Disclaimer: I do not own most of these characters. I only own one, Nikki Laud. Go J.K Rowling!
This couldn’t be happening. Not now, not ever. They couldn’t be, it just wasn’t right. Parents were meant to be there all the time. Always there. I let the letter drop from my hands. All the laughter and happiness of the morning had disappeared. All the colors seeped out of the world. My feelings went blank. Everyone around me were still laughing, smiling, oblivious to my despair.
“Are you ok? Nikki?” An empty voice echoed my head. That did it.
I ran from the truth and the questions that would follow it. I ran from the pain and the sorrow. I ran from the sympathetic faces full of pity. I ran from everything I had ever known.
I could feel the eyes following me out of the great hall and the voices yelling behind me. But I was unable to focus on anything apart from putting one foot in front of the other. Out of the castle, past the lake, through the greenhouses and along the side of the Quidditch pitch. I took a sharp left at the womping willow on to a path that you wouldn’t know was there unless you had been down it before.
I had found the clearing in my third year, after trying to get away from the crazy tree. I had shown no one. It was my place, and mine alone. My sanctuary. I slumped down against a tree. Only then did the tears come.
A letter. That was how I found out. The ministry has sent me a letter. How did they expect me to react, me, a seventeen year old student, to the fact that my parents, brother and all of my family had died. But being alone was not what had scared me the most. It was that last line.
For your own safety, the ministry highly recommends you to go into hiding.
He might be coming for me next. He might even be on his way now. He had killed everyone I was related to, and now he wanted me. What did he have against my family? But I wasn’t going to hide. If he wanted to kill me, I was going to go out kicking and screaming. I was going to fight.
But I was scared. What could I do to the dark lord? I was still a student for god’s sake! The closest I had come to dark magic was the Slytherins. I had never seen a unforgivable curse, let alone cast one.
I was going to die.
The sound of a twig cracking made me jump. I was suddenly aware of every noise and every movement. I stood up, so better to face whatever or whoever was coming.
“Whose there!” I screamed, more tears streaming down my face.
“Hey, hey, calm down, it’s only me. I’m not going to hurt you. You’re safe.” Sirius Black’s calm voice filtered through the trees.
“Go away! He’ll only kill you to!” No one could get close to me now. If they did, they would only get hurt. I would have to leave Hogwarts, this thought only occurred to me now. I would not hide, but to keep everyone safe I would have to leave.
He entered the clearing, despite me telling him to go away. I turned away from him, not wanting to see the pity in his eyes.
“Nikki, oh Nikki” he must of caught a glimpse of the tears running down my face. He was next to me in two strides.
“I … I …” he was lost for words. He just held me to him instead. I half collapsed into his arms, but this didn’t phase him. He just let me sob. I had always like Sirius most out of all the Marauders, there was something about him that was just different from the others. He wasn’t crazy all the time, but when he was, he was hilarious. To tell the truth, I had had a little bit of a crush on him for a few months, but he only thought of me as a friend. And I could cope with that. As long as he was happy.
“I will protect you, we all will. We won’t let you go. You can pretend to be James’s cousin or something. You will not die!” he sounded so sure. But I couldn’t let them get hurt.
“No Sirius. I am leaving, and I am not hiding. If I die, I am going to go down with a fight. All of you are going to be safe. And nothing you can do can stop me. I couldn’t stand it if any of you got hurt.” If they got hurt because of me, I could never live with the guilt. They were going to go on with there lives and forget about there old school mate.
“No. You are going to stay safe. …” I cut him off.
“NO! Listen to me, I am leaving! And you are going to pretend that you never knew me, or ever saw me. Forget me. That is all I ask Sirius, forget me. Keep yourself safe.” I looked into his stormy grey eyes, pleading. Something seemed to click inside his mind.
I was ready to go. We had gone back to the castle, only to meet a crowd of pity-filled faces. We’d snuck in the back, through a passageway I never knew existed. I was half glad, half sad, to find Lily waiting for me in our dormitory. She had helped me pack, and had charmed my backpack to be never ending. I felt much better with its familiar weight on my back, rather then a huge trunk. I was going to miss her. I was down in the common room, waiting for Sirius. He had told me to wait for him. So of course I did.
“Nikki!” he emerged from the boys’ staircase, holding something in his hand.
“Here” he opened his hand in front of me. Inside, nestled in the palm of his hand was a locket. Shocked, I looked back up at his face which was curving into a small smile.
“Sirius, I …” he shushed me and fumbled with the clasp. A golden ball of light rose up that slowly transformed into the shape of a castle. After a few seconds, I was looking at a mini Hogwarts, complete with the Gryffindor Quidditch team fly above the pitch and the giant squid in the lake. I could make out the shapes of figures through the windows and even Hagrid in the grounds. A single tear slid my face.
“So you will never forget” he said simply, his voice quivering. He fastened around my neck, and pulled me into his arms. Silent tears fell down. He was everything I wanted and everything I couldn’t have. And this was probably the last time I would ever see him. ‘This is your chance. Take it! Jump!’ the little courageous voice at the back of my head dared me.
I jumped. Pulling my head away slightly, I went on my tiptoes and pressed my lips to his. It was soft, sweet, almost unreal. I pulled back, waiting for his reaction. Stunned, he looked down into my eyes. He smiled, and brought his lips back to mine. This was pure happiness. I was on cloud nine, and for a few moments I forgot all my fears of the coming days, weeks or months. But reality came crashing down to soon. If the He found out then Sirius would be killed. I pulled away.
“I have to go” I whispered. He held me tight.
“Never forget” he whispered.
“Only if you do.” He nodded, and I broke away from safety for the last time.
I never forgot.
1 Month later.
He who must not be named struck again yesterday afternoon when the body of Nikki Laud (17) was found yesterday in the district of Cunningsburgh. It is suspected that this was the job of he who must not be named himself for the rest of the Laud family was murdered earlier this month. There was evidence of a fight, with burnt trees and blood on both sides of the common. She attended Hogwarts School for Witchcraft and Wizardry for six and a half years and will be sorely missed.
Lily read aloud the article from the prophet to most of Gryffindor. A lot of the girls started to cry, and even a few of the guys. Lily was carefully composed, for she knew that it was the way Nikki had wanted to go. She and Sirius had told no one about seeing her.
She stepped down off the chair she had used as her podium, and made her way to the back of the room. It was not James’s arms she seeked, but Sirius’s. She finally found him, hidden in a corner across from the fire.
“It was the way she wanted to go” she said simply.
“Who?” he tried to say calmly, but he failed.
“Nikki, who?” Lily couldn’t help the small smile that crawled onto her face. He had taken his promise seriously, as only Sirius could.
A single ran down his face and settled on his cheek. Wiping it away, he stood up and strode out of the common room. Lily knew that he was hurting more then he let anyone see. There had been more tears, James had told her. Sirius apparently cried himself to sleep most nights. James had no idea why he was so sad. Only Lily knew.
And that’s how it stayed for the rest of eternity.
A.N: Thanks for reading everyone! I hope you like my second attempt of a fan fiction. Sorry for the quite depressing topic. I can’t help what comes into my head! Please comment, I really want some feedback.