Chapter 9 : Rebound
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He's also Draco's best mate. Not that I care about Draco's feelings or anything, but that's still not right. So why did I feel like I liked him?
He made me smile and blush sometimes and I still wasn't over that kiss. I kinda wanted to kiss him again too. But something kept telling me that it was wrong to feel like that.
Then one day it hit me after Blaise and I had hugged. I was making him my rebound. I was trying to use him to get over my feeling for Draco, which means I didn't really like him at all. Learning that was a half a relief and half of me doubting. I wouldn't do that to Blaise. So there would be no acting on my fake feelings. Blaise would not be my rebound.
"Hey Jolina." Blaise said sitting on the couch next to me. He was so close, I could smell him. He smelled like cinnamon.
"Hi Blaise." I said barely looking up from my book. I really had to finish this or McGonagall would kill me.
"What are you doing Saturday?" He asked turning towards me.
I shrugged. "Probably staying in. It's no fun going to Hogsmeade when you're going alone."
Blaise looked confused. "Why would you be going alone?"
"Because, even though they don't want to admit it, Pansy and Ron really want some alone time. And I don't have...you know. So, I would be stuck alone and that's no fun. I'd rather just stay in."
"You could go with me." He suggested.
"Aren't you going with Draco?" I asked.
He shook his head. "Nah. He's bringing Tara along and I don't want to be around that whore."
"Oh. Well, then, yeah, I'll go with you." I smiled before looking down at my book.
"Great." Blaise said also smiling. "Just great..."
On Saturday, I woke up feeling very rested. The best sleep I had gotten in awhile. I had finally gotten used to the empty space next to me and the lack of sex. But I was getting kind of itchy.
Draco was having sex with someone else, so why couldn't I? Maybe because I actually loved him and he only loved me temporarily. I sighed as I started getting ready.
I met Blaise down in the common room and we walked to breakfast together. The whole matter was very casual and made me feel ten times better, honestly.
After breakfast, Blaise realized that he had left his wallet in his room. So we went up to the boy's dormitory to get it. I waited patiently on his bed as he looked for it.
A few moment later, I heard voices. "Just wait on my bed, okay babe?" Draco's familiar voice said, no doubt to Tara. It hurt that he called her what he used to call me. Babe.
Tara walked in the room, smiling to herself until she saw me and smirked. "Well, hello Jolina." She said.
I ignored her. I felt like if I acknowledged her presense I would hit her.
"Not very nice today, are we?" She asked, sitting down on Draco's bed. Still, I ignored her. Then I heard Draco and Blaise talking.
"You coming with me and Tara?" Draco asked.
"No, I'm going with someone else. Even if I didn't have anyone to go with, I still wouldn't go with you guys. I don't like Tara, she's a slut." Blaise said rather loudly. I think he knew both me and Tara were listening. Tara's face turned red at his words.
"Blaise, don't say that about her." Draco said half heartedly as though he didn't care all that much.
"Why?" Blaise asked. "It's true."
Draco sighed. "Who are you going to Hogsmeade with? A girl?" I could practically see Draco smirking.
"Yep." Blaise answered. I could tell he was smiling.
"Who?" Draco asked.
"The most beautiful girl in the school. She's sitting on my bed right now." Blaise said.
Draco walked into the room, smiling. His face fell when he saw me. "Jo?" He said.
"Yes?" I said rather crossly.
"You and Blaise are going to Hogsmeade together...alone?" He asked me.
"Yep." I said. "Blaise are you ready?" I called.
"Yes, love." He said walking into the room also. I got up and clutched his arm.
"Later Draco." Blaise said before we quickly exited the room.
"Well that was a bit awkward." I laughed.
I had a lot of fun with Blaise. He took me anywhere I wanted to go and wouldn't let me pay for a single thing. Everything was wonderful until we passed by Draco and Tara. Draco's eyes flashed angrily when he saw us.
As we passed by them, Draco wrapped his arm tightly around Tara's waist, leaned and whispered loud enough for us to hear. "Tara, babe, I love you."
I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard that. Draco and Tara kept walking and I just stood there looking after them. He loved her. Nothing had ever hurt me more. This was a hundred times worse than Draco cheating. He now loved someone else. After he said he would always only love me.
"Jolina..." Blaise started, but I ran. All the way out of Hogsmeade. All the way back to the castle. I stopped in hall and sobbed on a bench. I don't know why I was upset. I know Draco said that to deliberately hurt me, but it nearly killed me.
I heard footsteps and someone sat down next to me. They rubbed my back soothingly. Just from the touch, I knew it was Blaise. I didn't look up, I just kept crying. We didn't say anything for awhile until I stopped crying.
"Why do you even care about him?" He asked.
"Who?" I asked, already knowing.
"Draco! He's messing with your heart and you're letting him!" He exclaimed.
"I'm not letting him! I can't help that I still love him." I waif.
"Are you even trying to get over him at all? Cause it doesn't seem like it."
"Of course I am! Do you think I like feeling like this? I don't!" I yelled.
"Then why do you still feel like that then?!" He asked.
"I already told you! I can't help that I still love him!" I groaned. "You don't understand." I said.
"What don't I understand?" He asked.
"Why I can't get over him."
"Then help me to. Why can't you?!" He nearly screamed.
"Because he's the only person that's ever loved me and treated me right! He's the only person that I love! No one has ever loved or me the way that he has and no one probably ever will!" I explained.
"I already DO!!'" Blaise screamed. "God, Jolina, why can't you see that?! You're so wrapped up in Draco you can't see that I love you! And I care about you and I can treat you ten times better than Draco does! I want to be with you, Jolina! What do I have to do to get you to realize that?! Just tell me and I'll do it!" He said somewhat desperately.
"I don't know!" I said truthfully.
Then Blaise wrapped his arms around me and kissed me passionately. I didn't fight him, I just kissed back. I had to know if my feelings for him were real. There was a slight feeling of dread when I realized I did feel something. I did have feelings for Blaise.
This kiss was much better than the little peck we had before. I put one of my hands on the back of his head and the other hand around his neck. He slipped his tongue in my mouth and moaned as I deepened the kiss, pushing his head his head.
Blaise was a really good kisser. He pulled away, smirking slightly. "Did that make you realize?" He asked.
"A little bit." I answered.
"Well then I'll do it again so it's more clear."
Again I was caught in a passionate kiss with Blaise. After about a minute or so, he pushed me away. It wasn't hard, but I was confused. He stood up and turned away, muttering to himself.
"What are you doing Blaise?! You can't!" He murmured.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"I shouldn't have done that. Kissing you, it was mistake." He said quietly.
"Why?" I asked. "You just told me you loved me."
"I know. But I can't do this to Draco. You're his..."
"Not anymore, Blaise." I said standing up. "I don't belong to him anymore. I can be with whoever I want to be with."
"But that person isn't me. I know you don't have real feelings for me. I'm just a rebound. You would never want to be with me." Blaise said sadly.
I turned him around to face me. "You're not my rebound. I thought you were for awhile too, but you're not."
He looked at me for a moment. Then he kissed me again. I kissed back until again he pushed me away.
"What the hell am I doing?!" He asked aloud.
"You're kissing me." I said.
"No, I'm fooling myself into thinking you will ever have feelings for me."
"But I do have feelings for you." I said. "I like you, okay?"
"But you'll never love me the way you love Draco." He said.
I paused for a moment. "That may be true, but that doesn't mean I'll never love you, Blaise."
"You're in love with him, Jolina." Blaise whispered.
"I know. But it clearly isn't meant to be. I need to move on..."
"But do you want to move on with me?" He asked.
I nodded. "I think so...if you let me."
He moved closer to me, but stopped himself from kissing me. "I can't. He's my best mate. And you're my best friend. I just...I can't." He turned away from me and walked away.
I didn't get it. I thought Blaise wanted to be with me. Why does he care about Draco's feelings anyways? Draco loves Tara now, not me. I'm free to be with whoever I want. And what I wanted was Blaise. I wasn't sure why, but I did.
But I had to convince Blaise that this was what I really wanted. It took me forever to find him, sitting alone in the common room.
I walked up to him. "We need to talk." I said.
"About what?" He asked avoiding eye contact.
"You know what about." I said sitting down next to him.
He sighed. "Okay, talk."
"Look, Blaise I know you're trying to be a good friend and all, but I like you...a lot. And I don't know if this going to work out between us, but I want to give it a try. If you don't, I get it and we'll go back to being strictly friends. I don't want to lose you at all."
He just looked at me. "And you're sure I'm not your rebound?" He asked.
"I'm positive." I whispered.
He leaned over and kissed me. "Okay then. Will you be my girlfriend?"
I nodded, smiling. "Yes, Blaise, I will be your girlfriend."
"That's all I've ever wanted to hear you say." He smiled back.
He leaned into kiss me again...
A/N: Hi. Sorry this took so long. I've been short on time, but here it is. What did you think about Draco telling Tara her loved her right in front of Jo? How do you feel about Jo and Blaise? How is Draco going to react? You'll find out in the next chapter. Thanks for reading. :D
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