“Where are we, what the hell is going on? The dust has only just begun to fall...” Hide and seek – Imogen Heap.
I can hear them. I can make out every word they’re saying, like that radio but inside my head. I just can’t seem to open my eyes, or move my arms or legs. Why can’t I move? I feel trapped, like no one knows what’s going on, I can’t tell them what’s going on. What’s happened to me? I don’t even know myself. All I remember is Bellatrix, she shot a curse at me and I hurtled backwards into a wall. Did I hit my head? Am I going to die? What happened to James and Sirius, why can I only hear things now? Why not before?
“Madam Pompfrey, it’s been a week. Shouldn’t she be waking up? What’s happening?” I could recognise that hysterical voice anywhere. One Lily Evans was by my bed side, she was gripping my hand and I swear to Merlin she was cutting off circulation.
“Dear, her family are on their way; once they arrive I shall explain everything.” Since when did Madam Pompfrey get nice? I guess when your friend is knocked out she shows some sympathy. Who would have known that, that was all it took? A coma patient. Though, was I in a coma or something else? If I was in a coma wouldn’t they send me to St Mungo’s?
“Where’s my daughter?” My mother, making a dramatic entrance as usual, I could feel Lily letting go of my hand so that Mum could take her place. I could feel Mm stroking my hair, comfortingly like she used to when I was a child and I was hurt falling off my bike or because Jay set my hair on fire. But I wasn’t a kid anymore and I didn’t just fall off my bike.
“Jilly, she will be fine, she’s a Lander” I heard my dad comforting her.
“Is my sister going to ok?” said a shaky, quiet voice.
This can’t be! Jay? Shaky voice? What happened to the dickhead that I called my brother because I won’t believe that he’s actually worried about me. The boy that turned my scuba diving Barbie, that I had begged mum and dad to get me, to ash. The boy told me climb the tree in our back garden for a bet then told mum and dad so I got into trouble. This was the boy that cut the tyre rope swing while I was on it. This literally cannot be the boy I grew up with. That boy was evil yet the boy I was hearing, actually sounds like he...it can’t be...cares?
“Now if everyones here, then we’ll be able to explain what’s going to happen tonight,” started Madam Pompfrey until a bang indicated that more people had entered the hospital wing.
“I want answers, Madam Pompfrey, you said I’d get them today and I want them,” Sirius nearly yelled.
“Sirius Black!” said Pompfrey, outraged. “I will not be spoken to like that. Now, if you and your friends would take a seat I will indeed explain.”
I heard I shuffle of chairs and some sobs, probably from mum. It was silent for a few minutes before Madam Pompfrey began to explain my predicament.
“As you know, Jemini was hit by a dark curse which slipped her into a coma.” I heard Sirius growl. “Now, in most cases we would have been able to revive her maybe 24 to 48 hours after the curse was hit. However, this was a peculiar case that meant if we revived her, her organs would have relapsed and stopped working one by one from the shock. Dumbledore and I have thought a lot about this-”
“You’re going to revive her, aren’t you?” said James almost threateningly.
“Potter, sit back down,” she said, calmly then continued after a minute. “We of course are going to revive her. We had to wait the right amount of time so that the curse was not as prominent in her body so when we revived her it wouldn’t be a shock to the body.”
“So she’ll be fine once revived?” asked Dad.
“Yes, we should think so. Professor Dumbledore will revive her in a few hours, I will warn you she may not be the same in movement for at least 3 to 4 weeks. Professor Dumbledore has suggested a muggle method of helping her along called physio therapy” she sniffed as though she did not agree.
“She’s going to be ok,” whispered Lola.
“Now, Mr and Mrs Lander, Professor Dumbledore has requested you meet him in his office.” Said Madam Pompfrey before walking briskly over to her office.
“Right, how are you, girls?” said mum.
“Hello Mrs Lander, we’re fine, how are you?” said Lily politely.
“Yes, we’ll be fine. Just want Jem to be okay,” I heard Mum sob.
“Oh Jilly, you heard the doctor. She’ll be fine in a few hours, don’t cry love,” I heard Dad say.
Lily sidled up to my bed and said quietly so no one else could hear, “Wake up soon, Jem.”
“Dear, we should go. Don’t want to keep Professor Dumbledore waiting.” Said Dad.
“What about Jay?” asked Mum.
“We’ll take him back to the Gryffindor Common room for a while, won’t we guys?” said Mimi, who sounded a bit teary.
“Bye Mum, Dad. See you later,” said Jay in a small voice.
“Sirius you coming, mate?” I heard Remus ask.
“Nah, I’ll meet you guys later,” said Sirius.
I heard the door snap shut as everyone left.
“Hey Jem,” said Sirius, in a gentle voice. “How are you? So we haven’t been able to see you for ages. Madam Pompfrey thinks it could mess everything up if you had loads of people around you till today.”
I felt him sit down on the edge of the bed beside me and take my hand.
“Jem, I feel like I’ve been so dumb. I’ve been holding a grudge against you for doing homework with Matheus, what I didn’t realise is that life is so short and that you could be gone in a second. I never thought for a second that maybe you were telling me the truth and I believed the worst.” He stopped for a moment and sighed before continuing.
“I’m so so so sorry, Jem. I’m sorry I’ve waited this long to ask you out. I mean I haven’t asked you out still, maybe if you woke up I could, so just wake up for us.” He gave a strangled laugh “Without you nothings the same. We just need you back, to be functioning and speaking and just come back to us and start smiling and doing everything I love about you. I want to hear your laugh again and I want to hold you again, I just want you back, ok? Jem, I can’t believe the first time I’m saying this to you is when you can’t even hear me, but I love you. I really do. That’s why I need you to wake up, so I can tell you. So we can be together. So we can be everything we’ve waited so long to be.”
He sat there for a while, holding my limp hand. All I wanted to do was grip his hand back to show him I love him too, to show him that I need him to. That I want to hear his laugh again too. That I’ve been so dumb too and that I want to be with him. But my hand stayed limp however hard I tried to move it.
“Just wake up,” he whispered after a while, and slowly got up and walked out of the hospital wing.
“Madam Pompfrey, how long?” I heard Dumbledore’s deep and reassuring voice.
“Only 38 seconds now, professor.” I could hear her bustling around moving around various bottles of potions and pouring them into glasses.
“Jemini, I am sure you can hear me so I am about to revive you. It may cause some restriction in your chest, don’t be afraid it will subside after a few minutes.”
How did he know I could hear? That man is a bloody genius. He knows everything.
“Now’s the time, Professor.” Madam Pompfrey sounded scared, like this wouldnt work. What if it didn’t? Would I be stuck like this forever?
I heard Dumbledore mutter a chain of incantations and tap his wand on my forehead and the heel of my foot.
Right, I better not ask questions. But I still can’t open my eyes, or move. Oh my god, it really isn’t working. This is why Madam Pompfrey seemed so scared. The probability was that it wasn’t going to work and my organs were going to fail and I was going to die.
Just then, Dumbledore muttered a final incantation and suddenly it was like my body was on fire, I wanted to scream but I couldn’t. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t open my eyes or move. This is it, I’m going to die and I haven’t told my family or Sirius or anyone how much I love them.
Then, as suddenly as it came the fire sensation was gone and I could breathe again. With immense strength I fluttered my eyes open and it was a while before Dumbledore and an anxious Madam Pompfrey came into view.
“Welcome back Miss Lander,” smiled Dumbledore.
I attempted to smile but it must have just looked like a weak grimace. I wiggled my finger and internally did a little dance. I’m definitely back.
“Madam Pompfrey, she needs the potions straight away. I will notify her family and send them along in 10 minutes. I will also notify Miss Landers friends. Though, they won’t be here until morning, feel better soon, Jemini,” said Dumbledore before pocketing his wand and making his way towards the door.
“Disgusting dark magic used on you, girl. Now, you have a large line up of potions to take in the next 5 minutes, so let’s sit you up,” she said, pulling the pillows from beneath my head and helping me into a sitting position.
“This one first, it’ll help with strength,” she said, holding a small flask of a bright red liquid. It tasted absolutely horrible.
“Jem! Oh my little baby, you’re awake!” squealed Mum as soon as she entered the wing and ran over to give me a tight hug.
“Mum,” I said croakily. I felt much better after the potions, though they were fucking disgusting.
“Hey dad,” I said, as he entered the wing with Jay.
“Oh Jem, how are you feeling?” he said, kissing me on the cheek.
“Super duper,” I said with a grin.
“Great, a week of putting everyone in misery and you feel super duper.” Said Jay giving me a dirty look.
“Come here Jay,” I said, still grinning. Then I gave him the first real hug we’ve had since we were about 7.
“You were worried, huh?” I teased.
“Shut up,” he said, laughing. “Only cos then I would have no one to annoy.”
“Oh really?” I said raising my eyebrows.
“Pack it in, you two,” said Mum. “Oh Jem, I’m so glad you’re ok!”
“Me too, Mum,” I said, smiling at my family around me.
That morning, I woke up with Dad reading the daily prophet in a chair next to me, Jay eating some breakfast and Mum talking to Lily, Mimi and Lola at the foot of my bed. I couldn’t make out what the conversation was about but knowing mum it was probably something really embarrassing.
“She’s awake!” exclaimed Lily rushing over to me as soon as she realised and gave me a bone crushing hug.
“Nice to be back,” I said, laughing.
Mimi and Lola both gave me hugs and began telling me about gossip when the marauders walked in.
“Brought you some breakfast, we know what Hospital Wing food is like,” said Remus, bringing me over some food.
“Thanks, Remus,” I said.
“Nice to see you back, Jem,” said James, giving me a hug before turning to Lily.
“How you feeling Jem?” asked Peter but before I could answer, Madam Pompfrey had burst out of her office and begun shouting about 7 people being in here.
I needed rest, apparently a whole week of being in a coma wasn’t enough. I needed to have my potions and just lie there and do some stupid physio. What the fuck is physio?
“We’ll leave,” said Lily quickly. “We’ll come and see you later, Jem.”
Everyone took the hint and left. Leaving me and Sirius.
“Hey,” I said.
“Hey,” he said, smiling.
“Nice to be back.”
“Nice to have you back.”
I started laughing, “I have to have physio.” What? I didn’t know what else to say.
“It could be a lot worse,” he said quietly, crossing over to my bed and getting in with me.
I leant my head on his shoulder, “I guess not.”
“It could be a lot worse, besides we’ll all help you with the physio.”
He put his arm around me and we stayed like that for a while.
“I’m so sorry, Jem.” He said.
“For this happening to you,” he said, stroking my hair.
“It wasn’t your fault, none of it was your fault.”
“Whether it was or wasn’t, we’re going to get you through it.”
Thank goodness for Sirius Orion Black.
AW YAY Jem's back and Sirius confessed his love for her, though he doesnt know she knows and he doesnt know that she loves him. Oh god, the confusion.