Chapter 27 : In My Place
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It’s not that bad. It’s not that bad, it’s not that bad, it’s not that bad.
Fuck. I was absolutely screwed. Completely and utterly fucked. Oh my God.
“This doesn’t have to be a bad thing,” Whispered Dom.
I sighed, and she stroked a strand of my hair out of my eyes. It was three in the morning, and the pair of us were lying on my bed, having eaten three tubs of ice cream, and gone through four boxes of tissues. I now felt sick, tired, and terrified – always the best combination.
“You know, I actually think Scorpius would be a great Dad,” She said conversationally. “You know, once he got into it.”
“He would be,” I agreed quietly. “It’s not him I’m worried about…”
“Don’t say that,” She said. “You would, no will be a fantastic Mum!”
I cringed at the word Mum and rolled over onto the pillow. Over and over I kept asking myself how I could have let this happen; and yet I knew, of course I did.
It had to have happened the night we had all gone out clubbing; it was during the no sex ban and I ended up getting really drunk and upset about fighting with my Dad. And Scorpius had said all the right things and made everything better for a minute. And I had been so consumed by him, and by my feelings for him, that I hadn’t taken the precautions I’d thought I would never forget. But clearly I had.
I ate another spoonful of ice-cream, staring up at the ceiling thoughtfully. Outside, through my open window I heard the excited shouts of people out having fun, and it made me want to cry. Was it selfish for me to still want all that? To want to be young and enjoy going out and not having any responsibilities? It didn’t seem like that much to ask.
“Well you have to tell Scorpius, regardless,” Dom pointed out.
“Of course,” I said. “But I think I’ll tell Megan first. I need you guys to calm me down enough to be able to tell him.”
“Don’t worry,” She said, patting me on the head like a child.
“I’m not worried, Dominique,” I whispered. “I’m scared.”
“Well you don’t have to be!” She said. “You’ve seen yourself how having a baby can be the making of some people. Look at Megan!”
“Yeah and we’ve also seen how difficult it was for her Dom,” I said, tears running down my cheeks. “Steven just pissed off because it wasn’t his problem and he wasn’t ready to be a Dad…”
“Scorpius is not going to do that Rose,” She said firmly. “He loves you.”
“Steven loved Megan back then,” I reminded her. “But he was scared.”
“Okay you know what Rose?” She said, sitting up. “I won’t lie to you. Maybe Scorpius will freak out. Maybe he’ll walk away,” She shrugged. “In which case you do it without him. It’s not like you’ll be alone! You have your parents, and Hugo, and Megan and James and Al…and you have me! Do you think I’d let you go through this alone?”
“No,” I admitted, laughing shakily. “I just didn’t want to have to be in this position at all. I wanted to be married and older and ready before I had a baby!”
“It doesn’t always work out that way.” She said. “And okay you’re 22, you’re young. But you could be a lot younger. You could be 16 like Megan was…now that would be even harder.”
“Babies having babies,” I said, half smiling. “That’s true.”
She scooted closer to me and put her arm around me. “Tell him. He’ll probably be fine with it. Just don’t worry – it’s not good for the baby.”
I rolled my eyes at her. “If you say that to me again I will murder you, Dominique.”
Megan’s reaction was in many ways exactly what you would expect from her, but I was really hoping for a little bit more discretion considering the three of us were sitting in a crowded Muggle restaurant eating lunch.
“Oh my GOD!” She shouted. Then followed a high-pitched scream, which I’m pretty sure deafened me in at least one ear. “Rose you’re PREGNANT?!”
“Megan,” Muttered Dom. “I think there’s a wizard in Australia who didn’t quite catch that.”
“I’m sorry!” She exclaimed, tears brimming at her brown eyes. “But I just can’t believe this!”
“Yeah, you and me both,” I said, quietly.
“But Rose this could be amazing!” She said, lowering her tone now and thankfully returning to the crazy best friend who I needed again.
“I know,” I admitted. “But it’s a big shock, you know? It’s not like I planned it…”
“I didn’t plan Allie,” She reminded me. “And I know how you feel right now. You feel like this is the biggest thing that’s ever happened to you, and you feel guilty because you don’t want the baby, and you feel like nobody in the world understands what you’re going through right now. But Rosie,” She said, taking my hand. “The truth is that’s what everyone thinks.”
I hastily wiped another tear away, and was overwhelmed by gratitude for my two best friends. Maybe I could do this, if I had them. All I needed now to convince me that, shocked though I may be, if Scorpius was okay with this I might just manage. In fact maybe I would do more than manage; maybe I could be a good Mum. But if he wasn’t…
“Personally I’m excited!” Said Megan. “I mean I know it wasn’t planned but just think! Another little baby…Allie will be beside herself with excitement.”
“Oh just think a little baby, half Rose, half Scorpius!” Said Dom, excitedly, while I teetered on the edge of hyperventilation. “I wonder who it will look like!”
“So how far along are you?” Asked Megan.
I took a deep breath. “Like two months? Fuck two months!”
“Well you can’t be anymore because you’re not showing at all.” She said observantly. “So you’ll be due around April?”
“I guess,” I said, shrugging.
“A spring baby,” Said Dom, smiling. “I wonder what it’ll be…”
“What would you like?” Megan probed. “Do you think you’ll find out?”
“I can’t do this,” I said, getting up and grabbing my bag.
“Rose!” Said Dom, looking shocked.
“No I just need to tell Scorpius,” I told them, apologetically. “I can’t talk about all of this until he knows. Thank you guys,” I said, making my way to the door. “I’ll talk to you both later.”
My need to tell Scorpius had in the past few minutes become more of a physical necessity, like breathing. I couldn’t sit and listen to Dom and Megan speculate on whether it was a boy or a girl until I had talked to Scorpius.
He was on his day off, like me, and at home as far as I knew. I was supposed to be staying at his tonight anyway. The whole situation could have made me laugh if it wasn’t so terrifying; here we were, with a baby on the way, and we didn’t even live together.
I found a quiet, secluded spot to disapparate, and a half-second later I found myself on the Malfoys’ familiar doorstep. I knocked twice and he answered a few seconds later, his hair ruffled and a chopping knife in his hand. I smiled as he kissed me before letting me in.
“I thought you were having lunch with the girls today,” He said, as I followed him into the kitchen. It was just us, his parents were both at work, and the house felt a lot more comfortable and friendly knowing it was just Scorpius and me.
“I did,” I said, sitting up on the worktop where he stood slicing cheese for his sandwich. “But I had to talk to you.”
“Okay shoot,” He said, leaning over to kiss me again.
I sighed and he seemed to notice my subdued mood. “Is everything okay?” He asked.
“I guess it depends on what you would class as okay…” I said, half-smiling.
“Okay Weasley, enough with your crazy riddles just spit it out!” He laughed, handing me a slice of tomato. I chewed it slowly, carefully selecting the words before saying them.
“Are you okay?” I said, stalling. “Like are you feeling okay and everything after the accident?”
“Fit as a fiddle!” He said, grinning. “Honestly, it really wasn’t that bad. The cracked ribs are still a bit sore, but they healed them nicely for me. I’m fine.”
“Good,” I said, my breath quickening. This was even harder than I’d imagined. “Listen Scorpius…”
“Scorpius?” He laughed. “You rarely call me Scorpius, this must be important.”
“It is,” I admitted. “I need to tell you something.”
“Oh shit it’s my hair, isn’t it?” He said, nodding to himself. “I knew it. I got it done yesterday and I know it’s a mess…I don’t know what the idiot who cut it was thinking, it’s this side here, see it?” He said, turning his head slightly.
He sighed. “Do you think you would be able to sort it for me?”
“Will you shut up about your bloody hair!” I exclaimed. “That’s not what I’m talking about here!”
He finally fell silent, and the floor was mine.
“I…I’m pregnant Scorpius.” I whispered.
His expression was so stunned it was almost funny. Almost. He was absolutely motionless, a stone statue, his mouth half-open. I wondered if that was what I’d looked like when I first realised.
“Scorpius?” I asked tentatively, when two full minutes had passed and he still hadn’t moved or made a sound. Finally he blinked, and then came alive again.
“Right,” He said in a low voice. “Shit.”
I nodded silently, my eyes wide and fearful.
“How long have you known?” He asked, raising his eyebrows.
I frowned. That wasn’t exactly the first thing I expected him to say. “I thought I might be…for a couple of days before the accident. But I just took the test the night before last with Dom.”
“Dom?” He repeated loudly. “Who else knows?”
“Just her and Megan.” I said, frowning. “Why? What does it matter?”
He laughed sarcastically. “What does it matter? It doesn’t matter I suppose. I don’t know why I’m surprised, of course Megan and Dominique would find out about my unborn child before me…”
“Scorpius,” I whispered.
“You know sometimes I feel like I’m just the backup, like they’re the ones you’re really in a relationship with. Are you ever going to put me first?”
“Okay,” I said, jumping down. “One that is ridiculous and two I can’t believe that is your reaction to this! Is there really nothing else more pressing than who I told first?”
“Well why didn’t you tell me sooner? From what you’re saying you’ve known you might be pregnant for two weeks!”
“Well I wasn’t sure and I was scared and then you ended up in hospital and nearly died so I’m sorry if it wasn’t the first thing on my mind Scorpius!” I shouted.
“Whatever,” He said, pacing around the kitchen.
“Don’t say that to me!” I said, pulling him back to me. “I’m pregnant…” I said, my tone softening. “We’re having a baby! Can’t you just tell me what you think about that?”
“I think you should have told me before now. That’s what I think Rose.”
“Right,” I said, turning to go. “Well that’s good to know.”
I slammed the door on my way out, my entire body shaking and tears welling up in my eyes once more as I pulled out my wand. I was almost at the line where the enchantments broke and you could apparate, when I heard him shout my name.
I sighed and turned around. He was running after me.
“Rose!” He yelled again, “I’m sorry!” He said, catching up with me. “I was in shock.”
“You were a heartless bastard, actually.” I said, though the insult was less than impressive since I was crying.
He shook his head, opening his arms and pulling me against his chest. I wrapped my arms around his waist as he enveloped me in his. Some of my blind panic subsided a little, and I realised I had been counting on this.
“What I should have said…” He told me as we sat in the kitchen, each holding a cup of tea twenty minutes later. “Is that it’s a big surprise. And I’m shit scared. But okay, we’ll deal with it.”
“That probably would have been a better response,” I joked, half-smiling.
“How many months?” He whispered.
“I don’t know exactly,” I replied quietly. “About two, I’d guess. But we need to go and see a Healer, we need to make sure everything is okay.”
“Al?” He suggested.
“Okay,” I said. “Shit Scorpius, we have to tell everyone.”
“You need to stop swearing,” He said. “We both do. We can’t swear in front of a baby.”
“True,” I laughed. “And we need to sort so much stuff out…you live with your parents and I live in a messy flat with my one-night stand loving cousin. That’s not exactly a good start.”
“So we need to get a place.” He agreed.
“We’ll have to save up,” I said, worried. “I mean we can’t just get any old cheap place. A baby needs a good home.”
“I mean you could move in here…” He said, shrugging.
“I could,” I said. “But my Dad’s accepted me going out with you I don’t think he could cope with me living with Draco Malfoy.”
“Right well we’ll sort that out.” He said. “I mean we’re okay for a few months anyway. Now,” He said, standing up. “Wait there.”
“Okay…” I laughed as he dashed upstairs. I sat there, my mind buzzing with everything we had to discuss, and he finally returned after about ten minutes.
“You took your time,” I said, as he walked, not back to his seat, but in front of me.
And then he got down on one knee. Oh holy shit.
“Rose Weasley,” He said. “Will you marry me?”
He prised open a small, velvet black box to reveal a stunning white gold ring with a considerably sized diamond.
“Shut up!” I said, pulling him to his feet. “What are you doing you twat?”
“Well you’re pregnant!” He insisted. “It’s what a guy’s supposed to do!”
“Oh how romantic!” I said sarcastically. “Scorpius we’re only twenty-two! And I just found out I’m pregnant; I think that’s enough to be occupying me for now. I don’t want to get married right now!”
He sighed and sat back down. “You don’t?”
“No,” I said softly. “And that doesn’t mean I don’t love you. But this is scary enough without getting married too…don’t you think?”
“I guess,” He said, grinning.
“Where did you even get this ring?” I asked, picking it up and staring at it, stunned.
“I bought it when I was in Wales,” He admitted. “I saw it and I thought I would never want to marry anybody but you. I knew my chances were slim, but I bought it just in case I was ever lucky enough to get a second chance with you.”
I smiled and took his hand, pressing my lips to it. “Well it’s a beautiful ring.”
“Thanks,” He said. “It cost an arm and a leg. I didn’t eat properly for weeks to buy that thing! Then you go and reject me!” He laughed.
“I’m sorry,” I said, smiling.
“So do you think you’ll ever want to marry me?” He asked, looking hopeful.
I sighed. To be honest, after the circus that was my wedding to Mark, I would have been pretty happy to never get married. But things may definitely change in the future.
“Put the ring away for another day,” I said, handing him the box. “In the future, when the time is right. And do me a favour, next time don’t propose in your parents’ kitchen wearing your trackies and a dodgy haircut, okay?”
He laughed. “Okay. So we’ll just focus on the baby for now. First on the list is…?”
“Getting a check-up,” I said firmly. “We need to know the baby is okay before we tell everyone. Then we start saving like crazy.”
“Got it,” He said. “So we’re really doing this? We’re having a baby?”
I bit my lip nervously and nodded.
“We’re having a baby.”
A/N They're having a baby! Next chapter will have the reactions of the Malfoys and the Weasleys so stay tuned! And as always your reviews make me so happy xxx
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