Our heads were close. Really close. Our foreheads touched first and we stopped and just looked into each other’s eyes. His beautiful green eyes. They looked different now, and he was looking at me in a way he had never looked at me before. I could feel his heart underneath his robes and it was beating like crazy. It's good to know I wasn't the only one who was feeling whatever we were feeling right now.
He shut his eyes and leaned his head down. I shut mine as well and waited for his lips to meet mine.
"Shouldn't you two be in class?!"
"Fuck," Albus whispered. I opened my eyes and saw that he was only an inch away from meeting my lips.
"Mr. Potter, Ms. Malfoy I suggest you stop making out and get to class," Madame Thompson said. Albus and I let go of each other and I tried to ignore the giant sadness that seemed to be filling myself.
I thought Albus was going to kiss me. I was hoping for it.
Clearly, I was losing my mind.
Madame Thompson followed us out of the library and made a point of slamming the door when we left.
"What class is it now?" I asked Albus, acting like we totally didn't almost kiss.
"Potions," he said back.
I started walking fast, because Potions was in the Dungeons and we were on the fourth floor. I managed to walk in front of Albus the entire time, until we reached the Entrance Hall.
"Addie," Albus said. "Addie, we need to talk about it."
"Talk about what?" I said, trying to make it to the dungeons as fast as humanly possibly.
"What happened in the library," Albus said. "Or...what didn't happen." I wasn't sure, but it sounded like he was disappointed that we didn't kiss. Which was odd.
Albus hates me. Why would he want to kiss me?
I made my way down the stairs and into the corridor of the dungeons. "We're already late Albus, I think we can talk later."
"Well I think we can be a little later to class," Albus said. He tried moving in front of me but I was too quick for him.
I see the door! Almost there!!
"I'd rather not be late for class," I said. Almost at the door. Just ten more steps. Come on, Addie, you can do it.
"Addie!" Albus yelled. I didn't turn around. I was almost at the door. I could make it to class.
However, Albus really wanted to talk.
I heard him start running and before I could even react I felt his arms around my waist. I shrieked and tried to get free but was unable to.
"We need to talk!" Albus said, fighting my squirming ways.
"We need to get to class!" I screamed. I kept squirming, I even elbowed him in the gut but he didn't seem to feel it.
God damn his rock hard abs.
"Addie," Albus yelled, tightening his grip around my waist to try to stop me from squirming. "We. Need. To. Talk. Now!"
"Mr. Potter!" I stopped squirming and looked up at the now open door where the frail Professor Slughorn stood. "Would you mind putting your girlfriend down and having the two of you join us in class?"
Fuck. Even Ol' Sluggy thinks we're dating.
Even though he was blocking the door, I knew that the entire class was trying to see who Potter was with. All the Slytherin's, Gryffindors, Ravenclaws and Huffle-
I know why Caleb looked so familiar.
He was in my potions class. He had been for the past 6 years. But I never talked to him.
And now I had to see him after we made out. And probably after he thinks Albus and I made out.
Albus set me down and pulled his arms off me. I bent down to pick up my bag, which was knocked on the floor when Albus grabbed me but Albus beat me too it. He grabbed it and put it on my shoulder.
"Sorry sir," he said turning to Sluggy. "We'll try not to be late next time." He gave Sluggy the smile that he gave all the teachers (and girls. For some reason girls loved his award winning bright, white, perfect smile. I don't understand why.)
And of course, because it was Slughorn and he loved all the Wotter family children, he simple smiled at Albus. "Oh, Mr. Potter," he said, patting Albus on the back as he went into the classroom. "It's certainly alright. I'm just glad to see that you and Ms. Malfoy have finally come to your senses about each other!"
Albus and I both stopped dead in our tracks to see the entire class staring at us. Scorp looked murderous, Rose was giving us the "Oh they're so cute" look (no. I'm supposed to give her and Scorpius those looks she's not supposed to give them to me!), Louis and Alice were laughing their asses off and everyone else simple stared. I saw Caleb and instantly avoided eye contact, but I could tell he didn't look too pleased.
"Oh, the past six years of you two bickering, I always knew this day would come!" Sluggy kept saying, coming in front of Albus and I to look at us. I felt my face growing hot and I decided to stare at the ground. It was a safe place to look because it couldn't send me looks. "Just like your grandparents Albus, my, Lily and James argued all the time, although everyone could see they were crazy about each other, but then they ended up getting married! It's good to see that now I won't have you two bringing other dates to the Slug Club parties!"
"Um, Professor," I tried to speak up but he kept on going.
"Two of my favorite students, together at last! Finally, breaking the mold of your families!" Slughorn seemed pretty pleased with the idea of Albus and I. Which made no sense. Since that will never, ever, ever happen. Ever. "Well Albus, how long have you two been together?"
"I'm sorry, sir," Albus said. I didn't look from my spot on the ground. I noticed how dirty the floor looked and that there were many pieces of gum from past years. "But Addie and I aren't together."
I looked up at Slughorn and saw that his face instantly fell. He looked like someone just told him his cat had died. "Oh...but...why? I thought you two had feelings..."
"Yes that seems to be a common thought lately," I said, looking at Slughorn with a smile. He looked down at me with great disappointment. "Now, we're sorry for being late, but we would hate to delay the class any longer."
"Yes...yes...I suppose we should...class," Slughorn said, motioning for us to take seats. Rose, Scorpius, Alice and Louis were all at one station, so we would have to sit elsewhere. I looked back and saw that there were only two seats available.
Right next to Caleb.
Well this should be interesting.
Albus and I walked over to the table and Albus rushed to pull out my chair for me. He sat in the chair next to Caleb and accidentally hit him with his elbow.
"Sorry," Albus said, but when he bent down to pull his potion book out of his bag, I noticed his jerk smirk plastered on his face.
I hit him over the head. He looked up at me, seemingly annoyed and said, "What?"
"Be nice," I whispered to him, leaning in close to make him hear me. His face changed when he saw how close I was.
"Are you going to try to kiss me again?" Albus said. He still had on his jerk smirk and he moved his face closer to mine. Instantly I pulled back.
"No you prick!" I whispered, still trying to keep my voice low. "And as I recall, you tried to kiss me. Trust me, I would never, ever kiss you."
"Are we going to argue about this?" Albus said. "Because we could always change the bet to whoever starts the fight has to kiss the other person."
"Absolutely not," I said back. I was really tempted to hit him over the head with my potion book until he was unconscious. "We made the bet and we're sticking too it."
"So are you two actually going to work?" the Ravenclaw next to Caleb asked. "Because we don't need to sit with the two love bird if all you two are going to do is whisper to each other."
I saw Caleb start to look really uncomfortable. "Yes we are going to work," I said to the snooty Ravenclaw. "And just so you know, we're not dating. There's nothing going on with us."
This last part I directed more at Caleb but he was just looking at his book. The Ravenclaw looked at me skeptically. "Whatever." She got up. "Now will someone please help me get the ingredients?"
I shoved Albus out of his chair. "Albus will help you."
He looked at me, annoyed, and then looked at Caleb. "Try not to jump each other while I'm gone," he said.
"Don't worry, Potter, I won't jump your girlfriend," he muttered under his breath as Albus walked away.
I looked at him. "I'm not his girlfriend."
Caleb looked at me, clearly not believing me. "Doesn't look that way."
I don't know why, but I really hated that Caleb seemed jealous. Some people would say (cough James and Louis cough) that he had no right to be jealous. However, we had just made out and then almost kissed another boy. I felt horrible because he seemed like a nice guy. He didn't chose to get dragged down to the library and make out with me, only to have me bail on him.
"We're not dating. Not even secretly," I said. "You can make me take Veritaserum, I promise you we haven't ever dated or hooked up. You're kind of the only person I've ever hooked up with." I said the last part before I could even process what I said. "And I sound like a major loser for saying that. But it's the truth."
"I don't think you're a loser," Caleb said, this time smiling at me. "And I'm glad I'm the only person you've hooked up with. Good to know I picked a girl with values and respect for herself to hook up with. Girls who hook up with every boy have no respect for each other."
I decided it would be best not to tell him that it was more due to the fact that most boys lived in fear of Scorpius' wrath more than me having respect for myself.
If I could make out with all the boys I was attracted to without having to fear for their lives, well...let's just say that I would have lots of experience.
Caleb and I were just smiling at each other when Albus and the Ravenclaw came back. Albus sat down in his seat and placed the ingredients on the table.
"Well we should get started on the Draught of Living Death, right guys?" He said, overenthusiastically.
"Um, sure," Caleb said, uncomfortable by Albus' over eagerness.
For the rest of class, I don't really talk. I just made the potion. Potions has always been my favorite subject and was always something I excelled in. I enjoyed it and knew that I wanted to make it a part of my career after Hogwarts. Everyone else in the room, Albus and Caleb included were having difficulty with the potion. Potions was the one place where I actually rivaled Rose's top spot in the class.
At the end of the class, Slughorn came around to look at all the potions. Louis failed miserably, with Slughorn saying, "I expected more from you Weasley." Scorpius did all right, but he didn't stir it correctly. Albus got close, with Slughorn saying "Good job Potter, but not quite there. You seemed to not have inherited all of your Fathers potion making skills."
When he came over to mine he looked in and said, "Perfect, as usual Ms. Malfoy. Glad to see you haven't lost your skill over the summer."
"Thank you, Professor," I said back with a smile.
"Alright, you may go," Slughorn said. All of us packed up our stuff and I grabbed Caleb's arm before he could leave.
"I don't think we finished our conversation earlier," I said.
Caleb looked over my head and said, "I don't know if your cousin or your friends would like for you to ditch them." He got a strange look on his face. "Especially, you're 'not boyfriend'."
I turned around and saw that Albus did look annoyed, but when he saw me, he turned back around and headed toward the table with Rose, Scorp, Alice and Lou, all of whom seemed to not like that I wasn't waiting for them. I turned back to face Caleb. "They'll get over it. We were having a conversation that we never finished. So let me recap our conversation." I took a deep breath. "I've never hooked up or dated Albus, I think he's a snot nose prick. Caleb, you're the only person I've ever hooked up with, I don't are how big of a loser I sound like." I lowered my voice. "Addie, you don't sound like a loser, I'm glad that I'm the only person you've hooked up with."
Caleb was looking at me with and amused expression on his face. I grabbed his wrist and pulled him out of the classroom. "Thanks Caleb, I'm glad you don't think I'm a total loser."
"It'd be hard to think you were a loser," Caleb said. "Crazy, yes, but a loser? Nope." He got quiet and seemed to be debating something, "So...there really is absolutely nothing going on with you and Potter? Nothing what so ever? Not even the start of something?"
Does almost kissing in the library count as nothing what so ever? Because that wasn't the start of something...was it?
No. Of course it wasn't.
It's Albus. There's nothing that could ever start between us.
"There is absolutely nothing going on between Albus and I," I said. "I promise."
Caleb smiled at the ground. "Good. So he won't kill me if I asked you to Hogsmeade this weekend?"
"Well he won't kill you," I said, absolutely flattered and shocked that I just got asked out. I just got asked out!! I might not have to end up dying alone with 1900 cats! "However, I can't say the same for the rest of his crazy family. And my cousin. You saw what you got for just talking to me. Do you really want to know what will happen if you go on a date with me?"
"Addie," Caleb said, turning to face me. He pulled me out of the crowd and to a side corridor that was rarely used. "I want to go to Hogsmeade with you. I know I've never talked to you until today but I've had a crush on you since forth year. It sounds creepy when I say it out loud but it's true. Dumping that pumpkin juice on you was like a miracle because it forced me to talk to you. My friends were getting sick of hearing all the ways I would start a conversation with you and almost just straight up told you."
"Wait," I said. "You've liked me since we were 14 and you didn’t tell me? Why didn't you just talk to me?"
"I was fourteen. I wasn't exactly slick with the ladies," he said. "So today, when I split pumpkin juice on you and then you brought me to the library and we...well you know...it was like a miracle. I still can't believe that it happened."
As creepy and weird as it may have sounded to other people, I didn't care that Caleb had liked me but never talked to me. I knew the feeling. My crush on Luke Wood was exactly the same. I loved him in silence.
And maybe followed him around Hogsmeade sometimes.
Don't judge me.
He was attractive.
"Yes," I said. "I'll go to Hogsmeade with you."
Instantly Caleb broke out into a huge grin. "I’ll meet you in the Great Hall at 11 on Saturday. Don't bring you're money, I'm paying."
"Caleb you don't have to-"
"Yes, I do. It's the gentleman thing to do," he said.
I sighed. "Fine. You win."
"Don't sound so defeated," Caleb said, smirking.
"I hate losing. But I can't argue with you about the gentleman thing."
"Well," Caleb said and he moved his arms around my waist. "I think I know something we could do where we both win."
"Oh do you?" I asked.
"Yeah," he said, his face leaning closer to mine. "I do."
And then he kissed me. Unlike in the library where I had to practically force him to kiss me, he kissed me first.
And there wasn't a thought of Albus in my mind.
For the rest of the day, I was in a good mood. No, a great mood. I had a date. With a cute boy who I had snogged twice.
And who was a very, very good kisser.
Everyone at the dinner table noticed my mood that night, but only Louis had the guts to actually say something.
"What the hell is up with you Ads?" he asked me, inspecting me as if I might have been under the influence of some Muggle drug. Once, last year Scorp, Albus and Louis decided to try smoking weed.
It was hilarious. But they got in a shit load of trouble.
"Just in a good mood," I said, smiling down at my food.
"And why is that?" Rose said. She was eyeing me, reading my expression in a way only Rose knew how. "Because you are never in this good of a mood unless it involves a boy. So my guess is that something happened with a certain boy." Her eyes slid to Albus who was sitting next to me.
"It does have to do with a boy," I told her. Scorpius instantly dropped his fork and looked at me as if I had told him I was pregnant. "I'm going on a date with Caleb this weekend."
"Who the hell is Caleb?" Scorpius asked.
"He's a Hufflepuff who-" I started but was interrupted by the wonderful Albus.
"He's the Hufflepuff who I caught Addie making out with in the library today," Albus said, nonchalantly. He just continued eating his potatoes like he didn't just send out a murdering squad.
"What?" Scorpius and Louis yelled.
"What do you mean she was making out with some guy in the library?!" Scorpius said, instantly turning the overprotective settings on. Joy.
"Scorpius calm down," I said. "It's not a big-"
"Not a big deal?" Scorpius asked furiously. Ugh. He needs to calm down. "You were slagging around with some guy in the library and it's not a big deal?! Where is this guy? Oh wait until he gets a piece of me-"
Scorpius stood up off the bench but stopped at Rose's voice.
"Scorpius Malfoy don't you dare go over there and beat that boy up! You sit down right now!" Rose yelled at him. Merlin she is such a mother. "Yes, Addie maybe should not have made out with a boy in the library. But he's taking her on a date. So just let him live for a little while longer because he could end up being a good boy for Addie. Merlin knows she deserves one with the crazy, over protectiveness of everyone here."
"But-" Scorpius started.
"No buts," she said. Scorpius slowly lowered himself down onto the bench beside Rose. "Besides I'm sure you have some plans of your own with whatever new girl you plan to string on for the next week."
Oh. This is awkward.
Scorpius looked at her, stabbing her food on her plate (probably it was imagining it was whatever girl Scorpius was going to take to Hogsmeade) and smiled. "Well actually Rose," he said. Oh my God was he going to ask her out? It sounds like it! Please, please, please. "I was thinking-"
"I don't care what you were thinking," Rose said, interrupting Scorpius. I tried to restrain myself from screaming out in annoyance that Rose just sabotaged herself in getting a date with the boy she's been in love with since first year. "Honestly, I don't know why I even asked. It's not like I care who you go with. Or don't go with."
Scorpius seemed taken aback, and I can't blame him. He was just shot down by the girl he likes. Without even asking her. Everyone just sat in silence, not knowing waht to say.
Wow. You can feel the awkwardness. It's like we're in a sea of awkward. We're all just swimming through the deep sea of awkward.
"So, um Addie how'd you get so good at potions?" Alice asked, clearly looking for some other way to change the topic.
"It's just something I've always been good at," I said. "According to Draco my mum was-" I stopped myself when I realized what I was saying. I never talked about Mum. Ever. I hadn't even thought of her since the party when Albus brought it up. Suddenly, I lost my appetite. "You know what? I think I'm going to just head up to the dorms. I'm tired."
And I got up and walked straight toward the dorms. I didn't look at anyone and I didn't talk to anyone.
Once I got inside the girls dorms and put everything on my side of the room, I laid down on my bed. I put my hands on my face and took deep breaths, trying to think of anything but Mum.
"Addie?" I heard Rose say. I opened my eyes and saw her and Alice standing at the door. "Are you okay?"
I nodded. "I'm fine."
They came over and sat on my bed. "I'm sorry about that," Alice said. "I didn't know about your Mum and...I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you."
"You didn't know," I said. "It's not your fault Alice. It was a long time ago."
"But still, I shouldn't have said anything," Alice said.
"Don't beat yourself up," Rose said. "You wanted to change the topic from Scorpius' date to something else. You didn’t know this would happen."
"Rose, Scorpius doesn't have a date to Hogsmeade," I said.
"Yeah he does," she said, looking down at the bed. "He asked some fifth year after you left."
"Oh," I said. "I'm sorry Rose."
"Why are you sorry?" she asked. "It's not as if I like him or anything."
"Okay that is the biggest lie I've ever heard," Alice said.
Rose glared at Alice. "Well then let's talk about your crush on Louis."
Instantly Alice turned bright red. "I don't have a crush on Louis."
"Bullshit!" I yelled. "Merlin, forget homework. I think a much needed girls night in is in order!"
"I second that!" Alice yelled. She called Kretcher, the Wotter Family/Hogwarts house elf and said, "Can we have ice cream, chocolate syrup, cake, cookies and any other sweets you have in the kitchens?"
"Oh course Ms. Longbottom," Kretcher said and with a crack he was gone.
"This should be good," I said. "PJ time!!"
Girl talk was overall successful. I found out that Alice had liked Louis since the end of last year and that they wrote each other over the summer. (Which is a big deal because Louis never writes anyone over the summer. Lazy ass.) Alice and I got Rose to admit that she had a mini-crush on Scorpius, even though we both knew that was a blatant lie. And I gave them the full details on my snog fests with Caleb. (Well except the part about me thinking about Albus...because that would just be awkward.)
I think all of us went to bed, full on sweets and talks of boys, around the same time. But my brain couldn't sleep. All I kept thinking was how my idiot cousin asked someone else out. And the look on Rose's face was when she told me.
So I came up with a plan. It wasn't exactly a good one but it wasn't really bad either. But it was more than I ever had before.
And with this plan, Scorpius and Rose were going to be together.
Even if it's the last thing I do.
A/N: Yay new chapter! I like this chapter. What do you think of Caleb? I love him. Representing my own house!! PUFF PRIDE.
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