Sorry for the long delay. Incase you don't remember what happened and are too lazy to go back.
-Lily and Severus kissed.
-Remus and Nikki are buds.
-Sleeping potion was taken.(This will be more important later on.)
Remember I own nothing and I have to give credit to Star Wars for the 'Jedi' referance and Monty Python and the Holy Grail for the 'Tim the Enchanter' referance.
“Drowning deep in my sea of loathing,
Broken your servant I kneel,
(Will you give in to me?),
It seems what's left of my human side,
Is slowly changing in me,
(Will you give in to me?)”
- Down With The Sickness, Disturbed
The next few weeks passed in a haze and before I knew it, it was already Friday, October 31st, Halloween. So much had happened since then that I didn’t even notice until I saw the giant pumpkins decorated in the Great Hall at breakfast that morning and every slutty Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, Slytherin, Gryffindor and a few of my roommates (devils from Hells) were wearing neon orange and black bras under their white oxford shirts.
In terms of my father journals, I just reached the part where my father proposed to Gaea, my mom. They had graduated Hogwarts about three weeks before then and had been going out for about two years with only minor bumps along the way. They just bought a house that I would know to be my childhood home. He proposed to her in the park by the Black home. It was a romantic little park with many memories for me and my family, good and bad.
Lily and Severus, from what I interpret, are still going strong. Although it’s a secret, Lily seems extremely happy; happier then I have seen her in a long time actually even with Potter’s constant bothering which is getting annoying more me more than Lils. When I hang out with Severus while Lily is busy with prefect duties, I know this has been his dream forever, since the beginning of time practically and I can tell he is thrilled even if he refuses to show any hint of emotion. It’s a good thing I can read him like a book. He has loved her for so long and all he needs to do now is not ruin it. I know he is hanging out with the wrong sorts which happen to be the same people Regulus is hanging out with. They are the hoping to be the new generation of Death Eaters. I hope for Lily’s sake and his own, Severus won’t do something stupid. Lily would be devastated and Severus would be beaten to a pulp, by yours truly. Severus is smart and I hope that he will pick the right way. I hope for once he will listen to his heart and nothing and no one else.
During their dates at Hogsmeade however, I have officially been given the job of body guard. I don’t have an official title yet, but I’m working on it with Severus even if he is being a total stick in the mud about it. I’m going for something like ‘The Jedi’ or ‘Tim the Enchanter’ from the muggle movies Lily has shown me over break. I’m leading more towards ‘Tim the Enchanter’ though but I would of course change Tim to Nikki. Anyways, all I have to do is make sure none of the Marauders, or Slytherins for that matter, see them, which has been proven harder than I thought. On multiple occasions I’ve had to chase Potter out with anything from barstools from Three Broomsticks, to pitch forks from Hogsmeade residents, to first years from any house. Slytherins know better than to bother me now for Potter’s examples and I don’t think they seem to care. But it’s nothing Nikki Fucking Redwood can’t handle regardless. Potter will get the point eventually, even if I have to beat it into his small brain.
Two weeks ago, Remus finally asked out Saph and they had their first date the day after. I thought it was sweet until I found out where; in the library. He took her to a library, and not just any library but the school library. I guess it’s still kind of sweet and all since they are both kind of nerds but still it’s the school library with the creepy stereotypical librarian Madam Pince. Somehow I find that really odd as a place for a date but it might just me. It’s not like I have much experience in the dating portion of relationships. Anyways they both seem extremely happy. They are more open with the status of their relationship, unlike Lily and Severus, but they haven’t gotten past hand holding which I think is sweet, they haven’t even kissed yet, or at least I think. They are so innocent!
Russ has been pushing the team harder than ever. He says that we must be prepared for everything, which we are. At least we know now what to do when fifty Bludger are let loose at once. I think he just wants us to win so that he can get the Quidditch cup on his last year, not that I blame him, I want the cup too and we have gotten it every year. Plus we all want to kick some Slytherin ass along the way. Anyways most practices now days end up either me or anyone for that matter being brutally bruised or Russ getting frustrated to the point of hysteria and us leaving early.
Thankfully for me, the dreamless sleep potion Remus found really works. I have only tried it three times since we made it five weeks ago but it’s still amazing. When I wake up I feel fully rested. Although on those nights the circles under my eyes don’t disappear but the nightmares do and I can’t say I miss them. I wish I could take it more often but I’m worried what would happen if I would become addicted.
The first night I tried it, I was pleasantly surprised to find that the nightmares were gone and I was more rested then I had been in a long while. That morning I practically jumped Remus in the common room, taking everyone by surprise. I was almost in tears with how happy I was about it working. He seemed equally as happy about this or maybe he was acting like that so I won’t strangle him to death, either way he was supportive.
Remus actually has proven himself to be a very good friend. I never thought it would be saying that before. He is kind of like the mother I never had as weird as that sounds. He is always there and listens to all my problems, although there hasn’t been any recently. He always helps me whether it is homework or personally issues. Plus he is a very nice person and I loved him in a brotherly way. I’m actually glad I got detention or else I would probably never have discovered how wonderful Remus actually is. But even though I have this new brotherly love for Remus that doesn’t mean I will reach out with the other Marauders.
Today I had Defense Against the Dark Arts and we were doing our dueling again since today was Friday. Every Friday, Professor Lebel has posted a sheet of parchment showing the lineup of dueling; today it was as followed: Mary McDonald against Steven Avery, the winner fought Severus Snape. The winner of that duel fought me. The winner of that then fought Potter. Black fought whoever the winner was of the pervious match.
We took our seat. I was next to Remus and Lily, on their sides was Saph and Severus. Merlin it awkward being sandwiched in between two couples. Potter, Black and Pettigrew sat behind us, which normally wouldn’t matter but they have been especially annoying lately. They seemed to think that it was fine for them to be near me since I was buddies with Remus. Pettigrew actually goes as far as to smiling creepily at me. Maybe Remus was right, maybe he does like me…eww.
The first match, Mary and Avery, took about two seconds if even that. It was the saddest fight I had ever seen and the most boring.
Mary shot a stinging hex but Avery blocked it and was able to disarm her. Professor Lebel seemed extremely bored by the match and so was everyone else. If it hadn’t been so quick, I might have fallen asleep.
With Avery as the winner it was Severus’ turn to duel. They got up and fought. Avery tried a leg locking curse and Severus dodged it and sent a full body binding curse at him. It hit Avery straight in the chest, making Severus the victor. This match caught more of Lebel’s attention. At least more interesting spells were used and it was a tad bit longer.
Now it was my turn. I was about to stand up when I heard Lily whisper, “Go easy on him.” I considered this then laughed. Just because he is your boyfriend, doesn’t mean I’m not going to let him off easy!
“Not going to happen.” I whispered back as I walked away before I could hear her protests.
I got onto the stage, I bowed with Severus. Then we started the duel.
“Locomotor Mortis!” Severus yelped as he shot a leg locking curse which I blocked with ease.
“Steleus!” I shouted as I shot the sneezing hex at Severus. Whenever he tried to speak the spell took over causing him to sneeze. “Ventus!” I called out my next spell which sent a powerful gust of wind out, knock Severus to the ground. “Expelliarmus!” I then shouted disarming him. I called off my spells and Severus stood up. Behind me I heard Professor Lebel clap and a few other students.
“Excellent use of spells, Mrs. Redwood, I really am impressed.” He remarked in his thick accent.
“Thanks.” I mumbled as I handed Severus back his wand. Potter then stood up and strutted to the front with a cocky grin. We bowed and started the duel.
“Confundo!” Potter yelled as he sent a confusion charm as me. I dropped to the ground and dodged it.
From there I called, “Flipendo!” and it sent Potter flying back.
Unfortunately he had more in him, as he got up and called out, “Impedimenta!” causing me to trip and fall after I had just gotten up.
On the ground again, I called, “Fumos!” which unleashed a dark grey smoke that took over the stage, blinding everyone but me. “Wingardim Leviosa!” I called as Potter’s wand flew from his hand, dangling just out of reach as I manipulated it. The smoke clear and Lebel clapped his hand on my shoulder.
“Fantastic spell casting. I’ve never seen such an interesting variety of spells during a duel. Please give Mr. Potter his wand back though.” He told me with a small grin on his face.
I waved my wand and Potter’s fell into his hands. He went to take his seat grumbling angry and Black walked up to the stage. I smirked as I thought of all the possibilities of spells to use on him. We bowed and went to our ready position. He called the first spell.
“Obscuro!” He muttered incoherently as a blindfold attached itself over my eyes.
Instantly groped for it and untied it quietly. Carefully I mumbled, “Ascendio!” which lifted Black into the air. I then undid the spell and he crashed onto the floor, however I was not done. “Serpensortia!” I called as a snake burst from my wand. It started to twist itself around Black and he dropped his wand as I called, “Accio Sirius Orion Black’s wand!” His wand flew from the ground into my hand. I waved my wand, making the snake disappear. He fell to the ground and gasped for a second before standing up red in the face.
When we were little, Black was terrified of snakes. I was probably one of the only people in the room who knew that if it were still true. The look on his face though told me that it was. One of the highlights of knowing the enemy.
The class half clapped, half gaped at me. I didn’t mind, I wasn’t trying to impress them. Lebel nodded us to take our seats. I threw Black his wand which he caught with ease but along with a frown.
“Now as you saw, any spell you learn here, whether it’s a simple levitating charm or blinding hex, can be used in combat.” Lebel remarked as he nodded his head in my direction. “Now those of you who are left to duel will go up next lesson. I want two feet on the use of simple spells in dueling. You’re dismissed.”
The class got up and exited in a hurry. Lily and Severus disappeared, probably to be alone in some dark abandoned classroom to snog and Saph and Remus went to the library probably for the same reason but possibly more innocent. I was left alone and sadly bored. I went outside for it was one of the last nice days of the year before it would turn bitterly cold and windy.
I walked around the Black Lake, lost in thought, that I didn’t notice anyone until I was knocked onto the ground buried under books. My bag was laying a few feet away and my wand had rolled from my pocket. I retrieved them quickly.
“Sorry, oh shit, I’m so sorry.” Said a male vice as his hands reached to help me up. I accepted the hands and looked up. It was Adrian Gear, a Seventh year Slytherin. He was the lead chaser and captain of the Slytherin Quidditch team. Also he and Russ used to be best mates before Hogwarts separated them. Adrian had brown curly locks that brushed over his penetrating blue eyes. He was a fair amount taller than me and extremely more buff then me. “Oh, hello Redwood.” He said as I got up. I looked at the ground to see his books throw in a mess.
“Sorry about your books Gear.” I said as I reached down to help him pick them up.
“Oh its fine. You know you can call me Adrian. I actually rather you would.” He announced trying to meet my gaze with a smirk.
“I rather not.” I told him abruptly as I shoved the books into his hands. As I retracted my arms but he caught them with one of his.
“Oh come on now. You don’t always have to hate me.” He smiled, laughing.
“And why is that?” I asked as I yanked my hands out of his. I crossed my arms defensively.
“Because I don’t think it would do us any harm to be nice off the pitch.” He reasoned as he got up.
“Well it’s easier like this.” I stated before turning to walk away. Unfortunately he caught up to me with his long legs. Just leave me alone!
“Why? You don’t do that with Regulus Black.” He offered as he blocked my path. He had shoved his books into his bag and had shoved his hands in his pockets giving him that laid back or aloof look.
“That’s different.” I explained as I tried to walk further.
“Why can’t this be different?” He asked giving me a smile.
I raised my eye brows at him. “Are you doing what I think you’re doing?” I asked.
“That all depends on what you think I’m doing.” He smiled leaning in. Before I could protest his lips gentle pressed against mine. My first thought was to push him away but then somewhere in the back of my mind a voice told me not to and held me back. I was lonely and the only girl in my dorm, not to have ever had a boyfriend. I mean I have kissed boys lots of times but never really dated, it wasn’t ever a concern to me until now. I was in desperate need of some romance I guess. Maybe that all I really needed right now.
I suddenly found myself deepening the kiss. Our lips moved in sync as he pushed me against the stone wall gently. I wrapped my arms around his neck and wove my fingers through his soft curly hair. Adrian cradled my head with one hand and pressed the other against the wall above my head. We pushed our bodies as close as possible trying to increase the intensity of the kiss.
Just as we were getting into the kiss we were interrupted by a cough. Instantly we broke apart to see Russ and Adam standing there arms crossed. I slide away from Adrian so I wasn’t within arm’s reach. I felt all the blood, rise in my cheeks as I blushed beat red. Adrian just had a satisfied smirk and Russ and Adam looked extremely pissed.
“Are we interrupting something?” Russ asked in a rough voice. I gulped. I’ve never heard Russ so mad and directed at me before. Usually he only got like this with Seth and Abraham and they were joking around. Russ never got mad, especially at me.
I shook my head slightly remembering what I just did. I kissed the enemy. I almost fell for the enemy. “No you’re not. It was nothing.” I responded walked away from Adrian and over to Adam and Russ.
Behind me I heard Adrian chuckle softly. I knew he was enjoying this. This was all a game to him. He was just trying to give the Slytherins and edge.
“Later Nikki.” Adrian cooed before walking off. I winced as I heard Adam and Russ growl. Once he was out of hearing distance Russ grabbed my arm, digging his finger into my arm. He dragged me down the halls with Adam in tow until we reached the common room.
Once inside, Russ released me on the couch. A few couches away I could see Potter, Black, and Pettigrew watching. Just my luck.
“What the hell was that?” Russ yelled at me. I cringed as I pulled my knees up to my chest. I wrapped my arms around them and looked at the table. I refused to meet his glare. I knew his brown eye would hurt too much to look at. I didn’t want to see his disappointment or rage. I felt guilty.
“I don’t know.” I mumbled softly trying to hold back my emotions.
“To me it looked like you were securing a win to the Slytherins.” Adam hissed which hurt me since he was supposed to be my Quidditch bud.
“No, never.” I argued meeting his piercing gaze and winced.
“Really Nikki. You think that you’ll be able to go easy on your boyfriend? You’re not going to be able to, trust me.” Russ barked and I knew he was referencing himself and Kristen, his old girlfriend. She had been the Ravenclaw keeper and as long as she had been keeper, Russ couldn’t make a single goal. He felt too guilty that if he did, it would ruin their relationship.
“He isn’t my boyfriend.” I argued slightly. “I don’t have to explain myself.”
“Oh so he is a fling?” Russ growled. I knew that hurt since they used to be best mates.
“No he is a nothing!” I yelled standing up. “I have never let my personal life interfere with Quidditch, you should know since, one, my best friend, from practically since I was born, is my direct enemy, two, I hate people on our team but I deal with it to the best I can, and three, I never let any personal problem I have with any of you interfere with my game.” I huffed. “If you don’t know me enough by now to think I can’t handle my personal life and my Quidditch life or any other life I have, then I don’t know how we are even considered friends.” I yelled, turning the guilt on to them. Let’s see how they like it.
With that I stood up and stomped to my dorm room. They made no move to stop me and for once I wished someone did. I didn’t want to fight with Adam or Russ. I didn’t want to have a hissy fit. I didn’t want Adrian in my fucking life. I just wanted to not screw up.
Once inside my room, I slammed the door shut behind me. I turned around to face the door and growled. Picturing Adrian’s smiling face, I punched the door as hard as I could, not that I could break it even I if tried. Pain shot through my hand and up my arm but I ignored it. I punched again and again until the door opened. In walked the bitches from hell. Lucky me!
“What?” I hissed.
“You should stop punching the door.” Marlene said as she walked over to me. She put her hand on my shoulder but not in a comforting way but a condescending one. She acted like a mother talking down to a disobedient child. Do I look fucking seven?
“Maybe you should get your hands off me.” I spoke as calmly as I could. I was practically shaking. Hot angry tears were in my eyes but I would let none fall in front of them.
“What happened? Regulus Black dumped you for cheating?” Miranda cooed from her bed and started laugh. “James had the pleasure of telling us.”
I finally snapped. After all the years of us fighting I have never been so pissed at a petty little comment like that. Who did Potter think he was for spreading rumors about me? Sure we didn’t like each other but we never made direct attacks like this. For once I finally snapped to the point of no return.
“Shut the fuck up for once Miranda! Just shut the fuck up! I don’t care what you have to say about some stupid rumor you heard! I don’t care what you think of me but I just ask you to SHUT THE FUCK UP!” I yelled as loud as I could. I saw her shrink back at my words but I wasn’t done. “I know you hate me and trust me the feeling is mutual. Just leave me alone. Listen to Potter all you want because he obviously knows some shit.” I twisted around and left the room, slamming the door behind me again.
I walked all the way to the common room seething. This was entirely Potter’s and Gear’s fault. I looked at my hand and cursed under my breath. The skin around my knuckles was peeling and bleeding. I started to walk to the hospital wing. As I walked a few first years coward away from me, but I didn’t care; I was mad.
When I got in there I saw Lily. Her face was bright red and she looked just about as pissed as I felt. She was pacing back and forth and tears looked like they would fall any moment.
“What happened?” I asked suddenly, my anger flooding away. I scanned her body but see looked fine, just upset.
“Potter.” She growled. She saw my hand and pulled out her wand. She mumbled a spell under her breath and my skin on my hand healed. I nodded my thanks.
“What did he do?” I asked as rage boiled in me again. I was already mad at him for my own reasons but if he did anything to Lily it would be ten times worse.
“He cursed Sev after he found us kissing! Sev fought back but then Black cursed him against the wall and Sev blacked out.” Lily cried as tears fell down her cheeks.
“Where are they?” I asked, my eyes flashing.
“They are probably hiding from punishment outside. Why?” Lily asked me, but it was too late, I was already gone.
I ran all the way to the Entrance Hall. I ran outside and scanned the area. I saw them at the far end of the Black lake by the Forbidden Forest. Locking eyes on my target, I sprinted over at them. Once I was close enough, I leaped into the air and pounced on Potter and pinned him to the ground.
As hard as I could, I punched him. I hit his stomach, his arms, and face. I felt blood hit my fist as it hit his nose. Potter tried to fight me back but his efforts were useless against my rage. He couldn’t even imagine the hatred I felt at the moment. He couldn’t fathom my rage.
I felt two arms wrap around me, one around my waist and the other holding one of my hands. I fought to get out of their grasp but they were too strong. Remus helped Potter up. He was bleeding and before Remus even thought about it, Potter ran towards me. I was ready to fight but instead of punching me, he looked above my head at the person holding me back.
“What the hell Pads?” Potter yelled. I cringed. Pads equaled Sirius Black.
“I was trying to save you from being bloodied up by this bitch. In case you didn’t know you weren’t doing to well.” He grunted. I swung my leg back and kicked him in the shin but he refused to let me go. I flailed my arms over my head but it was still no use, he was no going to let me down.
“Let her! I fucking screwed up!” Potter yelled red in the face. His hand was holding his bleeding nose.
“You sure fucking did!” I yelled back but I felt Black tighten his grip on my waist. “What the fuck is wrong with you?”
“I was pissed! Sue me for being mad about my only love kissing Slytherin scum!” Potter yelled at me.
“That doesn’t give you the right to curse him into unconsciousness.” I yelled at Potter. I tried to wiggle away from Black but he held me firm. “You either Black. What’s your fucking excuse?” I growled.
“I was sticking up for my friends.” He spoke the calmest of all. That made me even madder. I hated how calm he could in a situation like this but in a direct attack, he was spitting fire. He is so fucking bipolar it pisses me off even more.
“I’m going to beat the shit out of you as soon as I’m out of this!” I hissed through my clenched teeth.
“Nikki, calm down.” Remus said quietly. I shook my head and he sighed. “Sirius will let you go, when you do.”
I nodded my head and ‘calmed down’. Once Black set me down, I turned around and punched him right in the jaw. I heard something crack, not knowing if it was my hand or his jaw, but I didn’t care. This time Remus held me back and Potter held Black back. My hand was already in pain again.
“You are fucking little shit.” Black yelled and I laughed humorlessly.
“Your one to talk.” I hissed.
“Enough!” I heard from a distance. I turned to see Russ and Adam. Just my fucking luck today.
“Come to yell at me more?” I growled at them.
“We came to yell at all of you. Come on to the locker room now. Seth and Abraham are already waiting for us anyways.” Russ said as he came over to us. Adam and Remus switched places and Russ avoided me completely, walking to the locker room.
Once we got in there. I was positioned in between Abraham and Remus. Seth, Adam, and Pettigrew held Potter and Black and made sure they were seated. Russ turned to all of us.
“Are you on your period? What is wrong with you today? What the hell is going on here?” Russ asked looking straight at me.
“No I am not on my period, a lot of things are wrong with me obviously, and I punched them.” I hissed looking straight at Potter.
“Why?” Adam asked, glaring down at me.
“I did it because he cursed a Slytherin who Lily was lip locking.” I mumbled.
“That the only reason?” Abraham blurted.
“That and he was spreading petty rumors about me to his little fan club!” I shouted, standing up. Abraham got up and held me back.
“What are you talking about?” Potter asked confused, he too standing up.
“Oh, don’t act like you don’t know.” I growled. “You told the three bitches from hell, I share a room with that I was going at it with Gear.”
“That wasn’t me!” Potter explained.
“Then who was it?” Adam growled. “It wasn’t James, Russ or me and honestly I would like to finish this conversation.”
“I did it. Let’s just get with conversation done with like Adam said.” Black blurted out. Anger rippled threw me and I lunged at him. Abraham and Remus weren’t ready this time, though and I pegged him to the ground, hard. I had my wand to his forehead in a matter of seconds and I muttered a string of cusses.
“Why? Why the fuck, do you always mess with me? I get it we hate each other, but let’s leave it at that.” I whispered menacingly. One hand was gripping his shirt. I was sitting on top of him glaring daggers at him. All he did was look up at me and smirk.
“Why not? Isn’t that we always do to each other? It’s like our little game, just you and me.” Black spat in disgust.
“Not if you two want to stay on this team.” Russ growled. I slowly got up and went to my seat. Black got up with a satisfied smirk. “Now, I’m only going to say this once. If you two ever do anything like this again, you will be off the Quidditch team. As punishment,” Russ said as he walked up to me. He picked up my hand and led me over to Black. He grabbed Black’s hand and waved his wand over our hands. A metal chain appeared, locking us together. I flinched away immediately, only pulling his hand with. “You two will be chained together for the rest of the night. At mid-night I will release you both. Maybe you can sort out your issues together.”
“Oh hell no.” I said shaking my head. “What about sleeping early for tomorrow’s match?”
“Too bad, you should have thought about that before. Now the three of you should go to the Hospital wing and get fix up.” Adam said before giving me an apologetic smile and leaving. Seth and Abraham left as well. Remus and Pettigrew helped Potter out, leaving Black, Russ and me alone.
“Russ we need to talk.” I said, ignoring Black presence after closing my eyes.
“Fine, but do you want to do it was Black here?” He said crossing his arms.
“I don’t care. Look with Gear that was nothing. If anything I was just being stupid and possibly a bit desperate. I’m sorry. I know that you should be mad and all but I just hope you can forgive me. I hate apologizing and all that shit that goes with it but I hope you find it in your not completely ruined heart to forgive desperate old Nikki.” I said dramatically with my hand over my heart.
“Desperate?” Russ said and I knew he was smirking.
“Oh please don’t make me explain myself.” I begged already smiling.
“Oh not now, but later.” Russ said with a wink. “I think you got yourself enough problems tonight.” With that Russ left me alone with Black. I tugged my wrist and led him out of the locker room which he complied.
For about fifteen minutes we made no conversation to each other. It was as if we were oblivious to being chained together. We made it to the Hospital Wing, and Poppy didn’t ask any questions. She healed my bleeding knuckles and my fractured hand that I hadn’t even noticed until now and she fixed up Black’s jaw that I had slightly dislocated and with that we left.
Going to the Halloween feast was out of the question and we silently agreed to go to the kitchens together to eat. We met no one on the way and still refused to acknowledge each other. As we walked I would look over at him to see his grey orbs of eyes, fixed straight ahead of him. His black hair hung in his face. He looked deep in thought and seemed to be just gliding where ever I led him.
When we got to the kitchens I tickled the pear and the portrait swung open. His stomach immediately growled. I hid my smile. Some things never change. We walked in and were attacked by house elves.
“Miss, miss, what can Dippy gets you? Sir, sir, Tink wants to help.” They begged.
“Can I just have a plate of as many French fries as possible?” I asked. Dippy nodded his head before running off.
“I’ll have a chicken sub, Tink.” Black said on my left.
They brought up our food and set it up at a table. We awkwardly sat down next to eat other and started to eat. Even time Black brought food to his mouth with his right hand, my left hand went with. Why couldn’t he be left handed?
Finally ten minutes passed and nothing still. I was now going to go stir crazy from all the silence. I don’t like the silence. I stirred one of my fries in a pool of red ketchup before tossing it into my mouth. I looked up to see him watching me carefully. He seemed to be studying my every motion and feature. Finally I caught his eyes and he immediately dropped his gaze to his plate with the look a little kid get when you catch them stealing cookies from the cookie jar. When he looked back up and I caught his gaze again with my eye brows raised. He rolled his eyes before turning to his food again. This went on for about another five minutes.
“So you and Remus are still buddies. I thought that wouldn’t last long.” Black said after a while.
“Yeah, I guess we are.” I nodded my head. I might hate him but not talking is torture even if he is my only escape.
“Okay, I can’t talk about anything normal with you. We will just piss each other off more. So let’s talk Quidditch, something we can both agree on.” He finally said meeting my eyes.
“That works for me.” I said with a shrug. At least it was a topic we couldn’t argue about. Too much.
“Well I have been thinking of this move and it might work if I get a beater and then us two.” He said and from there it carried us through the whole meal. Surprisingly is idea wasn’t so horrible but we would have to train extra hard for it. We would have to wait a while before considering doing it, but the end result might just be worth it but only if the moment was right.
Anyways once we finished eating we left the kitchens, escaping the hyperactive house elves. Again we walked in silence. I lifted my left wrist and his right, to check the clock on his hand. It was about eleven and it was late. I couldn’t believe we even stayed down there that long. The professors would not be happy to see us this late though. We silently crept through the castle. Every time we heard a noise, we were ready to run. Even though we hadn’t discussed anything it seemed like we made a temporary truce in order to get through the last hour.
We were walking down the sixth floor corridor, only one stair case away from Gryffindor Tower when we heard the tapping of shoes. Panic felling me and before I could protest, Black grabbed me and pulled me into a broom cupboard that was close by. He closed it behind us and I realized how small it was.
We were squished, chest to chest. My back was pressed uncomfortably against the wall with nowhere to move. His free hand was holding the door shut and the one chained to my, was next to my thigh and holding my hand. He let go immediately but occasionally it would twitch and brush my leg ever so gently. I tried my best to ignore it as my stomach started to squirm.
We heard the footsteps come closer and I shivered in fear. Our breathing was so loud that I tried to hold it in. I tried to move back to give Black more room but I incidentally hit a bucket, making a crisp clunk. The footsteps walked over to our cupboard and I start to freak out. Black looked at me and seemed to be contemplating something. Hopefully he would think of an escape plan before I did the first thing that came to my mind.
We needed an escape and he still hadn’t given me any sign of a plan. I grabbed his free and put it around my waist and pushed myself closer to him. I put mine around his neck and brought his face to mine. He didn’t even bother restraining as he too pushed himself closer and penned me to the wall. Right before our lips made contact, I whispered, “Change my hair blonde with my wand in my back pocket. That way I won’t be recognized. I don’t think anyone would care if they saw you with a blonde bimbo but me they would have a field day.”
I barley felt his hand retrieve my wand from my back pocket and change my hair as our lips moved against each other. They were soft and hard, cold and hot, sweet and bitter, wonder and disgusting. I loved it but it made me want to throw up. So many raw emotions rose inside me. I hated this kid but we were working together to escape detention.
My stomach started to act up again and I tried my hardest to push it out of my head. My head was pounding and it hurt. My heart was about to jump out of my chest. I’m pretty sure he could feel it but I didn’t care. I held the tears of pain that were trying to escape my eyes.
The door swung open and there was a loud cough as light flooded into the dark cupboard. Black and I broke apart to see a gangly sixth year Hufflepuff perfect. I used my hair to cover my face as he raised our eyebrows and looked between us. He didn’t seem to know who I was but he knew Black and smiled at him.
“Get out of here.” He said, clapping Black on the back with a smirk. We walked out and I did my best to hide the handcuffs and my face. I could hear the Hufflepuff whisper, “Nice one, she is hot.”
We walked and once we were out of hearing range, Black started to laugh. I raised my eye brows, trying not to laugh also. Then I remembered it was Black.
“You are most certainly the worst blonde I have ever been with.” He laughed, sounding like his old self. The boy that use to be my best friend but I knew that could never be again.
“Well consider this a onetime thing. It will never happen again.” I retorted as I pulled my wand out and changed my hair back to its original color. I huffed and start to pull him toward the staircase. Luckily it didn’t move on us and we were in front of the Fat Lady in a matter of minutes. With the password exchanged, we walked inside.
It was nearly empty except for Potter, Russ, Adam, Remus, Pettigrew, Lily, and us. They were all sitting on a cluster of couches waiting. When we walked in they all jumped to look at us.
“Where have you been?” Lily yelped as she ran toward me. She hugged me and I gave her a hug back with my free hand. I could feel Black shift awkwardly next to me.
“Oh you know.” I said, waving my hand. She looked at me confused but then I looked over at Russ. “Handcuffs off?” I asked.
“No, I’m afraid you two still have half an hour left.” Russ said smiling. “When I get done with my shower, I’ll come get you.” He said as he got up and left.
Awkwardly, Black and I walked over to on one of the couches. We sat as far away from each other as we possibly could but it was hard with the handcuffs. Lily, Adam and Remus, were across from us and watched us avoid any contact with each other.
“So why are you two back so late?” Remus asked, watching our faces for any sign of emotion.
“We ate in the kitchen.” I said.
“Then what?” Adam asked, grinning at all the possibilities running through his perverted mind.
Before I could answer Black did for me. “We came back up here but had to take the long way to avoid prefects.” Lily and Remus nodded their heads in understanding. A few awkward minutes pasted and I yawned loudly. I snuck a glance over at Black and he was shaking his leg impatiently. I then looked over at the other Marauders to see huge ridiculous grins plastered on their faces. Lily looked just as confused as me and Adam burst out laughing.
“What?” I asked confused.
“Nothing, I just feel bad for Sirius.” Adam said before cracking up. Potter howled along with laughter as Remus smiling and Pettigrew giggled.
“Why?” Lily asked just as confused as me.
“Oh Lily Flower, I would tell you but Padfoot might beat me up. I mean it’s kind of embarrassing.” Potter said as he got up to walk over to her. She swatted at him a few times until he gave up and sat next to Black and pushed him closer to me. I heard Black moan and I looked over at him confused.
His graze was fixed on the floor and he looked almost in pain. I didn’t get what was going on. Occasionally he would look over at me and look away as quickly as possible. With his free hand, he would ruffle up his hair, and then brush it back down.
Adam then got up and pushed me closer to Black, taking a seat next to me. By now I was practically on Black lap and my stomach started acting up again. I could feel him tense up and I just wanted to get away.
I felt the muscles in my stomach tighten and squirm. My face grew hot and I started to overheat. I was getting dizzy and I felt like I was going to vomit. Any part of me in contact with him felt as if there were on fire. My hand was twisted uncomfortably around my back because of the handcuffs. I tried to shift away but only made it worse. I looked around in hopes of an escape from my over powerfully beating heart.
I was disgusted. He had kissed me and now I was so close and I felt nausea. I couldn’t stand all this close contact. He hurt me so bad and broke me further then even my parents’ deaths could. He was the sun in my life but as soon as he blacked out I was left in the cold dark world. I shook my head and hopped onto Adam’s lap. I could hear Black sigh next to us in relief and Potter laugh loudly. In my head I could hear faint voices. Poor Pads. Jeez she is hot. What is happening?
Russ finally came down stairs with his wand raised. I jumped up and pulled Black behind me until I reached Russ. I held my hand up and with Russ’ wand, the handcuffs disappeared. I started to whoop and cheer but my nausea came back. I turned around and I felt dizzy. I staggered a bit and I felt a hand on my arm. I looked to see Black’s almost genuine worried face. My stomach contracted and my throat tightened. Without another look to anyone I ran out of the common room into the halls of the school.
I ran and ran until I made it to the third floor corridor. I was shaking so badly, I couldn’t help it and I didn’t know why. I could barely hold myself up. I was cold, sick and confused. Anger coursed through me along with regret, longing, and sadness. I collapsed at the end of the hall way and sobbed. Tear ran down my face and I pulled my legs up to my chest.
I felt as if I were set on fire. My skin felt sunburned and my breath felt hot. I pressed my back against too cold stone and I tried to relax. My head felt as if someone was beating my brain with a sledge hammer. Once the heat passed the wind came and it was bone chilling. I shivered but made no move to go.
My nausea was a strong as ever. My heart was ready to pop out of my chest. In my head I heard the voices again but they were louder and most defiantly not mine. Is she okay? What did that little fucker do? I wish Potter would leave me alone so I could find her. What happened? Sirius better not have poisoned her or he is dead. Pads wouldn’t do anything like that. I’m sorry. These voices didn’t belong to me. They were male and female but I couldn’t tell who even though they sounded familiar.
I felt my lips where less than an hour ago, Black had kissed and about five hours ago Gear kissed. Gear had been a mistake. I was lonely and seeing all the couples around me made me anxious. I just didn’t want to be lonely, I wanted some romance. He seemed eager and so was I.
But Black’s kiss was different. I wasn’t out of passion or desperation; it was out of need to escape detention. I shouldn’t have done it but it felt so weird. My lips tingled in the memory and thoughts flooded into my head again much louder as if there were screaming; did you hear about Kallen and Austin? Gryffindor is so going to beat Slytherin. I think I’m in love with James Potter, the Gryffindor.
I held my head until all the thoughts stopped and more tears slid down my face in pain. I needed to escape the voices but I couldn’t. I don’t know how long I sat there until I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders. I looked up to see one of the only people in this school that could possibly understand; Regulus Black.
I hugged him and he wrapped me up in his arms. He rubbed my arms and whispered sweet things in my ear. He let me use his sleeve as a tissue and drench his shirt in tears. Never once did he force me to talk, never once did he judge me on what I did tell him. He just sat and listened as I spilled my heart about Gear, Black and how I didn’t know what was happening to me. I told him how I felt sick and how my head hurt.
Even though I loved Reg, I couldn’t tell him about the voices. Hearing voices isn’t exactly a good thing in any world. I didn’t want to seem like I was going crazy. I’m going to need to figure it out by myself, whatever was happening to me.
Hey sorry for the extremely long delay. I have been busy with taking college classes, online classes, and just plain old regular classes.
Anyways, I hope a few of you have stuck around long enough from before the long gap and have missed this story as much as I hope you guys have. So here is the fun little question for just incase you have nothing to comment about(Please comment anyways) What do you think these voices mean and if you can guess whose they are (They are in fact people we will see throught the story...well most of them):)
Please comment and i promise a new chapter will be up. I have up to twelve written out during the long break.
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