He’s leaning against a sofa in the Ravenclaw common room. I’ve never been in here before, it’s decorated using blue obviously but it’s colder than ours. It’s like the room has been designed to suit the studious personalities of the Ravenclaws, whereas the Gryffindor common room is cosy and homely, just like the Burrow where we all spend Christmas.
‘I just fancied some tea.’ I reply, realising I’d got sidetracked again.
He shrugs and chinks his bottle against my mug and takes a swig. I watch his throat as he swallows. He sees me staring.
‘You ok?’ He asks, he’s looking at me like I’m weird. I need to calm down, act casual.
‘Yeah.You’ I stutter.
‘Good’ He smiles at me. He has a nice smile. I’m glad. This would be much harder if he was ugly.
Half an hour ago, Jake and Booze Boy....I’ve forgotten his name again.....Scott. Jake and Scott grinned at each other as they led us into the common room. Rose told me those grins said they thought they’d scored. I don’t know what she’s planning to do. She dating Scorpius and she won’t cheat on him with some random Ravenclaw just so I can get laid. Will she?
I can see her on the other side of the room dancing with Scott. She makes me feel sensible, drinking tea on a sofa. I need to get on with my plan, this is about me after all.
I gulp my tea down and shove my cup on a random table, then I move towards Jake.
‘Kiss me’ I say, which sounds ridiculous as soon as I say it, but he doesn’t seem to mind. We kiss quite gently, our lips barely brushing. I’ve read loads about kissing, all those magazine that tells you about nose bumping, excess saliva and where to put your hands. I didn’t know it would feel like this though.
We kiss for minutes, our bodies leaning closer. It’s such a relief to be with someone who doesn’t know me at all. Who isn’t afraid to touch me. He feels solid, healthy, strong.
‘Lets go upstairs,’ he says.
He tries to lead me toward the stairs which I presume lead to his dormitory, but I put my hand on his chest pushing him back, whilst I think.
‘Come on.’ He says. ‘You want to don’t you?’ He smiles at me, I do want to don’t I? Isn’t that why I’m here?
‘Let’s go’ I say. We walk past Rose who is clearly trying to waste time until I get upstairs, but Scott is so drunk he probably won’t be able to remember if they had sex or not by tomorrow morning.
I follow Jake up the stairs, I feel a bit sick, dizzy, but I’ve taken my pills so I know I’m probably just psyching myself out. His dorm’s nothing special- a small room with four beds draped in blue, but instead of scattered books, his are in neat piles with alphabetical parchment. A true Ravenclaw.
I begin to undo the buttons of Rose’s dress, one button, two buttons.
He comes and takes over. His fingers are quick. He’s done this before. Another girl, a different night.
I stand before him in just my underwear. He stares at my puckered skin on my chest.
‘What’s that.’ He asks
‘I was ill.’
‘What was wrong with you.’
I shut him up with kisses, soon we are both naked. I can’t help but think of Adam and Eve, surely it wasn’t this awkward for them. I’ve never been naked in front of anyone before, at least not that I can remember.
He performs the contraceptive charm before I’ve even thought about it.
He lies down and moves my legs apart and presses himself closer. Soon I’ll feel him inside of me and I’ll know what all the fuss is myself. For now I only focus on one thing. This was my idea.
When it’s finished. I lie under him feeling silent and small. I want him to ask me what’s wrong. If I’m alright, but he doesn’t.
He just said, ‘That was nice, I guess I’ll see you around.’ And then passed me Rose’s dress.
I scramble into it, the dress feeling smaller than ever. I pull it down trying to cover my knees. He turns over and goes to sleep. I feel disgusting.
Zoey’s waiting for me downstairs. Scott’s asleep on the sofa.
‘Hey’ she whispers, ‘Finished already?’
I nod, grinning, which is weird considering how awful I feel.
‘How did it go? Was he any good?’ she clearly wants to know all the gory details.
I think of Jake upstairs, ‘I don’t know.’ I reply honestly.
Rose looks at me strangely, ‘You’ll get used to it.’
But we both know I won’t. As we walk back in silence to our dorms. I can’t help but think what she won’t say. I don’t have time to get used to it.
A/N- So she did it despite some of you not wanting her to!. I just want to thank everyone who's reviewed, favourited or even read this story. It's my first full length novel and I really hope you continue to review and read. I am about to write the next chapter so it should be up soon. Please review :)