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I've been so busy with graduation, Draco has been too. We hardly see each other anymore and I get the feeling that he's avoiding me. I am getting worried, he hardly speaks to me and I feel like every time we're in the same room together or alone he makes up an excuse to leave.
I feel so lonely without him and he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. He won't even kiss me or respond when I kiss him. I'm getting scared, what if he doesn't want to be with me anymore? What should I do? I've been so confused lately, all I can do is look longingly at him and hope that when he's ready he'll come talk to me.
I didn't know how to deal with this... How to cope. I grabbed the note cards that held my speech and finished getting ready.
Taking in a shaky breath I gave myself a once-over in front of the mirror and proceeded down to the grounds where our graduation was to take place. I was pretty sure I saw a head of platinum blonde hair out of the corner of my eye.
I've felt horrible not being able to hold Hermione and it takes everything I have not to lock her in an embrace and leave with her forever where no one can find us. I've had to use all of my will power not to kiss her or talk to her.
I hope that this works, I hope that I'm doing the right thing. It hurts so badly seeing her stand out on the balcony toying with the necklace I had given her or look longingly at the bracelet.
I get out my bed slowly and go and take a shower, dressing in my best robes and going down to the Great Hall alone like I did so many other mornings. I ignore Arianna and Harry and sit with my back to their table.
I can see Hermione's eyes glistening with tears and it tears my heart in two. I get up and begin to assemble the students outside for the ceremony, my dear Hermione soon joins in.
Outside was the most perfect day one could imagine, the skies were blue, the sun shone brightly, and the grass was far greener than I had ever seen it in my entire lifetime. All the students had been seated by alphabetical order and the parents were up in the stands that we conjured.
I could see my mother and father wave over to me as they gave Arianna a quick embrace. The Weasley's were all in a large group a little ways away from my family; the twins throwing firecrackers up in the air. They read 'Congrats Ron, Harry, & 'Mione' as they exploded.
I took my place on stage and sat down on my chair, the students following along promptly. Headmaster Dumbledore was in his finest robes and so was McGonagal, who was barking commands over to the band that was playing. I scanned the sea of black in order to find Hermione, I spotted her sleek mane giving Weasley and Harry a hug before turning around and making her way to the stage where she was to sit next to me.
We locked eyes for a moment and she had the look of deepest longing on her face, she stretched her hand out only a fraction of an inch but immediately returned to their prior position. My eyes immediately darted from it to her eyes. Unsure of what to do I merely stuffed my hands in my pockets and took a seat, she soon followed.
The entire ceremony had gone by rather smoothly, Hermione was our Valedictorian and I Salutatorian. During her speech she spoke of the hardships that we have all overcome and the challenges that we have yet to face. How we needed to stand together if we wanted to bring down the Dark Lord. She spoke of her adventures with Harry and Ron, her classes, her friends, and her love. She never said my name out loud. I guess she was afraid of my reaction, but she told our year how this person had changed her so much in such a short time.
It was thanks to this person that she was able to see past the prejudices that have been corrupting the wizarding world, and that she owed her life to this person, not only figuratively but literally as well. Not only did she say this, but she told our year that she loved this person more than she did life itself.
I felt a my throat constrict and I closed my eyes, when I opened them again I noticed Arianna in tears and Potter staring right at me. I gave him a curt nod before paying attention to Professor Dumbledore who now began giving Hermione her diploma. I soon followed and then the rest of seventh year. When we were all in our seats he congratulated us once more and soon it began raining hats.
After the ceremony we had a luncheon with our families before they boarded the train and returned home. I was going to go sit with the Weasleys and Harry when I caught a glimpse of Draco with his family. He nodded at something that his mother had told him and made his way over to the edge of the Black Lake. Making sure no one was around I followed him...
Take time to realize,
That your worth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
I watched him gather up some rocks and toss them onto the smooth surface of the Black Lake, rippling the once glass-smooth surface. Kind of like he did with our relationship. It was perfect, did I do something wrong? Was it because of me? I want him to know that he can come to me with anything, he knows he can, but why isn't he?
But I can't spell it out for you,
No, it's never gonna be that simple
But I can't spell it out for you
Why must he always make things so complicated! I love him, he loves me. Isn't that all that matters? All that should matter? I just want him to be with me, if only for one day. I need him to explain things. I need him to realize that I love him. To realize that it doesn't matter, whatever happens I'll always be by his side. Doesn't he know that?
If you just realize what I've just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.
"Hermione!" called Ron smiling. "Come on! Everyone's eating already."
I shook my head smiling to myself, some things just never change. Heading back to the castle I looked over my shoulder and saw him sitting along the shore of the lake, completely unaware of his surroundings. I felt a pang in my heart as I turned my head and continued my route to the Great Hall and the rest of the Weasleys.
Dun dun dun! What will happen now? Will she move on? Will he try and be with her? Nobody knows! Well I do, and you will soon. I promise, but for the meantime please continue leaving me those lovely reviews that make my heart feel all fuzzy. They inspire me to write another chapter and post it up faster. Much love LCF