I am starting to get tired of the phrase; "Are you alright?" I head it from Lily when she got back from her meeting with Dumbledore, I heard it from James the next day when we passed in the common room, I heard it from Remus when we were in Muggle Studies, and I just about heard it from everyone throughout the past month. So I might be a little frighten to step outside my dorm, but there is nothing wrong with that. I have a logical reason for that. I was a muggle-born and the attacker was attacking muggle-born.
Whenever I did step out of my dorm, I was either with one of the group, which consisted of Lily, Molly, Alice, Rachael, Florence and The Marauders. The Marauders were started to follow us around. It annoyed Lily a lot because she thought they were being overprotective, but I was thankful for it. I was a little bit at ease when they were around.
There was a statement up on every house bulletin board after the incident. Its stated that after dinner everyday for now on everyone has to go straight to their common room. Prefects were no longer had the authority to patrol the halls, instead teachers took their place. No one was suppose to walk the halls alone, especially muggle-borns and half-bloods because that was who they were targeting. These rules were to be followed until the culprits were found.
"Birdie" Remus called.
I yelped and looked up, I was even jumpier now a days. "Remus."
"Are you alright?" He asked for the millionth time.
"Just peachy." I muttered, annoyed.
"You have just been jumpy lately." He said, while sitting down next to me. I was in the common room, alone, for once.
"I know." Was all I could say.
How could I tell him that I was deathly afraid that the culprits were going to kill me? I know it was a little bit irrational and I was trying really hard just to tell myself. That it was untrue, and Dumbledore will never allow it. I was doing so well, ever since I gained more friends then just Lily. I was having less and less anxiety problems. I should have seen it coming. Usually when it seems like my anxiety problems are getting better something catastrophic usually happens.
There was a little bit of silence in between.
"So are you ready for my proposal?" Remus spoke again.
"What proposal?" I squeaked.
"You know, the proposal? For muggle studies?"
"Oh yeah." I said, trying to calm myself down. "Whats the plan?"
He smirked. "It’s a surprise."
"What?" I almosted yelled. "no, no, no. I don't want a surprise, can you just, please tell me?"
"I am sorry, but proposals are suppose to be a surprise, besides surprises are fun."
"Don't worry, it will be fine." He then walked away.
What? No. I couldn’t say anything. This is completely bonkers. Is he crazy? He should know I hate surprises, after what happened on our last Prefect patrols. because I do, I like structure. I am not flexible, I cannot just go with the flow.
I just need to calm down. It wont be that bad. Mayve it will just be extremely boring. I would much rather have that. Remus has a good head on his shoulders. Doesn’t he?
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