Chapter 18 : Won't Stop
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Sirius stood in the dungeons hallway numbly. They were beating her. He heard her screaming. He couldn’t ignore this. Forcing himself to move he saw Remus a few feet ahead of him and froze. What was Remus doing down here? Sirius was watched his best friend get thrown back into a wall by a spell. He bolted forward with his wand raised and used a immobilize charm on all three of them. Lestrange, Nott, Malfoy all fell to the floor, frozen. He obliviated their memory so they would think Jules did this and they would be too afraid of her to go after her again. Remus was soundly unconscious in the hallway but he didn’t have a lot of time. Juliette was going in and out of consciousness and she was bleeding. He’d never see her so pale. Along with her natural bronze skin tone her weight was gone too. When he picked her up it pained him to feel how much weight she had lost.
He ran to the hospital wing with her tiny body in his arms. Luckily it was late so no one was in the hallway or in the hospital wing. Madame Promfrey came out of her quarters in her nightgown, bewildered.
“What happened to her Mr. Black?!”
He lied. “I don’t know. I found her in the hallway…” His eyes locked on Juliette as she started shaking. “You have to keep her here.”
“Well of course I have to treat her-“
“No I mean can she stay here?”
He looked up from Juliette. “She isn’t safe.”
Madame Promfrey looked like she was struggling with an answer. It was against the rules for students to stay in the Hospital wing after they were healed but she couldn’t bring herself to say no. The girl had such deep damage she knew this wasn’t the first incident and it wouldn't be the last.
“We’ll see about that later…” Madame Promfrey sedated her and started giving her medicines. “She’s going to be in here awhile…” Her hazel eyes gave away her guilt. “If she sleeps here after treatment… I won’t say anything but you should say something to Dumbledore.
Sirius stood up, took one last look at Juliette’s sleeping figure and walked towards the door. “It’s not my area anymore…Don’t tell anyone I helped her. it’ll make things worse for her…”
“Are you sure?”
He nodded and walked away.
Tears filled his eyes as he walked down the hall and went to the owlery. He pulled out a piece of parchment and a quill from the basket and started to write.
I don’t know what’s going on with Jules. She wouldn’t talk to me all through break. She came back and runs from me when she sees me. I’m not in a position to help her..even if she’d let me…I wish I could do more but I guess it’s up to you now. She’s in the hospital wing. Some Slythern’s were torturing her…Maybe she’ll talk to you.
He bit his lip and put the letter on a pale faced owl with dark rings around the eyes, a yellow beak and brown eyes. The owl flapped its wings and left. Sirius finally realized. If he loved her, he should love her enough to let her go. So as the owl flew through the darkness of the night to find Parker Sirius wiped his eyes, sucked it up, and focused on finding a bottle of Firewiskey.
Waiting rooms were normally loud places. People crying, families arguing. There were several people in this waiting room. I didn’t look at a single one of them. I couldn’t. I was too weak to move from my spot on the floor and I was too tired to care how awful I look. My body constantly shook but after a few hours I stopped noticing. The healer would get me when he was out of surgery. She wanted to exam me but I ignored her. Why did I need to be examined? I was still breathing wasn’t I?
I was sitting in the farthest corner, away from everyone. My knees were up to my chest; my arms were banded around my legs as I rested the side of my face on the top of my knees. On my left hand, on the second finger laid a cold ring that was far too big for my hand. The Healer’s assistant had handed it to me and I instantly slipped it where my ring once sat. The air around me was too warm, too cramped. I felt suffocated. My breaths sounding like hollow shudders in my own ears I began to wonder how long I had been sitting there. I’d stopped watching the clock then, ever so softly; his face came to my mind. His smile, that seemed to exude rays of light with every flash of his dimples. I closed my eyes and felt every memory. The good the bad, all of our memories played in my head like a movie reel. I felt him throwing me over his shoulder against my will, I felt him holding me tightly as he twirled me around in my formal dress, I felt him kissing me for the first time and how my heart accelerated just at this slight touch. Now at this moment I was lost. Lost in my memories. Lost in time. I felt myself drifting off. I wasn’t going to sleep. I was falling unconscious and I didn’t have the strength to stop it.
Someone began shaking me, “Oh no you don’t.” I opened my eyes to find the girl from before sitting beside me. She lifted me up. “I NEED HELP!”
Strong, rough hands lifted me to a bed. I passed out quickly. When I woke I had healers standing over my bed. None of them looked at me. I sat up and felt an ache. Nothing like before but still mild pain nonetheless. My vigor wasn’t back but I had enough energy to stand.
“Um Mam! You suffered severe injuries you must lay down! We only fixed the major damage-!”
I held onto the wall next to me and gave her a scathing look. “How long have I been out?”
“Just a couple of hours-“
I snatched my clothes from the cupboard and pulled them on. I didn’t care if they saw. I couldn’t afford to be out a few hours. Passing through the hallway I went up to the Healer’s station. The receptionist looked at me in alarm.
“I thought you were hospitalized-“
“I’ve been released,” I told her offhandedly, “Where’s my husband?”
She pointed to the room across the way. “He’s in a coma but you really shouldn’t-”
I didn’t listen. I trudged on to his room. Outside the girl stood against the wall. Her leg was against the wall and her eyes were glued to her watch.
Her eyes lifted and I was taken aback. I’d seen her before but I’d never really looked this closely. She looked so familiar. It was remarkable how I recognized her features so clearly and couldn’t put a finger on who she reminded me of.
She smiled, “Come on. I’ve got a lot to explain to you before you see him. James is in with him right now anyway.”
I followed her. Everything in me pulsed to see Sirius but the fear of his condition added with James’s presence forced me to give into my curiosity. She walked a few feet away to two chairs. I sat down next to her. My body practically moaned in relief at the prospect of resting. She flipped her long wavy shiny black hair out of her face and crossed her legs. She wore tight black dark blue jeans with a brown belt, jet black go-go boots, a leather well fitted bomber jacket and loose with a simple form fitting white v-neck underneath. This girl had naturally tan skin, wide eyes, full lips and a narrow nose. She cleared her throat and leaned back in her chair.
“They fixed your ribs and your leg but you still have a lot of internal shit going on,” She sighed bluntly scratching the side of her nose. “Now you are on a lot of meds but as long as you stay here which I doubt is a problem…You should be fine.”
“What happened? Who are you? Why did you save us?”
She seemed to struggle for a moment before extending her hand. “My name’s Lexi and you wouldn’t believe me if I told you why sooo.... let’s just skip it. Voldemort,” Lexi began. I starred at her in surprise she was so blunt about it. “Was done with you. He was about to go torture your husband when I sent manipulated them into believing the order was coming. Most of the Death Eaters cleared out by the time you came to except Bellatrix…Your friend Renee...made it but she’s in protective custody…You probably won’t see her for awhile.”
Because of me….I was like a plague. Tears welled up in my eyes. “How long did they have her?”
“I can’t tell you that.” Lexi frowned cryptically, “I’m sorry. There’s certain information I’m not allowed to give you.”
I furrowed my eyebrows, “What do you mean?”
She lifted a chain from her shirt. “I’m from the future. Don’t ask how far from now because I can’t say. All you need to know is that you need to know is that you should trust me.”
I didn’t understand why. She didn’t have to ask for me to trust her I just did gave it. Her watch alarm went off. Lexi rose from her chair and glanced at me carefully.
“I have to go. I don’t know if I’ll be back,” She once again extended her hand to me. “It was nice to meet you.”
Lexi gave me a thoughtful look. “See him…Learn from the past don’t dwell on it. If you let your guilt drive you…it will eat you up.”
I bit my lip. “Thank you.”
“Don’t mention it.”
Lexi calmly went over the emergency exit stairs, leaned against the railing and vanished. I pushed myself up to stand and then walked to Sirius’s room with a new sense of empowerment. I let go of guilt for the moment and opened the door. I was expecting Potter but I wasn’t expecting to find Evans and Dumbledore in there. I held my breath and waited for the glares.
Lily stood up came over and gave me an awkward hug. “Thank you.”
She released me with a bewildered face. “For lying of course.”
“You said you were his wife…”
My jaw dropped open slightly in shock and my eyes caught with Dumbledore’s, “Uh….”
She started looking at me funny. “Are you okay?”
“Ah yeah…um…” I sat in the chair next to Dumbledore. “I’ll just sit here for a minute.”
My throat was incredibly dry but that wasn’t the reason I suddenly lost the ability to speak. How was I supposed to tell them the truth? Clearly Sirius didn’t ever say anything so how was I supposed to do it? I starred at everywhere but at Sirius. Dumbledore extended his hand, inside was a spoon.
I furrowed my eyebrows at him. He gave me a small smile, “Pudding?”
It was like I was living in an episode of the Twilight Zone. How had everything gotten so screwed up? Dumbledore handed me the cup and despite myself I ate it. I needed something. Even if it was just chocolate. I needed something to keep me from going insane. No one was saying anything and I couldn’t bear to look Sirius. James cleared his throat awkwardly as a knocked sounded at the door. I turned and saw Lupin standing there. I glanced away and starred at the floor. I was shocked when I saw him come towards me and hug me.
“I’m sorry Juliette.”
That simple gesture was everything I needed it to be. He grabbed a chair and continued the hug. I heard myself sob into his chest, all my inhibitions gone. I didn’t care that I barely knew him. I just needed to cry. I needed to get it out. I couldn’t take it anymore. My best friend had been duplicated and beaten. I couldn’t apologize to her or even see her. My husband was in coma suffering from extensive damage and there was doubt as to whether he would ever wake up. The pressure broke me. Lupin, held me close to the point where he was cradling me. I was too immersed in my own emotions to see Dumbledore take Lily and James out of the room.
“Hey,” He wiped my face, “It’s not your fault.”
“I should have fought harder,” I told him through the hysterical tears, “I should have went to the authorities and sent my father to jail....Instead…Instead of…” I stopped, unable to keep going. “Merlin…”
Remus frowned, his own eyes already drenched in tears. “Juliette listen to me. Do you remember a time in seventh year towards the end after you two were a part? A bunch of Slythern’s had jumped you in the dungeons…”
I let out a hollow laugh, wiping my face, “There were a lot of times that happened.”
“Well…One of those times I was there.”
He nodded and went on, “I saw them hitting you and then I was knocked unconscious. Before that I saw you for what you were. Brave, loyal, resilient. You didn’t care what they did to you because if you had to choose all over again you would choose Sirius,” Remus raised my chin, “In that moment everything fell together. The way he’d been acting. All the little things I’d ignored…I want you to know. No matter what happens he loves you.”
“I know…” I breathed sharply.
“I never saw him care about someone as much as he cares about you.”
I put my head in my hands. “He …has…He’s going to wake up…Too much shit has happened…I can’t bear …”
My eyes shot up to see Sirius smiling at me. I rushed forward. All the gashes on him had bandages and the bruises on his face were healed. His color wasn’t back but it was the same as the sheet of paper it once had been. “…Sirius…”
“You know darling,” He started in a dry hoarse voice, “You look like hell.”
I laughed and held back the urge to hit him. Instead I reached forward and kissed him. He smiled so big I half-expected him to wince in pain. He let out a weightless sigh and closed his eyes still grinning. “You have no idea how long I’ve waited for that.”
Remus smiled and headed for the door. “I’ll tell the others.”
Carefully I intertwined my hand with his undamaged hand. I took my other hand and swiped his long wavy black hair out of his face. His eyes pierced into mine as we were left alone.
“How are you feeling?”
He shook his head as he leaned his cheek into my hand. “Better.”
“Do you want anything?”
“Shouldn’t you be in a bed?”
I laughed, “Was that a come on?”
“Isn’t it always?” He murmured in his usual cavalier tone before looking concerned. “Seriously though Jules…You should lay down.”
“Well where do you suggest I do that? There’s no room for anything but chairs in here.”
He grimaced and moved.
“Sirius!” I whispered not knowing how to stop him without hurting him.
Sirius scooted over and made enough room for me. I beamed at this small action. I then slipped off my shoes and raised the cover so I could slide under without bumping into him. When I got there I was unsure where to place my head but he had an idea for that too. Stubbornly he tried to stifle his groan as he lifted his arm over my head to my back so I could rest my head on his chest. My heart was going crazy as I shut my eyes and put my head in between the bandages on his chest.
“Am I hurting you?”
I got up fast, “I’m sorry!”
He laughed, nudged me back down reassuringly. “I can handle it.”
I reluctantly followed his instructions and let the quiet of the room consume me. Tenderly I felt him kiss my forehead. “I wouldn’t do that…I’m pretty nasty.”
“Do you remember that time it was raining and we got into a fight?”
I put my hand over my eyes as I shook with laughter. “So I pushed you into mud and we ended up rolling around in it.”
“Well I kissed you then didn’t I?”
“Yes…” I shook my head at his ridiculousness.
“See that just proves. I don’t care how disgusting you are,” He leaned forward with his smirk and kissed my cheek. “I’ll always want to kiss you.”
Happiness filled every fiber of my body and I refused to give it up. It was like nothing bad could hurt me while I was with him. A thought then popped into my head as I started to feel like I was going to fall asleep.
“What the hell are we going to tell everyone?”
He let out a calm but restricted sigh. “Well I was thinking something along the lines of, ‘Hey guys, this is my wife.’”
I waited for there to be more and snorted when I realized he had finished. “You are such an idiot! It’s not that simple. For one all of your friends hate me.”
“Well…” He pondered that for a moment, “Remus clearly doesn’t.”
“Okay but what about everyone else?”
“Honestly? For three years I’ve been alone with this giant hole in me and now that I have you in my arms. I really could care less about the rest. Fuck them all.” He used his good hand to tip my face towards his, “I love you and I’m not loosing you twice.”
I smiled at that and turned my head as i heard the door open. Parker came into the room with a fake sigh of irritation. “Oh not you two again…Didn’t we try this before?”
I laughed, “Hey you.”
“You going to get up and hug me or are you too content in your adultery?”
He scratched his neck and pretended to look tearful, “Black …you never told her about us?”
Sirius shook his head. “I thought now…wasn’t the right time.”
Pushing myself to sit I realized I moved to fast and grabbed the bed to steady myself. Sirius sat up slowly as Parker moved to my side, both wearing worried expressions. I raised my hand and let out a gradual breath. “I’m alright boys…”
Parker felt my forehead concernedly. “Are you sure? They said you left too early…”
I knocked his hand away. “That’ll do pig.”
“What do you mean she left early?” Sirius questioned ignoring me.
“I talked to a Healer to find her and she told me that she wasn’t fully healed but in here.” He told him simply. “You look alright to me kid,” Parker told me swiping the hair out of my face.
I smiled and gave him the world’s most pathetic hug. Which he treated as gold of course. “Thanks for coming Parker…Who told you?”
“Yeah…” He grimaced. “I was really hoping you wouldn’t ask me that.”
Parker cocked his head to the side and sat in the empty chair. “Lorenzo did.”
My face dropped temperature a few degrees as guilt filled me. Lorenzo…How could I have forgotten? Of course they would call him.
“Did he just leave?”
“No…He went into see you but…” Parker gave me an uneasy look.
He scowled awkwardly. “I guess he heard something that…dissuaded him from seeing you.”
“Like? Why are you being so cryptic?”
“Jules …am I the only one that knows about you two?”
I glanced at Sirius and he nodded. “Well at least before this…”
“Well…Jules…” Parker looked excessively uncomfortable. He even started looking away from me. “You had to know…”
“So!” James cleared his throat walking in and accidently cutting Parker of. “You got hitched and you didn’t let me throw a bachelor party?”
My mind shifted from Parker’s observations –much to his relief I’m sure- to Potter. “You’re…Okay with this?”
He came over to me with a scrunched up face. “I don’t get it but I don’t mind it.”
“Who told you?”
“Well Dumbledore did and Remus just confirmed it.”
I flinched, “What about your wife?”
“She’s …” James cringed, “Well she feels like a dumbass because she hugged you and thought you just saved his life out of the kindness out your heart. Then she finds out you are his wife and....she hugged you and made everything awkward…”
I laid back down next to Sirius and laughed. “It’s okay. I just didn’t know how to tell her…” I turned to Sirius, “Which is why I said how are we going to explain this to people.”
“It’s not that complicated.”
“We are the definition of complicated.”
He frowned in indifference. “Whatever.” James laughed and left as Parker came closer to me.
“You know Nik is waiting outside right?”
I pulled the covers up over my face. “No!”
“You know Parker. I’m tired and I’m not dealing with him. So say I was passed out.”
I rested my head on Sirius, “Say it. I don’t care if he doesn’t believe you. I’m not dealing with him today...I actually am a little tired.”
Sirius gently kissed my forehead, trying not to hurt himself in the effort. “Go to sleep honey.”
I nodded and Parker sighed. “Fine,” He came over and brushed my hair out of my face. “I’ll tell him you’re asleep and I’ll come by and see you tomorrow okay?”
“Anytime baby girl.”
I laughed and rolled my eyes. “You’re such a tool Parker.”
He winked at me and shut the door.
I sighed, closed my eyes and fell asleep. My dreams weren’t anything concrete, just colors swirling around in the wind. Even unconscious I knew he was holding me tight. That sensation made me sleep more soundly then I had in a long time.
THANK YOU FOR READING! Sorry this took so long. I just kept getting writers block. Anyway. I'm writing the next chapter as we speak. PLEASE REVIEW!
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