A/N: I love this chapter, because it has a lot of James and that is just lovely. He is so damn cute. You also get more Rose and Albus, and some Lily. Not a lot of Matt though =[, I really do still like the character as of now, later you probably won't like him much even though what he does helps the situation in the long run. Anyways that's enough of me blabbing so let's get to it.
Disclaimer: I don't own it
I expected both James and Matt to apologize, but I never expected either would go to such measures. It made me realize how lucky I was to have both of them even if they are gits most of the time.
Seventh year work was hard though and I was spending most of my free time in the library or studying with Matt, which means I was partially neglecting James, but I couldn't help it, and it wasn't as if I was doing it on purpose. I could tell it was getting to him thought, because he was a little more harsh than usual. Everyone was a little more harsh than usual though, I mean seriously all the 7th years were stressing out, which had me worried because seriously we were about a month into school and I couldn't imagine how stressed we would be when it came time for our Newts.
Two weekends from now was the first Quidditch game and it was the ever dreaded Gryffindor versus Slytherin match. Which meant that James was even more riled up, and he was scheduling a million practices so on the rare occasions I wasn't doing work he was at practice. Which is what was happening currently. I left the library early to come back and try and catch James and Bray before then headed off to practice but I guess I didn't leave early enough because they were definitely out on the pitch.
I sat with Rose and Lily in the common room because Liam and Miles were no where to be found, and every girl needed time with the girls every once in a while, even if it is just studying.
“So how is everything?” I asked Rose after we decided to take a break.
“Well, things with Lorcan are great, really great, he is amazing. Thanks for talking to him by the way. Things with Albus however are worse than ever. After he chased me out of the great hall we got in another row, that one was my fault I'll admit it, but I was just in a fowl mood. Then when he found about Lorcan, and that I didn't tell him, he was peeved so he went off on me, and now we are avoiding each other.” She said.
“You two are almost as stubborn as James and Matt, although it's twenty times worse since you two were best mates before hand,” I said as Rose sighed.
“I know, your completely right, but I can't help it. I mean you have met our fathers! Mom wrote to me a couple days ago and told me that they got in a similar fight in 4th year. Da was jealous because Uncle Harry was in the triwizard tournament, and so they got in a huge row. Took them forever to apologize because they were both too stubborn.” She said and honestly the story made me giggle.
“You two really are your father's kids,” I said shaking my head.
“Your right though, sometimes it's scary how much Al acts like dad, I have even called him dad a couple times, and I wasn't even trying to be funny,” Lily said.
“I mean it's not like I'm really mad at Albus, to be honest I'm just jealous of Malfoy. I mean Al was always my best mate, and I haven't ever had to share him. But now he is Malfoy's best mate too and I just can't get over it. I already told you that I don't have a problem with Malfoy, it's just that we don't all fit together and I was scared that Al was going to pick him over me,” she said and before she finished I saw Albus appear out of thin air behind her and almost peed my pants.
“Did you mean all that Rosie?” Al asked, he was the only person aloud to call her Rosie, and she gasped.
“I knew dad gave you that cloak,” Lily grumbled beside me.
“Of course I did,” she said. Al walked around the couch and sat down next to her bringing her into his arms. I walked away pulling Lily behind me, this was a private moment and we didn't need to be a part of it.
“As for you young lady, anything I need to know about in your life, so I can keep James from seeing it and going ballistic?”
“No, still just my one sided love for Callum,” she said with a sigh.
“Don't know how that kid doesn't realize how amazing you are,” which was true, Lily was absolutely stunning really. Probably the prettiest girl here, which is something considering she was only in her 5th year.
“Yeah well he is still hung up on Prissy Bitch,” she said. I left her with her friends in the common room and then walked out of the portrait because I just needed to walk.
I was walking through the halls when I stopped at a window and looked outside to see a lone flier out on the pitch, I rolled my eyes knowing it was James and headed downstairs and out the doors leading to the grounds.
On my way I realized this was a stupid idea considering I left my cloak inside by the fire and it was bloody freezing outside at the moment. I was cursing under my breath when I made it to the pitch my hands basically frozen. I walked out onto the pitch and close to where James was flying.
“Hey you, Quidditch Nazi, don't you think it's time to come inside?” I yelled up to James, causing him to drop his quaffle.
“Bloody hell Dell, you could kill a guy you know?” He said flying down towards me.
“Well you wouldn't be good to anyone dead, we need you to cream those Slytherin's,”
“That is true, I'm glad you are finally appreciating my skills,”
“It's got nothing to do with your skills, I just know they wouldn't be able to find a replacement in time.”
“Right, you keep on telling yourself that,” he said with a smirk, see I told you he never gets annoyed, although he probably just knew I was teasing.
“So you going to be my number one cheerleader for the game?” He asked flying in circles around me.
“You know what a cheerleader is?”
“Yeah my dad was raised muggle after all! I don't know why wizards haven't caught on to the lovely idea of girls in skimpy outfits yelling your name,”
“Ha I guess I shouldn't be surprised, but I don't know about that, considering pretty much the whole of the female population at this school thinks you are a God I don't know if I could compete with that. Seriously some of those girls would eat me alive,”
“Ah see but none of them matter as much as my best mate does,” he said flicking me on the nose.
“True, true, and I guess it is my obligation as a best mate. If I die from an angry groupie however, your paying for my funeral,” I said making him laugh. I shivered from the cold and James frowned.
“Why did you come out here without your cloak?”
“I wasn't really thinking, or planning on coming out here. I left it by the fire and went for a walk around the castle, saw you out here through the window and decided to come talk,”
“You came all the way out here in the freezing cold without a cloak just to talk to little old me?”
“Yeah I know throw me in the loony bin,”
“Aw, you miss me don't you?”
“James, I see you everyday,”
“Yes but we haven't been talking very much lately have we?”
“Yeah and It has been nice not having that constant headache that results from you being around,”
“Come on, admit that you missed me,” he said with his stupid grin.
“Yes you did,”
“There is no way that I missed you,”
“Probable and factual,”
“Out of the question,”
“no question you mean,” he said and I couldn't contain my smile.
“Alright fine, you win, I missed you,” I said giving up.
“YES!” James yelled throwing his arm in the air and making me roll my eyes.
“Well to be honest the only reason that I knew you missed me, is because I missed you too, but let's get you back to the castle before you turn to ice,” he said putting his hand out for me to join him on his broom.
“No way am I getting on that thing,” I said shaking my head. I did not like flying and no one could get me to fly, even Matt.
“We are not doing this again,” he said shooting forward and grabbing me, pulling me up on the broom in front of him.
“James, put me down NOW,” I screamed as he righted me on the broom.
“No way, now hold on tight,” he said wrapping his arms around mine and grabbing onto the broom. I could feel his breath on my neck and it tickled and then he shot off in the air and I just about died.
My heart was pounding in my chest because of how scared I was. I didn't like heights very much you see, and James was going so fast on this broom I felt like I was going to fall off and die any second. I was screaming the whole way and I'm sure that James' ears were now permanently damaged. Which serves him right. The bloody twit.
We finally made it to the school and I jumped off the broom and hit James repeatedly in the arm.
“Don't. You. Ever. Do. That. Again.” I said between hits.
“Calm down Delly Belly, your alive and well, do you ever think I would let you fall?” He said with laughter in his eyes.
“Don't care, my feet are going to stay firmly planted on this ground for the rest of my life,”
“Oh really?” He asked me with eyebrows raised, and I knew that look, it was a dangerous look.
“I don't know what your planning, but it's not a good idea,” I said crossing my arms and giving him my best stern look, which just made him grin more.
We stood staring each other down for a few moments until he finally picked me up and threw me over his shoulder running back to the common room and me screaming and hitting the whole way again.
As the days progressed school got more hectic, as did James' practices. So we both had to try really hard to find time to see each other and it was rare. But as the weekend of the game came up I was very excited for the first game of the year that was always the best.
It was on a Saturday which meant that I was spending the day with Matt so I ate breakfast at their table, and I would be sitting in the Ravenclaw stands for the game as well. I did wear my Gryffindor sweater though so I was showing my red and gold spirit. I looked across at James at breakfast and saw he was his usual wreck self so I tried to catch his eye but he was too busy worrying.
I walked down to the pitch with Matt and tried to catch James to tell him good luck but he was no where to be found so I just shrugged and went into the stands.
As the game proceeded it was obvious that the real match was happening between the seekers. Al and Scorpius. Sure all of the other kids on the team were good but both Al and Scorp were great and so the real question was simply who was going to catch the snitch.
I was cheering really loud for the whole time, especially James and Brayden. Every time James scored or Brayden blocked one I would go ballistic and some people were looking at me funny because I was in the Ravenclaw stands but I didn't care.
As the game continued I stopped paying attention to everyone but the seekers. Finally they both saw the snitch on the other side of the field and they both went weaving through the players and bludgers.
It was close, although I wasn't quiet sure where the snitch was but Al caught it and the Gryffindors all went crazy with cheers. I hugged Matt, who wasn't so enthusiastic about the win, but he did like Gryffindor more than Slytherin so he was happy at least. I pulled him down onto the field with me and too the team where I gave Brayden a hug then found James. I hugged him as well, but the hug wasn't quiet returned. I backed away and looked at him with one eyebrow raised.
“Did you enjoy the game?” He asked.
“Yeah you all did great, good job captain,” I said winking.
“Thanks,” he said and he walked away. Well that was certainly weird but I didn't worry about it as I celebrated with my fellow Gryffindors on the pitch. I was walking off the pitch with Matt when I turned and saw James making out with Payton by the changing rooms. He looked up for a moment and saw me and glared.
I didn't know why he was glaring at me so I gave him the eyebrow again, and then walked away with Matt.
Even though I knew that if I asked Matt wouldn't mind letting me go to the party that was for sure going on in the common room right now I didn't really want to go because for some reason James was upset with me and I didn't want to deal with that in front of people so I stayed with him for the rest of the night.
The next day James was ignoring me, which I wasn't complaining about considering every time I saw him he had his arm draped around Payton and Dumbledore knows I didn't want to have to always see that or be around the stupid bint for longer than I had to.
Things were weird, James had never been like this with me, and I honestly couldn't think of a single reason why he could be mad at me. I didn't have much time to think about it though as after the weekend we got thrown back into school and boy was the work piling up.
The Ravenclaw, Gryffindor was coming up as well, so between studying with Brynn, and scheduling in time with Matt my life was a complete mess, and I had no time to spend with James even if he wanted to see me, which he didn't.
And then he all of a sudden switched from ignoring me to getting peeved at me pretty much all the time.
The ignoring me was almost better then the viscousness afterwards. He was relentless, every time I tried to speak with him he would snap at me, it was really odd. I was thoroughly confused and tried my hardest to talk with him about it but he was not having it really.
Pretty soon it was time for Ravenclaw vs. Gryffindor match. Matt knew that James and I were having problems so he didn't even bring him or the game up ever. No taunting about the game, or saying how much he hated him or anything. It was really nice actually, so at least one good thing came of James being pissed at me.
I went to the match and sat in the stands with Rose, Lily, Hugo, Miles and Liam. It was an extremely close game, even closer than the game vs. Slytherin. I was cheering on my house of course, but I was also cheering for Matt, I had to be a good girlfriend after all.
But when it finally came down to it and Ravenclaw won I was a little upset, I did love my house after all. I was also upset because now James would probably be even more peeved at me, and he would hate Matt even more. That drama was of course, not wanted.
Matt's team won the match though and I was happy for him so I ran out onto the field and into his arms I couldn't help but smile as he swung me around and then kissed me longingly. I always loved the nights after Quidditch games, the sex was always amazing.
“Meet me in the changing rooms after everyone leaves,” Matt whispered in my ear, and apparently I wasn't going to have to wait till tonight. I smile and nod my head and turn around to find a furious James Potter. I give him a sympathetic look but he just shakes his head and walks away.
I waited outside the changing rooms and it wasn't long till most everyone was gone considering they all wanted to go celebrate. My celebration was going on elsewhere however, and let me just say that Matt had plenty of adrenaline and stamina that night. After cleaning up in the team showers, which took longer than a normal shower because I kept getting distracted by the love of my life standing next to me, I let Matt head back to his house to celebrate with his mates and headed back to Gryffindor. I couldn't help the smile on my face or the hum from escaping my lips as I was walking.
“Looks like someone had fun tonight,” said Ellie with a smirk.
“Oh piss off, we all know you just wish you got some action from the team captain tonight you slag,” I replied, to which she just gave me the finger. “Where is James anyway, he looked pretty pissed after the game.”
“He is up in our room, although I don't know if he is the only one up there because he told us not to come up for awhile, so I don't know if I would risk it. Plus things are a little weird for you guys right now,” said Brayden giving me a strange look. I decided I would risk it because I wanted to make sure he was okay and we needed to talk about this.
I walked right in and found an extremely disturbing scene of the back of a girls head as she was on her knees in front of a shirtless James who was leaning against the wall his eyes closed and his hands on the back of her head.
She stopped at the sudden noise and turned around to see me, I recognized her and stood with my back leaning against the wall and my arms crossed as the girl ran by me embarrassed.
“Fuck Dell, did you seriously have to do that? Merlin I'm gonna be blue if I don't take care of this,” he said as he righted himself and covered everything back up and he did look pretty pissed.
“Seriously James, a 5th year Slytherin, you have got to be desperate,” I say, I mean come on two years younger and a wearer of green and silver. He just glared at me in response.
“What is with you lately?” I was really curious, he has been being really strange and glaring at me more than normal.
“What is with me lately? I should be the one asking you that question,” he says all this viciously of course because that is the only tone he takes with me now.
“Really this is coming out of nowhere, I have no idea why you are so hacked off at me,”
“Are you off your head? Or have you always been this daft, I thought you were smarter than that, or maybe your twit of a boyfriend could explain things to you since he is a Ravenclaw and all,” He was pissing me off more and more by the second, and my anger can not be contained very long.
“Is that what this Is about, just another of your stupid problems with my boyfriend?”
“This has got nothing to do with him, this has everything to do with you and your decisions.”
“My decisions to what?”
“Your decision to be such a fucking traitor. Just forget about your house loosing their last game against Ravenclaw because that tosser tells you he loves you so you can spread your legs a bit. Everyone has always known you were easy but really I didn't know you would just forget about us for some dick,”
He has got to be kidding me, does he honestly think I'm a traitor, and not only that but thinks that Matt is just using me for sex when we have been dating for two years?
“If anyone is off their head it's you, you arsehole. Stop being such a god damn wanker who has to insult people who actually have some sort of a relationship because your too childish to have one of your own, and go be a pedophile some more and shag that Slytherin bint instead of trying to convince yourself I'm easy, just because you wish you could have me opening my legs for you.”
“Been there, done that,” he says with a sneer.
And I literally go crazy. I scream and jump on top of him punching him again and again until he finally gets a hold of my fists and keeps them from going anywhere.
“What the fuck is wrong with you, you crazy bitch,” James says and even though I know he is completely correct by calling me an crazy bitch, (I told you it was hard to contain my anger) he was just asking for it.
“What the fuck is wrong with me? Hell your what is wrong with me you fuck. You and your stupid bloody superiority complex and need to stick your dick into anything that would remotely bring you pleasure, which isn't very hard to do, because you have to make up for your inferior size and skill in bed.”
“Ha, yeah because a lot of people are geniuses in bed there first go, come off it Dell it's not like you were very skill full at that time either, although I doubt little Matty has taught you any new tricks either.”
“You certainly weren't complaining when I switched positions after you couldn't get it started, I seem to remember you saying something along the lines of, 'that was bloody fantastic' after the whole eight minutes it took you to get off,” I said this with a sneer, and it was the same look I was getting back.
“Yeah well this position seems pretty reminiscent of that night now doesn't it cowgirl?”
Well he was right but I really wished he didn't have a hold of my hands so I could slap him. Anger flashed through my eyes and then the bloody git did something incredibly surprising, he kissed me.
How the hell did he think up that this was okay to do? I mean we were just screaming at each other, and even though he is a whore he has never even hit on me since I have been with Matt. That's the other problem, I'm with Matt I shouldn't be kissing anyone.
My body was not listening to me as I kissed him back a fire blazing through my body, I swear I was under the imperious because there is no way I wanted to do this. He let my hands free as his found there way around my body and down to the small of my back. As this hands touched my bare skin I got shocked out of whatever was fogging up my mind and I pulled away to find a stupid grin on his face. I slapped him and got up as fast as possible then stalked out the room and slammed the door.
I went straight to my room, laid on my bed and closed my curtains around me. I didn't know what to do or even what to think. James Potter had just kissed me and I kissed him back. Now if I was a normal girl, and James a normal guy there would be nothing wrong, but the fact was that we both weren't normal. For one I have no idea why I actually kissed the pig back I mean there was not one reason I could think of for actually doing that. Also I have a boyfriend which is the main problem because I kissed another guy and he positively hates James which makes it about twenty times worse. Then there is the fact that it is just James, I mean he was just getting head from some slut when I walked in his room and then he decides to kiss me, obviously the guy has some major girl problems. I know it didn't mean anything because seriously I have said it before I do not have any feelings for the guy and he doesn't have feelings for anyone so I know it wasn't as if he wanted to kiss me because he likes me in any romantic way. He was probably just trying to be an ass, which worked, although he could have gone for many more options. Knowing him though snogging a girl would be the first thing that popped into his head.
I figured I would just forget about it, and hopefully no one would find out about it. I mean sure it's not like it's my fault really and Matt couldn't blame me but I really just don't feel like dealing with the drama I mean those boys already have enough going on between them without me getting thrown into the mix. I hope James doesn't decide to be a git and tell anyone about it, because that would really just suck and he would most likely make it seem like we shagged more than just kissed a little. I don't think he would tell anyone though, I have more than enough secrets on him I could spill if he did. I probably shouldn't tell him I don't want people to know because then of course he will tell everyone.
I still don't know whether or not to be mad at him though. I mean yeah he was being an ass, but James is always an ass really I mean what is the difference between him giving me shit and him kissing me. (Besides the fact that I have a boyfriend and therefore cannot kiss any other guys) He probably just added that kiss in there to maybe piss off Matt in the matter too. He kind of did go over the line with what he was saying though, especially bringing up the forbidden topic of us taking each other's virginity. We never brought that up, for more reasons than one. I mean we didn't talk to each other for a whole three months after it happened. Plus not a lot of people know about it, including Matt, and I would rather he didn't find out. I am surprised James has never said anything about it to Matt, honestly I would think he would be itching to tell him he got his sloppy seconds.
I think that night really did mean something to us though because he is keeping it a secret, obviously he has some ounce of respect for me.
After mussing over the topic for about two hours I finally let myself fall asleep after I decided that I was going to just forget this ever happened unless James started being a twit about it. Basically I was just going to have to follow his lead on this one.
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