heart hurt.


I didn't fancy Fred. I 150% did not fancy him. However, with him holding my face like that and us being in such close proximity, not to mention the fact that I was a slight emotional wreck because of Al and I really wanted to just forget about Al and lose myself in something else, I realized that right then, in that moment, I really wanted it to happen again. My eyes left his and wandered down to his lips, wanting to feel them on mine again before looking back up to his eyes, only to see that they too were on my lips.


When Fred looked back at my eyes, I saw that the lust that must be in mine were mirrored in his. "It's not like it's going to happen again...is it?"


I took initiative. I stood up, grabbed his hand and pulled him behind me as I attempted to walk calmly to the spare Potions room that hadn't been used in decades.


I opened the door and quickly shut it, before pushing Fred against the wall and attaching my lips to his. He responded just as I expected him too- just as I need him too- enthusiastically. We snogged like that for a while, but eventually my feet started hurting from standing on my toes in order to reach his mouth. So I detached from him. He thought I was done and looked like he expected me to break down into tears like the last time, but I surprised him when instead of running out of the classroom sobbing, I sat down on one of the desks, my feet on the chair, making my skirt expose more of my leg. The hunger that was in Fred's eyes in the Great Hall returned, greater this time, as he walked toward me and fiercely attached his lips to mine.


I smiled against his lips and once again, lost myself in the kiss, forgetting everything.


Well, nearly everything.


A stupid bloke by the name of Albus Potter was very stubborn in never leaving my mind.


We snogged for a long time. Like honestly, a really long time. We heard the bell but decided to ignore it, deciding that our time was much better spent snogging than in class. We probably would have kept snogging if we hadn't been interrupted.


"I'm sorry I'm late!" A female voice with an Irish accent rang out.


I detached my lips from Fred's and looked at the girl standing before us. She had strawberry blond hair that was thrown up in a very messy bun, her uniform was thrown on and she was wearing no make up. It was clear that she had just gotten out of bed.


But more than that, I knew exactly who she was.


"Oh," she said when she noticed that this wasn't the 6th years potions class. "I'm sorry. I didn't- sorry, I'll just be going to class now. Wrong door."


She looked at me, one more time, before leaving, shutting the door behind her.


And that's when I lost any need to snog. I pulled my arms out of Freddy's hair and pushed him away from me slightly, looking down at my hands.


"Hey," he said, noticing my change in mood. "Hey, come on. What's up?"


"That girl," I said, nodding toward the door. "That's Al's new girlfriend."


Freddy frowned. "Al doesn't have a girlfriend. Especially not a fit Ravenclaw."


"Well I don't know if they're actually boyfriend and girlfriend, but they may as well be," I said, shrugging. "Her name is Lana. She's a sixth year Ravenclaw and is basically perfect." I sighed. "It's just not fair. He's able to move on but the only time that I begin to forget about him is when I'm snogging you. And then I feel guilty because I'm using you and you deserve more than that."


"Addie. You aren't using me. Trust me, I am a completely willing participant in these," Freddy said. "And I would be lying if I said I wasn't using you either. I need a snog that won't mean anything but that won't be with a random bird. You came knocking so I figured I'd take advantage of that. Besides, you're an awesome kisser." I smiled at that. "And Albus isn't moving on. I would probably be hit by lightening before that boy moves on from you. He tried for six years to move on from you, he hooked up with a lot of girls and even dated the she devil in the form of Erica Ericson. If there is one guy in this entire bloody castle who can't seem to move on, it's that one."


I smiled up at him. "Man all those years of making James and Dom get along really made you the best at seeing the good in a situation didn't it?"


Freddy shrugged. "Yeah, I guess. Now that they each are in a relationship and snog all day, I haven't had as much time to make them realize that they do in fact love each other."


I put my hand on his shoulder. "You're a wonderful guy, Fred Weasley. Some girl is going to be so incredibly lucky to have you."


Freddy smiled at me. "Back at ya, Malfoy."


"So, did you have a reason for finding me?" I asked. "Not that I didn't enjoy this snog, but I would like to think that you don't just use me for my stellar snogging skills."


"No, I really only use you for your stellar snogging skills," Freddy said, smirking at me. I hit him on the shoulder. "Alright, I'm kidding. I have a letter for you, remember?"


"How could I forget?" I said, smiling. Fred took the letter out of his back pocket and handed it to me. "Who is it from?"


Freddy shrugged. "According to the return address, it's from some bloke named Cormac Mcclaggen."


"Oh," I said looking down at the return address. It said that he and his wife, Becca, lived in the village of Wimbourne.


"Who is he?"


I gulped and looked up at Fred. "My father."


"Shit," Freddy said. "You going to open it?"


"Yeah," I said. "But I...I think I should do it in private."


"You sure?" He asked. "I would be more than willing to continue skipping class for you."


"I think you've skipped enough class for now, Weasley," I said, smiling but he still looked unsure. "Honestly. I'll be fine. It's a letter, it can't hurt me."


Freddy looked like he was going to argue with me, so I pushed him away from me.


"Go," I said. "Now, before I have to hex you."


"Okay, okay, I'm going," Freddy said, leaning in to kiss me on the forehead. "But if the letter does upset you and you suddenly feel the insane need to be a rebel and snog a random bloke, come find me."


I laughed. "Okay, I'll keep that in mind."


And with one last wink in my direction, Freddy walked out the door, leaving me alone with the letter from my father.




 

It took me an hour before I could read the letter.


I walked back up to my dorm telling myself that once I had gotten there I would read it.


Of course, I didn't.


It took me another 56 minutes to read it.


Once I finally bucked up the courage, I sat on my bed, opened the letter, and started reading.


Addison,


Hello. How are you? I hope you are well.



I'm not entirely sure what to say here. I know that you probably didn't expect this from me, expect anything from me, but since I met you, I had come to a decision.



I would like to be in your life. You were right when you said that I could have made contact before, but you must realize that the thought didn't occur to me that you would actually be attending Hogwarts. I know Matilda, and I know all her dreams of travel, so I expected that once I left, she would have gone to the US, like she had wanted to and start a new life with you there. I thought you would be attending Salem's or somewhere other than Hogwarts. It never occurred to me that Matilda would leave you behind. It did not occur to me that that was why she never wrote me asking for child support or anything- I thought it was just out of pride that she did that. She's very proud your mother, which isn't a bad thing, since it makes her much more independent. But that is why I never sought you out. I thought you wouldn't be here.



Once I left our meeting, I went home and told Becca, my wife, about you. The reason that I kept you a secret was because I thought that she would look down on me for being the kind of man to abandon his child, right when both her and her mother needed her most.



And I was right. Becca wasn't upset, not about the fact that I had a child nor about the fact that I lied to her. More than anything she was disappointed, like you, that I never tried to find you once I left. That I was the kind of man her father was.



After telling Becca, we made a decision. She came up with the idea- she was a Ravenclaw when she went to Hogwarts- and I agreed that it was the best thing to do.



We told our children about you. One is only 7 and therefore too young to understand, but the other one attends school with you. She is a second year and in the Gryffindor house, so it is possible you've run into her on occasion without knowing it. Her name is Ellory, if you know her.



Anyway, on your next Hogsmeade visit, we would like it very much if you could meet us. All of us. I want you to meet my, er, your family. And I want you to become a part of this family, like you should have been from the very beginning.



I know that I have screwed up. I do not expect anything from you. But I would really like it if you were there, as would Becca. She knows what it is like to not have a father and I don't want the pain that she has lived her with entire life to be the pain that I put on you.



I hope to hear back from you.



Sincerely,



Cormac Mclaggen



PS if you want, you could call me dad. But I don't want to push it on you. Only if you want.


 




"Hey, you missed classes today," Scorpius said as he and Rose walked into the Common Room.


Before I read the letter, I had planned on going to Charms. I really did. However, after reading it, I realized that I couldn't. That I really didn't feel like going to class when I had not only just gotten a father, but a whole family attached to it.


And so, in true Addison Malfoy fashion, I ended up crying.


Now, I was no longer crying, but I was in my pj's with my hair up, no make up on, lying on the common room couch with probably an extremely sad look on my face.


Yaaaaaay.


Rose, having more observational skills than her boyfriend, noticed my appearance. "Addie? Are you okay?" She let go of Scorp's hand and sat down next to me, pushing a strand of hair that escaped from my ponytail behind my ear. "What happened?"


I looked up at Scorpius. "I got a letter from my dad today."


"From Dad?" Scorpius asked, frowning as he sat down in the chair next to the couch. "What did it say?"


"Not Draco," I said and I saw Scorp's frown deepen. Meanwhile Rose's eyes widened as she realized what I meant. "From my father. My biological one."


There was a moment of silence as Scorpius digested this.


"From...your dad?" Scorpius asked and I nodded. "You told him to fuck off right? I mean 17 years after leaving and he sends you a bloody letter thinking it'll be fine? Arse."


I bit my lip and looked at Rose. She had been the only person I had told about meeting Cormac. She was looking at Scorpius with a guilty expression because she knew the truth and he didn't, before turning away quickly when he met her eyes.


"What?" Scorpius asked. "What aren't you guys telling me?"


"You know, this is a family thing, I should go-" Rose said, grabbing her bag and standing up.


"No," Scorpius said, a puzzled look on his face. "You clearly know something. What could you know about Addie's father?" Then something clicked. "This wasn't his first time making contact was it?"


I shook my head.


Scorpius looked up at Rose. "You knew?"


She nodded. "Addie told me- I would have told you only she asked me not too. I had to respect her on that." She bit her lip. "Please don't be mad."


"I'm not mad," Scorpius said. He looked over at me. "Looks like you're getting that family you always wanted after all. First your mum, now your dad. Does he have more kids?"


"Yeah," I said. "2 of them. A boy and a girl."


"Wow," Scorpius said. "You are getting the family you always wanted. With a brother and sister and a mum and dad- it's everything you wanted. And now you have it."


I didn't know what to say, because I knew what Scorpius was thinking. I knew that he thought, now that I had my biological family back, now that I had a brother of my own, that I wouldn't need him to be my brother anymore.


"Rose could you give us a minute?" I asked her.


She nodded and walked over to kiss Scorpius quickly on the forehead. She pushed some hair out of his eyes and he looked up at her and smiled a small smile at her.


"I'll see you, later, okay?" she said.


"Sounds good."


"Hey," she said softly, so that no one but Scorpius could hear. "Everything is going to be okay. She's still you're family."


Scorpius then kissed her. "What would I do without you?"


"Lock Addie away in a tower where no boy could break her heart," Rose said with a smirk.


I had to agree with that one.


Rose walked away and Scorpius looked back at me. "So your dad? That's pretty big. Are you going to go live with him after you visit the States with your mum? Then you can be one big happy family and have a grand old time!" Scorpius scoffed. "What a prick. Making contact with you after 17 years. As if he actually has a right to do that after he left you and Matilda. What a fucking asshole."


"Scorpius-"


"Has he told you to call him dad yet?" Scorpius asked, hotly. "Has he told you that you can change your name and just be a part of his little family with him? That you fan forget about your actual family, the people who have been there for you for ages and who would never turn they're back on you or let you go without a fight. What a fucking asshole."


"Scorpius," I said, putting my hand on his arm to calm him down. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm not changing my name so that I can pretend to be a part of his family. Yes, he is my father and yes, I am going to get to know him, but I am not going anywhere." I stood up and squeezed in between him and the armrest of his chair. "I'm Addison Elizabeth Malfoy. Not Mclaggen or anything else. I will continue to be a Malfoy until one day, when I hopefully get married. I'm going to continue living in the Malfoy Manor until I get a place of my own after we graduate next year. I'm going to live with my brother and the two people who have actually been parents to me." I wrapped my arms around Scorpius, resting my head on his shoulder. "I'm not going anywhere. You will always be my brother just like you, Draco and Astoria will always be my family, regardless of who comes into the picture." I peeked up at him. "Malfoys until the end, remember?"


He smiled and wrapped his arms around me. "Yeah. Malfoys until the end."


I took my arms back and got up, only to have him pull me back down. "What?"


"I thought you said you weren't going anywhere?"


"I'm going over to the couch, idiot."


"Oh. Right," Scorpius said and let me go. "Sorry. I just had a panic attack from worrying I was going to lose my sister. That happened once and I don't want it to ever happen again."


"The feeling is mutual, Scorp," I said, smiling.


"Well if it isn't my two favorite cousin siblings," Louis said, crashing down on the couch.


"Hey Lou," I said and Scorpius nodded at him.


"I'm going to go find Rose," he said. "Louis, you're not going to have Paige in the room again are you?"


"Nah," Louis said. "She said she needed to study and that studying with me was distracting."


"Thank Merlin," Scorpius said. "Maybe I can finally get some alone time with Rose."


"Hey! That's my cousin! Don't do anything up there I wouldn't do," Louis said. Scorpius gave him a pointed look, which caused Louis to go red in the face. "I mean...ugh...never mind, just keep my cousin pure."


Scorpius waved and walked out of the common room, since he knew that there was no way to keep Rose pure, since she hasn't been pure for a few months now.


"Oh Addison," Louis said, putting an arm around me. "How have you been? I feel like I haven't seen you in forever."


"Yeah well, you haven't been around much since Valentine's Day," I said. "You know, last time I saw you were snogging Paige while sitting next to me."


"Oh yeah. Not really sure what I've been doing since then."


"I believe she is blonde and the newest Chaser for the Gryffindor Quidditch team."


Louis stuck his tongue out at me. "It's not like I've missed that much."


"Um, excuse me?"


We both looked to our left, where a girl who was about 12 was standing there, looking at me with wide blue eyes.


"Yeah, sweetie?" I said, shrugging Louis's arm off me.


"Um, you're Addie Malfoy, right?" she asked, tucking a piece of dark hair behind her ear.


"Yeah," I said. "Why?"


"I'm Ellory," she said, sticking a hand out for me to shake. "Ellory Mclaggen. Your little sister."


"What?!" Louis said from behind me.


"Dad said that he told you about me and that it would be okay for me to introduce myself if I wanted. And that maybe, if it was alright with you, we could get to know each other a little more?" Ellory asked and I could tell she was excited. "I've always wanted a big sister."


"Holy shit," Louis mumbled from behind me. "I missed a hell of a lot more than I thought."

 




I walked down the Quidditch Pitch, deciding that after the hectic day that I had, I would take a ride on my broom to clear my head. I hadn't touched my broom since I quit, so it was still in my locker.


I got to the locker rooms and went over to mine, putting in the combination that I had had since second year. I had assumed that Paige would be using this locker now, since it was rightfully hers, but she didn't, choosing instead to share with Louis. I opened the locker and saw that everything was exactly how I left it.


I quickly grabbed my broom and shut my locker before I could get all nostalgic and probably end up in tears.


I walked out onto the pitch, broom in hand and smiled as I felt the familiar feeling of the grass beneath my feet. I took off my heavy jacket, letting the cold hit me and took a deep breath, taking it all in. Letting myself get in the calm state of mind where I was all alone and could breath and not worry about hearing anyone else.


"Oi! No fair, Potter!"


My eyes instantly opened and I turned my head toward the voice, hoping that James was playing with some Irish girl and that it wasn't the two people I didn't want to see.


Of course, because this is my life, it was the two people I didn't want to see.


"That's completely fair Lana!" Al said, his voice filled with a joy that I hadn't heard in a long time. "You would know that if you actually played!"


"I play at home with me dad! That's enough!" Lana shook her head and laughed. "I'm letting you get away with this but only because it's your birthday!"


"Well, thanks for the present!"


I quickly turned and ran back to the locker room, dropping my broom in front of my locker before sprinting back to the castle, headed straight to my room. When I got there, I shut the door quickly, before leaning back and taking a deep breath.


Tonight was the first night in 2 months that I had heard Al laugh like that. Yes, I am sure that he had laughed like that with other people, but I had never heard it. And I especially never heard it from a girl.


I was hoping he was just as miserable without me as I was without him. But he wasn't. He had Lana and that made everything okay because he had moved on while I was still holding onto him and something that probably would never happen again.


I walked over to my bed, taking off my sweater as I went and felt the cold metal of my necklace against my skin.


And that was when I decided what to give Al for his birthday.


I took off the necklace. After months of wearing it and refusing to take it off, refusing to admit that Al and I were over, I took it off. I was giving Al what he wanted. he had closed the chapter about us and was now writing a new part of his story with someone else.


and even though it broke my heart, I had to stop writing the story of Al and me and move on.


They say that if you love someone, you should set them free.


So that's what I finally did.

 




A/N: YAY NEW CHAPTER!


Sorry it took so long to get out. I was extremely busy with cheer, school and dealing with some stupid drama from the boy mentioned in the previous author's note. Let's just say that he will no longer be a distraction.


So what did you guys think? Personally I'm not a huge fan of this chapter. But hey, you got another Fraddie hook up! I'm still amazed by the amount of people who wanted that too happen. And Louis finally came back! Yay! And Addie let Al go :(


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Lots of love! Hopefully the next chapter will be up soon! Only 2 more plus an epilogue!
 


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