Chapter 13 : When I Need You Most
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I was sitting in the common room rubbing my hand, trying to make the pain go away. I had another detention with Umbridge for “disrupting her class.” Whatever. The door opened so I looked up to see Blaise.
“Hey there, beautiful.” he said when he saw me. I smiled.
“Hey Zabini!” He smirked.
“What did you just say?”
“I said, ‘Hey Zabini.’”
He chuckled and came over to the couch.
“I dare you to say it again.”
I giggled. “Hey Zabini.”
At lunch the next day, two owls came with letters for me. One was Remus’s owl, and the other was Roxie which meant my dad wrote to me again. I quickly opened the letter from Remus and smiled as I read the words.
I’m sorry I didn’t write earlier, but the date with Dora was so amazing I couldn’t find the words to describe it for a while. I took her to dinner at her favorite restaurant and we had a fabulous time. We went on our second date two days later, and we scheduled our next date for tomorrow. I feel something I never have felt before. It’s so much more than I felt for Thea. I never thought I’d meet someone who could make me feel this happy. I’m still nervous about hurting her with my condition, and I still can’t get over how Dora doesn’t seem to care about it at all.
I will write again soon. I love you.
I quickly scribbled a reply and sent it off with the owl. I looked at Roxie and she still hadn’t moved. I patted her and gave her a treat, but she still didn’t move. I took the letter hoping she’d go, but I didn’t have that kind of luck. She wasn’t leaving until I wrote a reply. Merlin, why wouldn’t my dad give up?
Blaise and Draco came into the Great Hall laughing and pushing each other around. They sat down on either side of me and Blaise kissed me sweetly.
“Is that Roxie?” Draco asked.
“Yeah, and she won’t leave until I reply to my dad’s letter.” I said, exasperated.
“Then why don’t you read it and find out what he said?”
“It’s going to say the same thing as the last one. Rex, my lovely daughter, please come home for Christmas so we can work things out.’”
“What’s wrong with that?”
“Urgh, Dray, don’t you understand?! If I write back, he’ll think I’ve forgiven him! Besides, I always spend Christmas with you guys.” I stood up from the table and went to grab my things for afternoon classes.
When we came back into the Great Hall for dinner, Roxie was still sitting in the same place on the table. The boys saw this and busted out laughing. “That is one determined bird!” I smiled and went over to pet her. “Forget it, girl. I’m not writing back.” I said to her. She nipped at my finger. “I know he wants me to, but I just can’t write now, okay?” She hooted and ruffled her feathers. I giggled. “You won’t give up, will you?” She hooted again. “Well why don’t you go to the Owlery? I wouldn’t want you to sit on this table forever.” She nipped at my finger again and flew off.
In the dormitory, I lied in bed and couldn’t go to sleep. Curiosity got the best of me and I opened the second letter I had received.
I heard the you and Harry have gotten on better terms this past week. I’m glad to hear it. Well, since you didn’t reply to my previous letter, I will ask again. Would you come home for Christmas this year? I miss having you around. I missed so much of your life and I feel like a horrible person and father. Your mother surely wouldn’t be happy with me. Please darling, I love you and I want what’s best for you, and I think it is best for the both of us if we try to mend our relationship.
I love you with all my heart.
I sighed as I placed the letter back on my bedside table. I just couldn’t wrap around the fact that he took this long to realize his mistake. I mean, if he started this ‘asking for forgiveness’ stuff when he first started treating me horribly then I would accept his apology, but it had been four years. And what he said about Mom, I couldn’t quite understand either. He hasn’t really talked about her since she died. I fell asleep with these thoughts floating in my head.
I was in a meadow. It definitely seemed familiar, but I had never been there before. I looked around me and the other things I saw were flowers and an oak tree. “Alexa,” a voice said. I turned around to see my mom standing there with an angelic glow around her.
“Momma!” I exclaimed as I ran to give her a hug.
“Oh my baby girl; look how much you’ve grown. You are so beautiful.” I cried on her shoulder.
“I miss you, Momma.” She hugged me tighter.
“I miss you too.”
“Darling,” she said after a while. “I’ve been watching over you and your father all of these years, and I can say I despise the way he has been treating you. However, I don’t despise him. I love your father with all my heart, even here in the beyond. I know he thinks about us every day. Why won’t you give him a chance?”
I sighed. “I just can’t. He’s treated me so horribly since you died, it’s hard to forgive.”
She sighed. “I’m not saying to forgive him right away; I’d never suggest that. It will take him a long time to gain my forgiveness when I see him again. However, I am saying to give him the chance he’s been asking you for. He truly does love you, but he just finds it extremely hard to express it sometimes. You know, it took him eight months to tell me he loved me. And we were best friends before we dated; like you and Blaise.”
“You know about Blaise?” She smiled.
“I do watch over you every day.”
“So you know about Dray as well?”
“Yes, and I must say they are the best friends I could ever wish you to have. They have taken such great care of you.” I sniffled as my eyes watered.
“Yeah, they have. I love them so much.”
Mom smiled at me again. She looked behind her and nodded at something. “Alright sweetie, I have to go now. Please consider what I said about your father and remember, I love you and I will be with you every single day even if you don’t know it.” Tears fell from my eyes.
“Momma, please don’t go.”
She kissed my forehead. “I have to baby girl. I love you.”
I opened my eyes to the dormitory. I smiled. I got to see my mom again, she loves Blaise and Dray, and she wants me to…give Dad a chance. I was split between doing what she wanted, and my own thoughts. I still had a lot to think about.
A/N: What did you guys think of this chapter? I’m sorry there wasn’t much happening, but I felt like I had to include more of Rex’s internal conflict which led me to writing her dream where Roxanne comes to her. What did you think of that, by the way? It was just a quick idea that popped into my head. And Remus, I love the way I developed his character. He sounds like a schoolboy smitten by a girl. Yay! Well please review I would really really appreciate it!! Thanks!!
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