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I turned, angrily, and made my way back to the Gryffindor common room, the only noise was the constant tapping of my heels on the stone floor.
I entered the Gryffindor common room and my eyes were drawn straight to the sofas surrounding the fire. Jessica sat there with her friends, who’s names I didn’t care to remember, sitting with Sirius and his friends.
My lack of anger control meant that I didn’t care that Sirius was there. I was actually quite glad Sirius hadn’t been in the dining room when I’d received my letter, although I knew he’d hear about it soon enough.
“You stupid bitch.” I shouted, advancing on Jessica.
“What?” She actually looked frightened, “What did I do?”
“What did you do? Don’t play the innocent with me you idiotic, small-minded whore.”
“How dare you...” She began.
“How dare I? How dare you! Are you so jealous that you just had to go to Malfoy and tattle on me? Are you that immature?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about?”
She was a terrible liar.
I laughed, “You went to Lucius Malfoy, knowing full well that it would cause problems for me, and told him that I was friends with Lily. Do you even understand what trouble you have caused?” I spat, “Not just for me either, but for Lily as well? Do you know what my brother or even Bellatrix would do to her? Do you?”
That seemed to strike a nerve with Potter, his eyes widened considerably and then he glared at Jessica.
“Its bad enough that you are causing problems for me, but Lily too? What has she ever done to you? What has she ever done to anyone? You are a insignificant, imbecilic, vacuous little girl who needs to learn when to keep her mouth shut. And probably her legs as well. I’m guessing he wouldn’t have even given you the time of day, whatever information you had, if you hadn’t have offered yourself up to him, Malfoy usually doesn’t speak to people who aren’t pureblood...”
“Leave her alone.” One of her friends finally piped up in her defence. I turned my glare on her, and she cowered slightly, sitting back and hunching her shoulders.
I turned my attention back to Jessica. “You are extremely fortunate that I was able to handle this problem, because if your little admission had hurt Lily in anyway, or damaged my already fragile relationship with my family, I would have caused you an immense amount of pain. And if you even contemplate going to Malfoy, or any of the other Slytherins I won’t think twice in hurting you. I may have been placed in Gryffindor, but I can be just as cruel as my brother if I need to be.”
She seemed to be flicking between 2 emotions. One was complete fear, and the other was annoyance that her little plot hadn’t worked. Fear seemed to be the dominant of the 2.
However, I seemed to be mistaken.
“How dare you threaten me!” She spat, standing up.
What the hell is wrong with her? Does she want me to curse her to high heaven?
Her eyes flickered to Sirius.
Oh, she’s trying to show Sirius that she can stick up to big-bad Isabella.
Sirius sat there, his eyes on me the entire time, taking no notice of Jessica’s dangerous cry for attention.
I laughed, “That’s real cute Jessica.” I said, “You’re trying to be brave for him, trying to show that you aren’t scared of me?”
“I think you should calm down Isabella.” Sirius’ friend Remus said calmly. “We understand why you’re angry, but perhaps its best that you...”
“Why don’t you just fuck off!” Jessica shouted hysterically, “No one wants you here. And now even your own family doesn’t want you!”
It was taking all my will power not to punch her in the face.
“Its better than people only wanting me for a quick fumble in a broom closet.”
Her hand quickly lifted and came flying towards my cheek. I stiffened, waiting for the painful slap that never came. I opened my eyes and saw Sirius standing beside Jessica, her tanned wrist held in his hand.
“Don’t. Touch. Her.”
He formed every word slowly, his eyes blazing angrily.
I felt a sudden ache in my chest.
Jessica’s eyes were wide. Everyone’s eyes were wide. All shocked that Sirius had stopped her from slapping me.
Sirius seemed to realise what he had done and let go of Jessica’s wrist, taking a step back and staring at his hand.
“Go on Jessica. Do it. Slap me. Give me a reason to snap, because, God, I really want to.”
“I’ll go to McGonagall.” She stuttered.
“Do you think I care? I might be forced to leave anyway, what will I have to lose then?” I smirked, “You better hope it doesn’t go that far.”
She narrowed her eyes one last time and then turned, flicking her hair, in what she thought a threatening manner, and stomped towards the dormitory stairs. Her friends followed after her, scuttling like little rats.
My eyes flickered back to Sirius. He opened his mouth to say something when someone came running into the common room, “Isabella, Merlin, are you ok? I can’t believe that! A Howler?! Its bloody ridiculous.”
She reached me and saw the look on my face, “What’s wrong?” She turned to Sirius, “What the hell have you done? If you’ve upset her...”
“Why do you care?” Sirius snapped, “You don’t even know her!”
Lily narrowed her eyes, but said calmly; “Isabella is my friend. So I care.”
“It wasn’t him anyway.” James said. “He actually helped her.”
I scoffed, “I had it all under control.”
“She was going to slap you.” Remus said.
“You think I haven’t been slapped before?” I said, raising an eyebrow, “I went to Beauxbatons for Merlins sake.”
“Who was going to slap you?” Lily asked.
“She told Malfoy I was friends with you.”
Her eyes widened, “Is he going to tell your brother?”
“Really?” She asked.
“I made a deal.”
“A deal? What kind of deal?”
“I agreed to go with him to the Halloween Ball.”
“What?!” This came from both Lily, and Sirius.
“Its really not that big a deal.” I lied cooly, “I probably won’t even have to spend too much time with him anyway. But if it appeases him...”
“And what if he expects more?” Sirius demanded, “What then? Are you just going to go along with it?”
He sounded angry. It worried me that I found it quite... alluring.
“I’d rather not.” I replied steadily, “But I won’t allow my problems to hurt Lily.”
“That’s awfully noble, but I can protect myself.” Lily said.
“I wouldn’t pit even my worst enemy against my brother Lily. Honestly, this is really the only...”
“How can you talk about this so... unemotionally? Are you that cold that it doesn’t matter at all? Don’t you have any dignity?”
I’ll admit it, his words stung. Possibly because they were true.
He stood there, looking me directly in the eye, his fists clenched and his mouth set in a thin line.
“I know how far Lucius will go, and I know he won’t go as far as to... proposition me in any inappropriate manner. Then he would have to face my fathers wrath.” I said, trying to keep a check on my own anger.
“I marry better pure.” The disgust in my voice was evident. “Not that this is any of your business anyhow. You hate me, remember?”
“For Merlins sake, its like we’re on a repeat. We’ve had this conversation before Sirius, a couple of times actually. And I’m sick of hearing you’re opinions on my choices. They have nothing to do with you. I do what is right for me. What will protect me, and those I care about. So, I’m very sorry if my choices offend you in anyway. Don’t pretend you understand what I’m going through... and don’t you dare judge me.”
I stopped, allowing my cutting words to sink in, holding my breath.
It felt like I was drowning in my emotions, and surrounded by an uncomfortable thicket of silence.
I took a deep breath, and shut my eyes.
“I’m tired Sirius. Too tired to fight you, as well as everyone else.” I admitted, my voice still stony. “Just... stay away from me. And I’ll stay away from you.”
“Fine.” he replied shortly. “If thats what you want.”
Was it what I wanted?
If I was being honest with myself, I’d say no. I didn’t want him away from me. I wanted him to fight for me. I wanted him to want to be my friend. I wanted him...
But I was not being honest. I was too angry for honest. I was too tired for honest. I was happy living with the lie. For now.