“And there’ll be days when your heart will break and you’ll swear that all your strength has gone. And then you’ll find a way to carry on” Crazy ride – Michelle Branch.
Ah, I have never appreciated the Hogwarts grounds beauty so much. After two more weeks of being cooped up in that bloody hospital wing anything remotely natural and not medicine smelling is fine with me. My physio therapist from St Mungo’s is possibly the most annoying person I have ever met, and this is from a person who spent two years being Jessica Renald’s partner in Herbology. This is the girl who constantly chews gum and prattles on about her parent’s costume shop which is opening up in diagon alley, (you should go there, they have a bloody flobberworm outfit if you ever need one).
Back to my therapist, he’s so enthusiastic all the time. I’m not joking, the first session we had I couldn’t stand up so he made me move my toes for like an hour, which I could do before he even got there, and I don’t lie my friends, he squealed every time I made them move. Finally to the 23rd session and we finally got to me walking from one end of the hospital wing to the other.
I haven’t even seen James, Peter or Sirius for the better part of two weeks since they got banned from the hospital wing. Peter collapsed on my leg (which made it worse) because James and Sirius fed him some drowsing draught. Unfortunately for them, Madame Pompfrey had been watching the whole thing.
Lily, Mimi and Lola had taken to visiting me every day before lessons and after dinner. Thank god, I would have gone crazy in here with the only person to talk to being Little Bertie in the bed next to me, breaking his leg for the 42nd time. He just never learns, there’s a trick step, bertie, watch out for it!
I was just walking over to the lake when I heard running foot steps behind me.
“Finally!” I recognised the voice immediately and I was engulfed in his arms.
“I missed you,” I said but my words were muffled. He chuckled, “I missed you too, I nearly killed Wormtail for getting us banned from seeing you.”
I pulled away and playfully hit him on the chest, “that was your fault for giving him drowsing draught!”
“I know but couldn’t he have just fallen on the floor?” he joked, pulling me in for another hug.
“What am I going to do with you?” I said quietly.
“What do you mean me
? What are we going to do with you
? Miss I got blasted into a wall and now need physio!”
I laughed and raised my eyebrows, “I don’t know what you’re talking about, and my legs are fine.”
“Yes.” I was not backing down.
“Run to the lake and back,” he said in his arrogant voice.
Well, I would do it. Merlin knows my legs need a bit of a stretch.
I began to run, ouch, wow I didn’t realise it would hurt this much. Before I knew it, Sirius had run up after me and picked me up honeymoon style, walked over to the lake and set me down. Then he sat down next to me.
“Jem,” he said scolding, “I was joking.”
“But you and your arrogant tone made me want to prove you wrong.” I pouted.
“You’re so silly,” he said, shaking his head before putting his arm around me.
As Sirius and I made our way to the Great Hall, I was so excited to have our usual meal time chats again after a month away from it. It’s times like these where you appreciate the small things in life, like sitting with your friends at dinner.
“Hello people,” I said as I climbed over the bench with some help from Sirius.
“Jem, so glad to have you back out here,” squealed Lily as she gave me a quick hug.
“Yes yes, it’s lovely to have Jem back,” said Sirius, smiling. “So, the marauders and I thought that it would be good to go up to the astronomy tower tonight for a bit of a welcome back.”
“Sounds good,” said Mimi.
“Anyway, tonight’s a good night to go because Professor Sinistra said that there’s supposed to be some shooting stars,” said Lola.
I smiled, “even better.”
“Don’t you think it would be better to get a good nights sleep and start on revision tomorrow?” asked Lily to all our gaping faces.
“Did you just sat that Lily?” asked Peter.
“Well, Exams are really on a few weeks away and we should be in full work mode, not dossing around!”
“Lily, it’s sixth year! It doesn’t count for anything.” Sirius explained.
“Well, it would certainly help to get good grades, you wouldnt have to work as hard next year,” she sniffed.
“C’mon Lils, I only just got out of the hospital wing! I deserve to have tonight,” I said.
She pouted, “Fine, but tomorrow-”
I cut her off, “yes, yes, revision.” Lily nodded.
I noticed that Remus had his arm around Mimi again, wasn’t it only this morning when Mimi was in the hospital wing with me rambling on and on about how Remus and her were still fighting and how she saw no end in sight. Guess the end creeps up on you, eh?
Lily seemed to catch on to what I was thinking and gave me a look saying “We’ll fill you in later.”
“Look who it is,” hissed a voice behind me.
Oh god, Bellatrix and her Slytherin death eater wannabe’s.
“How can I help, Bella?” I said sweetly, shortening her name because I knew it would annoy her. And as predicted, she scowled at the nickname.
“You think you’re so smart, you better hope I don’t put you back in that Hospital wing. Next time you might not come out,” she said with a sneer.
“Bellatrix, watch it,” said Sirius threateningly his hand in his wand pocket. I could see James, Remus and Peter doing the same.
“Hm, well we have better things to do than speak to filth like you, dear cousin.” And with that she waltzed away with her crew in tow.
I rolled my eyes, “bitch.” I muttered.
“Anyway,” said Lily, clearing her throat. “If you don’t mind, we girls have to go to our dorm. A bit of a welcome back if you like...”
She was interrupted by James cough the word “Gossiping.”
She ignored him, though and carried on. “We’ll meet you at the tower about 11?”
“See you then,” Sirius said to me as he helped me get up and over the bench.
As soon as I got to the dorm I lay down on my bed. Oh mother of Merlin, I have missed this dorm.
“Carter told me he loved me,” blurted out Lola.
I sat up quickly which sent a shooting pain down my leg.
“WHAT?” I screamed.
“Oh wow, don’t scream Jem!” said Mimi, covering her ears.
“I’m sorry, it’s just...wow, that’s big news!” I said, laughing. “I’m so happy for you Lols, did you say it back?”
She turned a bright shade of pink and nodded.
“Eeeeeeep,” let out Mimi, “I’m sorry but this is so great, I can’t help myself!”
“Then...” carried on Lola.
“Woah there’s more?” I asked, looking around at Lily and Mimi nodding.
“Well, um...i guess we kind of slepttogetherandhadsexbutidontknowanditsembarassing,” she said, quickly.
“Sorry, didn’t quite catch that last bit,” I said, smiling.
“We slept with each other,” she said after taking a deep breath.
“NO WAY!!” I exclaimed as Mimi and Lily began a happy dance in the middle of the dorm.
“Guys stop,” said a muffled voice and I looked around, Lola had her bright red face buried in her pillow.
I laughed, “Wow, Lola, I can’t believe this. I didn’t realise you two were so serious.”
“Well, it was sort of the whole I love you thing. It felt right.”
“Oo-er,” we all chanted.
“STOP," she shouted, blushing.
“And anyway Mimi. Don’t you want to tell us about Remus?” she added in Mimi’s direction.
“No!” yelled Mimi, it was her turn to bury her head in her pillow.
“What happened?” I asked.
“Well, we’ve been in a fight for like ages now,” said Mimi, looking at us.
“Oh gosh, really?” said Lily, sarcastically.
“We didn’t realise,” I said.
“Trust me, you didn’t make it obvious,” said Lola in an equally sarcastic voice.
“Alright alright, I get it. It was a drag having to hear about it but not know what it was about. But the reason I didn’t tell you was because it’s soooo embarrassing.”
“Mimi, I just told you all about my love life, now get up off that bed and spill!”said Lola in a stern voice.
“Well, I want to take Remus and I’s relationship to the next level but he doesn’t want to. Not because of the whole sleeping together thing but get this, because he’s a werewolf.”
“That shouldn’t make any difference!”
“I know!” said Mimi, throwing her hands into the air. “I tried to tell him, I’ve always told him. It makes no difference to me, I don’t care! But it means a lot to him, so I’m waiting but it’s so hard because ever since I mentioned it he’s been brooding around saying he’s not good enough for me.”
“Why’s that?” asked Lily.
“Isn’t it obvious, the whole werewolf thing. He doesn’t think he’s good enough for me because of that and I keep telling him everything I love about him and I wouldn’t change him for the world. But he’s being stubborn and we didn’t talk for ages then today during our double free we had a long talk about it.”
“And you’re ok?” I asked.
“Well, I think so. It seems fine now, we ironed out all the issues and stuff so hopefully everythings going to be ok.”
“It will,” said Lola.
Mimi smiled, “so what shall we do for the couple of hours before we go? Normal girl’s night in or special clothing hour?”
“CLOTHING HOUR!” I shouted.
What? I’ve been deprived for a month, sue me.
“It’s bloody freezing,” I hissed as we climbed the stone spiral staircase up to the tower.
“Whose idea was this?” asked Mimi who was trembling.
“Hold on girls,” said Remus just as we arrived at the top and the large balcony of the astronomy tower came into view.
“Wow,” I heard Lola breathe.
It was wonderful. They had blankets. Lots of blankets and pillows, it looks so comfortable but the best thing, is that they had cast a large bubble charm around the whole thing to keep it warm.
I stepped into the bubble feeling warmth immediately spread over me.
“Nice?” Sirius asked from behind me.
“Lovely,” I said, facing him.
“Come on then, or we’re going to miss the shooting stars,” he said, leading me to the corner of the bubble and lying down on his back.
I did the same.
“You can see the stars so perfectly,” said Lily in a breathy voice.
I looked up and sure enough there were millions and millions of stars dotted in the heavens above. Things like this make you feel so small and so powerful in so many ways. Those stars are suns and those suns have planets, it seems ridiculous but imagine how many other humans or other life forms could be on those planets.
Makes you wonder, when we’re worrying about the stupidest things. It seems like the world is ending for us, but for someone else orbiting another sun, on another planet, the world is just beginning. So surreal.
“What you thinking about?” whispered Sirius.
“Just about how things like this make you see how stupid the problems you think are so big, really are.”
“And what would that be?”
“I don’t know, getting blasted into a wall?”
“Don’t joke,” I could hear his voice tense.
“I’m sorry,” I said in a quiet voice.
“Everything. About Matheus and making it so hard for us-”
“Shhh,” he quietened me, putting his arm around me. “Don’t apologise, this is enough.”
He pulled me closer and that was all that mattered right now.