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The Madness That is My Life by frini19
Chapter 12 : The Madness of Awkward Island
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The next day was pure awkwardness. Itís like we crashed on awkward island.

Not on Alice's part. Alice seemed to be handling the whole thing really well, acting like she didn't cry herself to sleep the night before.

I really admired her.

She did ignore Louis though, didn't even look in his direction, even when he made puppy dog eyes at her. It was clear that she didn't want to have any contact with him.

Once though, during Charms, I saw her looking over at him and saw that she was about to cry. I nudged Rose and Rose saw and put her arm around her, trying to comfort her. But Alice just pushed her away, saying that she would be fine and wiping her eyes.

"I don't know why she won't let us help her," Rose said as we walked down to lunch. Alice had gone up to the dorms to get a book. "We know she's hurting and we hate seeing her like that. We're her best friends, of course we are going to be there for her."

"Maybe she doesn't want to seem weak," I said. "Maybe she feels like she should be stronger or something."

"Maybe she's been strong for too long," Rose said. "What if she needs someone to take care of her?"

"Rose," I said, pulling her aside. I saw that she looked upset, almost insulted that Alice wouldn't accept her help. "Alice doesn't like crying, you know that. There's a reason as to why last night was one of the only times we've ever seen her cry."

"I just want to help her," Rose said, looking at her hands. "I hate seeing her like this and I want to kill my cousin for doing this to her."

"I think that she is pretending to be fine," I said. "And she thinks she's doing a good job of it. But once you or me try to comfort her, she knows that she isn't fooling anyone, and she breaks down. What she needs us to do, is be there for her when she's ready to accept our help."

"And when will that be?" Rose asked, frustrated. "I can't just sit around here, waiting for her to come crying to me! I don't work like that! I take care of people, I take care of you and Alice! And to see her so upset and knowing I can't do sucks. I want to help her but I know nothing I do will make this better."

"Oh, Rosie," I said, pulling her into a hug. "Alice needs you. And I know it's hard right now to see her like this, but we just have to wait. I get the feeling that once it's just the three of us, Alice will have no problem crying on your shoulder. But right now, in school, she doesn't want anyone to see her cry." I pulled away from Rose. "But I'm ninety nine percent sure that tonight, she will be so glad that she has you looking out for her. We just have to be there for her and respect her choices of when she'll let us comfort her."

"I guess you're right," Rose said. She sighed. "My cousin is such a dumbarse."

We walked down to the Great Hall and sat down.

"Where's Alice?" Louis asked, from his spot next to me. Unfortunately, because of the amazing friend I am, I swapped seats with Alice this morning, so now I was sitting in between Louis, who I wasn't speaking to because of the whole Alice thing and Albus, who I wasn't speaking to because of the whole kiss might have actually meant something thing.

It was a little awkward.

I glared at him. "I don't think that's any of your concern."

"Addie," Louis said. "I know that I'm a dick for doing that to her but that doesn't mean I don't care about her."

"Well if you care about her then you have a funny way of showing it," I said. "Since when is kissing someone who you aren't dating a sign that you care about them? Cheating is one of the worse possible things you can do."

Albus started choking on his lunch next to me. James came and hit him on the back.

"You okay little bro?" James asked Albus.

"Yeah," Albus said and turned to me. "Are you fucking kidding me?"

"What?" I asked him.

"Cheating is one of the worse possible things you can do?" he said.

"Well it is!" I said. "Are you saying it's not?"

"Of course not!" Albus said, getting annoyed. Man he looks hot when he's annoyed. "But I do think that when you cheat, you clearly don't care about the person you're with enough, even though you try to brush it off as a dumb mistake."

We aren't talking about Alice and Louis anymore are we?

"Especially when you blame it on drinking," Albus said.

Nope, we're definitely not talking about Alice and Louis.

"Well, maybe it was just a dumb mistake!" I said. "Maybe it didn't mean anything because drinking was involved!"

"You're forgetting that someone might not have had a drink, so that excuse doesn't work," Albus said. "Maybe the cheater is too afraid, for whatever reason, that it did actually mean something and they felt something that they don't feel with the person they're in a relationship with. Maybe they actually have feelings for the person they cheated with but don't see them for some reason."

Albus and I looked each other in the eyes. I couldn't think of what to say in response. He was telling me that the kiss meant something to him and that he knew it meant something to me. And because it meant something to me, I couldn't like Caleb because I have feelings for Albus.

Could I have feelings for Albus?

"Wow," James said, standing behind me. "You could cut the sexual tension with a knife." He pushed Albus over and sat down in between the two of us. "Sorry, but I'd rather not watch you two have eye sex while I eat my lunch."

I looked up at Scorpius to see him giving me a pointed look. I tried to have a telepathic conversation with him but he didn't seem to understand.

He looked over at Albus and they looked at each other, giving a few head nods and such and Scorpius looked away a look of understanding on his face. Then he looked at Rose, doing more head nods, and Rose nodded back before returning to her food.

What the fuck, Scorpius?

You seem to have telepathic conversations with everyone else but me.

"Hey, Alice," Rose said, as Alice sat down next to Scorpius.

"Hey Rosie," Alice said with a smile. "Hey Scorp, Al, James, Addie."

She greeted me with a smile, but I saw the redness in her eyes.

She had been crying.

And Rose and I weren't there.

"Hey Alice," Louis said, quietly, almost scared.

Alice stopped putting food on her plate and focused on the potatoes. For a rare and unusual moment, everyone was quiet, waiting to see what Alice's response would be. She shut her eyes and took a deep breath.

"So James, how's Seventh Year treating you?" Alice said, scooping potatoes onto her plate.

I felt Louis deflate beside me and saw him start poking peas on his plate. He looked so miserable.

I felt bad for him. This wasn't the Louis I knew, sad and depressed, sending longing glances over at Alice every time she laughed or smiled. The Louis I knew was the one who had a smile that lit up an entire room and was the reason why Alice smiled.

I hated seeing one of my best friends like this.

I was about to put my hand on his back, to comfort him, but another hand beat me to it.

"Hey Louis," said a Seventh Year Slytherin. She was blonde, tall and wearing a skirt that was way too short and her shirt had the first few buttons unbuttoned.

We go to a school where you're required to wear a uniform and she still managed to look like a slut.

From the look on Alice's face (it basically said "Fuck you bitch, you better leave before I cut you) and Louis' face (which basically said "Shit. Are you fucking kidding me? Why the fuck are you here? You need to leave NOW") I figured this was the girl that Louis hooked up with.

Well, she's about to get a taste of the Addie Malfoy temper.

"Hi," I said, standing up, extending a hand. I put on a fake smile and acted like I wasn't about to bitch her out. "Who are you?"

"Oh," she said, seemingly surprised by me speaking.

Louis looked a little scared, Alice was smirking (she knew what was coming), Scorpius was watching Rose as Rose put her face in her hands (I think she mumbled "Here she goes.") Scorpius rubbed her shoulder soothingly (IF I WASN'T ABOUT TO KICK THIS GIRL'S ASS I WOULD GO OVER THERE AND FORCE THEM TO BE MARRIED), James was checking the girl out (gee James, I wonder why Annalise said no when you asked her to dance at the party...MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE A HUGE MANWHORE. But I still love you) and Albus was only looking at me. He was looking at me, as if mentally betting what I was going to do to her. When he saw that I caught him, he gave me a small smile.

"Give her hell," he mouthed at me. "Pretend it's me."

I smiled remembering all the fights that we've had. In that moment, there was no awkwardness between us over the kiss. And it almost made laugh at how dumb we were being. He knew what I was going to do to her, but he didn't try to stop me, as Caleb would have, he cheered me on. He knew me better than my own boyfriend.

Which isn't a good thing.

"I'm sorry," I said to her, newfound confidence bubbling inside me from Albus. "You never said your name. I believe I asked you who you were and how you know Louis. So you going to tell me or are you just going to stand here like an idiot?"

She looked taken aback and didn't say anything. "I..."

"I'm waiting," I said.

"I'm Ella," she said. Wow that's a whore name. "And I know Louis because he's..." She ran her hand across his back and I saw Louis tense up as if it burned him. Alice was looking at her as if she wanted to personally burn Ella in Hell. "He's a friend." She said with a seductive smile.

"I'm sure," I said, giving my fakest smile and restraining myself from ripping her hair out on Alice's behalf. "So're the whore who he hooked up with yesterday?"

"I'm sorry what?" Ella said.

"Were you aware that he was basically in a relationship with another girl?" I asked her. "Because the entire school knows and unless you've been living under a rock or you're just plain stupid, you would know too. " I looked at her up and down. "And since your nails seem perfect with no clues of living under a rock, I'm just going to assume that you're stupid, which isn't hard to believe, trust me."

"Louis, are you just going to let her talk to me like that?" Ella asked Lou, as if asking him to help her.

Louis didn't even look up at her as he said, "Yep."

"What?!" Ella cried. "But I thought I was special!"

"You fucking whore where did you get that idea?" I asked her. Now most of the Gryffindor table was watching us. "Because anyone who hooks up with someone in a broom closet isn't that fucking special." I got closer to her and grabbed her wrist off of Louis' back. "Now get your fucking hand off my friend's man."

She pushed me away in disgust. "I'm the whore? That's rich coming from you."

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I asked her. I never do anything whorish! And when I do it's normally Candi.

"Drop the innocent act, Malfoy," Ella said. "I've heard everything about you."

"Well would you like to tell me?" I asked her. "Because I bet nearly all of it's false."

"Really?" Ella said. "I doubt that." She smirked at me. "Your little boyfriend is cute," she said nodding over to the Hufflepuff table, where Caleb said, oblivious to what was happening. "Does he know he's just a toy in yours and Potter's little game?"

I looked over at Albus and saw that he looked just as confused as I did.

"What the fuck does that mean?" I asked her. Albus and I don't play a game.

"Everyone knows about you and Potter," she said.

"Really?" I asked her. "Because I don't."

"Drop the fucking act, you aren't fooling anyone," she said. "Everyone knows that you and Potter are fuck buddies."

I'm sorry what did she just say?

Did she say what I think she said?

"What?!" I screamed.

"Everyone knows about the hot nights you guys have, in classrooms, bathrooms, out by the lake," she said smirking. "And, for whatever reason, you went and got yourself a boyfriend. Maybe you and Potter ended things and you just want to make him jealous. Or maybe, you and Potter decided to take a break and try and move on from each other. But let's face it, this is probably what happened when he dated Erica, right? You guys try to move on only to get the spark back. I've heard all the stories."

"They're all fucking lies," I said. "You're the whore, don't try and spin this on me. You're the one who ruined my friends' relationship."

"Fine, maybe I am a whore," she said. "But I'm not as big a whore as you. And let's face it, your mother was a whore and so are you. It's in your blood."

At that point, I had enough and slammed my fist into her jaw.

I was about to do more damage, trust me that girl wasn't going to be able to every look decent again when I was through with her, but Albus came and grabbed me around the waist, pulling me against him.

"Let me go!" I said, kicking and screaming. "Let me beat her bony ass!"

"No," Albus said, tightening his grip on me. "You'd get kicked off the team and I would rather not have you die because of my brother."

"Right, Malfoy," she said, getting up. "You and Potter totally aren't fuck buddies."

At that point, Alice appeared to have enough. She leapt over the table (literally she LEPT over the TABLE. She was pissed off) and punched Ella right in the nose.

"Back the fuck off of my friends," Alice said. "And stay the fuck away from them, including Louis. If I ever see you near him or any one of my friends again, you'll be lucky to ever be able to walk again."

"I'm not scared of you," Ella said.

"You should be," Alice smirked at her. "Remember when Flint got a broken nose and two black eyes and wouldn't tell anyone why?" Alice smiled. "That was all me."

Ella's eyes widened. Marcus Flint II was one of the biggest guys in school and everyone was scared of him. Everyone but Alice that is. He made a pass at her and when he didn't take the word "no", she beat him up.

She's such a badass.

Alice put on a fake smile, that was so sugarcoated it couldn't be anything but fake. "It was nice to meet you."

Ella ran off.

"Addie, stop kicking Albus," Alice said, turning to me. I stopped kicking Al's legs and he let out a sight of relief and rested his face on my head.

"That hurt, Addie," he said.

I turned my face up to him. "Sorry," I said, smiling at him.

"It's okay," Al said, hitting my nose with his.

"Aww, aren't they sweet honey?" James said lovingly to Louis. Louis looked very creeped out that James referred to him as honey. "Today, Albus is saving Addie from killing a hot girl and soon they'll be getting married and having little blue and green eyed babies." James sighed and rested his head on Louis' shoulder. "Our babies our growing up."

James, if you act like this around Annalise, then she probably thinks you're gay.

Which could explain why she doesn't want to date you.

"James get the fuck off my shoulder," Louis said.

James lifted his head and smirked over at Albus and me. "Nice going little bro."

It was at this point that Albus and I both noticed that he was still holding me around the waist and that I had relaxed into his chest, almost naturally.

So all the awkwardness over the kiss that had somehow disappeared?

Yeah, it all came flooding back.

Albus and I quickly detached ourselves and sat back down. My face was burning red and James put his arms around Albus and I. "One day soon," he said to me. "One day soon."

Cryptic much?

Thankfully, the bell rang.

"Well we better go to Defense," I said, awkwardly.

"You guys have Defense next?" James said. "You guys are in for a treat."

"What does that mean?" Albus asked him.

"You'll see," James said and with a smile he was off.

"When did he become so cryptic?" I thought out loud.

"I have no idea," Albus said.

The six of us headed off to Defense and each of us was curious about this "treat" that James promised us.

Whenever James says there's a "treat" it's never a good thing.

We walked in the classroom and headed to our regular seats. Well, all of us except for Rose.

"You coming Rose?" I asked her, pointing at the seat next to me.

Rose shook her head. "Read the board."

Everyone, stand at the side of the classroom and wait for your new seating arrangements. These seats will be permanent for the rest of the year and no exceptions will be made. Thank you very much, Your New Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher

"New teacher?" Scorpius asked. "Why are we getting a new teacher?"

"Professor Harrison could barely teach!" Rose said. "It's a wonder he didn't quit at the beginning of the year. Hopefully the new teacher is someone good."

The rest of the class filed in and all of us stood at the side of the classroom, just as the instructions said.

When the bell rang there was no sign of our teacher.

After five minutes of waiting, someone tried the office and they weren't up there.

"Where on earth is our teacher?" Rose asked.

Scorpius shrugged. "Maybe he's just running late."

"Teacher's shouldn't run late!" Rose said. She looked at the board again. "He gave us instructions and everything." She studied the board a bit more. "That handwriting looks familiar."

"Only you would remember someone's handwriting," Albus said laughing.

"No I'm serious," Rose said. "It kind of looks like T-"

But the door opening cut her off.

"Teddy!" Rose yelled as she ran to hug the man who just walked in the door.

"Hello Rose," Teddy said.

I'm starting to think that in order to be a part of the Wotter family (Teddy isn't blood related but he's Harry's Godson and has basically been married to Victoire since they were five) you have to be good looking. I'm serious! There isn't one bad looking one in the bunch!

Teddy is tall, with broad shoulders, chocolate brown eyes and hair that is constantly changes color, though now it's on an electric blue.

You have to be extremely hot to still look hot with blue hair.

Albus and Louis went to the door to greet their cousin or whatever he was and I could feel the confusion from all the other students. Well, it was confusion from the guys; the girls were probably wondering what this hot guy with blue hair was doing here.

That's actually a really good question.

"What are you doing here Ted?" Albus asked.

Did I not just ask that question in my head? How did Albus know that?

That's a little creepy.

"Actually, Mr. Potter," Teddy said, confusing Albus by using his last name. "It's Professor Lupin."

"You're kidding!" Louis said.

"Nope," Teddy, er, Professor Lupin said. "Now, I have the rest of my class to introduce myself too."

Teddy pulled himself away from Al, Lou, and Rose and walked to the front of the classroom. "Hello!" He said brightly. "As you may have heard, I am Professor Lupin and I will be your teacher for the rest of the year."

"Hell yeah!" Scorpius said, earning him to be hit in the arm by Rose. He just smirked at Rose and hugged her, only to let her go quickly, both of them blushing.

Seriously. Just get married.

"Language, Scorp," Teddy said, smiling. "I'll give out your new seating assignments now and like it says on the board, they will not be changed." Teddy went through a few rows before he said, "Scorpius Malfoy and Rose Weasley."

They both smiled at each other and both turned a pinkish shade.

They are trying to kill me with their cuteness.

"Hopefully we'll be near each other," Alice whispered in my ear.

"You sure you don't want to be sitting next to Chase over there?" I asked her, nodding to a Ravenclaw that was checking her out. I noticed that Louis was glaring at him. "He seems interested."

Alice looked over and smiled at him. "Too bad I'm not."

"Alice Longbottom and Louis Weasley," Teddy said, pointing to a desk a few rows from the back.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me," Alice whispered in my ear. "Never mind, I'll take Chase."

"You coming?" Louis asked Alice and they both awkwardly headed to their seats.

Man, I hope I don't get paired up with someone where it will be that awkward.

Well, maybe I'll get paired up with Chase. He's pretty cute.

If only I didn't have a boyfriend...

I don't really care who I have to sit next to because I highly doubt that it will be awkward.

The only person it would be awkward with is if I was paired up with Albus.

And Merlin doesn't hat me that much.

"Addison Malfoy and Albus Potter."

Merlin what did I do to deserve your hatred?

Albus and I both walked awkwardly to the back row, where we were sitting.

"Now remember these seats are not going to be changed," Teddy said walking back to the classroom.

This is going to be awkward.

"Addie, Albus could I speak with you?" Teddy asked us after class.

"What did you do?" I asked Albus.

"Me? I didn't do anything," Albus said to me as we got our stuff.

We walked up to Teddy's desk, not knowing what was coming.

"How'd I do today?" Teddy asked.

"Good," I said, smiling. "You'll be a great teacher."

Teddy sighed. "That's good to know. Now I didn't call you up here so you could evaluate my teaching. I wanted to talk to the both of you." Oh this isn't good. Whenever teachers want to talk it's never a good thing. "Addie, I have noticed your grade in this class has been...well..."

"It sucks," I said, answering for him. "I've been trying to get it up though."

"Do you have a tutor?" Teddy asked me. I shook my head and he turned to Albus. "Albus your grade on the other hand is very high, in fact it's the highest in the class."

"Of course it is," I mumbled. Albus shot me his jerk smirk.

"So I came up with a decision," Teddy said. "Albus will tutor you."

"What?!" We both said.

I think Teddy is trying to make every person feel awkward. First he puts Alice and Louis sitting next to each other after he cheated on her, and then not only is he making Albus and I sit together, but he wants us to spend even more time together! Alone! As if avoiding him in the Common Room wasn't hard enough! We'll be forced to talk about the kiss!

"No protests," Teddy said. "I want you two to meet everyday to work on your homework and study for tests. And I expect you to work in the library, not the Common Room. There are too many distractions in the Common Room."

"How long do sessions have to be?" Albus asked.

"As long as it takes for her to understand the material," Teddy said.

"We're never going to leave the library," I said. "Caleb's going to be thrilled."

"Who's Caleb?" Teddy asked me.

"Her boyfriend," Albus said, hatred obvious in his tone.

Teddy looked between Albus and I and smiled. "I expect you two to start tonight."

"Bye Teddy," I said to him.

"Bye Ted," Albus said and we both walked out the door.

"Great," I said. "Just great."

"You think I'm thrilled about this?" Albus asked me. "You've been ignoring me ever since Halloween and now I have to take my own personal time to tutor you."

"I've been ignoring you for a good reason," I said, turning on him. The bell rang and students ran to class but unfortunately, I couldn't use class as an excuse to get out of this one. Albus and I both had free periods.

"And what's that?" Albus asked.

"Because you kissed me!" I said to him. "And at first I brushed it off as a mistake because we both were drinking but then you say that you didn't drink a single thing that night! And now I'm confused on whether it meant something or it didn't!"

"What's so confusing about it?" Albus asked me. "You either felt something or you didn't. And you can't blame this all on me. You could've pushed me away but you didn't." I tried to think of a way to turn this around on him. "And you kissed me back. In fact it was you who put your tongue in my mouth first."

"I have a boyfriend," I said.

"So what?" Albus asked me, slamming his bag on the ground out of frustration. "Stop using that excuse Addie! Stop using that as a way to not talk about this. If you didn't have a boyfriend, then would that kiss have meant something to you? Forget about Caleb, forget about everything and just tell me if you felt something. I won't run off and tell anyone, I just want to know if I've been going crazy over a kiss that meant nothing."

"You've been going crazy over it?" I asked him quietly, meeting his eyes.

"Yeah," Albus said just as quietly. "I can't stop thinking about it."

I looked into his beautiful eyes and got the overwhelming urge to kiss him again and never stop. To have that feeling of right come over me and to run my fingers through his hair.

"It meant something," I whispered. "I didn't want to feel anything...but I did."

It was just the two of us in the hallway and it would've been so easy to kiss him.

"You felt something?"

"Yeah," I said. "I shouldn't have though."

"But you did," Albus said.

I nodded. "But I did. But it can't happen again."

"Why?" Albus asked me, a look of hurt coming across his face.

"Because I'm with Caleb," I said. "I like him and I'm happy with him. It's not fair to him."

Albus nodded. "It won't happen again."

I tried to ignore the sadness that filled my body. My hormones were yelling at me for saying that I would never kiss him again. "Good."

"Are you ever going to tell him?" Albus asked me, picking up his bag.

I shook my head. "I get the feeling that him finding out you're tutoring me is enough."

Albus looked over my head. "Well good luck with that," he said and walked behind me. I turned and saw that Caleb had just turned the corner. "Caleb," he said nodding as he went.

"That was strange," Caleb said. "Normally Potter just ignores my existence."

"Well maybe he's trying to get on better terms," I said, wrapping my arms around Caleb's neck and kissing him. "I need to tell you something."

"That's never a good conversation starter," Caleb said, as he held my waist. "What's up?"

"Al is going to be tutoring me in Defense," I said and I saw Caleb's face fall.

"Why?" he asked.

"Because I'm failing and he's the top student, " I said. "Ted- Professor Lupin thought that it would make sense for him to tutor me." I saw Caleb looking a little pissed off and jealous. "It makes sense, you know."

"I know it does," he said. "But can't Rose tutor you? Or...anyone but Albus?"

"Why does it matter who tutors me?" I asked him, starting to get annoyed because it seemed like he didn't trust me with Al. Which, okay, maybe we kissed once but that wasn't happening again! "Do you not trust me?"

"Of course I trust you," Caleb said. "I trust you, I just don't trust him." Caleb sighed. "I'm acting like one of those dumb, jealous, boyfriends aren't I?"

I smiled because Caleb being jealous was actually kind of cute. "Yeah," I said, pecking him on the lips. "But you're my dumb, jealous boyfriend." I let out a sigh and rested my head on his shoulder. "You don't need to worry about Albus. There's nothing going on with us."

At that point, I didn't know whom I was trying to convince.

A/N: YAY ANOTHER QUICK UPDATE!! Iíve been updating super fast because for the past few days Iíve been sick and able to write more. And thereís no line for validation, normally I have to wait a few days but now itís only 5 hours!

Anyway, howíd you like this chapter? I like it personally. Lotís of action. Lot's of awkwardness.

Please tell me what you think! I love hearing from you guys and it makes me write faster!


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