Chapter 1 : A shot to the heart
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To Lily, with Love
Chapter 1: A shot to the heart
Severus Snape strolled through the hallways of Hogwarts, his long black hair swinging in his face. It was his first week in his last year at the school of witchcraft and wizardry, and he intended to make it his best year yet.
Severus walked by the Entrance Hall and saw Lily Evans and James Potter sitting on a bench nearby. Lilly was giggling at something James was saying as he ruffled his hair.
Severus scoffed to himself, averted his eyes, and kept walking right past them.
“Severus!” called Lily, and she pushed herself off the bench, slinging her book bag over her shoulder and walked toward him. “I haven’t seen you in days! How’s your first week been going?”
Severus smiled to himself. ‘Take that Potter, she left you for me,’ he thought.
“It’s been alright,” said Snape, noticing out of the corner of his eye just how pretty she looked, “Lots of homework, though.”
The pair of them turned and walked up the Entrance Hall stairs as they continued talking.
“I know,” she said with a sigh. “I thought things would get easier with it being the last year and all, but apparently I was wrong.”
“Are you going to Hogsmeade this weekend?” he asked casually.
Lily paused before responding. “Yes. Actually…you’re not going to like this, Sev, because I know you two don’t get along…but, I’m, uh, going with James.”
Snape wheeled around in confusion. “What? I thought you hated him! You called him an ‘arrogant toerag’ if I recall correctly.”
“I know, Sev. But, Black dared me, and you know how I can’t turn down a dare. I couldn’t give him that satisfaction,” said Lily.
“So you’re just giving Potter the satisfaction instead?” mumbled Severus.
“Plus, he hasn’t even said anything rude to me at all this year,” continued Lily, pretending she didn't hear Severus' comment, “Nor has he bragged about himself and how amazing he is. It’s kind of strange actually.”
“He’s probably just acting that way so you’ll go out with him,” spat Severus.
They waited for a moving staircase to arrive before they continued their ascent through the castle.
Lily commented, “Well, it is our last year. I figure I should just do it, get it over with. Plus, I don’t want to leave here with any regrets.”
Severus’ heart panged a bit at her comment. “Well, you might regret going with him this weekend,” he said hopefully.
Lily blew a strand of hair away from her face. “Maybe,” she said. “Anyway, I’ve got to get to class. I’ll see you Sev.” She gave him a quick customary hug before walking down the hallway away from him
On Saturday, Severus did not go into Hogsmeade. He didn’t think he’d be able to take the sight of Lily and James together, even if their date was just a dare. Instead, he chose to stay in his dorm and imagine all of the ways their date could be going wrong. His favorite imagined scenario involved James tripping over his own ego and breaking a few bones, while Lily laughed in the background. Snape paced his dormitory until his classmates came back in, and then breathed a sigh of relief knowing that the date was over.
Snape headed to dinner a few hours later, anxious to see whether or not Lily and James would be acting any differently. He was relieved to see that they were sitting on opposite ends of the Gryffindor table, as usual, as though nothing had happened at all. He sat down at his table and enjoyed dinner with a feeling of contentment. As he walked out of the Great Hall, he heard Lily come up behind him.
“Sev!” she said. “Hi. I didn’t see you in Hogsmeade at all today.”
“Oh, right,” responded Severus. “I actually didn’t go. I was…studying for our Transfiguration exam that we have on Monday.”
“Oh, bollocks,” she said. “I haven’t even started. Sev, please tell me you’ll help me study. Library tomorrow, 6 o’clock?”
“I don’t know. Doing that might tamper with my goal of getting a better grade than you,” replied Severus coyly.
Lily smacked him playfully. “Be quiet, Sev. Please help me?”
“Alright,” Snape conceded, smiling down at her.
“Thanks! You’re the best!” said Lily, as she began to walk away. “Oh and Sev? You could never get a better grade than me anyway,” she joked.
Severus smiled to himself the whole way back to his dormitory, where he decided to study for Transfiguration so that he would be prepared for his study date the following day.
The following night Severus walked into the library at 6 o’clock and found Lily already sitting there, books splayed out on a table in front of her. Her hair was pulled back into a messy bun and her rolled back sleeves displayed ink smears upon her arms.
“You look frazzled,” said Severus, as he slid into the chair next to her.
“I just don’t understand how I’m supposed to memorize all of these wand movements by tomorrow!” exclaimed Lily.
“You’ll manage,” said Severus calmly, used to Lily’s excessive pre-test anxieties.
“No, Severus. I’m going to fail, and then I’m going to fail my NEWTS. I’ll be deemed a squib and kicked out of the magical world.”
Severus placed a hand on top of hers, trying not to focus on the white hot sensation he felt from their skin touching. “You’ll be fine, Lils. Just breathe. You, we, can get through this, okay?”
“Okay,” she said, removing her hand from his and adjusting her messy bun.
Severus picked up a pencil and twirled it in his hand. “So…how was your weekend?” he asked casually.
Lily hesitated for a moment and then said, “Fine. You know, just Hogsmeade and studying and friends.”
“Oh yeah, how was that?” asked Snape, trying to keep his tone casual.
“How was what?” asked Lily, bending over her textbook.
“Oh, fine. Good. I mean, well…fine. I…it was nice. But Severus, we have more important things to talk about! Like how I can’t remember the spell for turning toads into jelly!”
Severus sighed resignedly, accepting that he wasn’t going to get any details or information from her. They delved into transfigurations until 8pm, when she suddenly announced that she had to leave.
“Sorry, Sev. I have somewhere I have to be. But thanks for the help, seriously. I don’t know what I’d do without you."
“Likewise,” said Severus, meaning it in ways that were much deeper than studying.
“Bye, then,” she said, giving him a parting hug as usual, leaving Severus to reminisce over the hours they spent together and analyze every word she had said.
The next morning, Severus sat at the Slytherin table, chatting with his friends while enjoying a piece of toast. As he always did, he glanced towards the door every two seconds waiting to see the vision that would immediately make his day just by catching sight of it. As he reached for a glass of juice, he saw red hair out of the corner of his eyes, and immediately shifted his attention to it.
A subtle smile reached his mouth and his heart sped up as he saw Lily walking into the Hall. His eyes traced her golden hair, her rosy cheeks, her impeccable figure…as his eyes ran the length of her, they stopped upon her hand. Her hand was being held by another hand that was not her own. His eyes darted upward, and who he saw made his heart stop.
Lily was holding the hand of James Potter. She was walking into the Great Hall, holding his hand, in front of everybody.
A/N: Everything Harry Potter related that you recognize belongs to JK Rowling, only this plotline is my own!
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