“Severus?” I called. The sound echoed around the cluttered space, bouncing off the high ceiling above me. I was in a room I hadn’t even known existed – only yesterday I had walked past this wall and seen just a tapestry! But today, running after Snape, I had found myself in… this room…
“Sev? Severus?”
“Go away.” I turned around to see him standing there, his wand pointing at me.
“What are you do-”
“Go away, Lily. I never want to see you again. You are a disgusting mudblood and I hate the sight of you.” I sighed, trying my best not explode in anger at his horrible words.
“You and I both know that’s a lie, Snape. You don’t hate me. You love-”
“Go away!”
“SNAPE!” I yelled. “Shut up and listen! We have to sort this out, right here, and right now. Put your wand away, you idiot!” He did as I said, and collapsed onto the floor in defeat. I sat down next to him, nervous. I didn’t want to hurt him anymore, and I had no idea what to say.
“Severus, I’m going to get married to James and I need you to-”
“Lily, it’s a bad idea,” he said, turning to me. For once it wasn’t anger or even sadness in his eyes, but a pleading, longing, worried look. “He’ll hurt you, Lily. Something bad is going to happen, I can feel it!” I shook my head, suddenly fighting back tears. All I wanted was for my best friend to be happy for me, but I knew he never would.
“Sev…” I began, but my words trailed off. Snape looked at me, staring in my eyes to intently it made me uncomfortable.
“Sev, I… I just want to say…”
“Shh…” He whispered, putting up his hand and wiping away the single tear that was rolling down my cheek. He leant in towards me, his eyes watching mine, his lips coming closer to my lips…
“WHAT IN ALL OF HOGWARTS DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING?” I screamed, jumping up from him. “I AM ENGAGED, SEVERUS. E-N-G-A-G-E-D ENGAGED! YOU CAN’T JUST GO AROUND TRYING TO KISS PEOPLE WHO ARE GOING TO GET MARRIED!”
Snape started at me in shock.
“I – I’m sorry, Lil. I just wanted to see what-”
“I HAVE TRIED SO HARD, SEVERUS SNAPE, TO FORGIVE YOU AND TO JUST BE YOUR FRIEND! BUT OBVIOUSLY THAT’S IMPOSSIBLE AND-”
“Lily, really, I’m sorry!”
I shook my head, still fuming.
“I have to go.” I said stonily. “I’m late for a meeting.”
Snape didn’t reply, but I could feel his eyes on me as I walked out of the strange room. I caught a glimpse of myself in the reflective glass on the front of a portrait, and saw that my cheeks were flushed bright red.
“Forget him, Lily.” I told myself. “Forget it ever happened.”
* * * * * *
“You’re late.” They said in unison. Dumbledore. James. Meeting.
“Sorry.”
I rushed into the room and sat next to James. He grabbed my hand affectionately and gave me a questioning look. I smiled awkwardly at him, hoping my cheeks weren’t still flushed.
“Is everything alright, Lily?” Dumbledore asked.
“Umm yeah sorry I was just, ummm, I got… lost.” I lied.
“Lost?” James asked. “You? Lost?” Lily I think you are hiding some-”
“I got lost James.” I snapped back, standing up and pacing around the room. “Can we please just get this over and done with? I have stuff to be doing.”
Dumbledore raised one eyebrow, but continued in his ever-calm voice. “Lily, I am going to give you and James some time to talk and to write your speech for the graduation ceremony. Or just to talk…” He walked out of the room, and I sat back down next to James. I felt so awkward and guilty… I knew James suspected something.
“Lily, where were you? What’s going on?”
I shook my head. “Let’s just write this speech, OK?”
“Lily, why aren’t you happy? We just… we just got engaged!” he said, worry straining his voice.
I looked up in shock. I’d forgotten. I had forgotten that I, Lily Evens, was going to get married. Married? Married. I smiled.
“Yeah, we really are, aren’t we?”
“Yes.”
I stood up and pulled James up as well, into a waltzing position. I danced him around the room, and then we both fell back into our chairs, laughing.
“We’re getting married.” We muttered at the same time.
* * * * *
I don’t know why I even write in this diary anymore. It seems so childish and stupid, but I just need to vent. Lily, lovely, beautiful Lily is getting married. To James Potter, the idiot. The jerk. And I have a very bad feeling. I’m not really superstitious, but the last time I had a bad feeling was the day I got the letter saying that my Uncle had died. Bad feelings mean bad things. And I can’t let anything bad happen to Lily.
“Watcha doing Sev?” a fifth year Slytherin asked me. I slammed shut the diary and stuffed into down the side of the lounge.
“Get away.” I spat at her.
“Oi, be nice!” she said teasingly, placing herself onto the arm of the lounge next to me. I shuffled uncomfortably.
“Sev, there’s gonna be a dance after the graduation and I can’t help noticing that, well, you don’t have a date so I was wondering if you wanted to go with me. My Mum got me this AMAZING green dress and well, I think you’re kinda cute in a greasy-haired, mysterious kina way so…” her voice trailed off and she stared at me with her big green eyes. Green eyes. They weren’t as green as Lily’s, but if I squinted I could imagine it was her. I could take this little annoying girl to the graduation dance, dance with her, kiss her… and make Lily jealous.
“It won’t work, Severus.” I whispered to myself.
“Huh?”
“Nothing.”
“I’m Amelia, by the way. Proud Slytherin, good grades, never had a boyfriend… until now…”
“I’m not your boyfriend.”
“If you say so!” she giggled. “Got to go, Sevvy, but let me know if you wanna go with me!”
She was nearly out the door when I called after her.
“I’ll take you to the dance.”
She squeaked like a mouse and I instantly regretted it. But this was my last chance to get Lily. To save her.
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