A/N I am SOOOOOOO sorry! I would normally make up a lie about why I didn’t update, but I feel too horrible. I don’t know why I stopped but I promise it won’t happen again. Please r/r!
Yawning, Lily woke up. Grinning, she realized it was all just a dream. She was about to leave to go find James when…
“Eva- Lily, where are you going?” Sirius’s voice made her jump and turn around. The smile fell from her face and her heart plummeted. It was real. It was all real.
“Sorry Sirius,” she whispered slowly before walking back over to the couch she had fallen asleep on, and sitting down on it. A tear rolled down her face before she could help it.
“Hey, none of that,” he soothed, kneeling in front of her and wiping the tear from her eyes. “What’s with the crying?” he asked.
“I-I-I thought it wa-was just a d-dr-dream,” Lily stuttered, while more tears fell.
Sirius let out a breath before moving onto the couch beside the heart broken girl and wrapped his arms around her while she cried. “I’m sorry to tell you that you’re not dreaming. I wish you were for the sake of both of us. But listen to me, we’re gonna figure this out. And when we do, everything will be perfect. Everything will be as it should be. You just have to stay strong and trust me, ok?”
Lily nodded and whispered, “Ok, but where do we start?”
Sirius smirked and said something so Sirius that it made Lily laugh, “We start… AT THE BEGINNING!!!!!!!” Sirius shouted his voice echoing in the room.
After Lily finished laughing (a good five minuets after she began), she hugged Sirius. “Thank you,” she said simply. He just smiled at her. “Umm… Sirius?” Lily asked biting her lip.
“Hmm?” Sirius replied.
“What’s going on here? What’s it like?”
“I don’t think you want to know,” Sirius said, looking away.
“What are talking about? What’s so wrong with wanting to know?” Lily asked, a look of confusion sketched across her face.
“It’s bad,” Sirius managed to croak, a tear rolling down his face at the thought of what he had done. “It’s so, so, bad. Please Lily. Please don’t make me show you!” Sirius begged, looking horrified.
“I won’t think bad of you. I just need to know,” Lily replied softly to Sirius. Slowly, Sirius picked up his wand and brought out the first memory.
“Please,” he whispered, “forgive me.” No matter what world Lily was from, she was the first to ever believe that there was something good inside him. Well… other than one person, and he had laughed in her face. He had told her that she was crazy, that he was nothing like her, that he would rather die than become her. He had been horrible to Andromeda yet she had only smiled. Oh, how he wanted it to be different.
A/N I was going to leave it here, but I decided that if you’re still reading this then you deserve a long chapter. Enjoy!
“I’m going to show you a memory of each person you showed me of. I guess I’ll start with me. I’m going to show you what Slytherin has done to me. I’m going to show you what I have become,” Sirius told Lily, his hands shaking.
Together they fell in the Pensive, Lily worried and frightened , Sirius horrified and self-angered, together they made one interesting team.
THE SIRIUS BLACK MEMORY
“Can you believe it?” Lucious Malfoy said laughing his head off.
“No, I can’t! How stupid could the mudblood be? Actually think that being Head Girl would stop us!” Sirius said laughing with him.
“Well, I guess Evans isn’t as smart as everybody thought,” Malfoy replied, still laughing.
“I know! She is such a know-it-all bitch that it’s surprising that she didn’t see it coming,” Sirius replied sneering.
“Speak of the mudblood,” Rabastian Lestrange drawled with a sneer.
Looking up, everyone noticed Lily walking in. Her head was held high and her hand was tight around her wand. Glancing over at the Gryffindor table Lily saw Marie standing up and waving both arms in the air. A small smile graced her face as she began to walk over there. Before she could make it, however, she felt herself falling. It was like slow motion. Lily landed on the ground and all her books were lying on the ground. Using his chance, Malfoy got up and grabbed her wand and a black book lying on the floor. Walking back to the Slytherin table, he stood on his chair and called for quiet.
When nobody would shut up, Sirius stood up and roared, “SHUT UP!” Everyone quickly grew quiet and looked over at the Slytherin table. Slowly Lily looked over at the Slytherins and felt herself gasp. Sirius Black took her diary from Malfoy and her wand. Pointing her wand at the book, he cast a spell that would unlock it.
Lily quickly looked around for a teacher before remembering that the teachers didn’t eat lunch in the great hall. Quickly, she gathered herself up and stomped over to the Slytherin table. “Give it back,” she commanded coldly.
“Umm, no I don’t think I will,” Sirius shot back sneering. He moved onto the table and watched as she paled. Smirking, he opened the diary and began to read it loudly to the great hall while the other Slytherins stopped her from getting it.
“Dear diary, it’s September 1st 1977. I am about to leave for Hogwarts and have mixed emotions. I miss Marie, Dumbledore, the other teachers, classes, and, well… I miss the castle in general. Yet I don’t miss any of the other students. It makes no sense really, why they are alive and Remus is not. He was so much better than any of them, especially those stupid Slytherins. Now I know you’ll probably wondering why I haven’t mentioned Severus yet. Simple, he lives by me and I got to see him a lot this summer. Without him I don’t know how I would have made it this summer. My bitch sister Petunia got engaged this summer and has been even more insufferable than normal. Yet the same goes to Marie, she’s helped me so much at the school. If it wasn’t for her I would have… I don’t know. I just keep thinking that if Remus had the type of friends I do then it wouldn’t have happened. I wish he hadn’t but on the other hand I understand why he did. He deserved so much better. Oh well, that’s besides the point. The point is that I’m going to Hogwarts for my last year and I have no idea if I want to or not. Oh well, I guess I don’t have a choice, now do I?”
Sirius finished the entry with a smirk. “Who wants to hear another entry from the mudblood’s diary?”
When people started cheering, the real Lily turned to look at the “real” Sirius. “I want to leave,” she told him curtly, whishing the tears in her eyes wouldn’t fall. The “real” Sirius nodded and took her hand and pulled her out.
When the two teenagers were out of the pensive, Lily lost it more than she ever let herself. “WHY DID YOU DO IT?!?!?!?!” she screamed at the handsome boy who lowered his eyes. “Sirius,” she choked, “Did I do something to you? Am I a total bitch here? Is that why you did it? Did I deserve it? Sirius, what happened to Remus?”
“Lily, you didn’t do anything. I just… I’m sorry. I am so sorry,” Sirius started off strong but ended in a whisper.
“What happened to Remus?” she repeated refusing to let him sidetrack her.
He let out a breath before replying, “Let me show you.” Together the two teenagers in pain, journeyed back into the pensive…
A/N I am SOOOOOOOO sorry! Now I know this sounds horrible but please, please, please review! And to help you write about something I am going to ask you questions that I want your opinion about.
1) I mentioned what happened to Remus in an earlier chapter. Can anyone remember?
2) Who’s your fav character so far?
3) What do you think of Sirius?
4) What’s your favorite part in the story?
5) Last but not least… do you hate me yet? Lol.