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"Bloody cat! It's six in the fucking morning!" I saw an arm flailing and something landed on me.
I shoved the shirt on and bolted to the bathroom to do the regular morning sickness. After I rinsed my mouth out, I walked back into the bedroom and James was muttering incoherently.
"I can't hear you James, sorry."
"Yeah, I just had to use the bathroom, I'm fine." It was an awful lie but James nodded and went back to sleep.
I slept with James.
WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME?!
I walked out of the bedroom and saw my fat Lionel sitting next to his bowl with an expression that said 'Bitch you didn't feed me last night. Feed me now.'
I grumbled a bit as I feed him. I wanted to go back to sleep but my head was going in circles.
Oh Merlin, I've made a mess.
Okay so waking up naked, with a killer hangover, next to your best friend, who incidentally you're in love with, is awkward.
But, waking up naked, completely sober, next to your best friend, who you're in love with, who got you pregnant but doesn't know yet and is letting you stay at his flat is even more awkward.
I'm an idiot.
After getting changed into something more appropriate I took a peek the lump in the middle of the sheets. James was still crashed and shirtless. Well he was probably naked but I'm not even going to go there.
I walked out and laid down on the couch. Lionel, who's now content that his fat stomach is full, jumped in my lap and started to purr. I patted his soft orange fur as he started to fall asleep. Sometimes I wish I were a cat. You could fall asleep anywhere and no one would say anything because you're a cat and cats do that type of thing. And if you got pregnant, no one would care because they want to have cute kittens to play with.
I sighed and closed my eyes. I've made such a mess right now. I have no idea what I'm going to do. I must have fallen asleep and when I woke up I saw James making himself a coffee. His back was turned to me, and because he didn't have a shirt on, I could ogle at his back muscles.
He was so perfectly toned. It was amazing. He had that lean frame that Al and Harry had, but playing Quidditch professionally really did him some favours. I started to think the way my hands felt against him when he turned around and gave me a smile.
I quickly shook my head to get rid of the thoughts of last night and flashed him a quick grin back. "Morning James."
Keep a cool, calm façade Reese. You can do it!
When he started to prepare breakfast I remembered my plan. "No! No! I can make breakfast! You made dinner last night, it's only fair!"
Merlin, what happened to cool and calm? I probably looked insane right now.
James looked at me with an amused smile and said, "Reese, you know its lunch right?"
Huh? I checked up at the clock and saw it was indeed lunch. "Bu-but you said morning before!"
He smirked- I think my ovaries exploded. "Well when I looked up it was 11:58 so technically, it was morning."
Smartarse. I rolled my eyes and got up off the couch. "Well, its breakfast for me so I'll make a brunch. But I can still make you something. You made dinner last night, it’s only fair."
He gave me a funny look for a second and then shrugged. "Sure, if you really want to, I won't stand in your way. I'm going to take a shower."
Okay Reese. You got this. Cook, clean, reveal.
Fuck! The sausages were spitting at me and Merlin, it burned! I quickly flicked my wand at them and the fire went out beneath them. They started to sizzle so I quickly levitated them on a plate. I wasn’t touching those demons!
Next, were the eggs. Eggs, I could do very well. I learnt how to make them when I was ten and whenever I was home alone, I'd eat eggs.
I cooked the eggs in about five minutes (see? I'm a beast) and started on the toast. This bit was easy. Step 1: Place bread in toaster. Step 2: Butter toast.
I grilled some tomatoes and placed them on a plate. I had a vague feeling that I was forgetting something. Meh. I'm sure it was nothing.
I grabbed a jug of juice and set it on the counter. I admired my handiwork but I couldn't shake that feeling that I've forgotten something.
"Looks good Reese."
I whirled around and grinned at James.
Cue hormones rushing in. His hair was wet and had little water drops clinging to the ends. For once, it was lying relatively flat. He had a shirt on now (sigh, he looked much better without it), but it was nice fitting, and showed off his arms.
James was grinning back at me and as I was about to say thanks, his grin slid off his face and he rushed to the stove to turn it off.
"Reese! Did you forget about the bacon?"
Fuck! That's what I forgot! I take a look at it and see it all black and shrivelled up. That's so depressing.
I had no idea why, but the urge to cry just overwhelmed me. I couldn't be bothered to fight it. I glanced at James and burst into tears.
I seriously have issues.
James quickly dropped the pan in the sink and wrapped me in a hug. I gratefully wrapped my arms around his waist and let myself sob.
"Fuck Reese! It's alright! Don't worry we can cook more!"
"I ruined everything! This was meant to be good!"
"No you didn't! It’s okay, it doesn't even matter! Honestly, don't worry about it." He was rubbing circles on my back and kissing the top of my head, but all I could do was blubber.
I started wailing, "I'm a failure James! I ruin everything! EVERYTHING'S RUINED JAMES!"
"No you didn't! You're not a failure, there's some more in the fridge!" His futile attempts at soothing me were not working.
"Yes I did! Everything is ruined James and it's all my fault!"
"Reese, its only bacon. I have some more don't worry"
"IT'S NOT THE BACON!" I couldn't help yelling. "IT'S NOT THE BACON JAMES! I'M PREGNANT! PREGNANT!"
I took another shuddering sob and then realised what I just said.
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!
I HAVE ISSUES PEOPLE!
James didn't respond. He just wordlessly took his arms away from me and went as pale as a sheet. He looked at me, his mouth forming the wordless question.
"Yes, James. I'm pregnant. And yes, it's yours."
"Reese! Did you forget about the bacon?" She took one glance at it and burst into tears.
I quickly hugged her to calm her down. "Fuck, Reese! It's alright! Don't worry we can cook more!"
She buried herself in my shirt and sniffled, "I ruined everything! This was meant to be good!"
"No you didn't! It's okay, it doesn't even matter! Honestly, don't worry about it." I kissed the top of her head but she kept crying. She must have really wanted bacon.
"I'm a failure James! I ruin everything! EVERYTHING'S RUINED JAMES!"
It's a bit of an over-reaction but hey? What can I say? Bacon's the best.
"No you didn't! You're not a failure, there's some more in the fridge!" I protest but she just shook her head and sobbed even harder.
"Yes I did! Everything is ruined James and it's all my fault!"
"Reese, its only bacon. I have some more don't worry." I don't think she understands I have more in the fridge...
"IT'S NOT THE BACON! IT'S NOT THE BACON JAMES! I'M PREGNANT! PREGNANT!"
I felt myself freezing up.
No. No. No. No. No. No. No.
It can't be.
It's a sick joke or something. No. She can't be serious. I don't even remember taking my arms off her but now I have no idea what to do with them.
She calmed herself down and wiped at her face. She then looked at me sadly with those green eyes.
Oh Merlin. She's serious. Fuck. Shit. Fuck.
Fuck. FUCK. She's fucking serious. FUCK!
Oh Merlin. It was mine isn't it?
A small voice at the back of my head replied for me.
Oh Merlin. I tried to form the question but my voice was being a shithead and not letting me talk.
But then she finally said something.
"Yes, James. I'm pregnant-"
Before I could respond however, she continued, "And yes. It's yours."
I guess it made sense. Reese's eating yesterday. Dear Merlin, she mixed everything together, it looked horrible but I hadn't questioned it. She also snored. I know Reese doesn't snore, but last night... It wasn't even the cute little quiet snores you see in movies. It was the one you would usually silence, or if you're a muggle, you would kick them out.
And she threw up this morning. But she denied it when I asked, I just thought because it was so bloody early, I imagined it. But she actually did.
Well fuck me.
Because of me.
One of my best friends, who is one of the few that isn't related to me, is pregnant.
It’s at times like this the English language needs more swear words.
She's silent, tugging on a stray curl, letting me wrap my head around it.
I don't think my head will ever wrap around it.
I got Reese pregnant.
The girl that I’ve been kind of interested in since Teddy’s wedding.
Up the duff.
Bun in the oven.
However you want to say it, the fact is that I fertilised her egg with my sperm successfully.
Fuck! It doesn't even sound better when it's said scientifically!
Everything sounds better scientifically!
I can't even say anything right now.
Then Reese broke the silence surrounding us. "Look James, can I-"
I interrupted her, knowing I was being rude but I couldn't deal with it right now. "I have to go"
I turned on the spot and disapparate with a crack. I didn't even think of a place, I just needed to leave.
"AHHHHH!" Shit I've broken the Statute haven't I?
"James, what the fuck are you doing here?" Oh wait, never mind, I've just apparated into Mum's kitchen and scared the life out of Al. Usually I would laugh at him for being such a pansy but right now...
Al took one look at me and immediately said, "Shit James. Sit down." I obeyed him without talking.
"James! What's wrong?!" Lily looked really worried. Did I really look that bad?
"James sweetie, what are you doing here?"
"I don't know, he just apparated here looking like that. I made him sit," Al answered Mum.
She rushed over to me and over her shoulder she said, "Lily get your father right now."
Al asked me, "What's wrong?"
I opened my mouth and only one word came out. "Reese…"
Al swore and before Mum could chide him, he disapparated with a crack.
I sat on the couch and put my head in my hands. Why on earth would I tell him like that?
I sprung up from the couch when I see the dark, messy hair. I immediately blurted out, "James!" I had no idea what I was going to say to him but when he turned around, it wasn't him. It was Al.
"Reese! Fuck, did you tell him? He turned up at ours looking like he'd witnessed a murder."
I nodded and he grabbed my hand. "Come on then, we gotta go."
I pulled my hand out of his grip and said in a small voice, "Madame Pomfrey told me I shouldn't be apparating."
Al blew out an exasperated breath and ran a hand through his hair. "Can you floo?"
I shrugged, I didn't know. "It should be fine."
He nods and says in a hurried tone, "Look Reese, can we hurry up? Mum's probably slapping James so he'll talk." I nodded and he told me, "I'll disapparate so I can catch you at the grate." I nodded again and he turned on the spot. I threw some powder into the fire, yelled "Potter home," and spun around in uncomfortable green flames.
Al caught me as soon as I was spat out unceremoniously. He let go of me except my hand. He then led me down the stairs and into the kitchen. When I walked in, I saw Ginny, Harry and Lily surrounding James on a chair.
Lily saw me and said gratefully, "Reese!" Ginny and Harry both looked up, but James stayed stock-still. Ginny rushed to me and felt my face for a temperature.
"Reese, honey, what's wrong? You look peaky! Have you been crying? What happened?" With this her hand slapped my face, making sure I wasn’t overheating. Forehead, left cheek, right cheek and forehead again. Harry pried her off me and led me to a chair next to James.
The four Potters surrounded us and I knew we had to tell them now. Lily then asked in a demanding tone, "What happened?"
I took a quick glance at James but I could see he wasn't going to speak any time soon. I opened my mouth but closed it again. How could I tell them? I opened it again but James finally said something.
"I got her pregnant."
Ginny's face changes from worry, to shock, to disappointment then, finally in anger.
Everything was silent. I could feel the anger radiating off Ginny. And I was scared shitless.
Everyone knows not to piss Ginny Potter off and what did I do?
It would have been safer to resurrect Voldemort.
Harry's green eyes looked like they were going to pop out of his head, Ginny of course was seething silently, Lily's mouth dropped open and Al looked bored.
After a few minutes of awkward silence, Lily recovered. "You- what- James- huh?"
Okay maybe she didn't recover. None of us answered her and after a few minutes, Harry blinked and ran a hand through his salt and pepper hair. He stole a glance at his wife who was slowly going redder and redder.
She opened her mouth and I cringed, prepared for the worst. Her words were spoken tightly. She was furious. "James. Sirius. Potter. What. Have. You. Done?" Her nose flared a bit and I tried not to wince. James swallowed nervously and ruffled the back of his hair up.
He opened his mouth to answer but Lily interrupted with a smirk, "Mum, Reese isn't a what but a who." I held a groan in; Lily has always been one for dry humour but now was seriously not the time. Ginny's left eye twitched, which Harry picked up on. When Ginny's eye twitches, you run to Ghana hoping she'll never find you. I loved Ginny and all, but sometimes, she was so scary.
Harry quickly intervened and said, "Lily, why don't you go up to your room?"
She shrugged her dainty shoulders and said, "Nah, it's alright Dad." I wanted to face-palm.
Harry let out an exasperated sigh and said, "Lily go to your room." She opened her mouth slightly, probably to protest but Al grabbed her by the shoulders and steered her out of the room.
"No extendable ears either!" I heard a curse and had to resist the urge to giggle. I was sure Al and Lily were running for the ears. Although when I successfully kept quiet, I immediately cowered again. Ginny was doing her 'scary-calm' phase. The phase when she's so angry she doesn't say anything but just glowers at you. It doesn't sound scary but it is. It really is.
I had no idea how James was staring right back at her. I was so scared I kept staring at the ground. I licked my lips nervously and then Ginny exploded.
"What were you two thinking?! You're not dating; you weren't dating so why did this seem like a good idea to sleep together?! AND, did you not think of using contraception?! James! Didn't you think?! It's just a few measly words and a swish of the wand! Were we not good enough parents to teach you that? Huh?! I thought I taught you better than that James! When did this even happen?! You haven't seen each other since Teddy's wedding-" she broke off and gasped. When her moment of surprise passed, she shook her head and if possible, got even angrier. "I ALLOWED THE TWO OF YOU TO STAY TOGETHER THINKING YOU WOULDN'T DO ANYTHING STUPID AND NOW LOOK WHAT'S HAPPENED! JAMES POTTER YOU BETTER HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY FOR YOURSELF!"
At this point James got up from his chair and shouted, "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY MUM?! I didn't purposely do this! We were drunk!"
"That is not a legitimate reason James! Do you know what the next few months are going to be like? Years actually!"
James ran a hand through his hair and said furiously, "Mum! For fucks sake-"
Ginny shrieked, "LANGUAGE!" but James ignored her.
"I didn't plan this! It's not like I woke up one morning and said 'You know what? I'm gonna get Reese drunk, shag her, get her pregnant and ruin the rest of her fucking life!' We were drunk, we weren't thinking clearly!"
Ginny didn't even bother trying to fix his language. James had a similar personality to Ginny so they usually always clashed. I was so scared but Harry shot me an assuring smile.
James looked like he was going to say something but Ginny held a hand up to silence him. She let out a breath and combed a hand through her red hair. "Sit down James." He looked like he was going to argue but she snapped, "Now. Okay. Good. Look I know I shouldn't be getting this angry but this is a huge thing! It was my first reaction and I'm sure every parent would be the same. Now let's settle this. The two of you need to sort what's going to happen and what you're going to do." She glared at the both us and we nodded simultaneously. "Now let me say, this is so irresponsible and stupid and reckless and I am so disappointed in the both of you! I can't believe you would do this to us! I'm also furious and the Weasley part of me wants to smack you with a newspaper but the parent part of me knows better. You two are going through- and are going to go through- a lot so you need to talk about it. Now." She added with the sight of our expressions.
I nodded because all this tension was because of me. And I didn't want to face Ginny's wrath again.
I looked to James, silently telling him to ask the questions that were on his mind. He stared stonily ahead until his mother glared at him.
"How long did you know?" Fuck. I shrunk back not wanting an answer but he turned his face towards me demanding an answer silently.
I whispered, "Just before N.E.W.T's."
James' eyes narrowed and he spat out, "Oh so you didn't think of telling me before we slept together again?"
"YOU TWO SPENT THE NIGHT TOGETHER AGAIN?!" James gave her a quick glare and she said, "Sorry, I'll try to stay calm."
I flinched at James' expression. He was furious. I'd never seen him looking this angry but I didn't say anything. I wanted him to swear and curse at me. I deserved it. But I didn't want to rile him up. Although slowly, his anger abated. His gaze flitted to his parents before asking, "So... erm… are you... keeping it?"
I sighed and slumped in my chair, my eyes closing tiredly. "I have no idea, I keep going through it in my head but I can't make a decision."
He snapped, "Oh you weren't going to bother asking me for my opinion were you?"
My eyes sprung open and I hissed, "Of course I was going to ask for your bloody opinion! Every time I thought about it, I always ended thinking that I need to talk to you about it! This is changing your life too and since your whole life is in the bloody media, it's probably going to affect you even more than me! You always have reporters following you so if they find out I'm having your kid; they're going to be hounding you! Most of the time I'm thinking about this, it's about your future, not mine! So of course you have a bloody say in this!"
I took a deep breath and James said slowly, "Look Reese, maybe you should stay at your parents’ house so we can both have time to think about it. I'm furious right now and you're probably upset. I think we need to calm down before we talk about this." He shot a glance at Ginny and then stared back at me.
Yeah, great plan James. Only snag? I got kicked out.
I didn't even notice my eyes were filling with tears until Harry asked, "What's wrong?"
I wiped the tears off my face and muttered, "Mum kicked me out." Ginny's mouth dropped open and she gave me a hug which I was really grateful for. I wished my dad had done this when he found out. I looked over Ginny's shoulder and saw James looking really guilty.
I told him, "Don't worry, I'll stay at Blake's." Ginny broke away from me and looked at James incredulously. James walked over to me and gave me a warm hug. I automatically wrapped my hands around his waist and took a deep breath.
Harry then said, "James, you let her stay with you. You need to stick by her side in all this. It's going to be the hardest few months of her life and you can never leave on a whim, this is both of your fault and James, you have to stay with her. You have to, you understand?"
James nodded and I opened my mouth to object but James cut me off. "Reese, you can stay with me, don't worry." I shook my head but James cut me off by saying, "We're in this together. We'll be okay."