I like dating Blaise. I like it a lot. He's a really good boyfriend. Before he kisses me he makes sure I'm feeling okay. He always makes me feel better. We have a good relationship. Only problem is it's a secret.
Just when I thought I had enough secret relationships to last a lifetime, Blaise very sweetly asks if we can keep us dating quiet until he was ready for Draco to know. Blaise has done so much for me, I couldn't say no.
But I don't get why Blaise is so worried about Draco's feelings. I mean he clearly doesn't love me anymore and he loves Tara. I'm not with him anymore so I should be able to choose who I want to be with, even if it is his best mate.
But for Blaise, I'm willing to keep it quiet. It's been a month now. A month of sneaking around and pretending we're just friends. The situation is all too familiar. Reminds me way too much of fifth year. What is it with me and secret relationships anyways?
So I've already mentioned the good things about Blaise. Well there's bad ones too. I feel like he doesn't want to touch me in a sexual way at all. Like when we snog, he keeps his hands in one place, which is something I'm not at all used to. But he's started warming up to the touching lately. He just needs a little push is all.
"Blaise, it's okay to touch me, you know." I said.
"Yeah, I know, it's just...nevermind"
"No what is it Blaise?" I asked.
"It's just that...I don't think I can do it as good as he did." There's no need to ask who 'he' is in this situation. It's obviously Draco.
"What makes you think that?" I asked.
"He was always saying that you said he was the best you ever had and that no one else made you feel the way he did. That's kinda hard to live up to." Blaise rambled on, not looking me in the eye.
"You don't have to live up to that Blaise." I assured him.
"But I want to." He said. "I just don't think I can compete with him."
"How will you know if you've never tried?" I asked leaning in to kiss him. "You should at least try to convince me, don't you think?" I winked at him.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
I laughed. "Yes. I'm not exactly new to this. You know that."
Blaise laughed too before kissing me again. More passionately than he ever had before. Now this is what I wanted. He slowly laid me down on his bed.
"Is this okay?" He asked. I nodded and kissed him again. We continued kissing just like that for a few moments before Blaise's hands started to move. They slowly crept up my shirt.
"Is this okay?" He asked again.
"Yeah." I whispered. He kissed my neck softly. It had always been my weak spot. Blaise soon found that out. I couldn't stop moaning. I started unbuttoning his shirt, half expecting him to pull away. But he didn't. I pulled it off him and just stared.
I had no idea what lied beneath Blaise's clothes. I had never eeven thought about it. But I sure was happy with what I found. He started unbuttoning my shirt also.
"Is this ok-"
"Stop asking if it's okay. It is. I will tell you when I want to stop okay?" I laughed slightly.
"Sorry." He said sheepishly. We started kissing again. I got so caught up in the moment. The kissing, the touching, the moaning. I guess we both did, cause we didn't hear the footsteps.
"Blaise is that you in here making all that noise?" Draco's all too familiar voice asked. Blaise and I froze. There was nothing we could do, nowhere to go.
"Who are you with?" Draco asked a smirk playing on his face as he entered the room. His face dropped and anger flashed immediately in his eyes on what he just walked in on.
Me and Blaise together, half naked about to have sex. Probably not what he wanted to see.
"What the hell is going on?!" He nearly screamed.
I just stayed in my position, not sure what to do. Blaise climbed off of me. "Draco, um let me explain." He stammered.
"Please do. Please explain why I've just found my girlfriend and my best friend about to fuck eachother." Draco said through gritted teeth.
Before I can correct Draco, Blaise speaks. "She's not your girlfriend. She's mine." He said quite firmly. I smiled slightly.
"What?!" Draco yelled looking between us. "No! Jo is mine!"
"She is not yours, you don't own her!" Blaise said fiercely. "She doesn't want you anymore, she wants me."
Draco shook his head. "How could you do this to me?!" He asked. "You're my best friend! How could you?"
"Draco, I'm sorry, I really am, but it just happened...."
"This doesn't just happened. You went after her! I knew it too! When you went to Hogsmeade together, I knew something was going on. But I trusted you and you betrayed me!"
"It wasn't like that Draco!" Blaise insisted.
"You're just want to get her into bed don't you?! That's what I was interrupting." Draco spat.
Something in Blaise's eyes changed in that instant. "How dare you?!" He screamed. "You know how I feel about her! How I've always felt about her! I would never do that! I would never hurt her like you!"
Draco shoved Blaise, and Blaise quickly retaliated with a shove. I got up quickly and stood between them.
"Stop!" I said. They were still trying to fight. I turned to face Blaise and put my hands on his face.
"Look at me." I said softly. He eyes immediately flicked to mine. "Stop." I said again. He nodded and I gave him a quick peck on the lips. Then Draco grabbed my arms and spun me around.
"Why Jo?" He asked. "Why would you do this to me? My best friend?" He looked hurt. And for a moment I actually felt bad until I remember he was the one who cheated on me.
"Why did you sleep with Tara, Draco? Why would you do that to me?"
"I never meant to hurt you, I swear." Draco insisted.
"But you still did and you cant take that back." I said quietly.
"But you're hurting me on purpose. You're with Blaise because you're trying to get back at me." He said.
I shook my head in disbelief. "You think rather highly of yourself, don't you?" I asked. "I'm with Blaise because I want to be. Because he treats me right. Because he would never hurt or betray me the way you did."
"But he will also never love you the way I can." Draco said. "No one can."
"And no one can hurt me more than you have." I countered.
"Just fucking forgive me!" He yelled in frustration.
"Don't talk to her like that!" Blaise said coming up behind me protectively.
"Does he speak for you now too?" Draco asked bitterly.
"I don't think that's any of your business." I said coldly.
"Eveything to do with you is my business." Draco said through gritted teeth. "Because you're my everything and I love you!"
"Then why didn't you love me enough to stay away from her?!" I screamed. "Why wasn't I enough to keep you satisfied?!"
"I don't know!" He yelled.
I just looked at him. "Well I don't know either." I said. "But what I do know is that since you don't love me enough I'm not wasting my time on you. I'm dating Blaise and there's nothing you can do about that. You'd better get used to it."
Draco shook his head. "No. No. You belong to me. You always will. No matter who you're with, you're always mine."
"Draco, you're only hurting both of us more if you don't accept the fact that we're over." I said quietly.
"Well that's just something I can't accept Jo. And I never will." He said. His eyes turned to Blaise. "In case you didn't realize we are no longer friends. I cant have a friend who betrays me."
"Draco, I didn't mean to betray you. I'm sorry, but I love her." Blaise responded.
"You'll never love her as much as I do. Never." He turned and walked away. Leaving me and Blaise just standing there.
I can't believe what just happened. This can't be real. I must be having some nightmare. Jo and Blaise. It makes me sick just thinking about it.
I think back on our conversation. How Jo made Blaise out to be her savior or something. The way Blaise looked at me, as thought he was actually sorry. But I knew he wasn't. He had planned this from the moment Jo and I broke up. He had always wanted her and now he went behind my back to get her.
The fact that Jo is falling for his little act is sickening. But what's worse is that I know she's doing this to get back at me. What better revenge is there than sleeping with my best mate. But Jo insisted that's no what it was.
It pains me to think that she really does want Blaise over me. I was supposed to be the one she always loved. But now she was off with my best friend.
Every time I close my eyes I see how I walked in on them in their moment of passion. It makes my stomache hurt thinking of Jo doing the things we did with someone else. And the way she she kissed him after she broke up our fight. The way she touched his face so softly and talked quietly. She didn't seem to care about me at all.
All of this shouldn't bother me. I'm with Tara now. But it does. It bothers me so damn much.
"Hi babe." Tara said sitting next to me and wrapping her arms around me. I shrug her off.
"What's wrong baby?" She asks. She was what was wrong. She destroyed my life. Made me lose the one girl I loved all over again. Why was I even with Tara? Why had I lied and told her I loved her when I didn't? I had only said that to make Jo jealous. It was such a mistake though.
"I don't want to be with you anymore." I said blankly with no emotion whatsoever.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"Exactly what I said." I replied, not even bothering to look at her.
Tears started forming in her eyes. I could honestly not care less. "B-but why?" She asked. It reminded me of fifth year when I was forced to break up with Jo. Except this time it wasn't killing me that I was doing this.
"Because I don't love you. You ruined my life. I love Jo and now she doesn't want me in her life at all. It's all your fault."
"But Draco, I thought you wanted me. I thought-"
"You thought wrong." I interrupted her. "I don't want you and I don't love you, so leave me alone."
She looked at me stunned before walking away, crying. I couldn't bring myself to feel bad at all. I only thought about Jo and how I planned to get her back no matter what I had to do.
A/N: Sorry this took so long. But what did you think? Did you think Draco had a right to be mad at Blaise. And what about him breaking up with Tara? What will Draco do to win Jo back? You'll find out soon. Thanks for reading. :)
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