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Author's Note: Hey everyone! Don't you just love me for that cliffhanger? Wasn't it lovely? Well, now you finally get to see what Miss Knightley will think of Mr. Lupin's situation. I probably won't be able to update for a while because of Provincials and I have this singing thing this weekend, which I just got back from the first day of, so I hope this will satsify you for now, and if not, let me know with a lurvely review!
Chapter Twenty-One: Confess Part II
There were a few minutes of pure silence between us where neither of us dared move, as we waited for each other's reactions. This flipped my whole world upside down. Remus, my Remus, was a werewolf? How did this happen?
Was this why he didn't want to tell me? Because he thought I would judge him? It's not his fault...he can't control what happens to him once a month. It's like it's not even him on a full moon. He wasn't one of the ones that hurt my family, I knew it. He could never hurt anyone on purpose.
"That's it?" I asked calmly, and he nodded, looking at me fearfully. "Did you know that I have a secret too?" He looked at me with eyes full of questions before I revealed to him what it was.
"I'm in love with you," I whispered just as quietly as he had when he told me his secret, feeling free as a bird now that he finally knew how I felt about him. And before he could say anything, I brought my lips down onto his. Those wonderful, magnificent butterflies and fireworks were back. His tongue begged for entrance by tracing my lips and I allowed it entrance. His hands were tangled in my hair. We stayed there kissing like that for a few minutes before we broke apart, and he immediately looked guilty.
"How-how do you love me? With the flashback...Defense Against the Dark Arts...how?" He spluttered, before shaking his head as if deciding against something. "I'm too dangerous."
"No you're not! The wolf is. Not you," I said. "You are Remus John Lupin. He is the wolf. You are two separate beings and that's how it will always be!"
"Elle, look at me!" He shouted for everything to go deathly silent. "I'm hideous! I have scars all over my godforsaken body and I'm a monster! You deserve better than me!"
"Don't say that Remus," I whispered, feeling the tears that had been threatening to fall before, now falling freely down my cheeks.
"It's the truth. You could do so much better! I'm just getting in the way of your happiness," He said, looking away, really sadly.
"Do you see yourself? You're saying all this stuff, but it isn't true. Remus, you are the most amazing person I have ever met in my whole life! You are smart, sweet, sensitive, caring and so much more! The list just goes on and on, and 'dangerous' and 'monster' are definitely not on it!" I exclaimed desperately, standing up and sitting on the edge of his bed. "You've always been there for me! Through everything! I love more than anything and anyone! You are my entire life! I've never felt this way before Remus, and I've cried over you before so many times because I loved you so much and you didn't know! And now you do know and you're refusing me! But I guess if you don't feel the same way about me at all, that's fine because I'm probably like a little sister to you because of James," I was about to get up and leave, but he weakly pulled me back around the waist so I was laying down and facing him.
"I think I'm okay with this arrangement," He said as he pulled me closer to him. "I just don't see how this is at all possible."
"It just is," I whispered, nuzzling my head into his neck, gently twirling his hair with my hands. "I love you so much."
"I love you too," Remus said, kissing my forehead. "This feels so...right."
"I know," I whispered, smiling.
"Will you be my girlfriend?" He asked suddenly.
"You had me at 'Is that you?" I comment and he sent me a confused look.
"When did I say that?" He asked, furrowing his eyebrows as he tried to remember when he said that.
"When we first met. It was one of the first things you said to me," I said.
"Oh," He said, thinking about it for a few moments. "Can you promise me something?"
"Never, and I mean never follow me out on a full moon. I don't ever want to hurt you," He said very seriously.
"I won't. I promise," I said and he smiled before kissing me gently, but very passionately, intertwining his fingers with my own.
"Oh la la!" Rebecca said as she came up to where we were, and saw our position. I just smiled and blushed as Remus pulled me closer to him, wrapping an arm around me protectively. "It's official, right?" She asked and he nodded, smiling at each other. "Hey! You guys! I win the bet!"
"They made a bet on us this time?" I asked Rebecca, and she nodded, smiling impishly all the while.
"They've had this bet running since you guys first met apparently, and I only joined when we became friends," Rebecca said, wearing her infamous smirk.
Lately, Remus and I had been spending every waking hour together, wanting to make up for all the lost time between us. We had both admitted to each other that we had fancied each other since we first met. And now, as we only had about two months or so left of school, we had to spend as much time together as possible.
Sometimes, when we were snogging, he would have to excuse himself for getting too 'heated'. It honestly didn't bother me. I love him so much, that sometimes it hurt to be somewhere without him.
And he was always worried about me. Worried that he was hurting me, worried that he would hurt me, worried that he was too dangerous, worried that someone was going to take me away from him, worried that I was too good for him...it was really cute and I loved it.
"Remus? Are you in here?" I whispered, peering around the many shelves of books in the library.
"Yeah, I'm over here," He whispered back as I looked for the source of his voice and found him near the back, where he usually was.
"Oh, you're studying. I'm sorry, I'll just leave," I suggested, about to turn around and walked out when he stopped me.
"No, no, no. Come sit," He said, indicating his lap, which I tentatively sat down on, both of us shifting until we were both comfortable. I leaned back against his chest, resting my head against his shoulder and he tilted my chin up and kissed me ever so lightly on the lips. How sweet. "I've been thinking."
"When aren't you thinking?" I asked and he playfully stuck his tongue out at me.
"Well, I was thinking about us," He said simply, tossing his book aside and taking my hands in his, playing with my fingers.
"I was thinking that if we are still together after graduation, which we will be I'm sure, that maybe we could possibly, if you wanted to..."
"What Remus? Just tell me!" I said, not liking the suspense he was creating.
"Maybe we could move in together?" He suggested and I smiled brightly.
"Yeah, of course," I said before he kissed me. At dinner that night, Dumbledore told us at the beginning that a big announcement was to be made later in the evening, before we went to bed.
Remus and I were sitting side by side, and I was smiling as he played with my fingers while I tried to eat, but continued to giggle.
"Oh god, you two are making me sick," Sirius said, making pretend barfing sounds and motions on the other side of the table.
"May I have your attention," Dumbledore said as all the food disappeared and the eyes of the students drifted to where he was standing. "Because of recent events in the Wizarding World, the staff and I decided that a class trip would be a good break for all of the seventh years. Seventh years, you will be going on a trip to California, in the United States."
"Where's that?" I whispered to Remus.
"I'll show you later," He answered and I nodded.
"On your way to the dormitories, please take a packing list. We will be leaving next Monday and we will be there for two weeks. I hope all of you seventh years enjoy your time there."
Dinner ended and as we were all going back to our dorms, we were chatting excitedly about the trip. I was looking over the list of stuff to bring and was starting to get really excited. I hadn't really been that far, as far as I remember. Only around England.
"Excited?" Remus asked and I looked up at him in confusion. "For the trip."
"Oh! Yeah, it should be fun," I said, a weird feeling in my stomach. Like something, good or bad I didn't know, was going to happen while I was there.
"You sure don't sound too excited," Remus said, wrapping an arm around me and smiling.
"I am, really," I said, trying to make him believe me, which he did in the end.
Next time on "Remember"
"I'm not going on that thing!" I shouted, digging my heels into the ground and letting go of Remus, causing me to fall on my butt so I sat there refusing to get up.
"Elle, get up," Remus said exasperatedly.
"Fine, we'll do things my way," Remus said before coming over to me, picking me up with ease and slinging me over his shoulder before picking up my carry-on bag.