I see the way he stares at me while pretending to read. He thinks I don't notice him, but.....he's wrong. I notice everything about him. I notice the way his blonde hair falls into his eyes, because he needs a haircut. I notice he has amazing grey eyes that have beautiful swirls of blue in them. He looks at me alot with those eyes.
I wish he wouldn't look at me the way he does. It gives me chills up and down my spine.
Everything about the way his look makes me feel is wrong. And he knows that even better than I do, and yet...the looks continue.
Even though it's wrong, I'm thankful for the looks, because that means he isn't looking at anyone else. I don't think I could handle that. Even though we aren't together I feel a claim over him. I don't want him to be with anyone other than me, which is selfish of me, because I refuse to be with him.
I want him so bad that it literally hurts me. I feel my control slipping away with every glance and every accidental touch.
He knows my desires. He's knows that I want nothing more than to be with him. He is trying to make me succumb to what I truly want, but I can't....not this time.
As long as he keeps his distance from me I should be able to ignore the feelings his burning gaze is giving me. We are on opposite ends of the room and I couldn't be more grateful of that fact.
He knows I'm thinking of him. I can see it all in his looks. His desire is more pronounced in his gaze, because of that knowledge.
I need to look away before I find myself doing something sinful. But breaking his gaze is almost as hard as keping in control.
Finally I'm able to cast my gaze to the floor and away from Draco, but the minute I do graceful fingers lift my chin up, and I'm looking into the same smouldering eyes as before.
I try to form words, but my voice wasn't coming out. He was drawing closer to me and I knew something had to be done.
"Draco, stop we can't, I can't" I whispered.
Looking up at him I saw the tears in his eyes and it almost made me take back the words that I had just said. But I knew I couldn't or there would be dire consequences in the future for the both of us.
"Please Hermione, just this once," came Draco's strangled cry.
"No Draco, I'm sorry, but it's just not right. You and I are not meant to be together," I choked out.
"Do you honestly believe that?" Draco asked.
"No, but that doesn't change my decision" I replied.
"I want you Hermione, badly," Draco said.
"Yes, well the thing is Draco," I replied. " You can't always get what you want."
With those final words I made my way out of our shared common room and out of his life forever.
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