Chapter 4 : A Second Chance
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“I haven’t been in love with him my entire life”, I answers.
“That’s not my point”, Daphne says and rolls her eyes.
“I know. However, this is really hard for me Daphne! I’m in love with him, there’s no doubt about that, but I can’t just forgive him for everything he does”.
“No, and that’s not my point either. But he just apologized to you. Have you ever seen Draco apologizing to anyone before?”
“Exactly. That’s my point. He cares about you. He likes you”.
“Yes, but he liked me before too. He liked me when we were together, and that didn’t prevent him from flirting with other girls”.
“You have to let that go”, Daphne says determined. “It’s just the way he is. He said that he should change, and you have to believe him. Probably, he will continue flirting with other girls, at least smile and blink, but he’s not doing it on purpose. It’s just the way he is, and you have to accept it if you want to be with him”.
“So I should just accept that he’s flirting with other girls when we’re together? Is that your advice? Thank you for being such a good friend”, I answers grumpy.
“You misunderstand”, Daphne says calmly. “Tell him when he does thing you don’t like. It’s not easy to change something that you always have done. You have to give him time, Pansy. Because he doesn’t do it intentionally, I know he doesn’t. He likes you too much”.
I stare at her. Is she right? Maybe she is. Maybe I’m stupid not to take him back. But I’m afraid. Afraid for that he breaks my heart again. Afraid for letting him in.
“You’re probably right...” I say. “But what if he breaks my heart again? I know we haven’t been together for so long, but he means so much to me. I don’t know if can take to lose him again”.
“It’s a risk you have to take”, Daphne says and take my hand. “If you don’t dare, you don’t win. It’s just the way it is”.
“It sucks”, I mumble.
“Yes, it does. But remember, he apologized. He wants to try again. It’s up to you”.
I smile. She’s right. It’s up to me. I can decide to give, or not give him another chance. Maybe he will break my heart again. But that’s happens with so many people. And shouldn’t I be happy that I have someone who wants to be with me? It’s so many people who don’t have that person.
“You’re right. Maybe I should give him another chance”.
Daphne smiles and gives me a hug. “You should, Pansy. Absolutely”.
I’m nervous. I don’t know why. I’m going to talk to Draco, and it makes me really, really nervous. It’s odd; it’s just Draco for God’s sake. I’m done being nervous for talking to him, at least I thought I was. However, it freaks me out that our next conversation probably will decide how our relationship will be in the future. And that is scary. Because he is Draco Malfoy, and I don’t want to lose him, I don’t want to ruin everything with being a jealous girlfriend. But I won’t accept is actions. I’m going to tell him exactly what I feel, and if he’s ready to do give me what I deserve, I’m his. And I really want that.
I don’t get a chance to talk to him before the next day. It’s Thursday, and today’s lessons are over. He’s talking with Blaise. I’m standing with Daphne, and she sees him too. “Come on Pansy. It’s time to talk to him. Go. Now”. She gives me a little push, and I bit my lip.
“I’m freaking nervous, Daphne”.
“I know, but it’s nothing to be scared of. It’s just Draco. Go now”.
“Yeah, yeah, I’m going”. And I do. I’m walking against him, and he sees me.
“See you later, Blaise”, he tells Blaise, who nods and goes away. He smiles when I come. “I’ve missed you, Parkinson”, he says with a smirk.
“I’ve missed you too”.
“You have?” He looks a bit surprised.
“Yes. Can we go somewhere else?”
“Yeah, sure”. We walk together to a more silent hall, and sit down on a bench.
“I have something to tell you. It’s pretty much, and don’t say anything before I’m finished, okay?”
“Okay”. I draw my breath.
“I’m in love with you, Draco. I have probably been it since second grade. The weeks with you was the best in my life. The weeks without out was the worst. You are handsome, funny, sarcastic, charming, arrogant, nice and thoughtful. You have your good sides and your bad, but I love all of them. You can’t be with a person just for the good sides; you have to love them for their bad too. And I do. With you I’m happy. I need you. It’s not that I can’t live without you, maybe one day it will be like that, but not now. I hope that I one day can’t live without you. However, I need you. You mean so much to me. But I need you to need me to. I need you to understand that you can’t flirt with any girls you think is hot. When you’re with me, you are with me. I know I can’t change you, so I have to tolerate some smirks and maybe some blinks, but not as much as it was some weeks ago. If we’re together, you have to be with me. Not the others. Only me. I have to be the one you want to be with, the one you can’t stop looking at, the one you thinking about all the time. I want you so much, Draco. But I won’t do anything for keeping you. If you don’t care about my feelings, we can’t be together. It’s just as easy as that. I gave you everything, my heart, my virginity”. She smiled. “So I need you to give that back to me. Give me your heart. Give me everything. Then we can be together”. She looked him deep in his eyes”. It can take time, of course. I don’t expect you to change totally and give all of you to me in a day. I just expect you to try, and eventually it will happen. You will be ready to give all of yourself to me. If you want, and I really hope that you will. Because then you will be truly happy, and I hope that you will be that with me”.
He stares at me for some seconds. Then he says: “You have change, Pansy”.
“Yes. Before we get together, you were different. It was like you were desperate to talk to me”.
I smirk. “I was”.
“And now... you say against me. You say what you mean. I was shocked when you did that first time, and now... I don’t know what to say. It’s just...”
“No... It’s amazing. I can’t believe that you feel that for me. For real. I’m lucky. I’m lucky to have you. Well, I don’t have you... not yet. But I hope that I will, someday. Because you are one of a kind, Pansy”.
I smile. “I hope that too”.
“You are important to me. I will do absolutely everything I can to change, so you can be mine again. It will be hard, I know it will. But I think I can do it. Because it’s you and I love...” He stops.
“You don’t have to say it, Draco. If you don’t mean it, don’t say it. I won’t be mad at you if you don’t say it, because I want you to mean it. That’s what important to me. I want it to be real”.
“Real. Yeah, you’re right. You know Pansy...” He takes my hand. “Thank you for loving my good sides, that’s great. But that you love my bad sides too... that’s just amazing. Thank you for that. I have many of them, I do a lot of stupid things, I say a lot of stupid things. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being who you are. I hope that one day I will be the one you deserve”.
I wipe away a tear. “You stupid git. You make me cry”. He smirks.
“It’s the Malfoy charm you know”.
“Shut up and kiss me”. He does. It’s a great kiss, and I’m happy. We’re not together again, not yet, but I hope we will be. I’m pretty sure we will be. Because Draco Malfoy don’t say things like that to everyone. I hope that he one day will say that he loves me, but until that day, I just have to wait. And I can do that, as long as he shows that he deserves me. I hope it will be forever.
A/N: The last chapter! I hope you have enjoyed reading my story, and please review.
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