Chapter 20 : The Decision
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"What are you all laughing at?" I asked groggily.
"You." Blaise smiled.
"You are too cute when you sleep." Draco teased.
"Oh, shut up." I grumbled sitting up. "What time is it?" I asked.
"Four." Pansy answered in bored tone.
I groaned. "You're kidding. Two more hours in this place. This is just torture."
"Who are you telling?" Ron asked. "I'm starving!"
"When aren't you?" Draco asked.
"When I'm eating." He replied.
"What are we gonna do?" Blaise asked.
"I don't know, but no more truth exercises." Pansy said. "I'm not in the mood for honesty."
"Hear, hear." I agreed. There is such thing as too much of the truth. I found that out today.
"All right. How about we talk about the future?" Blaise suggested. "Where do we see ourselves in five year?"
"I like that. I'll go first." Pansy said. "Obviously out of this hell hole. Working at Gringotts, even though the goblins freak me out a little. But yeah, working there, living in a flat. Maybe by myself. Maybe with a boyfriend, it all depends. But I'd be happy."
I smiled. "That sounds really nice."
Pansy returned my smile. "Yeah, it does."
"I'll go next." Ron said. "I see myself, working, of course. Either as an Auror or a Quidditch player. I haven't exactly decided yet. But I want to make alot of money so I can support my family, you know. And like Pansy said, be happy."
"Nice." Blaise commented. "Now I'll go. This might sound insane, but I want to own a shop."
"What kind of shop?" I asked.
"A sweet shop." He answered sounding slightly embarassed. "I like candy and stuff, and I have some great ideas for new sweets. I don't know, it seems like fun. I sound stupid, huh?"
"No." I said. "It does sound really fun. I'd visit your shop daily."
"Me too." Ron said. "I love sweets!"
"You love anything you can eat." Draco pointed out.
"Oh, all right, your turn, Malfoy." Ron said.
"Fine. I see myself with a job in the Ministry like Father. After a long day at work, I'll return home to the Manor, and there my wife will be, waiting for me happily." He looked over at me. "I'll sit down with her as dinner is being prepared, ask her how her day was, kiss her and tell her how much I missed her. Then I'll tell her I love her."
"At dinner, we'll discuss things that aren't exactly important, but we find them interesting. At night after we've made love I'll hold her close and whisper 'I love you, Jo' just in case she forgets." Draco finished.
The whole time he looked at me. He wanted me to be his wife. The person he came home to every night. The person he'd wake up to every morning for the rest of his life. Draco wanted me to be that person. But the question is did I want to be that person?
"You're turn, Lina." Ron said. I looked at him, it was easy to tell what he was thinking. He thought he'd lost for sure now. He didn't think he could compete with Draco.
I cleared my thoat. "Well, this might sound even more insane, but I want to own a restaurant..."
"A restaurant?" Blaise asked.
"Yeah, you know, a place where people go to eat." I answered.
"I know what it is." He huffed.
"Anyways, yeah, I wanna do that. Then when I go home, I'll freshen myself up a bit for my husband." I could feel both Draco and Ron's eyes on me. "At dinner we'll talk about how are our days were. I'll surprise him with an amazing dessert that I cooked. And every night before we go to sleep, I'll tell him just how much I love him. In the morning when we wake up, the first thing I'll do is tell him I love him, and then we'll start our day until we crawl into bed and do it all over again."
"Even in five years your life is perfect." Pansy said in a dreamy voice.
I giggled. "I'm not perfect. But I'm so damn close, it scares me." I joked.
"I think you're perfect." Draco said smiling.
"Haven't I told you thinking isn't really your thing?" I asked, smiling back.
"That hurt, babe." He said.
"Yeah, you know there are other people in the room." Pansy said.
"Right." I said.
"Now what are going to do?" Blaise asked.
"Let's do some exploring. Let's see if Snapey has any dirty little secrets." Ron got up smirking and started going through Snape's things.
The rest of us followed suit. Ron looked through Snape's desk, I looked through the shelves, Pansy looked through the ingredient cabinet, and Draco and Blaise searched everywhere else, from drawers to his personal store.
"Find anything?" I asked after a few minutes.
"A bunch of gross ingredients." Pansy answered.
"Tons of cauldrons." Draco said.
"Keep looking, there's gotta be something." Ron said.
After five minutes, I came across a nice looking box. I opened it up and saw notes and cards, and dead flowers. "I think I've got something." I said.
"Me too." Blaise said.
We reconvened in the middle of the room. "What do you have?" I asked Blaise.
"A radio." He answered.
"Can you imagine him listening the Weird Sisters as he grades our papers?" Pansy laughed.
"Wat'cha got Jo?" Draco asked.
"Memories of love." I said in high voice.
"No way, Snape in love?" Ron asked.
"Listen to this." I said. " 'My dearest Lily, words cannot describe how much you mean to me. If only you knew how I felt maybe you would realize you reciprocate these feelings. I know as of right now you see me as just a friend, but I want to be more than that. Because, I, Severus Snape am in love with you, Lily Evans. I hope one day I can work up the courage to tell you or at least send this letter. Until that time I will continue to love you in secret. With all my love, Severus'."
"Awww!" Pansy and I chorused.
"Snape wrote that?! Holy shit the man has feelings!" Ron exclaimed.
"Deep beautiful feelings." I said. "I wonder what happened to Lily."
"She died." Ron said quietly.
"What? How do you know?" I asked.
"Because Lily Evans is Harry Potter's mother." He answered.
"Oh, that's horrible. She died not knowing that Snape loved her. That's so sad." I said.
"Yeah, it is." Draco agreed.
We continued to read Snape's letters, the radio playing in the background.
"Oh, this one looks good." Draco said. "Listen. 'My dearest Lily, it seems as though I have lost you forever. We are no longer friends, and you're now with James Potter. Life feels quite empty without you. I miss you dearly. Every day, seeing you with him is torture. Especially when I know that I can love you better that he can. You just can't see that. I hold on to the small chance that you will one day forgive and give me another chance. I shall add this letter to the rest I never sent you. With all my love Severus'."
An awkward silence filled the room as we all realized how familiar the situation sounded. We all looked everywhere but at eachother.
"We should put the notes back." Pansy said.
"Yeah." We all agreed. I put the box where I had found it. As I joined them again, a slow song came on the radio. Ron grinned and held out his hand.
"May I have this dance?" He asked. I laughed and nodded.
We swayed back and forth. A moment later, Pansy and Blaise joined in and started swaying. Draco merely observed us.
"What are you thinking?" Ron asked me.
"Well, I've come to a decision." I said.
"And?" He asked.
"And you are amazing. I would have lost my mind without you. Pansy is right, you were there for me when no one else was and you've done so much for me. I don't think I could ever repay you for all you've done. And I know I would be happy with you and-"
"Lina, I think I get it. I understand." Ron said smiling.
"I knew you would." I smiled back.
Ron leaned in and kissed me. "May I cut in?" Draco asked and we broke apart.
"Sure." Ron said.
Draco and I danced in silence for a moment. "So, you've made your decision, huh?" He asked.
"Yes, I have." I said.
"Is there any way I could convince you to change your mind?" He asked quietly.
I shook my head. "No."
"I'm sorry, you'll get used to the idea soon enough. Though I'd think by now you'd be used to it." I said.
"I don't think I'll ever truly get used to it. I'll always think it can't be true." Draco said sadly.
"Me too." I agreed.
He sighed deeply. "Well, I hope you and Ron will be happy together."
"We will be." I said. "As best friends."
"What?! Now he's your best friend?! Jo, I thought I was your best friend!"
"Draco it's only fair to make Ron my best friend, since you're going to be my boyfriend." I said smiling.
A confused look came across Draco's face. "Wait what?"
"I choose you, stupid." I giggled.
"B-but y-you and Ron. Y-you just kissed." He stuttered.
"Yeah, that was our last kiss. Ron gets it, he understands." I said.
"A-and you said, you said-"
"Did I ever actually say I chose Ron?" I asked.
"Well-no..." He said slowly.
"You just assumed." I grinned.
"Why did you let me think you chose him?" He asked bewildered.
"Because I couldn't resist." I laughed.
"I hate you." Draco said glaring at me.
"You don't mean that." I whispered.
"I don't. Infact, I love you." He said as he kissed me.
"I love you too." I said. We kissed again.
"Awww." Ron, Pansy and Blaise said.
"The lovely couple is back on!" Blaise exclaimed. He was taking this rather well.
"I swear, I won't try to tear you guys apart." Pansy said.
"Don't hurt her, Draco." Ron said.
"I won't." Draco said.
By the time Snape came everything was back in it's place. "Did you solve the problem?" Snape asked.
"Yep." Blaise answered. "We decided that we would move on from what happened and start a new slate."
"And I'm sure your curious about who I chose to be with." I said. "I chose Draco."
"And I'm okay with it." Ron said.
"As am I." Draco said.
"And I'm done ruining lives." Pansy added in.
Snape merely nodded and said. "You may go."
Together we all walked out of Snape's classroom, laughing and talking. I couldn't be happier. I had Draco as a boyfriend, Ron as a best friend and Pansy and Blaise as very close friends.
My life may not be perfect, but it sure has perfect moments.
A/N: I kinda feel like crying cause it's over. I enjoyed writing this story SO much! I hope you liked it and I didn't scare you too much by making you think that Jo chose Ron. I just couldn't resist. The sequel will be up shortly, it's called 'Secrects of Lovers and Friends' it's fast fowarded about a year and a half and they're going into their seventh year. I'm so excited for it! I hope you guys love it! Thanks for all the reads and reviews, they really kept me going. I owned nothing you recognized. Thanks for reading! :D