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Susie Q, Where Are You? by SiriuslyNot
Chapter 1 : 1. Weddings, Deaths & Truths
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Chapter 1: Weddings, Deaths & Truths

“… you may kiss the bride, Mr Potter.”

Everyone stood up and applauded, as James leaned down and kissed Lily. I couldn’t help but grin widely, even if I had only moments ago complained about the flowers making my eyes water, or how the lady behind me smelled bad, or how the entire ceremony was totally overdoing it all – this was Lily Evans, getting married with James Potter.

That alone was a miracle, and forgave everything I had complained about earlier.

“That’s going to be me and you next,” Sirius teased, his voice barely audible over the cheering.

I continued to clap my hands together, as I glared at him. “Dream on, Black,” I growled.

“Oh, I will,” Sirius laughed, throwing his arm around my shoulders, as we all followed the newly wed couple out from the church.

The wind outside was cold, and I shivered just by looking at Lily in her wedding gown – even if I had to choose between death and wearing something like that in this weather, I would choose death.

Atleast I would be warm there. In hell, I mean.

I mean, come on – that’s where I’d be heading, right?

Someone was about to close the car door behind Lily, when she suddenly jumped out – as well as a person could while wearing a wedding gown – and ran towards me.

“Oh my God,” I muttered, my smile widening. “She’s going to run for it!” I gasped, as she made her way through the crowd.

“Susie!” Lily breathed, hugging me.

“Lily!” I coughed, trying to squirm away from her embrace. “What—“

“I’m pregnant, Susie,” Lily whispered in my ear, and I felt my eyes widen. “I’m pregnant!”

I glanced at Sirius over Lily’s shoulder, unable to think of anything to say. “That’s… nice,” I said, as Lily pulled away.

“I’ll see you in a month,” Lily giggle, already running back towards the car, where James waited – looking highly anxious. “I’ll leave the rest to you!”

“What was that about?” Sirius wanted to know, as everyone watched the car drive away.

I remained silent, trying to put the pieces together. I had figured out that James had no clue about Lily’s pregnancy – that was pretty much obvious, considering the look on his face just moments ago. And second of all—

“Oh, hell no!” I called out angrily. “They’re going to skip the reception party!”

So half an hour later, there I stood, looking stupid and helpless, in front of an expectant wedding crowd.

And I had no bride or groom.

They had literally left the country to Merlin knows where.

“SPEECH!” some man shouted, and I recognized him as one of James’ co-workers from the Ministry. “COME ON, GIRLY! GIVE US A SPEECH!”

“OI!” Sirius called out, standing up. “She’ll give you a damn nice speech, if you’d just hold your knickers on, mate!”

A few of the guests chuckled at Sirius’ remark, but I couldn’t help but feel more humiliated. They all expected me to introduce Mr and Mrs James Potter – and I had no Mr and Mrs James Potter to introduce – and I had absolutely no idea about what to do next.

“Erm,” I began, and found mama sit at one of the tables with Sienna, Ali, and their four children. “Ehh… the thing is…”

“Psst!” someone hissed, and I looked towards the voice, spotting Chuck. “Soozer!”

What?” I hissed back, ducking my head. “Can’t you see I’m kind of in the middle of something here…?”

“This is important,” he went on, raising his eyebrows.

I glanced at the wedding crowd, watching them shift nervously in their seats. The Evans – Lily’s parents and sister, and her sister’s awful walrus look-a-like husband – sat at their table, looking very out of place among all the witches and wizards, even if Mrs P tried to create small talk with them.

“One moment, please,” I said cheerfully, and skipped over to Chuck. “WHAT!?” I snapped loudly, as the entire room fell silent.

Chuck glanced nervously at the crowd, before pulling me aside. He sighed deeply, looking down.

“Chuck, please, just say what the fuck you—“

“Okay, I’m just going to say it, or I won’t be able to say it at all,” he rambled, his hands shaking. “Susie, your dad had a heart attack this morning.”

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I watched dad’s still body, his pale and emotionless face, as the machines around him kept beeping regularly. Everytime one of the machines jumped out of the regular, I jumped in my seat and watched the numbers and different curves go crazy, but soon stabilize again. Our entire family was gathered in the small room, but only I stayed by dad’s side. Sienna cried silently against Ali’s shoulder by the window, their children were creating havoc and chaos somewhere in the hospital, while mama hovered by the door, her arms folded across her chest, as she stared blankly ahead. Sirius had offered to stay with me, but I had refused at once. I knew, of course, that he was somewhere in the hospital – just in case.

That’s Sirius Black.

“Chuck found him,” I said quietly, staring at dad. “Chuck wondered why dad was late for the meet—“

“Susan,” mama snapped, and everyone looked at her. “Enough.”

I sighed, as I looked back at dad. “He seemed normal this morning.”

“What would you know what’s ‘normal’ anymore – you don’t even live home anymore! You never visit…” mama said, her voice breaking. “You live with that… that… that boy, and—“

“Sirius has nothing to do with this, mama,” I cut off. “And quite frankly, I have no intentions of listening to any of your lectures of how I’m living in sin with a man, and not being married, or even engaged. Dad accepted Sirius, and that’s fine with me.”

“Sienna!” Chuck said, as he barrelled into the room, carrying all the four girls with him. “Could you please tell your kids to not—“

“GET OUT, CHUCK!” mama and I roared, making Chuck leave the room with the girls as soon as humanly possible. “Sienna, Ali,” mama continued, more composed this time. “Could you please leave us for a moment?”

Sienna managed to glare at me through her tears, before she let Ali lead her out from the room. Mama waited until they were gone, before she approached me.

“What?” I said, looking away.

“What you just said—“

I gasped, and hurried to grab dad’s hand, as I noticed his hand twitch, and eyes flicker open. “DAD!”

Mon cherie?” mama breathed, leaning over my shoulder to peer at him. “Mon dieu, you’re awake! You made me worry so much, cherie! I—“

“Be… quiet, Morticia…”dad said in a raspy voice, and I blinked my eyes.

Dad had never ever in his entire life told mama to be quiet.

This was absurd.

“W-what?” mama stammered, gaping at him.

“Dad, are you in pain?” I whispered, looking around for the nurse button. “Let me—“

“Susie,” he rasped, and swallowed with much effort. “You need to know… the… the truth…”

“The truth… what are you—“ I said, frowning.

“Morticia… tell… her… the truth…” he said, giving my hand a gentle squeeze. “It is time.”

“No,” mama said at once, her eyes suddenly hardening.

“Tell her, or I will,” dad insisted, suddenly talking clearer than before.

“I will never—“ mama began.

“Susie…” dad said, pulling me closer. “There… was another….”

“Another…? Dad, another what? Another heart attack, another what, dad!?”

“Man,” he whispered, tears forming in his blue eyes. “I’m not your father, Susie…”

His grip of my hand loosened, and he fell heavily against the pillows. The machines went wild at once, and this time, the room was filled with nurses. Mama and I were both pushed away, as they took dad away from the room, leaving a long, awful silence behind.

I slowly turned to mama, my eyes wide, as I looked at her. “Dad’s… dad’s not my dad?”

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Mama never answered me. We were soon joined by Sienna, Ali and Chuck – and the four girls – as soon as dad had been taken away. Not long after that did a doctor join us, and told us the situation. He told us dad wouldn’t have much time left, and that we should say our goodbyes when he woke up, because that would be the last opportunity.

Sienna wanted to go first with Ali. Mama and I sat quietly outside, staring at each other, while the girls played around us. One of the girls – Aaliyah, perhaps? – played with my hair, tugging it fervently, and trying to make it even messier. I let her, because I honestly didn’t give damn anymore.

A set of familiar, loud and sure steps echoed down the corridor. I looked up quickly, and felt a small, humourless smile tug at the corners of my mouth, as I saw Sirius walk towards us. I stood up, and tried to walk up to him, but my feet were heavy as rocks. So instead, I ended up being embraced by him, practically pulled into one, enormous hug.

“Are you okay?” he whispered into my hair, and I felt everyone suddenly stare at us. I pulled quickly away, and nodded stiffly. “Susie?” Sirius said, frowning at me. “Are you okay, Susie?” he asked, rubbing his thumb carefully against my cheek.

I barely felt it.

I could only imagine what I looked like. This kind of me was probably the last kind Sirius wanted to remember; it probably reminded him of something he didn’t want to remember, something he wished to forget.

So because of that, I smiled, and nodded again. “I’m fine,” I heard myself say.

Before Sirius could ask anything else, Sienna and Ali returned, and Sienna walked straight up to me. “Susie,” she said, sniffling. “Dad wants to see you. He kept saying your name the entire time w-we were there…”

I watched as Ali embraced the crying Sienna, giving me a small nod. I glanced at Sirius one last time, before entering the room where dad was.

The room smelled weird, almost like at the dentist. I hadn’t visited the dentist that much, only twice, but the smell was something I would never forget. A nurse sat in the corner of the room, eyeing me sadly. She quickly looked away, and started to move some papers around. I kept looking at her, until I sat down in the chair next to dad’s bed.

I knew dad didn’t have much time. I knew it the very moment I looked at his face. I also knew he knew it.

And for a moment, I forgot all my hatred for him. He was, afterall, my only dad.

“Dad?” I said quietly, biting my lip to keep the tears back. “You… you wanted to see me…?”

“Susie,” dad sighed, searching my hand with his own. “My little Susie…”

“Dad, I’m here,” I whispered, and took his hand. I sniffled loudly, and tried to smile as he opened his eyes. “Dad?”

“I’m so sorry,” he suddenly said, shaking his head. “I’m sorry I kept this from you for so long… you had the right to know, but I… I… everyday, everyday I wished… that you would be my daughter, my real daughter… everyday, I found similarities with us two… but everytime I found them, I found three more that were… were similar to your real father… or still are…”

“Dad,” I pleaded, squeezing his hand. “I don’t understand! You’re my dad! I don’t understand how some random bloke could possibly be—“

“He’s still alive,” dad cut me off, peering at me seriously. “But Susie,” dad said, sighing. “He’s not a good man. He used to be, but from what I’ve heard, he’s turned into… into a greedy, selfish and arrogant man. Don’t look for him, Susie… if you do… if you do, you’ll only get hurt… and I don’t wish that kind of pain for you…”

“Dad…” I whispered, as he closed his eyes. “You can’t be serious…”

“Promise me…” dad said, and I had to lean closer to hear him. “Promise me you won’t… won’t…”

“I promise!” I said, nodding. “I promise I won’t look for him!”

“Don’t be angry,” he said, trying to give me a small smile. “Don’t be angry with your mama… she loves you… very…very, very much… promise me…”

I knew both my promises would be empty promises, but what was I supposed to do?

“I promise,” I heard myself say, before dad took his last breath. “I love you, dad…” I whispered, giving his hand a kiss. “Bye-bye, daddy…”

And with that, dad was gone.

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Nyah! I decided to post the sequel already, because A CERTAIN SOMEONE kept giving me hell on MSN... -.- Kidding :D

- Lily xxx

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