As I said before, being the best damn friend in the school was extremely hard, and I couldn't stop thinking about Draco, as usual. Within two weeks, I started dealing with it like I usually did, which was with distraction, which meant getting a new boyfriend.
Even though I was in love with Draco, I was always dating someone, I mean, what else am I going to do? I can't just stay single for the rest of my life, can I? Besides, like I said before, dating someone somewhat distracted me from Draco.
And not to mention none of my relationships ever lasted more than two weeks. It's pretty much what I'm known for, I'm the girl who's dated like half the school, but who's never had a serious relationship. It's strange that all the guys I date know all about my reputation, but they continue to ask me out. I think that they think that they can be that one guy who manages to last two weeks and a day with me. But I have yet to meet anyone worth it.
The reason I end all my relationships within two weeks is because I end up finding a quality that drives me mental and I can't stand it. Even if that's not it, they all have the same problem that prevents me from being with them: they aren't Draco. And they never will be, unfortunately for them.
I mostly date Slytherins, but I have dated outside my house. I've dated a number if Ravenclaw blokes, they're really sweet and they offer to do my homework, which I have no complaint about. A few Hufflepuffs, they're quite loyal of course. And I've dated only one Gryffindor, it was a secret relationship, well until I dumped him. Then he told anyone who would listen that he dated me a whole week, no one really believed him,and I neither confirmed, nor denied it.
As much as I break up with people, I really don't like doing it. I actually feel really guilty, but I have two specific ways to do it. If I know the guy has a tendency to be a little emotional and clingy, then I'll do it first thing in the morning,it will go a little like this:
Him: "Hey, (insert whatever pet name he has chosen to call me)"
Me: "I've been thinking."
Him: face falls, it's never a good thing when a Slytherin has been thinking. "About what?"
Me: "That we should break up."
Now this will go one of two ways. Way number one:
Him: "But why?"
Me: "I just don't feel anything anymore."
Him: "Well maybe we could try again."
Me: "Sorry, but it's over, okay?"
Him: deep, sad sigh. "All right, see you around."
Me: "See you in (insert class I happen to have with him)
Or it could go way number two:
Him: "All right, knew it was going to happen some time soon. Later."
Me: "Okay, see you in (insert class I happen to have with him)
Now if the guy isn't all emotional and clingy, then I'll spend our last day together having fun,and then dump him afterwards. Usually during that day he'll realize that I'm breaking up with him, and enjoy the time as much as he can. Then then it will go like this:
Me: "Today was fun."
Him: "Yeah, it was,"
Me: "Good for our last day together, don't you think?"
Him: "Yeah,I had fun, it was a good last day."
Me: "Yeah, so I'll see you around."
Him: "Yeah, see you in (insert class he has with me)
I have other ways to break up will guys also, but those are my most frequently used.
Now that I'm done sharing my interesting dating history, I should probably tell you who this week's boyfriend is. His name is Ben Calington, he's a fifth year Slytherin, and he's new this year.
We met on the first day of lessons, he was lost, and since I'm a prefect, I had to help him. We were going to same place, so I walked with him. We got to talking and he was really nice. Honestly, that freaked me out a bit, because you can't be a nice Slytherin, it didn't make sense. But at the same time I was attrated to him, and not only because he's so damn good looking, he has an interesting personality.
Draco didn't like it at all that Ben and I were talking, but that didn't surprise me, he never likes anyone I date or that comes close to dating me. A big part of me hopes it's because he's jealous and hates seeing me with other guys, but the reasonable part of me realizes he's just being protective of me.
Anyways, when Ben originally asked me out, I said no, because he was just too nice. Then he did something no one has ever done without my permission, consent, or knowledge, he pushed me against a wall and snogged me. Right there, in a crowded hallway infront of loads of people.
When he pulled away he said, "What was your answer again?"
I somehow managed to get over my pleasured shock and said, "I believe my answer was yes."
And that was it, now we've been dating for five days and it's great. Especially right now, as I sit on his lap, and we snog under the beech tree near the Black Lake, when we're supposed to be in Herbology. We decided to skive off, it was really his idea, but I quickly agreed to it once I found out what we'd be doing.
First we went up to his empty dormitory, I'll let your imagination decide what we did, but I will tell you we were not talking and our clothes didn't stay on for too long, if you know what I mean.
Then we walked around the empty grounds and ended up underneath the beech tree. We break apart as we see hear the final bell ring, and we watch as the fifth year Slytherins and Ravenclaws leave the greenhouses.
When I see Draco and Pansy, I immediately know they've had a fight. Draco's fists are stuffed in his pocket, and Pansy's arms are crossed angrily infront of her, they're both scowling.
I'm hoping they don't see me, I hate when they fight, well I mean I love it because of the prospect that they might break up forever, but I hate it because I end up in the middle. I have to hear both sides, for example:
Pansy: "I feel like Draco doesn't want to spend time with me at all!"
Draco: "Well I don't want to be around her all the time, sometimes she's annoying! Besides, I need a little Draco time."
Me: thinks "maybe you guys should break up forever." But says "You guys should try and compromise when you want to spend time together and apart."
Draco: "Pansy talks so much, about nothing, I never even listen to what she says, I'm too annoyed!"
Pansy: "Draco never listens to me when I talk, he just pretends he does. It hurts my feelings."
Me: thinks "maybe you guys should break up. But says "You guys need to communicate better."
And, my personal favorite:
Pansy: "I feel like Draco only wants to have sex all the time, and he never wants to talk about feelings or anything important, just sex , sex, sex!"
Draco: "What does she expect?! Of course I want to have sex all the time, I'm a guy, aren't I? All I ever think about is sex!"
Me: "What the hell?! I am not helping you guys with this!"
So, as you can see,them fighting is painful for me. Unfortunately Pansy spots me, I swear she was looking around for me. Then she pokes Draco, and he's about to yell at her when she points to me. Then they start making their way towards Ben and me.
I feel Ben tenses up when he notices them.
"What's wrong?" I ask him, "You don't like my friends?"
"Well,Pansy is all right, though she talks alot," he said, "but it's Malfoy I don't like. Or haven't you noticed?"
"Oh, no I've noticed," I said nodding, "and the feeling seems mutual."
"Yeah, that's because it is, sorry."
"It's okay," I said smiling, "I don't mind,as long as I get to kiss you." I closed the distance between our faces and kissed him.
As Draco and Pansy get closer, I can see Draco is pissed. And I wish he wasn't because angry Draco is so sexy. Am I a horrible person for thinking how sexy my bestfriend, who's my other bestfriend's boyfriend, is five seconds after kissing my boyfriend? Don't answer that, I know I am.
"Where the hell have you been?!" Draco asked angrily as he approaches us.
"Um, with Ben?" I answer, like it's obvious because it is.
"Well, why didn't you tell anyone?!" Draco practically yelled, "We were worried about you!"
Behind him Pansy is shaking her head and mouthing "I wasn't worried,"
Ben and I laugh,and Draco whips his head around at her. "What are you doing?!"
Pansy narrows her eyes and says "I was telling her that I wasn't worried, and I knew that she must be with Ben."
"No one cares whether you were worried or not!" He yells.
Pansy turns on her heel and leaves not saying anything.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?!" Draco repeats.
"Well how could I?" I said softly, hoping to calm him down, "We were on our way to Herbology when Ben suggested we skive off. I couldn't show up in class to tell you guys I wasn't coming. Not only would I get myself in trouble, but I'd get Ben in trouble too. That would make me a horrible girlfriend, and you wouldn't want that, would you?"
"Actually,I'd prefer if you weren't his girlfriend at all." Draco said coldly glaring at Ben.
"And what's that supposed to mean, Malfoy?!" Ben asks angrily, standing up, completely forgetting I'm sitting on his lap.
"Exactly what I said, Calington, I don't want Jo being your girlfriend!"
No cares I'm on the filthy ground, apparently. So I get up by myself and watch them.
"Well,that sounds like a problem for you, because Jolina is my girlfriend."
"Well, I think she's wasting her time with a git like you." Draco countered.
"Well, it doesn't matter what you think, Malfoy! If she thought she was wasting time with me, she wouldn't be with me, would she?!" Ben yelled.
"Hey!" I shouted, interupting them, "Um, 'she' is right here. And 'she' can speak for herself, and make her own decisions!"
"Exactly," Ben said, "and she's decided I'm her boyfriend."
"Yeah, well she's decided I'm her bestfriend." Draco said. Then he sneered, "I shouldn't worry about you anyways, you'll be gone pretty soon."
"And what's that supposed to mean?!" Ben asked.
"Oh, don't you know you only get up to two weeks with Jo?" He said smirking.
"And why is that?"
"Don't you know about Jo's reputation? Her relationships never last more than two weeks. She can't stay in a relationship to save her life-" he stops when he realizes what he just said. He completely just insulted me.
How could he say that?! Stupid jerk, he's the reason I can't stay in a relationship!
"Jo, I'm so-"
"You know, Ben might not be around for a long time, but it's not looking like you will be either." I said grabbing Ben's hand and pulling him away.
It's evening time now, right before the sun is about to set, I'm at the Black Lake alone, drawing, and waiting to watch the sunset. I'm still thinking about earlier, what Draco said. Honestly, I'm not mad anymore, I just can't straight mad at him, but he still hasn't apologized, and I'm not talking to him until he does.
Suddenly, someone's hands are over my eyes. "Guess who?" A voice says that I easily recognize as Draco's.
"What do you want Draco?" I ask flatly.
"To apologize for being a right foul git earlier," he said sitting down next to me, "I shouldn't have said that..."
"Draco, do you know why I can't stay in a relationship?" I ask turning to look at him.
"Because of…" you. I think. All because of you. But I can't say it. "Because…I'm waiting for the right guy." I say instead.
"Well, do you know who this guy is?" Draco asks seriously.
"I think I do, but he just hasn't exactly noticed me yet." I said quietly.
"Who is it?" He asked anxiously.
"I'm not telling you!" I exclaimed laughing.
"Because if I tell you, I'd have to kiss you-I mean kill you!" I said blushing.
"I prefer the first option," he said seductively, leaning towards me.
"Very funny," I said nervously.
"Who says I'm joking?" He asks smirking.
Okay, I can't breathe. My bestfriend, who I'm in love with just insinuated he wanted to kiss me. Breath, Jolina, breathe!
"Are you all right?" He asked.
"I'm fine," I whispered, "I just can't breathe."
"Would you like me to give you mouth to mouth?"
I went into a fit of coughs, and then tried to focus on my drawing.
"What are you drawing?" Draco asked trying to look at the piece of parchment I was drawing on.
"Nothing," I said covering it.
"Come on, let me see."
"No!" I said laughing.
"Jo, don't make me," he threatened.
"What are you gonna do? You don't scare-aah!" I squealed as he started tickling me. I fell back, with him on top of me, trying to fight him off. "Stop it!" I screamed through laughter as we rolled around.
Finally he stopped, I was sitting on top of him pinning him down on the ground. When I realized how wrong this was, I attempted to get off of him, but Draco pulled me back down.
"No," he said, "I like this position, it's comfortable."
I stayed, because who was I to deny Draco of being comfortable? I know, I'm horrible.
"Why can't we just stay like this?" He asked, smiling as our hands came together, intertwining our fingers.
"Because," I answered quietly, "your girlfriend, and my boyfriend are bound to come looking for us."
He stopped smiling, "I really don't like Calington," he said softly.
"I know, he's dating me." I said looking down at him.
"What does that mean?" Draco asked.
"You never like anyone I date," I said, "I could date Blaise, and you wouldn't like him, and he's your best mate. Why is that?"
"Jo, I don't like seeing you with other guys." Draco said not looking at me.
"Why not?" I asked. He just shrugged. "Are you jealous?" I teased.
He looked at me, "What if I am jealous?" He asked smirking, "What if I envy all those blokes?"
I smiled seductively and leaned down, our faces inches from eachother, "Well, if you do, why don't you do something about it?" I whispered, loosening his tie. I knew this was beyond wrong, but I don't care, I can't resist him, and honestly, I don't want to.
"Maybe I will," he whispered back. Then we were silent, I could tell Draco was thinking hard about something.
"What are you thinking about?" I asked.
"Pansy," he said. Suddenly, I'm slapped back into reality.
"Oh," I said, quickly rolling off of him and instead laying on the ground. I shouldn't be mad, but I am, well more like jealous.
"Oh, no, Jo, it's not like that," he said grabbing my hand. "I'd much rather be around you than her." He turned my face towards his.
"Whatever," I said turning away, not believing him. "She's your girlfriend, you should be thinking about her."
"Jo," he whispered, suddenly his face right above mine. He didn't say anything right away,he just stared down at me, running his fingers through my dark brown hair. "Why am I with Pansy?" He finally said.
I looked up at him shocked. "Um, why are you asking me?"
"Because you know me better than anyone else does." He said simply. "So, why am I with her?"
"Um, I don't know, because you love her?" I said.
"But what if I don't?" He asked. "What if, hypothetically, I've realized I love someone else?" His eyes stared so intensly into mine. "What if I want to be with someone else?"
"Well, um, hypothetically, is this other girl worth losing Pansy over?" I asked, hoping he was talking about me.
"Hypothetically, yes." He whispered in my ear.
"Well, if she's worth it, go for it," I said quietly.
"I'm scared," he admitted, "What if she doesn't feel the same way?"
"I'm sure she will," I said. Then there was silence, in which Draco continued to run his fingers through my hair,and staring at me while I stared back at him and further loosened his tie. "So," I said as casually as I could, "What would this girl's name be, hypothetically?"
"If I tell you, I'd have to kiss you," he said.
"I'm okay that," I whispered.
His hand ran softly over my face, to the back of my neck. It was that moment that I knew he was going to kiss me as he leaned down, this was it…our first kiss. Our lips were a centimeter from meeting, I couldn't believe this was happening, one second…
Instead of our lips meeting, a wave of water came over us. Draco got off of me, sputtering, "What the hell was that?!"
I looked at the lake, the stupid giant squid splashing around in it. That thing ruined everything, I definitely wasn't kissing Draco tonight.
He looked at me, "We should get back," he said.
"Yeah we should," I said feeling as though everything said tonight had been forgotten, and by tomorrow, Draco would love Pansy again and forget about the hypothetical girl. When I got up, Draco grabbed my face, and kissed me quickly on the cheek, as though he was embarassed.
He looked down at me, searching for a reaction, I smiled up at him, and he sighed in relief as he took my hand and we walked back to the castle.