Chapter 11 : Supposed to be Friends.
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Draco seems so calm about everything, which freaks me out even more. Why wasn't he freaking out like I was?! He just kept assuring me it would be fine,and we didn't have anything to worry about. I want to believe him, but I can't, I have to know for myself for sure.
What I also needed was to talk to an outside observer without too much interest in this particular subject: Ron.
I managed to get away from Draco to find Ron. I found him with Potter and Granger. I put on my mean face.
"Weasley, Head Boy would like to see you. Something about prefect duty." I said sneering.
Ron got up, knowing what was going on. Granger stood up too. I raised my eyebrows. "I didn't say anything about you, Granger. He just wants to see Weasley."
"Why would he only want Ron?" She asked glaring at me.
"I don't know." I snapped impatiently. "But I don't think that's any of your business. Hurry up, Weasley, you're wasting my life."
I turned on my heel and walked away, with Ron behind me. "Something big happened?" He asked.
"Oh yeah." I answered.
When we were alone, I tell him everything that had happened in the last twenty four hours.
"Zabini knows?!" He exclaimed after everything.
"Yes, and I'm so scared he's going to tell Pansy and then she's gonna hate me and tell everyone that I'm a slut, and Draco and I won't be able to be together anymore."
"Jolina, calm down." Ron said slowly. "You are getting way ahead of yourself. Just talk to Zabini, and then you can freak out if you want,but for now, just breathe and calm down, okay?"
"Okay, but what if that does happen?" I asked. "What am I supposed to do?"
"I…don't know." He answered.
I sighed heavily. "I just hope that Blaise will see that Draco and I love eachother and all we want is to be together. I never meant to hurt anyone."
"I know you didn't. But as a wise man once said: sometimes you have to hurt other people in order to be happy."
I smiled slightly. "You said that."
"I did. Which means I'm very wise." Ron said.
I smiled. Ron always knew how to make me smile.
If the ticking of the clocks were loud before, they were absolutely ear-splitting at dinner. I could barely even eat. For all I knew, this could be the last time I ate in peace without being called a backstabbing, man stealing whore. All throughout dinner, Draco gives me reassuring looks that don't exactly make me feel better.
Finally the time comes for us to make our way to their room. Draco and I sit for five minutes in silence, and Blaise didn't show up. I groaned.
"What is taking him so long?! I'm dying of anxiety here!" I said.
"Well, maybe I should give you a little mouth to mouth to keep you alive. I can't have my girlfriend dying on me." Draco said leaning in to kiss me.
I smiled as our lips touched. He immediately deepened the kiss gently placing one of his hand on the back of my head, and the other on my lower back. I put my hands of either side of his face, taking in what could be our last moment like this together. All too soon it was ruined.
"What the hell is going on?!" A voice exclaimed and we broke apart. I sighed in relief seeing it was Blaise, but the look on his face caused the relief to leave as quickly as it had come to me.
"We were just-" I started,but he interupted.
"What, eating eachother's faces?!" Blaise asked.
"Blaise, mate calm down." Draco said.
"I will not calm down!" He snapped. "Not while you two are shagging eachother!"
"We're not!" I bursted out.
"Oh, yeah, then what were you two doing last night? I'm sure you didn't get that hickey from playing Wizard's Chess."
My hand flew up to my neck to hide it. I didn't like mad Blaise, he's mean and he yells a lot.
"No. You two listen, I talk." Blaise said. We were both silent. "I don't even know where to begin with you two. I mean, the same day Draco dumps Pansy, you two decide to go and fuck eachother? What kind of friends are you? I mean seriously, the same day! You couldn't hold off you sexual needs until at least today?!"
"See the thing about that is-" I started.
"Secondly," Blaise continued loudly, blocking my voice out. "You two don't even have the brains or the decency to cover your tracks. You guys are acting all flirtasious at breakfast, and being secretive, I'm surprised no one figured it out. What would you have done if someone who wasn't me had figured out what you two did?! What if Pansy found out?"
"But we were just-"
Blaise held his hand up to stop Draco. "And let's not forget the most important thing. You guys are supposed to be friends. Best friends. What you two are doing is exactly how friendships fall apart. You guys start fooling around, and that's fun and dandy until one of you starts to want something more, but then the other doesn't, and then you guys break it off. Then things are so awkward, you can't even be friends anymore. And then you're other friends have to choose sides, and everyone's friendships are fucked up. Is that what you want?" He asked.
"No." We answered at the same time.
"Then I don't understand why you two are doing this. And what if Pansy somehow finds out? How will you explain it to her? Why are you guys risking so much to do this? It's just-Draco, why would you do this?"
"Because I love Jo!" Draco yelled.
Blaise looked as though he had been hit in stomache for a second, and then quickly recovered. "But you guys are best friends. You're breaking all the rules of friendship. And Pansy-"
"Blaise, I don't care, there is no way in hell that I could stay just friends with Jo. Not after everything that's happened." Draco said. "I tried, and I just can't do it. She's the only one I want, no one else is going to do it. I know we're supposed to be just friends, but that's not enough for me. I can't control myself around her. I will always have the urge to touch her and that need to kiss her. I'm in love with her. I lost her once, I'm not losing her again."
Although Draco is talking to Blaise, he's looking right at me. I smiled, and then turned to Blaise.
"Look, I know this shocking and that it seems wrong in so many ways, but I love Draco. Nothing else matters as much as being with him. And believe me, I tried to stop this, but I couldn't. I can't make myself be just friends with him. Us being just friends would ruin our friendship, because I will always want something more with him. I can't just fall out of love with him."
Blaise sighed, but didn't say anything right away. "You guys really love eachother?" He asked finally.
"More than anything." Draco answered.
"Well, I guess I have no right to mess that up." He shrugged.
Relief came back to me. "So, you're not going to tell Pansy?" I asked.
"No." He said. "But I don't know how long you guys are going to be able to keep this a secret, she's bound to find out soon, you know."
"We know." Draco said. "But we want to keep this quiet for as long as possible. We're giving Pansy hopefully enough time to get over me, so when she finds out, the blow won't be so bad."
"Yeah, hopefully she won't hate me and convince everyone that I'm a dirty slut that stole her boyfriend." I added in.
"Yes, I suppose that would be bad." Blaise said nodding. "Now you guys are sure this is the real thing? You're not just fooling around, are you?"
"No, we're not. This is the real thing." I assured him.
"Okay, good, then I guess I have nothing more to say. I'll leave you two alone." He walked out of the room.
"Well, that went better than I thought it would." I said to Draco.
"Really? I saw it going better in my mind." Draco said.
I raised my eyebrows at him. "What?" He asked. "I knew Blaise wouldn't tell, he just needed a little persuasion."
"Do you think he's right?" I asked quietly. "Do you think we're only supposed to be friends, and we're breaking the rules?"
"Yeah, I do think he's right." Draco answered. "But I don't care. If there's anyone I want to break the rules with, it's you. And even if Pansy finds out sooner than we want, you're worth it."
"I am?" I asked.
"Yes." He said stroking my face softly with his hand and brushing his lips against mine.
"I love you." I breathed.
"I love you too." His eyes closed and he wrapped his arms around me.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked.
"Making love to you." He said.
"Why are you thinking about it when you can be doing it?" I asked.
Draco chuckled. "I don't know." He picked me up and carried me to his bed, where he laid me down carefully, and for the second time, we made love.
Maybe we were supposed to be friends. Maybe we're risking alot. Maybe we were breaking the rules. I didn't know. But what I do know is that we were meant to be together, and I was deeply in love with him...
A/N: Hey! So Blaise isn't going to tell, but how long can he keep the secret? Pansy is going to start doing some investigating. Will she find out about Jo and Draco? I don't know...oh wait, yes I do. Sorry if this chapter was short and suckish. Next one will be better and up soon. Thanks for reading. :)
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