Chapter 7 : Wizard no More?
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Wizard No More?
No one had seen Harry since ‘the incident’ as it was now termed around the manor. Not even the house elves could say they had seen any sign of him. The worst moment was when everyone saw Bluebelle, Ginny’s phoenix, appear in a burst of flames and fly around the house for nearly and hour before landing on a perch in the living room as if waiting for someone. No one knew what to say as everyone knew who the phoenix was waiting for.
The worst of the situation was that there was still no answer as to what happened to Harry and they were no closer to any than they had been before. No one doubted the strain this caused Harry as none could even imagine how difficult it would be to suddenly never be able to do magic again. What made everyone feel uncomfortable about it was that no one knew what to do to console him in any way. It was as if Harry had come to the one problem in life that no one had any answers for.
In the end no one approached Harry at all no matter how much they wanted to comfort and help him. They all feared hurting him and in his state they all assumed it would take even less than normal to upset him. The only thing they knew for certain was that this current situation seemed to be one of the hardest things Harry had dealt with.
“Not even floo powder.” Harry said with disappointment flooding over him. He had been trying to find something, anything, from the wizarding world that would work for him. The only thing he discovered was that any magical clothing still worked. He knew he should feel happy that it was something but to think that the only benefits he saw from the magical world was he could be better protected from spells and use an invisibility cloak didn’t set well with him.
There were many things he’d marked off the list available useful items. His broom no longer responded to him, wands were the first thing to be ruled out, and even Hedwig seemed distant. He was unable to use portkeys, any form of apparition, or floo powder to travel. The worst part of it was he couldn’t even send a letter to Ginny because Hedwig wouldn’t let him close and Blueblaze wouldn’t come anywhere near him.
He began to feel like he no longer had a place in the wizarding world. He couldn’t protect anyone from a serious attack because at best he’d need to be within a few feet of his enemy to do anything, and he’d never stand a chance at fighting more than one wizard. Harry had accepted the hard facts of his return. To the wizarding world he was useless.
Harry sat at his bed that night trying to decide what he would do since things seemed to take a turn for the worst. He knew he could live as a muggle if that were to be the way of things but he didn’t know if he could live as a muggle around other wizards. He began to see what he needed to do and decided to start on his plan before everyone woke up. He did the only thing he could.
Dobby appeared instantly with a pop! “Yes Master Potter?”
“I need you to do something very important for me. You’re the only one I can trust with this. Will you help me?”
“Of course I is helping you sir. What is you having me doing?”
“Master Remus sir, something terrible has happened.” Tinky said as he woke both Remus and Tonks. “Master Potter is being gone sir.”
“He’ll be all right Tinky. He’s probably just taking a walk.”
“No Master Remus, he is being gone!” Tinky said. “He is leaving in the night and is taking his motorcycle and Dobby is going too.”
“What do you mean Dobby went?” Tonks asked.
Tinky just shook his head. “He is saying he is not caring if it is making him bad elf, Miss, he is following Master Potter where ever he is going even when Master Potter is saying Dobby is not being happy where Master Potter must go.”
“Where did he go Tinky?” Remus asked with a nervous look on his face.
“I is not knowing sir. I is only knowing that the elfs is saying they is not sure what they is to be doing. Not one is sure if they is being following Master Potter or if they is staying here sir.”
Remus sighed. “I don’t know what to tell you about that Tinky. I don’t even know if Harry was only planning on leaving for a short time. I think that is what we have to find out first.”
“Sir, I is not thinking he is being coming back sir. He is taking his clothes and swords sir.”
Remus felt his heart break with that news. “Then we have to figure out why he left and try to bring him back.”
“I’ll get the kids together.” Tonks said. “Maybe they can help us.”
“I hope so because I don’t think I can handle loosing him again.”
Ginny had just finished with her day of classes and went to Gryffindor tower. She went to her room to get out of her robes and saw a very familiar house elf sitting on her bed.
“Hello Dobby. How are you today?”
“I is being good Miss. Is you being well?”
“I’m doing very well today thanks. How can I help you today?”
“Master Potter is asking me to being delivering you a letter. Master Potter’s owl and phoenix is not being listening to him now that he is being not able to being using magic.”
“What do you mean Dobby?”
“I is not knowing Miss. I is only knowing what is not working Miss. Here is being your letter.”
“Thank you Dobby.”
“You is welcome Miss. I is being going now. Dobby is being very worried about Master Potter.”
“Wait! Why hasn’t Harry answered any of my letters?”
“No owls or phoenixes is being going near Master Potter. He is not being able to be getting mail Miss.”
“Then how can I send him a letter?”
“If you is calling me I is coming if I is coming right away Miss.”
“Thank you Dobby.”
“You is welcome Miss. Goodbye Miss Wheezy.”
Ginny smiled as Dobby disappeared. She tossed her robes on her bed and changed before opening Harry’s letter. As soon as she did she wished she understood what Harry was talking about.
I’m sorry for not answering your letter but I have no idea what it says. I haven’t had a chance to read it. I do hope you’re well love.
I have to tell you something that is very serious at this moment in time. I have found that I can no longer use magic. I can’t even get Hedwig or Blueblaze to take a letter for me anymore. Because of this I’ve come to the decision that the only place for me is in the muggle world.
I love you and I hope you feel the same for me but for right now I have to get used to the possibility that I’ll never be able to use magic again. I have to be able to accept who I am, and I can’t be a lot of things I used to think were my destiny.
I can, however, love you whether I am a muggle or wizard. That is one thing that can never change. That’s why I’m telling you everything now. I may never be a wizard again, and I can live without having to use magic. I don’t want to go on living without you. I would very much love to marry you one day.
I know you have a way of understanding things, but please forgive me if I don’t write to you again for a while. It’s not easy on me to no longer have magic in my life. I have to figure out what I’m going to do and where I truly belong now. I promise that I will keep in touch with you Ginny.
I have to go now. It’s time for me to go. I do hope you understand why I’m doing this. I’ll send you word as soon as I have a chance. I love you Ginny. Goodbye for now.
Ginny found this letter happy and confusing. She didn’t understand how Harry could no longer be a wizard anymore. She was always told you were born a wizard and that didn’t change for anything. All she really know was that the letter made her more happy than ever before because now she knew that Harry wanted to marry her eventually. She didn’t care whether Harry was a wizard or a muggle. All she cared about was that he was Harry, the person she’d been in love with as far back as she could remember. She couldn’t care less about anything else as long as it was him.
“Where would he go?” Ron asked.
“He would go where he felt normal.” Hermione said.
“Why can’t he just do that here?” Ron said with a confused look.
“Harry didn’t feel normal here anymore.” Jen said. “You can’t really blame him there. I mean, he went from being a strong wizard to a squib. That can’t be an easy thing for a person to deal with.”
“I feel sorry for him. He had to overcome only he knows what to come back to help us and stay with us only to find out he can’t help in any way he’s used to and left to feel like he’s an outcast from us because he isn’t a wizard now.” Kei said.
“But that’s not true. None of us care if he can’t use magic anymore.” Ron said.
“But does he?” Rena said. “For all we know he might hate that he can’t use magic anymore. He might even be jealous of us for being able to now that he can’t. I don’t think he would be jealous but it is a possibility.”
“It seems more likely that he finds it harder to accept that he can’t use magic when he’s surrounded by so many who can.” Kei said.
“You’re right. That does make a lot more sense than jealousy.” Rena said.
“Where is he is all I want to know.” Ron said. “I just want to make sure he’s all right. He wasn’t doing too well last time we saw him.”
“I have a feeling that he’s doing just fine where ever he is.” Kei said. “Just because he couldn’t use magic doesn’t mean he’s wholly without defense.”
“I just hope he sends us news soon.” Hermione said.
“He’ll tell us what’s going on as soon as he gets a handle on them himself.” Jen said. “We just have to give him some time.”
Harry had finally moved the last of the things he bought into his new house. He was grateful that the elves allowed dobby to gain access to the vault that used to belong to Harry. He reasoned that it was his money even though it was currently in Remus’ name. Setting down the chair he’d just moved in he closed the door and fell into it and sighed comfortably.
“We’re finally finished Dobby.”
“Yes Master Potter. You is now being having you new home sir. Is you being happy now sir?”
Harry smiled. “Dobby, I didn’t leave because I was unhappy, I left because I have to be able to accept myself as I am. I can’t do that around everyone right now.”
“What is you meaning Master Potter?”
“I’m not a wizard anymore. At best I’m a squib. But I can’t much understand the difference between a squib and a muggle. I think I’m a muggle now and that’s okay. I can handle that really. It’s just a bit hard to be around everyone right now.”
“I is staying by you side Master Potter. If Harry Potter sir is a muggle than I is acting as muggle as I is able.”
Harry laughed. “Don’t do that to yourself Dobby. Just be who you are and everything will be fine.”
“Yes sir. I is making you now sir. I is bringing it right away.”
“Thank you Dobby. I don’t know what I’d do without you.”
Dobby could only beam with pride and disappear with a pop!
Remus was pacing in the living room as had been his manner since a few days after Harry’s disappearance. Tonks grew more worried about Remus by the day and also found herself wondering if it was because Harry left or because he left without saying anything. One thing was clear in her mind however, whatever reason Harry had left two weeks before it must have been serious.
Despite that Harry had been gone as long as he had no one truly worried for his safety. No one had even reported seeing Harry which led them to believe he was where no wizard would find him. This only caused everyone to turn to Hermione for help as she knew the muggle world best.
What everyone who was in the house when Harry disappeared worried about was what exactly was going to happen when everyone else who cared about Harry found out he was gone. The two who were now facing the most troubling time were Rena and Ron who were informing the Weasley women.
“Mum, do you have a minute?” Ron asked nervously.
“Of course dear, what do you need?”
“Well, I don’t really know how to tell you this. You see something happened with Harry that we can’t figure out. Not even Dumbledore had any idea what to do about it. We can’t even figure out what happened.”
Mrs. Weasley looked panicked. “What is it Ronald?”
“Harry can’t use magic anymore.”Ron looked down.
“Oh that poor boy! I’ll go see him straight away.”
“That’s the real reason I’m here Mum. When Harry found out he couldn’t use magic he left. Remus said he took quite a large amount from his vault, or at least Dobby took it with orders from Remus according to the goblins. Remus agreed with them but he knew that Dobby was doing what Harry asked. The real problem is that we have no idea where he went.”
Mrs. Weasley fell into the chair closest to her. “So he’s gone again? We only just got him back.”
“He’s not gone Mum. He just couldn’t handle it, being surrounded by wizards and witches and not feeling like one of them. He’ll come back. I know he will. If it was that easy to keep him away forever he’d never have bothered to come back at all.” Then Ron hugged Mrs. Weasley as tightly as he could. “I promise you Mum. He’ll come back.”
Ron knew this was going to be very hard on his Mum and knew exactly what he had to do. He stayed there hugging his Mum and letting her cry for as long as she needed to.
Rena and Kei walked into the Great Hall and saw Ginny, Brianna, and Kei’s brothers sitting at Gryffindor table talking amongst each other and sighed. “This isn’t going to be easy is it?”
“I have a feeling it won’t be. But if anyone can understand this it’s Ginny.”
“Yeah, I guess. Think you could get Brianna, Ryo, and Takeshi away from her while I tell her?”
“Of course. I have to tell them too after all.”
They walked to the table and Rena sat down. “So Gin, what have you been up to?”
“Waiting to see him again.”
Kei looked to his brothers. “How would you two like to come with me and Brianna for a few minutes? I need to check up on your skills while I’m here.” They both nodded quickly and stood up as Kei looked at Brianna. “Would you be willing to help me a bit?”
“Sure, I get bored around this time anyway. See you later Ginny.”
When they left Rena turned to Ginny. “I wish they picked Jen for this. She’s more tactful than I am so I’m just going to say it.” Then she leaned closer to Ginny. “Harry’s gone.” She whispered.
Ginny had a curious look. “So how is he?”
Rena looked confused. “We don’t know anything except that he’s not dead. He left a few weeks ago and didn’t even tell anyone.”
Ginny smiled. “So he didn’t tell any of you that he was leaving?”
“He didn’t say a word about it to anyone.”
“No, he didn’t say a word to anyone. He did, however, send a letter to someone.” Ginny smiled again.
“You knew he was gone?” Rena looked shocked. “Why didn’t you tell anyone?”
“I assumed you’d all knew. I didn’t think I’d be the only one he told.”
“Oh my god! How did Jen miss that one?”
“I guess she never expected him to leave. Is there any way to know if he’s all right? I haven’t heard anything from him in weeks.”
“We have no reason to suspect that he’s dead. He’s only got to worry if he’s in the wizarding world and we know he isn’t or someone would have seen him. We know he’s somewhere in the muggle world we just don’t know where.”
“How would he hide Dobby in the muggle world though? It seems like it would be impossible.”
Rena grinned. “Yeah, I agree. But this isn’t any normal person. This is Harry. He can do anything if he sets his mind to it.”
“Anything but magic now.” Ginny shook her head. “He’s a bit thick running off like that with such a stupid reason. It’s almost like he thinks our feelings will change now that he can’t use a wand.”
“He can’t use anything according to what Remus found in his room but we can talk about that later. I’ve already talked too much around too many people. We’ll talk more this weekend. I’ll take you someplace very interesting.”
Ginny smiled. “Okay Rena. I’ll see you then.”
“So he left?” Ryo asked.
“Yeah, and we don’t know how to find him.” Kei said.
“Harry will be fine Kei. I won’t even pretend that situation is easy. Wouldn’t you need some time if your entire world was just turned upside down and a part of you was erased?” Brianna said.
Kei sighed. “You’re right. I’m just worried that he won’t take it well.”
“Of course you’re worried about him. He’s one of your best friends. What you have to remember is that he is a very capable person even without magic. Magic didn’t make him able to figure out how to calm his mind or make his body stronger. He’ll find another path to take and be fine.” Brianna said before she shook her head. “You’d swear that being a muggle was the end of the world the way you act about him leaving.”
“He wasn’t happy when he left. I just worry he might be more reckless than he used to be.”
Brianna laughed. “He will always be reckless to a Slytherin perspective. You’ve just got to remember that Gryffindors think of that as bravery.”
Kei laughed. “You make a good point. I just wish he’d exercise a bit of cowardice sometimes.”
“He’ll never be able to.” Ryo said.
“Harry is too much like you, and Father.” Takeshi said.
“You’re right.” Kei said. “But that still doesn’t stop me from hoping it.”
A/N: Sorry for the wait everyone. I didn't mean to take this long to write the chapter. I hope you all enjoy it. Please review.
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