Helloooo dear readers :) Okay so for all those The Other Reality non-readers,Happy New Year you guys! So,being the first chapter of this year,get ready to witness a very very special Dramione moment ;) I'll continue my AN later so you can get reading!
Enjoy xx
Hermione sat on the floor,her head resting against the bed behind her.Tears were silently streaming down her cheeks and she didnt bother wiping them away.
She turned her head towards the door when she heard a knock. Draco entered and held his hand out for her to take. She took it and he pulled her to her feet.
"What's wrong?" He whispered.
"Everything", She answered,"Everything is wrong. I dont understand...anything...I feel so alone most of the time..."
"Hermione,you will never be alone", Draco said,pulling her close to him.
"Why is this happening again?" Hermione said,tears pouring down her cheeks,"Voldemort's gone...Why are the fighting again?!"
"I don't know..."Draco said,leaning his forehead gently against hers,"I really don't know...All I know is that,we're here.Together.Fighting through this."
"Together", She repeated softly.
"By the way,you never really told me why you ran off like that the other day in the party.." He said,pulling away slightly.
"Oh...that", Hermione said. She suddenly remembered why herself.She took a few steps behind but couldn't go far as she hit the wall.
"Hermione?" Draco said,"What happened?I want you to tell me."
"No,it's not important", Hermione said,shaking her head.
"Tell me," He insisted.
"No.I cant", She said.
"Why not?" Draco asked,taking a step forward.
"Because it has nothing to do with you", She said.
"Then why the hell is your breathing growing heavier and faster as Im coming closer to you?" He asked,his eyes boring into hers,she snapped her head to the side,breaking the eye-contact.
"Then why the hell wont you look at me?" He challenged,"If it has nothing to do with me,look me in the eye and say it."
"I can't tell you alright!" She yelled,looking at him.
"WHAT CAN'T YOU TELL ME? WHY CAN'T YOU TELL ME?" He yelled back.
"WHAT THE HELL DO I TELL YOU? THAT I LOST MY HUSBAND A FEW DAYS AGO,YET I FEEL LIKE I'M FALLING FOR ANOTHER MAN?" She yelled,"WHAT DO I TELL YOU? THAT I WAS SCARED TO ACCEPT THE TRUTH? THAT I WAS IN LOVE.AGAIN. WHAT DO I TELL YOU? THAT I'M SCARED TO FALL IN LOVE IN CASE MY LOVE IS SNATCHED AWAY FROM ME AGAIN? WHAT DO I TELL YOU? THAT I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU? WHAT THE HELL DO I FREAKING TELL YOU,DRACO?!"
Draco didnt say anything. He took a wide stride and placed his hands against the back of her head and looking into her eyes,pulled her towards him and kissed her straight on the lips.
She was shocked at first but eventually gave in. She kissed him back,her eyes closing.
It felt like heaven. Like she had found everything she needed. Like she didnt care about what happened after this to her-she had gone to the place she wanted to be. Like her world was no longer crashing down,rather,it was gone. And replaced by this new,unseen place-a place she had been pining to go,a place where nothing else mattered,a place where she could be happy and be with the only other person beside her...A place called love.
This love....it was so Uncontrollable,so irresistable...
He broke the kiss and rested his forehead against hers and she slowly opened her eyes. Her brown eyes met his silver-blue ones. His silver-blue ones....silver-blue ones....that were not Ron's....that were Draco Malfoy's...
She suddenly snapped out of that place...and returned to reality. Her hands moved from his shoulders to his chest and she shoved him away,hot tears spilling down her cheeks.
She tried to move further behind but seeing that she couldn't,she stayed rooted to the spot. She shut her eyes and clenched her fists.
"Leave", She choked.
"Hermione-that was-" He began saying but she interrupted him.
"That was Uncontrollable,Irresistable and Absolutely Wrong", She said.
"Hermione-"
"It was unaccounted for. It was wrong!" She yelled,mostly to herself. She opened her eyes but Draco was a blur,she could barely see past the tears in her eyes,"Now leave."
"Listen-"
"Leave...Malfoy." She said,through gritted teeth and shut her eyes again.
Draco took a few slow steps behind and then turned and left,closing the door behind him.
She slid down against the wall and hugged her knees close to her,crying uncontrollably.
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Draco entered his room and slammed the door shut. The moment she had tried hiding the reason she had run away,he knew. He somehoe just KNEW.
When she was yelling about how she was scared to lose her love again,he knew something else. That he had fallen for her. He was in love with Hermione. And there was no denying it. He didnt even think about the consequences of just walking up and kissing her. He just did it. And she had kissed him back.
Then she had shoved him away...he could see it in her eyes why. She did'nt need to provide a reason for her actions-her eyes said everything. She was confused,she was hurt,she was scared,she was feeling guilty,she didnt know whether it was right or wrong...but she was in love.
It was wrong of him to kiss her! He sholdl have thought about this! He should have known that this would affect her badly-especially in this condition. Merlin,what the hell was he thinking?!
And Astoria...how could he do this to her?! He was supposed to love her-hell,he did love her! But Hermione...this WAS wrong.Hermione was right.It was Uncontrollable,Irresistable and Absolutely Wrong.
He couldnt do this to Astoria...or Hermione. Even if she did love him....Astoria...Sure,they had been fighting for a few months now-but he couldnt cheat on her! He could'nt-it was wrong,it was...just wrong! And Scorpius-what would he think if he found out that his own father cheated on his mother? He would be heartbroken,it would hurt him so much. It would hurt Astoria so much.
Draco gripped the edge of the dressing cabinet infront of him and stared hard into the mirror at himself.How could he...tears of rage spilt out of his eyes and his knuckles went white with his grip.Suddenly,the mirror broke right infront of him and the pieces shattered onto the surface of the cabinet table. He grabbed the vase off the table and turning around,threw it across the room. It shattered into a thousand pieces after hitting the wall across.
The door of his room opened and a very hassled Pansy Parkison entered the room. She saw the mirror,turned and saw the vase and then looked at Draco,worry etched on her face.She took a few weary steps forward.
"Dont come near me,Pansy..." Warned Draco,"I'm going to end up hurting you..."
"Seeing you this hurt is hurting me anyway", Pansy said,stepping closer.
Pansy didnt stop. She kept walking forward until she reached Draco. He backed away from her and she placed her hand on his shoulder. He pushed it away and stepped behind. When she tried taking another steo forward,she was thrown behind by a force around his body.
"What the bloody hell",She muttered,reaching her hand out. It pricked her finger tip like a thousand pins. She pulled her wand out and said "protego" and with the protective charm,she stepped forward. The force from Draco's body still hurt her but she continued moving forward. If she did'nt reach him,he could hurt himself.
She was finally close to him. She pocketed her wand,ignoring the stabbing force and she threw herself onto him-flinging her arms around his neck and hugging him tight.
"Draco-Draco-listen to me!" Pansy said,her voice shaking," Draco-calm down,PLEASE!"
"Pansy-get away!"
"No way in hell am I doing that until you calm down!" Pansy yelled. She gripped him tighter and after a few seconds,felt his body relax a little. She realized that the force was no longer stabbing at her and she herself relaxed a bit.With her hands on his shoulders,she took a step behind,releasing him from her grip.
"Are you okay?" She asked,tears in her eyes. She had never ever seen Draco like this. It frightened her.
"Pansy...I'm so sorry...." Draco said,closing his eyes.
"No,Draco,dont be", She said,placing her hand against his cheek," Are you okay?"
He shook his head and moved to the side and sat on the bed.She sat beside him silently waiting for him to say something.
"I think...I think I-"
"Love Hermione?" She asked softly.
He looked at her.
"How do you-"
"I can see it in your eyes,Draco...the way you look at her,the way you care for her,the way you smile at her and the way you swear to keep her safe and happy...It's like Astoria all over again.I was just waiting for you to realize it"
"That's just it! Astoria-how can I just-"
"Draco,you cant control love...We both know that."
"I...I kissed her. One minute she's kissing me back and the next minute she shoved me away and told me to leave...." His voice was filled with pain.
"She's scared,Draco...and confused", Pansy said,"Give it time..."
"What if I fall for her more? Why is this happening?"
"Because,Draco,it's meant to be.Do you remember...in our sixth year,when we broke up and I asked you why for some reason we both were okay with it-do you know what you said? Draco,you said-"Everything happens for a reason". Do you know why? Because it does! We both found someone else soon and realized how much we loved them. You found Astoria and I found Will after the war. You have to believe that if not now,later everything will make sense-and you'll know that this confusion,this fear,this anger,this pain-everything was for a reason. And between all the chaos and pain,you found love. I cant say that it's okay but I can say that if it's true and really really meant to be-then this love will find it's own way,it'll find a way into both your hearts where it'll live and thrive."
Draco closed his eyes and took in everything she said. He then turned to her and pulled her into a hug.
"Thank you", He choked," I'm sorry I hurt you..."
"As long as you're okay,so am I...we're best friends,Draco,you can tell me if something's bothering you." She whispered.
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Jason climbed up the second flight of the stairs and stopped suddenly when he heard sobbing from behind a door. It was Hermione's room. He knocked on the door and called her name. She didn't respond. He tried again and once more,no response.
"I'm coming in,Hermione", He called and a few seconds later,he opened the door. And there she was,sitting against the opposite wall,hugging her knees and crying hysterically.
He walked up to her quickly and sat on the floor right infront of her.
"Hey,hey,what's wrong?" He asked,tucking loose hairs behind her ear.
"Jason...I need to be alone", She said,crying.
"I can't leave you like this,'Mione", He said.
She looked up at him,"What did you just call me?"
"Oh...'Mione,I think", Jason said,"It just came out-like a nickname."
"I don't need your nicknames", Hermione sobbed. Ron used to call her that. How dare anyone else.
"Sorry...I didn't mean to offend you or anything", Jason apologized sadly.
"It's fine..." She mumbled. He suddenly leaned over and pulled her into a hug.
"Jason,I appreciate you being here for me but I just really need to be alone", She said,not returning the hug while he held her.
"Hermione-"
"Jason,I think Hermione asked you to leave", Molly Weasley's voice sounded from the door. He whispered,"be okay", stood up and left the room.
Molly came over and knelt down beside Hermione,who scooted closer and rested her head on Molly's shoulder.
"Do you want me to leave?" Molly asked.
Hermine shook her head. Molly just sat quietly,not expecting Hermione to say anything if she did'nt want to.But surely enough,Hermione spoke in a whisper.
"I did something terrible."
"What's that,love?" Molly asked.
"To Ron."
"You dont have to tell me if you dont want to", Molly said quietly. But somehow she felt she already knew.
"I...kissed Draco..." A tear slipped out of her eye and rolled down her cheek.
"That's not terrible", Molly said,smiling just a little.
"Of course it is,it's horrible..." Hermione sniffed," how could I do that to Ron?"
"Hermione,Ron is gone", Molly said,"Yes,he's my son.Yes,Im upset but sweety,you're my daughter too. If Draco makes you happy then...I dont see what's that wrong."
"Are'nt you upset with me? I'm in love with someone else so soon", Hermione said.
"I'm a little upset,but not at you..." Molly said,"I'm upset that Ron left you like that-Yes,it wasnt his fault,but everyone left you. Including us,and Im so sorry. Im grateful to Mr.Malfoy that he helped you. He's truly a changed man and I'm happy that it's him who you have chosen,forget the past."
"Molly..." Hermione sobbed,burrying her face into her mother-in-law's shoulder. Molly pulled her into a hug.
"I'm sorry", She cried.
"Dont be.You cannot control love", Molly said,"If it is truly meant to be,it will find a way. He has feelings for you as well. I've seen it-like when he took you to your parents' earlier today. He cares for you and will give his life up for you."
Hermione nodded,"Thank you..."
"Anytime,love. Any don't be scared...He's a good man. He'll do you good. And if my daughter is happy,then so am I."
Ten minutes later,Molly peeked into Draco's room and found him sitting at the edge of his bed.
"Mr.Malfoy", She said and he looked up. She smiled,"Treat her well please."
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