The first week of school, everything was hectic. Tyler and I moved all of our stuff out of our trunks and into our new living quarters. Classes were strange, not being able to do anything. I kept getting dirty looks from Professors for excusing myself to use the bathroom so often. Tyler preferred to spend time with Spencer and Teddy now that I was in my nesting phase of pregnancy and liked to clean and re-clean everything I could in the quarters. I often nagged at him over making even the tiniest mess. He argued that was what house elves were for but I argued that even they didn’t do a good enough job for my standards.
Tyler told on me however and I got a long talk from daddy about bed rest and how important it was not to strain the baby because her magic was very fragile right now and any little amount of stress could make her become a squib. After that, I calmed down on the nesting quite a bit, though I was pretty angry with Tyler for a few days.
Going into the second week, I went from anxious to a bit scared. This was when I decided to stop being mad at Tyler and let him comfort me while I went through absolute denial that I would make any kind of a mother. I only had a week left after this one and it hit me like a wave of water that I was 16. I wasn’t fit to be a mother. I had no idea what I was doing. I was going to screw this kid’s life up! I was going to scar it for life! These thoughts littered my entire day and I often found, when I was doing my homework , I had no idea what went on in the class and had to get Tyler to help me some. Eventually, I calmed those thoughts down to a case of jitters.
I hadn’t gotten to see much of my mother or father lately, (Mum wasn’t teaching and I wasn’t allowed to attend Daddy’s classes) so I talked Tyler into helping me waddle to Mum and Daddy’s quarters. Mum was delighted to have any kind of company, and tried to hug me awkwardly. Daddy helped me sit and we talked for a while. Daddy handed Tyler a small black box with a red blinking light. We all looked at him questioningly. “It’s what muggles call a beeper. It’s a little out of date, even in their world, but what’s going to happen is, if Alix isn’t near any of us when her water breaks, she’s going to call this little box (which she’ll have to put the number to it on her speed dial) and we’ll all get to her as quickly as possible.” He explained. I happily put the number in my phone, feeling more secure. Every little precaution did that to me recently. Towards the end of the night, when it was getting close to time for Tyler to patrol, we waddled back to our quarters and he kissed my lips and left.
Life started to get monotonous. Get up, eat, go to classes (the ones I was allowed to go to anyways), eat, classes again, back to the quarters, sleep. It was so tiring. Tyler just didn’t understand. He wondered why I didn’t want to be cooped up with him all day just cuddling like I used to love to be. Honestly, I kinda wondered that too. I guessed it got down to the fact that now I didn’t have the choice anymore. I had to be with Tyler 24/7. And we couldn’t even have sex.
That night, Tyler made a special point to keep me entertained and happy. He wrote Dumbledore and told him he needed to stay home with me tonight, that he would appoint a prefect from a different house to do his patrols tonight and give his house 20 points for it. He then joined me in bed and kissed me like he hadn’t in weeks. He kissed down my neck, over my chest, and to my stomach, where he blew a big raspberry. I laughed. “You probably scared her Tyler!” I exclaimed, laughing. He laughed too and I smiled. I missed his laughter. I felt like I hadn’t heard it in forever. I stared down at him, and he came back up to me and kissed me again.
He sighed happily, “I love you Flicka.”
“I love you too Ty.”
“Do you miss us? Young us? Before the breakup us?”
He thought for a minute. “Sometimes. But I wouldn’t give up what we have now for what we had then. We’re stronger. Because of the break up. Because of the baby. We’re more in love. We’ve got a beautiful miracle coming into this world in just under a week. We’ll be back to that one day soon, Flicka. We’ll hire a babysitter one day in a few months or so and go out. Just us. And we’ll have sex all night long, if that’s what you want.
I smiled in near tears and grabbed his face in my hands. “You, Tyler Truett are one of the best things that ever happened to me. I love you so much Ty.” I pulled him to me and kissed him slowly.
“I love you too Baby Girl.”
I'm not sure if I should continue writing or not. It doesnt seem like anyone reads this anymore. This might be my last update.
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