I open my eyes and look at the clock. I couldn’t have been asleep for more than two hours, and he’s crying. “Remus,” I say. He’s asleep. “Remus,” I say, hitting him. Still asleep. I roll my eyes and get up to take care of Teddy.
“Hey, baby. What’s wrong, huh?” Still crying. I check his diaper, which is dry. “Are you hungry? Is my little boy hungry?” I sit in the rocker in this room and feed him. He’s so sweet. Even if he does wake me up at two in the morning. Finally, as I put him back in the crib, Remus comes through into the room?
“Is he asleep? What are you doing?”
“He was hungry,” I whisper, leading the way back to bed. “Took you long enough to wake up.” I slide under the covers.
“Sorry,” he said, yawning. He wraps his arm around me as I drift off to sleep. Luckily, he doesn’t wake up for the rest of the night. I still wasn’t used to the fact that I was a mum, even though it had nearly been two months. We sleep in late the next day. Teddy must have been really tired. I wake up at ten. I stumble into Teddy’s room and pick him up. He starts crying from being woken.
“Well, I have to check you diaper. We can’t have you all wet, now can we.” I change it and feed him, and by then Remus is awake and making our breakfast (he still hasn’t taught me to cook. Not that I’m complaining). I carry Teddy down the stairs. Remus is always afraid I’m going to drop him or fall with him. But I’m very graceful when I hold him. Well, graceful for me. I don’t fall, anyway. I put Teddy in his hi-chair (so I can eat), and sit at the table.
Teddy’s talking to us. Sometimes I wish I could speak baby. I bet Dumbledore could. Remus grins. We spend the day just playing with Teddy, and just enjoying being together, as a family. When I finally get Teddy down for a nap, I fall onto the couch beside Remus.
“You know, it’s been forever since we had sex.”
Remus coughs. “What?”
“It has. Since my belly got really big.” I grin up at him. “I think we have a couple hours, at least.” He smiles down at me.
“Really, Dora. Is that the only thing you think of?” I roll my eyes and kiss him. Suddenly, I feel the couch cushions under me…
“I miss this too,” I say, grabbing my shirt off the floor.
“Just being able to do whatever, whenever, no worries.” He smiles at me.
“What do you want for dinner?”
“Just surprise me,” I say. I lie down on the couch, to wait for Remus to finish with dinner. I’m almost asleep when Teddy starts crying.
“I’m coming,” I call up the stairs. I hear Remus laugh in the kitchen.
Teddy’s back in the hi-chair, while Remus and I eat. He’s babbling in the cute baby talk of his. Remus repeats what he says. He laughs and turns his hair a sandy-brown, just like Remus, only without the grey.
“What do you think his real hair colour is?”
“I don’t know.” Suddenly, McGonagall’s cat is in our kitchen.
“Voldemort is at Hogwarts. There’s going to be a battle. If you can, please come quickly.” I look up at Remus. He looks as afraid as I feel. I stand and grab Teddy.
“What are you doing?”
“Taking him to Mum. She’ll watch him.”
“Dora, no. I want you to watch him.”
“You should go there.”
“Remus, don’t leave me.” I hated to say it, but it was the only way I could make him let me go, or him stay here.
He grabs my hand and apparates the three of us to Mums. He takes Teddy into his arms.
“I love you son. I love you more than you could ever imagine. I’ll be back soon, I promise. And I never break a promise.” He holds him tight, a tear falling down his cheek. Then he hands him back to me. “I’m sorry, Dora.”
“Don’t go,” I whisper. Mum chooses that second to walk in.
“What? What’s going on? Are you leaving again?”
Remus shakes his head and I nod mine without looking away from each other.
“Which is it?”
“Let me go. I can help. I’m an Auror, damn it.”
“And you’re a mum. Please, Dora, just stay.” Mum walks over and takes Teddy from me. “Please. Let me protect you.” I feel tears rolling down my face.
“I don’t want you to go.” He comes over to me, hugging me more fiercely than he had ever before.
“I love you. Don’t you ever forget that.” I squeeze my eyes together. He leans in and kisses me. Slowly, he pulls away. “I love you.”
“I love you too.” He closes his eyes and steps away. He opens them one last time, before he turns and is gone. The tears won’t leave. I stare at the spot where he was.
“Dora, you need to go.”
“He doesn’t want me to.”
“I don’t either. But you need to. I can see it.”
I turn and look at Mum. I hug her, tightly. Then I take Teddy.
“Hey, I’ll be back really soon, okay? Before you can say Falmouth Falcons.” I hold him close. “I love you Tedster.” I hand him back to her, and follow Remus.
Aberforth said he had been fighting Dolohov. I run, looking for him. I shoot spells at the Death Eaters as I go. Finally, I see him, still fighting Dolohov. I try to help, and send a stunner. It hits. He looks shocked when Dolohov falls, but the he sees me.
“Dora.” I run to him.
“I’m sorry, I couldn’t just wait and-”
He brushes my cheek. “It’s okay.”
“I couldn’t stand…”
“I understand, love.”
“I love you,” we say at the same time. I smile at him.
We turn. Bellatrix is standing there, with a newly revived Dolohov. Bellatrix has that mad gleam in her eyes, the one she’s had every time we’ve fought. I will win this time. We battle, and I throw everything I have at her, while Remus fights with him. A jet of green light hits his chest.
“Your mutt is dead, little niece. Wouldn’t you like to follow him and dear Sirius?” Dolohov had disappeared somewhere.
I shoot a Killing Curse at her in response. My mind drifts to Teddy, safe at Mums. At Mums, where Remus and I should be. I will survive. I will. I have to. For Teddy. Teddy, my beautiful son. Teddy…