I was sitting on the ground outside. The sun was in my eyes, but I looked at the lake at a different angle, suppressing the ugly expression that arrived while squinting. Ken Kroger and Kendra Rollins were down by the edge. A blanket on the ground, charmed to not get wet with the snow. I’d cleared a space of snow with my hand, sitting on wet grass that will probably stain my jeans. I grimaced, unintentionally, and looked away from the new couple. Why must they be so happy when I’m…not?
A snap of a twig came from behind me, but I was so involved in cursing Ken with my mind that I didn’t pay heed. Sirius plopped down beside me, like myself he cared little about the condition of his pants in reference to the wet ground. I mumbled a hello, and he said something.
I didn’t hear it. I was too busy letting out a huff of air, glaring at stupid Kendra Rollins, whose name is not simply Kendra, or even Kendra R., but it has to be pronounced together. How eccentric do you have to be?!
Suddenly Sirius’s voice cut into my thoughts, “It’s a lot clearer now. Tell me, is it hard?”
“Is what hard?” I asked, obviously confused. He gave a small, gentle smile.
“Holding onto the past?”
“And what exactly does that mean?” I flared. He grinned in an innocent found guilty kind of way. It made me remotely suspicious.
“I know you’ve been lying to me.”
I let my eyes widen. Uh-oh. “What do you mean?”
“Camilla,” I nodded. “I know that you have some kind of attachment to Ken Kroger. All right? I know you have issues.”
Crap. Rule number one of snagging Sirius Black—broken.
“I don’t have many. I mean, everyone has some, Sirius,” I added his name out of impulse. Genuinely the more you look at someone in the eye or say their name while talking, it shows that you like them, and it tricks their brain into liking you…or so I’ve heard.
My throat tightened, and I found it a bit hard to concentrate.
“It’s okay. I just thought you should know that whatever you did before we began our relationship…because that what’s we have right, a relationship? Well, before this,” His hand enveloped mine and he held it up for me to see our fingers intertwined. “Before this, nothing else matters.”
I looked at him so seriously, my eyes wide. Was this guy for real?
“You can’t be serious?”
“I am,” he, Merlin charm him, ignored the pun, moving on. “Camilla, I don’t know how you did it, but you’re just so…I really like you. Will you…be my girlfriend?”
If relationships were Christianity, I’d be the anti-Christ. I smiled at him, nodding and acting like I was extremely excited about the prospect of having a boyfriend, a sick, lost puppy that follows me around. The worst part is that this made me the tiniest bit happy, but rest assured it was simply in alliance with my desires to win the dare.
Sirius gripped onto my hand, pulling in for a quick kiss, which turned into a long kiss. I pushed him away, continuing with my nice-girl routine. He opened his eyes, smiling lazily into my eyes. The dark gray eyes staring into mine had dark circles encasing them. I would have asked about them, but I just figured he’d been out with some other girl.
Did that bother me? I felt a pang of jealousy, sure, but I thought that I’d promised not to get remotely attached to Sirius. He was a womanizer, and I was about to deceive him, trick him, seduce him, and leave him. I was going to get revenge on him and all the other womanizers who lie to girls until they get what they want, and then ruin my life, I mean the girls’ lives.
Then it clicked. As fast as it was for me to conjure up the dare, it was easier to piece it all together in my mind. I wasn’t afraid of Sirius; I wasn’t angry or resentful towards him. I liked Sirius. I liked him a lot, but I was doing this to get back at the arrogant bitch Ken. And I was being such a bitch to him by playing with his heart. This isn’t me.
I jerked my hand away from Sirius. My face surely displaying everything I was feeling. So I did the only thing that makes sense to me when it comes to problems—I ran.
“Camilla?” Sirius yelled after me. Ken and Kendra Rollins looked up, noticing me for the first time. My cheeks flushed, but I didn’t turn around again for them to see, I just ran into the castle and up several flights of stairs.
I said the password to the fat lady, rushed through the common room, and into our dormitory. I panted and rested upon my four poster bed. Elsie was laying in bed still, snoring softly, but now looking like she wanted to wake up anytime soon. Mute was tying her shoes on and getting ready to leave, ignoring me like I usually ignore her, and Lily was gone.
Probably with James. Whatever. Just because she’s having good luck with him, and Mute’s having really good luck with Remus—it doesn’t mean anything. Because I will still win. I just have to come up my a different strategy. A better one.
Hi everyone! *hides behind something* Here's chapter eleven... I uh hope you likedit! I'm sorry for the lack of action, and I know I promised you better last author's note, but I didn't have anything except this, because I need to get to Lily's chapter fast, for reasons I can't disclose *wink double wink* But I really hope that you review! I love reviews! I finally got to 100! (that's why I updated. lol)
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