Albus Dumbledore gave us one night. One night to place everything that we held dear to us, well not everyting, just anything that would hurt those in this time, into the little glass vile. I wasn't someone who became scared often, but something about not having part of myself inside of me scared me. I was from the future. That was my place, but I knew that part of me didn't want to disappear from this world that had created itself around me. I liked being here. I liked having more friends than just Albus and Scorpius.
I felt a pang in my heart. I knew that I was going to have to great rid of them. I was going to have to put my memories of us three away. I knew it wouldn't change the past, but what I did know was it hurt to much to think of them. I wondered every moment how they were. I wondered how Scorpius and Rose were doing, if they were still together or if they had decided to go their separate ways. I knew Scorpius loved Rose; he had from the moment they had met on the train. I knew she felt the same way. I remembered all those fights the two shared. I remembered their hatred. They reminded me of James and Lily. The more I thought about it, they were very much like Lily and James. Rose was a lot like Lily, she had the same personality, and the same will of the rules. I sighed. I couldn't help but think how much Scorpius was like James. He had the same disregard for the rules, and he had known from the moment he met Rose that he loved her.
Life was strange, very, very strange.
Albus Potter. I loved him. Not the kind of love that I had for Scorpius. I loved Scorpius like he was my brother, but Albus was more than that to me. I loved him so much. This scared me, because I knew deep down that I could never love him completely. I knew in my heart that no matter how much I loved him, I was never his. I never would be his. That hurt me. I knew he loved. I had known this since the day I was in the hospital. He had whispered it so lightly to me, that I knew he thought I hadn't heard him. I wouldn't tell him the truth about what happened. I wouldn't. I would never let him love me fully, completely. I knew this. I was never his, and he was never mind. Deep down, I knew that Albus knew this truth.
I sighed, looking up at the stars. I was in the Astronomy Tower. It was a great place to think about life, without anyone coming up to you. I couldn't shake the questions that kept running through my mind.
What about James Sirius? Was I able to let him love me fully? Would I be able to let him love me completely? Would I be able to love him with all my heart? Why? Why could I be able to love him, but not his brother?
I knew all the answer to these questions. Answers that didn't mean a thing, and answers that meant the world. Bad or good, they were answers.
I sighed again. Life was strange. My gaze left the stars, turning now to the vile that was in my hand. What would I kept, was my only thought. I would keep the memories that meant the world to me. I would keep some memories of them, of the two people that had become family, but the rest would be placed into the small vile. I would keep my home life, all the dangerous things that had happened to me; I would kept. I would put the facts I knew about everyone in this time away; I wouldn't let those memories hurt my new friends.
I took my wand out, and placed everything I wanted to be secret from the world into the vile.
It was late. It was dark and the stars were now shinning. I hadn't seen Aire since Dumbledore had given us the viles, and at the moment I didn't want too. I didn't know what to put away and what to keep. It wasn't easy for me. They were my family; I couldn't just put them away in a little vile. I knew I had to, but I couldn't. I wouldn't.
I looked out across the lake. The moon was shinning into it; it was beautiful. I let my eyes look around, seeing no one. I felt the vile in my hand; I wasn't going to give up my life. I sighed, throwing the vile into the lake.
"Scorp?" I looked up to see Albus starring at me. I stopped pacing, turning my back to him, and looking into the fire. I didn't know how to tell him. I wasn't even sure if I wanted to tell him the truth. I knew I had too, though. Rose had convinced me that I needed to tell him the truth. I needed to tell him what James had told me, and I needed to be honest with him. He need the truth.
"You need to know something." I said, looking at him. He looked puzzled. I wasn't sure if he would stay my friend after this. "James told me he loved Slim." He looked at me. I could tell he was hurt. I would have been hurt if I was him. I sighed, "He came up to me at your father's birthday party. He told me he had loved her since he met her. He wanted to marry her, and to get to know her. James wants to be the one to protect her. And he isn't going to stop until she agrees."
Albus just looked at me, before turning and walking away.
"I know he loves her. But it isn't your place to decide who she loves. She could love me. She does love me." He whispered.
"Don't get in the way; they are meant for each other." I said to him. It was mean, but sometimes you had to be mean in order to get people to understand. "I'm not looking for her anymore. Its over."
"I'm not giving up on her, but I wont step in the way."