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Why? by I_trusted_Snape13
Chapter 1 : Why?
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It must've been in a place so dark you couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through that stormy cloud

It feels like someone is stabbing me over and over in my chest. I think I'm going to collapse from the pain any moment now. I saw you every single day, you never acted like anything was wrong. What made you think you didn't deserve to live another day? It would have gotten better, I promise. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Always. You wouldn't have been stuck in that dark place forever.

Now here we are gathered in our little hometown
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd

We're all gathered here in Godric's Hollow, attempting goodbyes. We've lived here all our lives, it's always been such a happy place, now, I just want to be anywhere else. Throughout our time at Hogwarts, we'd always be the trouble makers, the ones who thrived in the spotlight. I never imagined this was the type of spotlight you wanted. We were always more than just cousins, Rose. We were best friends. Why'd you leave me? I could've helped you get through it. I know I could of.

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'

That's all I want to know: why? Sure, you're in a better place now, but I just need to know, why'd you leave? I'll see you again someday, but until then the only thought I'm going to be able to let course through my brain is why? Why'd you go so early? You had your whole life ahead of you, and you cut it so short. Was there anything I could have said? Please, give me a sign. I can't take this 'not knowing' business. I need answers. Was it something I said? Was it a guy? Your parents? All the pressure from school and Quidditch?

Was there anything I could have said or done?

What could I have said to help you away from those thoughts? I would have done anything I could have, I swear. You could have come to me. You always came to me when you needed someone to hold you when you cried, why didn't you this time? I can't help but think that I could have said something to change your mind.

Oh, I had no clue you were masking

I never knew what kind of thoughts you were having. I should have seen it coming, but I didn't. And for that, I'll never forgive myself.

A troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

God knows why you did it, and that should be enough for me, but it's not. I need answers, Rosie. Why'd you take your life away? It would have gotten better. You were a straight A student and were on the Quidditch team, you had your whole life ahead of you. You were going somewhere, Rose. Somewhere big. But, where you took yourself just doesn't seem like the right place right now.

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin' third to score the winning run

You were one of the best players Hogwarts has ever seen, whenever I watch a game I'll always picture that big grin you got when you caught the snitch and win the game. I'll remember you that way, the good way, not the way I last saw you. The horrific images I saw when I entered your dorm that day will haunt me forever. You looked so small and helpless. I called for help but it was too late. How could you do that to yourself, Rosie? What could have made you do that to yourself?

You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage, you shined just like the sun

Whether it was Quidditch, classes, pranks, or anything else, you gave it your all. You loved being the center of attention, but you didn't gloat in it. Everyone loved you, so why? Why'd you do it?

Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'
And was there anything I could have said or done?

Why, Rosie? What could I have done? You should have told me, then we wouldn't be here today. If you'd let me in on what was going on in your head, I wouldn't be looking at a plaque with your name on it, while everyone around me sobbed. I'm trying to stay strong, for everyone, but It's hard Rosie. I need your help. You were always the glue of the family, now what's going to happen? Hugo's on his knees sobbing, gripping the grass like a child sobbing the word "No." You dad and mom and huddled together crying. I think you dad is the only thing keeping your mom from joining you, Rosie. I've never seen my parents cry like this, now they're beside themselves. Even Al, who you and I both know thinks he's too tough to cry, is making no secret of his tears. Is this what you wanted?

Oh, I had no clue you were masking

You should have told us, Rose. You shouldn't have just taken it in to your own hands like this. Did you even think about us? I hate to say it, but I'm angry with you, Rose. I'm angry that you left us like this. With no answers. One day you were here and the weren't. I thought you were so happy. I thought you loved living, I guess I was wrong.

A troubled soul, oh, God only knows what went wrong
And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

If I live a hundred more years or just ten more minutes, I'll never understand why. No one believed it when we first told for sure that you were dead. That night I remember punching the wall in my bedroom. There should have never been a hole in that wall, Rose, because you never should have left. There's now a gaping hole in my heart. You and I, Rose and James, were unstoppable. Why'd you end that?

Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face

We all know why we're here today: it's your funeral. We're meant to say goodbye today, now. I'll never be able to say goodbye to you, Rose. Not really. Everyone's silent now, crying silently, or just staring solemnly at the spot on the ground where your name is written. This seems like a bad dream we're going to wake up from any moment.

The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place

Being here isn't really that bad, is it? I don't think so, and I never thought you would think so either. It wasn't your time, Rose. We still need you here, you still belong here.

Oh, why? There's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain?

There's no way to ever understand why you made this decision, at least not until we see you again. There's no way for me to try to explain it or judge you, even though it's hard not to. I don't understand, Rose, I need answers. I need your help. Please, just give me a sign to know you're ok? I always thought it was my job to keep you safe, keep you from getting hurt. I helped you and then punched the losers who broke your heart and I comforted you when you were under too much pressure. Now, when you needed help most, where was I? I'll never forgive myself for this on my own, Rose. I need to hear your voice again. I need to see your face, but not in the picture placed on your grave.

Oh, but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?

Who told you that? Was it something I said? If it was I swear I didn't mean it. Was it a guy, a teacher, your parents, a relative? A paparazzi? Who was it, Rose?

They were wrong, they lied, and now you're gone, and we cried

It was a lie. A horrible lie. I don't know why someone would tell you that, but it was not true. They were so wrong, we loved you, we still do. Nothing will ever stop that. We'll never be the same though, we'll never be the people you knew. Those people are gone, forever. We'll try, but we'll never truly move on. Ever.

'Cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song, your absolutely beautiful song

I take a deep breath, the Minister's words are over and it's time to go home. I turn around and the site I meet makes my stomach turn.

Scorpius Malfoy.

Was it him? Did he do something to tell you that you didn't need to live any more?

I stormed over to him and could barely contain my fury, it was all I could do not to deck him.

"Malfoy," I spat, "What are you doing here?"

He looked up and it was noticeable that tears were on his face, "saying goodbye to Rose, same as you."

Was he the reason, Rose?

I wanted to hit him, but instead I just pushed myself away, I had no proof he was the reason you were gone, but, I promise, If I ever find out he is...

I walked away, leaving Scorpius all alone.

Why'd you go, Rose?


Scorpius walked slowly up to the grave, tears falling from his eyes and his stomach in knots.

Slowly he got down on his knees, "Goodbye, Rosie."

The words were a mere whisper, only meant for her.

"I love you," he sighed, a tear falling on to her name on the plaque.

Finally, he reached in his jacket pocket and pulled out a small, box. He opened it and took out the diamond ring, turning it around in his fingers.

"Our two year anniversary was supposed to be this Sunday, Rose. I guess I'm giving this to you a little early, but here you go. You'll be my bride someday, even if I have to wait eighty years. I still want to see you in that wedding dress." He smiled.

They'd been together for nearly two years, and yet, no one had known.

Now, all he wished was that he could shout from the rooftops that he loved Rose Weasley.

He set the ring on the grave, in front of her picture. He'd never understand why.

Someday, he'd get his answers though.

A/N Credit goes to Rascal Flatts for the beautiful lyrics <3

Hope you all enjoyed it!

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