Chapter 6 : 6. The Weakness In Me
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Chapter 6: The Weakness In Me
Alex didn't make any kind of effort to contact Anna the following morning, either. But Anna didn't care anymore - she was peeved enough from last night, so a day shopping for the perfect bed was a nice time-out from the hectic romance between her and Alex.
"I'm sure he has a good explanation for all this," Lily tried lamely.
"Oh, please," Cat muttered, as she brushed her fingers over a mahogany coloured table. "He's probably somewhere obsessing over his own reflection..."
"Cat!" Anna gasped, and frowned at her friend.
"What!?" Cat laughed, and shook her head. "You know he's gorgeus - so naturally, there has to be something wrong with him!"
"That's a sweet little theory, Cat," Lily said dryly. "Anna, I'm sure he--"
"I don't care," Anna commented, and moved through the store towards the beds. "Let's just find a bed, okay?"
They were all in silence, as they walked past bed after bed. Anna didn't seem to even notice any of them, while Lily checked the prices, her mind already prancing wildly around for all the things she could use James' bank account for. Anna watched with a small smile as Cat threw herself on every bed, staying there a few seconds, before moving on. She knew exactly whose opinion she should trust; Cat's.
"What about this one?" Lily asked suddenly, her hands gesturing to the large bed with bedposts in dark mahogany. "Doesn't it remind you of--"
"Hogwarts," Anna finished quietly. "Not exactly the most glorious time for me..."
"What with all the multiple snogging sessions, heartbreaks, werewolves, and unexpected relatives popping up everywhere," Cat muttered, and groaned as Lily stomped on her foot.
"I like this one more," Anna said timidly, and turned to a bed that was slightly smaller than the mahogany one, with beautiful engravings in the wood. Anna leaned closer, and ran her fingers carefully across the motive, a smile pulling at the corner of her mouth.
"Do you like it, miss?" a male voice asked, and Anna jumped a little. "Sorry, miss," the salesman apologized.
"I like it very much," Anna admitted, ignoring Lily and Cat's disapproving look.
Lily thought it was too cheap to be any good, while Cat probably thought it was uncomfortable.
"You won't take another look at the mahogany bed? It's made for kings and queens to sleep in--"
"I am no king or queen," Anna said stiffly, and looked back around the bed. "I want something simple and cheap, thanks."
"Well," said Cat, as the salesmas rushed off to get the papers for Anna to sign. "This officially means the end to your non-existent sex life all together!"
"Cat!" Lily warned, appearing on Anna's other side. "I think it's... wonderful."
"You hate it," Anna said with a smile.
"No, I don't... hate it," Lily managed to press out. "I just really, really dislike it, that's all."
"Well, I like it," Anna said and nodded. "It's familiar and simple as hell!"
"Speaking of familiar," Cat said, and stared towards the door.
Anna and Lily turned around to follow her gaze, and Anna froze.
"What is he doing here?" Lily whispered, as Alex made his way towards them.
"Aww, crap!" Cat complained. "This was supposed to be a our day, remember!?"
"I'll get rid of him, I promise," Anna said quickly, just before Alex reached them.
"Cat, let's go spend James' money, yes?"
"But I want to--"
"Come, come!" Lily ushered Cat forward, answering Alex's thankful smile with a small nod.
Anna watched her friends abandon her, and sighed, as she crossed her arms with a firm look on her face. "Yes?" she said, raising her eyebrows expectantly at Alex.
"Look... Anna," he began, and fidgeted with his hands.
"Just come out with it," Anna demanded impatiently.
"I will make it all up!" he promised sincerely. "I didn't see the time fly by - and you know how it can be down there in the dungeons... it's really, really like being isolated from everything and everyone, and you're all alone there with those creepy goblins, and I just lost track of time, and when I finally figured out how to use a telephone - you know, you should've showed me how those things work! - they told me at the restaurant that you had already left fifteen minutes earlier!"
"Oh," Anna said, and blinked a few times to let it all sink in. "Oh..."
"'Oh'... 'oh' what?" Alex said, looking worried.
"Didn't expect that," Anna admitted truthfully.
"Didn't expect what? An honest explanation about my own idiocy?" he said, chuckling once. "Look, I--"
"I... actually, I... well, atleast you had a... good reason, I suppose," she said, and smiled. "It's fine."
"I will make it up to you," Alex promised.
Anna reached for his hand carefully, and gave it a gentle squeeze. "It's fine."
Alex raised his eyebrows, and smiled slightly. "So I'm forgiven?"
Anna shrugged nonchalantly, and laughed once. "Of course," she said and rolled her eyes at his worried look. "Come here, you fool..." she muttered, and pulled him closer.
But just as their lips were about to touch, they heard the most unwelcome voice int he universe at the time being.
"AWW, HELL NO!" Cat moaned loudly, and Anna looked up with a startled look. "NOW THEY'RE MAKING OUT IN THE BED SECTION - HOW MANY SIGNS DO THEY STILL NEED!?"
Anna couldn't help but laugh at Cat's comment, and to her relief, Alex was laughing with her, his arms around her.
"I love you," he whispered in her ear, and Anna smiled.
"I don't like this bed," Alex complained, as he bounced up and down on the new bed.
"Hey, now!" Anna protested, folding her shirts in the drawer. "What did I say about not mocking my bed, huh?"
"Yes, yes, I know, I know," Alex muttered, poking the bedsheet with a skeptic look. "Will this thing even hold us both?"
"Why, are you planning to jump around on it like a six year old? Then no."
"No, I meant... well, more mature activities, love," Alex said, and looked up at Anna, who had momentarily stopped her folding. "What?" he said innocently.
Anna shook her head, trying to get the surprised look from her face. "Nothing, nothing..." she said quickly, and continued folding with a furious speed.
Alex watched her closely, and slowly got up, walking behind without making a noise. Anna was too concentrated on the folding, that she let out a small gasp, as she felt Alex's hand on her hips. She spun around, caught breathless in his arms.
"Hi, beautiful," he smiled.
"Hey," she gasped, staring up at him.
Without another word, Alex leaned down, and caught her lips with his. Anna momentarily lost the control of her other bodyparts, and dropped her shirts on the floor. She gasped in surprise, and pulled away to get some air.
"I dropped... the... the..." she stammered, blushing furiously under his intense gaze.
"Leave it," he breathed, and the shirts was at once forgotten.
"Okay," she said, and let Alex once again fill her mind with bliss.
It started like it always did; Alex, ever so gently, caressed her lips with his, and very, very carefully slipped his tognue into her mouth, making Anna moan quietly. She felt him smile against her lips, as she wrapped her arms around his neck, pressing herself closer to him. She felt him steer her back against the drawer, ignoring the sudden pain in her back.
She made a mental note to remove the knobs on the drawer whenever she had the time to.
Without even thinking what she was doing, Anna suddenly hitched her leg up, taking Alex's hand and placed it on her thigh, while her heart drummed loudly against her ribs. Alex pulled away with a startled look, his eyes wide. His breathing was as uneven as Anna's, if not more.
"Anna," he breathed, his voice filled with surprise.
Anna laughed nervously, amused by his surprise; she never did the first move like that. She always let Alex make his way to the certain line they never crossed. But now, it was all different. It was like Anna had changed, and Alex didn't know how to react.
"Well?" Anna said impatiently, as Alex marvelled her in wonder.
"Sorry," he apologized quickly. "I'm just... overwhelmed, that's all."
"Don't be silly," Anna giggled, and cupped his face gently, and kissed him carefully.
Now it was Alex who pulled away, a deep frown shadowing his boy-ish face. "Anna, will you marry me?" he asked in one breath.
Anna let her hands drop a little, but quickly placed them back to his face, caressing his cheeks with her thumbs. "Oh, Alex..." she whispered, biting her lip.
"I'm sorry," he said, and smiled. "It just... slipped out."
"I know," Anna said, not really knowing how else to react.
"There's just no one else I would rather spend the rest of my life with."
"I know," she said again. "But I haven't even met your family, and you know how I feel about that..."
"I know," he said, and sighed. "But if you met them--"
"Alex, Alex, Alex," Anna shushed, shaking her head a little. "It's... it's complicated, it's too soon, it's... too much, okay? I like what we have now, don't you?"
"Of course I do," Alex said at once, and pressed his lips together to keep himself from ruining the moment.
Anna smiled, and placed a quick kiss on his mouth. She carefully untangled herself from him, and returned to the drawer, folding her shirts as if nothing had happened. She sighed with a smile, as she felt Alex's arms wrap around her - not like he had before, but in a protective and loving way.
"What are you doing this upcoming weekend?" he asked softly, making Anna blush by just breathing against her neck.
"Well," she said, turning her head slightly to smile at him. "Since I don't have a job - yet - I think I might do some job hunting... because, you know, that's what people like me do when we don't have our folks covering our asses, Alex," she teased, making Alex chuckle.
"My folks are - well, my mother is - having a family dinner on Sunday, and I would like to take you with me."
Anna froze once again, and stared down at the folded shirts. "Oh?" she said quietly.
"Well..." she said, and bit her lip. "You're not planning on proposing to me in front of your family, are you? Because that would be--"
"Oh!" he laughed, and kissed her neck. "Don't be silly - I can take a hint, and I really don't need to be embarrassed in front of Anya, of all people!"
Anna joined his laugh, and nodded. "Then I'll be more than glad to join you."
"Awesome," he said, and kissed her neck again, before returning to sit on her new bed, while gazing at her with an aodring look in his eyes.
Another ten minutes passed in comfortable silence, as Anna hummed quietly to herself, while Alex kept watching her like she was the most interesting thing ever. She walked around the room, putting up framed pictures of her friends, and put away the boxes in one fo the closets she had arranged to be her 'messy closet'.
Every girl needed one.
Anna was about to put some of her nicer clothes on a hanger, and into the other closet, as she met Alex's gaze in the mirror on the closet door. She frowned, and tilted her head to the side, the plain sundress still in her hands.
"What?" Alex asked after a moment of silence.
"Are you inviting me to meet the parents so that you can propose to me later?"
Alex was quiet for a while, before he exploded in a bubbling laughter. Anna laughed nervously, not sure if this was a good sign or not.
"You're that scared of marriage, aren't you?" he laughed.
"I'm not scared!" Anna muttered angrily, and looked down with her cheeks burning.
"Well, believe me when I say that the third time will be more special," he said with a wink. "You won't be able to say no!"
Anna grinned and shook her head, while putting the dress away. "We'll see about that..."
"Hey!" Alex laughed, as he sprinted up.
Anna shrieked, and ran away from Alex and his stretched out hands - but he was so much faster, that with a few times around the room, he got his hands in a lock around her waist, and fell on the bed with a squealing and laughing Anna squirming in his arms.
"I'll just propose to you now!" he growled playfully in her ear, as she let out a loud laugh.
"No, oh please, no!" she called out dramatically.
"Anna Bea, will you--" he started with a deep voice.
"NOOOOOOOOOOOO!" Anna wailed, rolling around to lay on top of him, putting her weight on her elbows.
"You'll just have to make me shut up, miss," Alex said with a serious face, but couldn't help but crack a smile.
"Oh, you're horrible," Anna murmured softly, and kissed his nose.
"Aww, you like horrible!"
Anna giggled, as Alex pulled her closer, trying to smother her with kisses.
They wrestled playfully on the bed, unaware of the grey eyes watching them from the door...
Anna yawned, looking at the clock again.
Only three in the morning.
Alex was sound asleep in the new bed, but Anna couldn't get a hold of her own sleep. It wasn't the new bed, it was probably the first night with Alex in it, under the same roof as Sirius.
There was just so much wrong with that picture.
With a sigh, Anna stretched her arms over her head, listening to the tick-tock of the kitchen clock. She heard quiet steps across the livingroom, and expected to see a grumpy Cat come for a glass of water, and then tell her to sod off - Anna wanted to leave before Cat could unbottle her grumpyness on her. She stood up quietly, and tip-toed towards the livingroom, nearly running down--
"Oh," she said, her eyes wide with surprise. "What are you doing here?"
"I happen to live here," he said, not looking at her.
"I know," Anna shot back, stepping aside to let him enter the small kitchen. "It's three in the morning, Black."
"I know," he snarled, and pulled out a glass, which he filled with water.
Anna watched his back, waiting for him to explain why he was up at such hour. Surely he wasn't just for a glass of water - there seemed to be more to it.
"What?" Sirius asked, as he leaned against the sink with a frown.
"I..." Anna began, and closed her mouth to formulate her sentence more politely. "Couldn't sleep, what's your excuse?"
"I don't owe you any explanations, Parker," he said shortly, and put the glass down with a dark look shadowing his face.
"Look who's Mr Grumpy!" Anna said, as Sirius passed her.
"What do you want from me!?" Sirius snapped suddenly, walking up to her, his warm breath intoxicating Anna, and numbing every nerve in her body.
She couldn't move, or even talk.
"I... I..." she stammered with wide eyes.
"Do you think it's easy to live under the same roof with you and Mr Perfect, there? Do you think I enjoy watching you lovey-doveys all day long, and listen to your laughter, while thinking that you're in his arms, when you could be in my arms, in my bed--" Sirius went on, ending the sentence abruptly..
"Sirius..." Anna whispered, her eyes wider than ever.
"It's fine," he assured her, looking down again.
"I can... move," Anna said quietly, not sure what else to say. As much as she hated Sirius for being such a prick, she didn't want him to suffer more than necessary.
"Don't be stupid," Sirius said gently, glancing up at her. "I'd rather have you... close, than not in my life at all..."
Anna met his gaze, and looked away, before she could let the flashbacks and memories of her and Sirius run through her mind. She bit her lips, and concentrated on keeping her breathing steady.
"I'm sorry..." she began quietly, and cleared her throat. "I'm sorry for all the pain that I've caused you..."
"I'm fine," Sirius said, and turned around to return to his room again. "Really - I'm fine."
Anna followed him with her eyes, and looked down at her hands when he closed the door behind himself. She couldn't help but wonder how different her life would've been if she hadn't been so stupid, so selfish, so... so weak? If she had stayed tough for Sirius, maybe he wouldn't have given up on her so easily, and they would still be together, and there would be no Alex in the picture - how many unnecessary heartbreaks would she have saved if she had been a little stronger?
A/N: Oh, angst! That's all I have to say... I'm starting to worry that my characters only get angstier and angstier by every chapter - OH WELL! :D I'm LOVIN' it xD
- Lily xxx
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