“I keep waiting for it to happen.” Scorpius muttered as I slipped under his bed covers.
“Waiting for what?”
His arm pulled me into him as he starred idly at the ceiling. “Your father to run in here and stab me.”
“I just got over it.” I snuggled into his shoulder. “It’s been three days. If he’s going to do something... whatever.”
“Easy for you to say. You’re not the one he's going to be trying to kill.”
I snorted. “You’ll be alright.”
“If gets to be to be too much,” He started seriously, “We can stop this.”
We were in the perfect transition. We hadn’t gotten far physically or emotionally. Nothing was too serious. He was right. I’m at the point where if I needed to back out, I could. It would hurt, but it would be a pinprick compared to what it could become. Neither of us had taken this too far. No one has said anything more meaningful then, I’ll see you later.
It was weird, but I could feel the power of what we could be; it was this like this dark, powerful pull that was coming closer and closer the longer I stayed with him. Us becoming more than just snogging mates seemed inevitable. Even when we weren’t friends there was still this magnetic energy dragging us together. So the question was, was it better to save us the hard ache and give up now or was this worth an actual try?
If it came down to it and I had to choose between a guy and my family I would chose my family. This was always a simple answer, but as I laid there listening to his thumping heart it didn’t seem like it. In my head I catalogued what I hated and liked about him.
-Always thinks he’s right
-Is serious nearly all of the time
-Knows exactly what to say to drive me crazy
-He knows how good he looks
-Almost beats me on every test forcing me to work harder to beat him
-He has too much self control, doesn’t know how to let loose
-Knows what he wants and doesn’t care what he has to do to get it
-Hides his feelings too well
-Walks around like he owns everything
+Only person that can verbally keep up with me
+Is sweet when no one else is around
+Good sense of humor
+How ridiculous he looks when scrunches up his face in disgust
+How safe I feel when I’m with him
+How he can go from being rough and passionate while kissing me to gently holding me and kissing me
+How he doesn’t just ask me questions to ask me questions, he actually wants to know more about me
+How comfortable he make me
+When holds me, he holds me as if he never wants to let me go
+Has the cutest dimples, ever
+Even when he’s sweaty he smells great
+Makes me laugh
So here I was in my cupcake pajamas with a decision to make. Do I stay with a guy that makes me happy even though it makes my family unhappy? Or do I just assume it won’t work out and end it now?
“What are you thinking about?”
“Nothing, just stuff.”
He adjusted so he could look at my face. “Like what?”
“Do you think this is stupid? Should we just break up?” My voice dropped as I frowned.
“Logically we should.”
I tensed. “So you want to?”
“No. I don’t want to. Do you?”
“No. I don’t want to.”
He sighed and traced the side of my face. “I just wanted you to know that I would understand if you wanted to because of your family.”
“I appreciate that, but
…” I looked away from him. “I just…I need a better reason then that. I mean if you snogged another girl or your family disapproved then I would probably lean towards that decision…. It’s just not a good enough reason to just stop this because my dad doesn’t like it.”
“Are you sure?” I starred into his eyes, his gorgeous, light grey eyes and saw every insecurity, every vulnerability clear.
“Yes.” I smiled boldly.
He smiled back, his whole face lighting up with delight. “So,” Scorpius dragged me closer to him. “Is this the part where we have sex?”
I laughed and smacked his arm. “Is that all you think about?”
“It’s up there.”
“Along with what? Quidditch and beating me on the next Charms test?”
He smirked. “Which I will do.”
“Not a chance.”
“What if I gained a hundred and fifty pounds?” I questioned him suddenly.
He considered this. “Well I couldn’t lift you.”
"Well what would you do if you lost your legs?”
“Cry like a little girl.” Scorpius laughed honestly. “I couldn’t imagine not being able to walk or run whenever I pleased.”
I nodded, “It is an alarming thought.”
“This is an interesting game we’ve discovered.”
“The, ‘what would you do if,’
game?” I had to agree. “It is quite the brain turner.”
He stroked my hair carelessly, “I’ve got one. What would you do if you couldn't work at the ministry?”
“Throw myself off the Astronomy tower…I love the ministry!
I’ve always loved the thought of being involved in something that can completely change someone else’s life for the better.”
“So you have no back up plan?”
I groaned. “I can’t think of anything else. What do you want to do after Hogwarts?”
“No I won’t.” I stuck out my thumb. “Thumb swear.”
He starred at me like I’d grown horns. “What the hell is a thumb swear? Don’t you mean a pinky swear?”
“No a thumb swear. They’re more scared because thumbs are so ugly you couldn’t possibly use them for anything else.”
“Sometimes I legitimately think you need to be tested for insanity.”
“Or,” I interjected mid-chuckle, “I’m brilliant.”
His tone was sardonic and full of doubt. “I guess.”
“Come on, hug your thumb with mine.”
“This is ridiculous.” He protested easily.
“Exactly why it works! Now come on! Humor me.” I asked him nicely.
Scorpius rolled his eyes. “Fine.” His thumb hugged mine.
“Now what do you want to do after Hogwarts?”
“I want to be an Auror.”
My eyebrows raised. “Huh.”
“See! I knew you would think it was awful!”
“No,” I shook my head. “I actually think you’d make a great Auror. You’d have the most organized case files in the whole department…I just think that it’s going to be hard for you to get in for obvious reasons.”
His face darkened. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You know what I mean. I wish it weren’t that way, but …they’re going to see your name and stall you.”
Suddenly he moved away from me and sat on the edge of his bed seething. “So, because I’m a Malfoy I don’t just have to go through school here like a convict, but that follows me to the ministry is what you’re saying?”
“Your name will follow you everywhere as will mine.”
He let out a scathing, hollow laugh. “Your circumstance is different.”
“It’s still hard for me.” I defended myself. “You try being the spawn of my parent’s.”
“Yeah, I’m sure it was just awful.” He scoffed coldly.
I let out a sigh of frustration. “Fine.
You want to be all angsty and self-pitying, fine
. You go right ahead. I’m going to go get lunch. Because I spent the whole morning cuddling with you and I want some damn pancakes.”
“Oh no!” I told him as I got up and stood in front of him. “I don’t want to ruin your, ‘woah is me,
Storming out, I went to my room and changed into some sweats. It was freezing and I didn’t even feel like bothering with normal clothes. When I came downstairs he wasn’t there. He was probably still sulking upstairs, but I wasn’t going to let it get to me.
Lauren wasn’t at breakfast, but Kelly was so I sat next to her. Her nose was pressed in a book eagerly. Despite my undercurrent of anger I couldn’t help laugh at her.
“Kell... It’s Sunday. We don’t have that test till Friday.”
She nodded absentmindedly. “Yes, but last time I got a 96 on the exam.”
“That’s an O…” I starred at her in confusion as I piled food on my plate. “What’s wrong with that?”
“You wouldn’t know since you received 100 percent, but Lauren got 98.”
“Why do you care what she got?”
Kelly’s eyes flashed with anger. “It’s. Not fair! I study my ass off, I try so hard and I still do worse than she does!”
“I don’t know what to tell you.” I shrugged and took a bite of some eggs.
“Well of course you don’t! You study!”
“Is this just about school?”
She shook her little heart shaped face sadly. “I just…you both have boyfriends, are better at school then me... and just have so much more going on then I do.”
“Oh honey.” I grabbed her hand, “We may have more going on, but everyone loves you. That’s one thing you’ll always have on us. Lauren can only glide through life for so long and let’s be honest I could have hundreds of boyfriends, but when you get one it will be serious and meaningful. And when it comes to work you will get picked first because you work harder and have a better liked personality then both Lauren and I. You’ll get farther in the long run.”
Kelly leaned against me. “Thanks Rose.”
“You just have to learn to let go of it. You’re better than your hate.”
“I guess you're right...How are you?”
I swallowed my food and took a swig of orange juice. “Great.”
“How is Scorpius?”
She chuckled under her breath. “Did you two have a fight?”
“Do you want to talk about it?”
“There’s no need to discuss what a condescending prick he can be.” I chewed aggressively. “I think over the years he’s made that redundant.”
Kelly giggled at that and went back to her breakfast. “True.”
“What are you up to today?”
She looked guilty. “Well I was going to study…”
“Well, now you’re not.” I informed her arrogantly. “I bet you haven’t taken so much as a step outside of your room in weeks.”
“Not without you.” She admitted sheepishly.
I put down my fork and wiped my mouth. “Well come on. Let’s have a girls day.”
“What are we going to do?” She raised her eyebrows oddly cynical. “Paint our toes?”
“If you want to.”
She shook her head. “I’m good. Want to just hang out in the common room and play wizard’s chess?”
I grinned arrogantly and threw my arm around her. “Or we could play a game that you actually have a sporting chance at.”
“Oh sod off.” She snorted elbowing me in the side.
For a few hours, Kelly and I played games in the Gryffindor common room. It was nice to see her unwind and not worry so much. The thing about Kelly was she had so much potential. She could get everything she wanted. Sure she would have to struggle for a bit, but she would get it. There was just this certainty to her that she couldn’t see in herself that shined clearly to the rest of us. Kelly was going to be someone someday and I couldn’t wait to see that.
“Well Kelly. I’m afraid I have to leave you.” I hugged her tiny form. “But don’t fret, I will see you at dinner.”
She grinned up at me. “Okay.”
“And don’t worry anymore okay? You’re going to be just fine.”
“Thanks Rose. I’ll see you later.”
I wandered around the castle for a bit. My feet steered me aimlessly as I starred around at the place I’d began to call home for seven years. So many things had changed since I first got here, but the feeling stayed the same. It was too cold to go up to the Astronomy tower, but I went up there anyway.
Halfway, up there I saw Scorpius sitting up there. I considered leaving, but I couldn’t bring myself to do so. He looked so …dejected. I couldn’t leave him. “You’re in my spot you know.”
His face lightened up at the sound of my face. “Hi.”
“What are you doing?”
“I’m sorry.” He groaned regretfully. “I didn’t mean to lash out at you.”
I sat down across from him, my hands in my pockets. “I understand your life is difficult and it’s hard to put up with people constantly thinking the worst of you, but you have to stop caring what they think. You are a good person and your actions will speak for themselves if you let them.”
He nodded sullenly.
“And I really despise it when you talk down to me like that. I’m not a child and you’re not going to treat me like my life isn’t as bad as yours. Even if it might be true, don’t do it.”
“Okay… I’m sorry.”
Swallowing my pride, I reached forward and grabbed his hand. “Me too.”
“I have something for you.” He admitted in an oddly shy voice.
“Okay,” I gave him a skeptical look. “Is it chocolate?”
I scrunched my face in thought. “Is it a book?”
“No.” He scooted closer to me and pulled out a jewelry box. My eyes quadrupled in size as he took the box and handed it to me. “Open it.”
“Scorpius…What is that
He grinned at my terrified face. “Open it.”
I just starred at it for a minute. “Are you sure?”
“Yes,” He laughed. “Now would you please open it?”
I gave him a tentative look and gaped in shock when I saw what he got me. It was a silver heart shaped necklace with my initials on it. “You…I…”
Scorpius grinned amusedly. “I take it you like it.”
“But why…why did you get me this?”
“Happy Valentines day.”
I couldn’t keep the smile off my face. It was so unnecessarily sweet. He didn’t have to get me anything. “This is…You really didn’t have to Scorpius
“I know I didn’t.”
“Are you sure?! I’m sure this costs too much.”
He shook his head. “It didn’t…Do you like it?”
“I love it! Are you joking?! It’s gorgeous….But are you sure you want me to have this?"
“Yes,” He squeezed my hand reassuringly. “Want me to put it on you?”
“Yes!” I squealed whirling around in awe. “I can’t believe you did this.”
His breath tickled my neck as he lifted my hair and hooked the clip of the necklace. “Here you go.”
“Thank you so much!” I gushed, feeling the necklace on my chest cool on my chest. “I can’t believe you did this.”
After a few seconds, I jumped into his lap and threw my arms around him. “You are unbelievable.”
“Well I was in Hogsmede and I saw this.” He tried to shrug it off like it was nothing.
“It already had my initials on it huh?”
“No,” He blushed. “I had them add them.”
I moved back so I could look at him. “Well thank you. I really appreciate it.” Then I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him.
His whole body closed around me as we kissed. We kissed until are lips were swollen and the sun had gone down. We stopped when I could no longer feel my lips or my toes.
I pulled away from his jaw and kissed him a few more times before I finally stopped. “Come on. Let’s get some food. I’m freezing.”
“Alright,” He kissed me. “One more.” Scorpius grinned and kissed me again.
“If you start that we will never leave.” I giggled happily, “Come on boy wonder.” Pushing myself off the ground, I hauled him to his feet.
“You know you can pay me back for that gift in a few ways.” He began arrogantly as his arm tightened around me. “One you can tell me how great I am. Two you can tell me how great I look."
I let out a loud laugh and smacked him the chest almost tripping down the stairs in the process. “I wonder which option you would prefer!”
“You may pick any option you desire.” Scorpius feigned being reasonable.
“Why aren’t you just considerate?!” I scoffed sarcastically.
“One of my many qualities.” He boasted pompously.
My mouth opened to retort this. It was one of our usual bickering matches. Nothing was any different about it, except that it wasn’t. The second we reached the bottom of the staircase I froze in shock. Scorpius staggered and gave me a look.
“You okay? What’s wrong?”
“I hoped your cousin was wrong.” Ron Weasley seethed furiously in front of us. He looked completely unhinged. “But I guess I was the one who was wrong.”
” I started not having even a slight clue what I was going to say.
My dad didn’t wait for me to finish. “You’ve given me no choice Rose. I won’t let you sacrifice your future."
“Given you no choice? What does that even mean-?”
He raised his wand and pointed it at us.
“Wow! Dad! What the hell are you doing?!” I yelled as Scorpius moved his body in front of me protectively.
“What I need to,” His wand pointed directly at me and then without a flicker of hesitation he whispered, “Oblivate.”
And every memory, every second that Scorpius and I had from the past month and a half was gone.
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