Lily sat in the corner of the Common Room staring out the window, watching as the rain hit the window. I’d never seen her so unhappy, so… dead. James was sitting opposite her, their hands lock, his expression mimicked all of ours. Worried. Although he seemed more worried then any of us. As Lily’s parents funeral drew nearer, Lily became more and more depressed. Sometimes she looked as though she was happy, as though she’d forgotten her parents had been murdered. But something would trigger her memory and her expression would drop, and she would appear dead once more. We all had Lily watch now, James constantly petrified that his girlfriend would turn suicidal in the middle of the night and wander out into the grounds.
Remus moaned uncomfortably next to me. His head was resting on my lap and he was shaking and shivering. I gave a gentle sigh, reaching behind me and grabbing the vial of wolfsbane. Tonight was a full moon and Remus was still having difficulty dealing with his pain the day before. Everyone in our small circle of friends knew about Remus’ condition now, Mary and Lily walking in on a conversation between Peter, James and I a couple of nights ago, and Remus was quite relieved that none of them particularly minded. To be fair, Lily’s mind was too preoccupied to care, and Mary just didn’t think it was her place to judge.
Tipping the potion into Remus’ mouth, he sighed in content and snuggled into my arms. He was like a little child, a little child that seemed to be on fire. But I didn’t mind. If this is what kept him happy the day before his transformation then I would put up with scorch marks on my arms. “Thanks, Dory. Are you sure Sirius won’t mind? I-I don’t want to offend him.”
“Sleep, Remus.” James replied to him looking in our direction, “Sirius would not have a care in the world as long as she’s looking after you properly.”
“Are y-y-you sure?”
“Hush.” I whispered down at the restless teen who was beginning to shake. Remus nodded in my arms and began to get more comfortable and it was only a few seconds before he began to breathe heavily and I knew that he had fallen asleep. I looked up to see Mary and Peter entering the dormitory. Mary didn’t seem to have a crush on Remus anymore as Peter took up all her free time. I hadn’t had the chance to ask Mary about her feelings for Peter, but they seemed to be spending a lot more time together then usual. Mary took one look at Remus and I and then at Lily, wearing a worried expression for both of the two people. Lily seemed to notice, looking at Remus.
“Oh, I’m being awfully selfish. We should be looking after Remus not worrying about my problems.” She stated whilst rubbing her hand over her eyes to wipe away the tears she must have been silently crying. James moved closer to her and put his arm around her waist. She looked up at him and smiled. I liked how they were finally together, they really were made for each other.
“You’re not being selfish.” Mary said back calmly. “Professor Dumbledore says he needs to see us. All of us. Sirius, Alice, Frank, Emmaline, Marlene and Kingsley are already up there.”
“All of us?” I asked curiously. “Remus included?”
“Yes. You’re going to have to get him to leave. Dumbledore says it’s very important.”
So we obeyed. With the help of James, I managed to get Remus to his feet and the six of us began to depart towards Dumbledore’s office. With Remus constantly stumbling and moaning it took a lot longer then we expected, but soon, we were there, and Frank was waiting outside for us. He eyed Remus cautiously as we approached.
“Is he okay?” Frank Longbottom asked with concern as Remus let out another yelp of discomfort. James and I nodded in unison but didn’t say anything. Not wishing to go further in the matter, Frank turned and muttered, “Chocolate Frogs,” under his breathe and a statue began to move. I always knew there was the Headmasters office hidden behind one of the statues of Hogwarts, and I was fascinated to actually go there. No one else seemed as intrigued.
When we reached the top of the staircase, Frank entered without knocking and walked over to several seats which were set out around the room. Albus Dumbledore was sitting behind his desk, a smile on his face and he seemed to have this warm look about him as he glanced over his half moon spectacles. We walked Remus over to a seat and set him down next to Emmaline Vance, who shot me a guilty look before turning her attention to Remus and fussing over him. Of course, she didn’t know about his condition. And then the rest of us took our seats. James and Lily next to each other, Mary and Peter next to them, and me between Peter and Sirius. As I sat down, Sirius smiled happily at my arrival and took my hand. He was so gorgeous, I was having a hard time still getting over the fact that he was actually mine.
“Right, do we have everyone?” Dumbledore questioned looking down at a piece of parchment. “We’re missing Fabian and Gideon Prewett it would appear.” The Prewett brothers were in the year above mine and were famous for their incredible talent with defensive spells. I was vaguely aware of their younger sister, Molly, who was a year below and was dating a Quidditch friend of mine, Arthur Weasley. “We’re also missing.. Benjy. Benjy Fenwick.” - A name I did not recognise. But at this, Alice spoke.
“Oh, he’s on his way, Professor. He just had to hand in an essay to Professor Slughorn.” She informed him with a smile on her face, which Dumbledore returned.
“And we are waiting on… ah, here they are.”
We all looked behind us. There were teachers, and adults we didn’t recognise. Professor McGonagall was standing with her arm around an older man who was limping. Next to him was the Groundskeeper, Rubeus Hagrid, who I believed Sirius was relatively close too, and the famous auror, Mad-Eye Moody, who I’d met a couple of times because of my parents. And then, behind them all was a man that looked very alike to Professor Dumbledore, a sour look on his face. I believed this to be Abaforth, Dumbledore’s brother. At the sight of us all, the old man with McGonagall grinned,
“Albus, my old friend!”
“Elphias Doge, such a pleasure to see you again.”
And the greetings began, only interrupted when the Prewett boys and Benjy Fenwick arrived. When Hagrid came and sat next to Sirius to have a genera conversation, Moody came and sat next to me, resting his hand on my shoulder. I looked up at him and smiled.
“’Ow are ya?”
“I can’t complain. I haven’t lost my parents.” I stated, looking over at Lily, who seemed lost within all the introducing which was going on. Moody looked over at the young Muggleborn and gave a shrug.
“Dark times. Shoulda expected it.” He replied. “Although, bein’ raised with muggles, you wouldn’t expect it, would ya?”
“No.” I shook my head. “I expect it, I expect everyday I get a letter that it’ll be about them dying. Not Lily. Never Lily.”
“There must be a motive behind it all.”
I looked at him curiously, “What do you mean?”
“Two muggles at random that happen to be the parents of a young witch here, who happens to caught the eye of a certain future Death Eater?” Moody hinted slightly. Realization hit me and I widened my eyes in suspicion.
“Snape would never…”
“No, but what if one of his lil’ friends found out, hmm?” He pursed his lips, “You’re cleverer then you make out, Dorcas. I’ve known you since ya were a babe. Piece it together yaself.”
I was about to speak again, but Dumbledore had cleared his throat, symbolising he wanted all of our attention, which we straight away gave him. He looked happy.
“I have called you all together today, as you are probably the best students, adults, aurors, of this time. And it is great regret that I must inform you all… That I need your help.”
It all went so fast. What Dumbledore explained was ridiculous, completely out of the question, and had left us all speechless. Even Marlene, who was invited also, had joined us in the common room to stare at the fire completely thrown off by what Dumbledore had asked of us. Sirius, Marlene, Remus, Lily, James, Mary, Peter, Kingsley and I all sat around the room, staring in different directions, all pondering the same thing.
“The Order Of The Phoenix.” James said finally. All our attention turned on him. “Opinions gents, ladies?” He didn’t have the usual happy tone to his voice like usual. It was serious. It lacked amusement. This was a matter of life and death.
Dumbledore had asked us to join his new formed group, a group to work together secretly, behind the backs of the ministry, to bring down the Death Eaters, secret Death Eaters, and go on dangerous and almost fatal tasks to bring You Know Who down. We were the chosen ones. And if we did not wish to take part in the Order, our minds would be erased of the meeting, and no one else could share the information with us. Truth was, as we all looked around the room at each other, we were petrified. We knew a war was coming, and that eventually, we would need to fight. But at 16? Dumbledore suggested we take part in extra Defence Against The Dark Arts meetings with Mad Eye. So when the trace was removed, we could immediately go and fight.
But the same question was playing on everyone’s mind. Did we want too?
“We could die.” Mary stated. “All of us. If word gets out we’re stopping You Know Who in anyway, they’ll come after us, our families, we’ll be murdered.”
“Yes but at least we died for something!” Kingsley put in sharply. “I’m sure none of us intend on turning Death Eater, or would join if forced too. I would rather fight and die, then hide for months and die, feeling like a coward!”
There was silence. We were all taking in Mary and Kingsley’s points, and no one was going to say their decision first. No one, of course, except Lily.
“I want to join.” Lily murmured quietly. We all looked at her, Sirius, Remus Mary and I in confusion, Marlene, Kingsley and Peter in understanding, but James was looking at her in complete alarm and raced up to her to kneel beside her. The tears were setting in for her again.
“Lily, you can’t-”
“I want to fight, James. I don’t want my parents to die for nothing!” Lily spat back as tears began to roll down her face. No one spoke, the common room was silent except for the gentle sobs of Lily and the occasional moans of pain from Remus who was sitting next to me. He once again rested himself in my arms and I couldn’t help but flinch. Damn Werewolf heat.
“Okay.” James said eventually, turning and looking at the rest of us. “So that’s me and Lily in. Who else?”
Lily didn’t say anything about James’ quick decision to join also, but I knew by the smile they sent each other, that it never would have been any other way.
“I’m in.” Kingsley said.
“Me too.” Marlene said from the fireplace.
“And I.” Peter agreed.
“I’m not.” It was Mary. We all turned to look at her in shock. She was standing up now, brushing herself off. “I may seem like a coward, but I know I’m going to die, fighting or not fighting. I’d rather spent my last few years alive in peace, not thinking about having to fight everyday. I’ll go abroad with my parents and we’ll live day by day, until fate turns up on our doorstep.” And with that, she turned, walking up to dormitories, shouting over her shoulder that she’d get her memories removed in the morning. And with that, everyone fell silent again.
“I’ll join. I could be handy as a Werewolf.” Remus muttered from my arms. I smiled.
So, Lily, James, Marlene, Kingsley, Remus and Peter. That just left Sirius and I to decide, and the others were looking at each other expectantly. But I had stayed silent throughout this conversation for a reason. What was I meant to do? I’d been raised with my parents as aurors, lived day by day in fear of being murdered, and for everything my parents worked for, I was going to throw it all away and join my own group of rebels, behind their backs, and fight You Know Who myself?
Failing that, If I didn’t join, my boyfriend would be prancing around, behind my back, trying to kill these Death Eaters, and because my memory would have been removed, I wouldn’t have a clue what was going on, and I wouldn’t expect him to turn up dead. If he did, I don’t know how I’d cope. In fact, if any of these people died in front of me, I don’t know what I’d do.
Oh why did there have to be a bloody stupid war, why, why, why?
I pushed Remus off me slightly and stood up, retreating from the Common Room and out into the cold air which belonged to the Grand Staircase. The portrait of the Fat Lady looked down worriedly at me, but didn’t bother saying anything. I appreciated that greatly.
I turned. Remus had managed to use up the remainder of his strength to hobble after me. I smiled at him, holding out my arms. He collapsed into them, and we skid down the nearest wall together, cuddling each other in the cold air. He seemed relieved to feel the breeze on his hot skin, and I was relieved that hugging up to him made sure I would never get too cold.
“I told Sirius not to follow you, because he’d only sway your decision more.”
I nodded in understanding. Remus did have a point. But it didn’t help me choose.
“I’m not going to tell you to take any path, Dorcas. But I know you. And I know you can’t walk away and let all your friends fight without you, that’s just not how you work.”
“And how do you know?”
“You’re selfless. You’re brave. You want justice and, more than anything, you just want to repay your parents for protecting you.” Remus said calmly, stroking my arm with his hand. “It’s different with me, Sirius, Lily, even Marlene. We have nothing to lose doing this.” He paused. “James is doing this out of his love for Lily, and Kingsley is doing this out of his pure passion to put Evil out of it’s misery. Mary had so much more to lose then this. She hasn’t been brought up in any particular way, she has a family, she could still have a life.” He turned to face me, and I turned to look at him, “Dory, we’re your family now. This is the best it’s going to get. Your parents, fighting. Us, fighting.”
“But Remus, I don’t want to fight.” I murmured through tears.
“I‘m sorry.” Remus said slowly, raising his hand to my cheek. “But that’s all there is left. And I’m sorry you’ve been brought up with Auror Parents but either way, you’ll be fighting with them, or fighting with us sooner or later.”
As I began to sob gently, Remus used the remainder of his strength to raise his chin and kiss me for a brief few seconds on the forehead, “I love you, Dory.”
“I love you too, Remus.”
And with that, I rested my head on his chest, and I drifted off into an uneasy sleep. Maybe my dreams would help everything come clearer.
“She’s so beautiful.” Remus said softly as I set Dory down on the common room sofa. Everyone else had gone to bed now, except for Remus and I, Remus being practically paralyzed by the sleeping girl due to his weakness and his present situation.
“Now now, Moony, lets not forget who she belongs too.” I said jokily, sitting down on the floor facing the sofa so I could look at her. As I began to tuck a bit of hair behind Dory’s ear, I heard Remus snigger and I looked up with a smirk.
“Don’t worry, I won’t touch.”
I smiled gratefully and then watched as the hardly stable Remus made his way over to the portrait hole, waving me a final good bye before swigging the last of his wolfsbane and vanishing, and I presumed he was going to lock himself in the Hospital wing until the moon was gone.
“He wasn’t lying.”
I looked up quickly. I was shocked at the female voice from a shadowed corner in the room. A voice I very well recognised. Marlene McKinnon stepped out from the shadows and I approached the sleeping Dory and I. She leaned over the sofa and stared at the girl and suddenly I felt very protective, leaning forward slightly and shielding her with my arm. At this, Marlene stepped back.
“Relax, I’m not going to hurt her.”
“What did you mean he wasn’t lying?”
“Well, Dorcas is beautiful isn’t she. She certainly won you over.” Marlene said casually, as if the fact that she tried to make me crazy jealous in the last three days meant absolutely nothing to her. She moved around the sofa and sat down in one of the chairs next to the fire and smiling over at me, “Oh, and bless her little soul, she’s been through a lot. Oh with Gilderoy, and Emmaline, and her parents being Aurors and constantly at risk of getting killed. And now, well, this.” A smirk was playing on Marlene’s face. I raised my eyebrows.
“What are you getting at?”
“Lets stop playing games shall we?” Marlene leant forward. “The only reason Marlene’s going to join the order is because of her undying love and, or, obsession for you.” She grinned maliciously. “How are you going to feel if she dies because you couldn’t let her go.”
“Shut up, Marlene.” I tried to say as calmly as possible although I could feel my anger rising. Mainly because, I knew she was right.
“Pretty little thing, such a waste.”
“I swear to Merlin, if you don’t shut up, I’ll hex you into the next timeline.”
I raised my hand to my mouth, only to realise that those definitely were not my words. I looked down at my once sleeping girlfriend, who hadn’t lifted her head, or even open her eyes. She had just spoken. I kind of wondered how long she’d been awake. Marlene huffed and shrugged her shoulders as she stood up. “Just something to think about, Siri.”
“Great, now fuck off.” Dory said with anger, yet her body remained still. Marlene didn’t need telling twice, she retreated up the stairs and into the girls dormitory. When the door clicked shut, I heard Dory state loudly, “Stupid bitch.”
I said nothing, I just bit my lip. Dory opened her eyes and gave a gentle sigh, sitting up.
“You always bite your lip when you’re worrying.” She giggled. Her cute little giggle. My heart skipped a beat, and I couldn’t resist moving forward so I was on my knees and pressing my lips against hers. She reacted quickly, her arms wrapping themselves around my neck and she pulled me closer to her. Our kisses got heavier, more passionate and before I knew it she was dragging me onto the sofa too and I was lying on top of her. And I, Sirius Black, had to stop. I pulled my lips away from hers, but didn’t move, and she stared up at me, highly disappointed by my actions.
“I don’t want to race into things yet, Dory.”
“Why?” She demanded quickly looking highly offended. “You had sex with Marlene a ridiculous amount of times! And all those other girls.”
I grinned. Oh, she was jealous.
“None of those girls meant anything to me. Ever. And none of those girls were virgins either.” I paused and looked down at her, using one of her hands to brush her cheek gently. She closed her eyes in content at my touch. “You’re different, Dory. You’re innocent and pure, and you actually mean something to me. I want everything that happens between us to be special, not just a casual fuck.” And then I leant down and kissed her ever so gently on the lips. When I moved away I saw she was smiling, “I’m so in love with you.”
“Feelings mutual, Sirius.” And we both began to sat up, but I wrapped my arms around her and dragged her onto my lap. She snuggled into my arms as we stared into the fire. “Did you take what Marlene said to heart?”
I took a deep breathe in, “I don’t want you joining the Order just because of me.”
“And I don’t want you joining the Order just because it’s a new way to put across the ‘Screw You’ message to your parents.” She replied stubbornly. I smirked. Oh she was good. She was really good. “Don’t you dare start saying you don’t want me to risk my life for people I care about. When you’re doing it tomorrow night for Remus. I want to prove I’m a worthy Gryffindor. Sybil said I was going to be worth something in life!”
I laughed, holding her tightly to me.
“I’m going to join The Order Of The Phoenix.”
“Me too, Dory, me too.”
A/N: This will be the last short messing around chapter. The next chapter is based two months later at the start of the Christmas Holidays where everything bad will start going down. As always, please review, because without nice people like you, I wouldn't keep this story going. Thank you for reading.