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I slipped into the room. It was still dark inside and out. The darkness covered my body as my feet silently crossed the floor.
I made my way over to one of the two beds in the room. A bed that I was way familiar with. One I found myself in on most nights.
I sat on the edge of the bed gently, the mattress sinking with the weight of my body.
I stared at the blonde angel that lay in front of me.
He looked perfect. There is no other word that fits the description. His blond locks falling gently into his face. His face looked like the face of an angel. I could see every curve of his body, every line and even the scars from the constant abuse he suffered.
As he slept he was free. He was free from his burdens and life itself. He was free from he mask. The one he took off for no one but his dearest.
As he slept he looked at peace; his chest moving up and down to the gently hypnotizing sound of his breathing.
No one could hurt him. He was safe. In his dreams he could escape his past, start all over.
No one left to judge him, no one to offer pity.
Incredible, I thought. A miracle was what he was.
All his life growing up in a cold unfriendly environment, feeling no love should have made his heart grow cold, yet it remains as warm as ever.
The passion lies there untouched.
Being taught a way of life and getting the ideas beaten mercilessly into your body, mind, and soul one at a time.
His life, the way it was before, was torturous because of one man. Yet, my angel found a way to rise above it all and join the boy who caused all his heartache and misery. With that he escaped the clutches of his life.
A sweet boy, no a sweet man, rising from the ashes to become everything he didnít know. Breaking away from the path set out for him, and walking into unfamiliar territory.
I can't begin to fathom how hard it would be. To leave everything you know, a life in which you could have all the material goods, for a life in which even your future is not even certain.
The truth is material goods can not satisfy every need the human mind wants. You may have everything this world has to offer physically, but mentally you have spaces, empty voids that can only be filled by nonmaterial things.
Just like a phoenix being born from his ashes, he found a new life.
Destroying everything around him, only to rise to be one of the greatest men I have been blessed to know.
To make a life and find a new road, to take the path less traveled on, yet the one that made him, him, was the greatest thing that could have happened.
He was in the deepest yet managed to come out. Others saw him as their hero, yet I know he doesnít want to believe it.
Many people found the strength to resist Voldemort's power, only because they knew he could do it.
Many follow his example and look up to him. His modesty is one of the reasons I am so attracted to him.
He, himself, didnít and still doesnít, feel the honor is his. Though he doesnít deny what he has done, he doesnít understand the gravity of the situation he was in and what he made out of it.
He felt he was not good, but all he did was what he felt was right.
As he slept, I felt I had no right to be near him. I never liked him in the first place, and still tended to doubt him
He was an amazing person, yet my judgment led me to believe he did not deserve a chance.
Without the bet I wouldnít have give him a chance at all. I wouldnít have known him and would have never grown as a person.
The way he has entered and changed my life is something no one has managed to accomplish up till now.
For what started out as a game, has turned into something so enormous it has escaped my grasp.
I have a really bad feeling that it will all blow up in my face. All I could do now was to trust my feelings for Draco and see where they would take me.
I wanted to reach out and finger the blond locks that graced his face; not too long, but not too short. Yet, at the same time, I wanted to keep him in his state of peace and was afraid that touching him would cause him to be disturbed.
I lay down next to him slowly. He was quite a light sleeper. I wasnít surprised though. After all those years of having to watch for himself to make sure nothing happened, man I was just happy he wasnít being haunted by the nightmares.
I snuggled up next to him and laid my head on his chest. I felt him tense underneath me with worry on who the intruder was.
I kept snuggling into him relishing from the warmth his body gave off. His chest was bare.
I chuckled remembering how he told me he couldnít sleep without his shirt off. I remember laughing at him and then getting a pillow thrown in my face.
After feeling how the intruder melted with his body, he relaxed. I guess even his subconscious knew me.
He wrapped an arm around me drawing me closer.
I leaned up not be able to reach his lips since he was so much taller than me, and settled for placing a soft, barely even, kiss on his jaw.
I had all intention of waking him up to spend time with him before everyone would want to as well.
The only thing that happened next was that my plan failed.
I fell asleep.
I woke up to a hand running through my hair. The feeling was nice. The hand was gently massaging my scalp making me let out purr in delight.
I heard a chuckle from underneath me. I opened my eyes and let them adjust, while finding myself looking into Draco's face.
Somehow while sleeping I had found my way on top of him, our legs entangled together under the sheets of the bed.
One of his hands was running through my head and the other was gently sliding up and down my back, making me purr in satisfaction.
I smiled at him.
"Good morning beautiful."
"Hey, same to you pretty boy."
He put on his best puppy dog face. "It's my birthday today. That means you have to be nice to me."
"OH!! It's today?" I said pretending I had no idea.
He glared at me.
"I am kidding. I mean how could I forget your favorite day. The one day you can be the cockiest bastard and get away with it."
He glared at me this time adding a growl to it for effects. I could tell he was getting worked up and despite that I was getting turned on.
I loved it when Draco took charge and tried to show dominance.
"Can I make it all better?" I asked, conjuring up my most seductive voice.
He glanced at me suspiciously, yet smirking at the same time. "How?"
I didnít even bother to respond. I simply pushed my lips against his. He stubbornly refused to respond, pissing me off, with made me growl in response.
Before I knew it he had flipped us over so that I was on the bottom and he was on top. He had hunger in his eyes and looked as if he were going to ravish me.
Our noses were touching and his hands were firmly planted next to my shoulders trapping me under his body, but at the same time keeping his body weight off of me.
"Now who is in charge?" he snarled at me.
He appeared confused, but that didnít make him falter while speaking. "I clearly donít remember you falling asleep with me last night, so you must have found your way inside my bed all by yourself, which proves you want me."
He pretended to ponder even more for a minute.
"And I donít see you on top of me. The way I see it you can't move until I let you."
"Thatís called holding me hostage you idiot, not being in charge. And no offense but I donít seem to be complaining too much about the position I am in. And I never denied wanting you."
He smirked. "Then I am sure you won't mind this at all."
He looked at me carefully, studying my features. I felt a blush make its way onto my face.
"You gong to snog me, or just look at me all day?"
"Sorry, I was just admiring you." He said, his voice softening from the charade we had been playing.
"You know you are beautiful Joanna," he said lifting a hand to caress my cheek. I leaned into his touch relishing from the joy the simple gesture gave me.
"Thank you Draco, but I donít deserve it." He looked at me sadly.
"You are the prettiest, smartest, most perfect person I have ever laid eyes on."
I blushed again, touched by how much his words alone impacted me.
"Alright fine, today it's your birthday today and I get to make you happy for once."
"You always do. You donít have to do anything special."
"I know, but I want to. Now, if you donít shut up and snog me, something I might add will make both of us happy, I have a feeling you won't live to see the rest of your birthday."
"Sounds fair to me."
I scoffed, but didnít get to say anything more as his lips were pressed against mine, making all thoughts fly right out of my mind.
The kiss turned hard quick. Both of our tongues in a battle of dominance. Of course I let him win; it was his birthday after all.
I knew if I didnít pull away soon, it might be too late. I felt his hand inching up the bottom of my shirt.
I pulled away, trying to make it obvious I was scared.
"That was nice," I said. He smirked at me. I could tell he knew that something was wrong, but didnít push it.
"Now, I said," struggling to sit up while he was still on top of me, "Go shower. I am sure everyone is just dying to see you today."
"But what if I want to stay here," he said pouting and then completely falling on top of me, not even bothering to keep his weight off of me.
"Well, then I am sure we could work something out for later," I said running my fingers through his hair. "But for now, go shower. I will be out here when you are done. Then we will have a normal day, with the exception that it is your birthday, and then later on, most likely at night, me and you can have some fun." I said smirking.
"Fine by me!" he said jumping up and rushing into the bathroom with the idea of the 'fun' we would be having later on in his mind. And surprisingly enough, my mind too.
The day was going be slow. At least for me. What did I mean when I said fun? The whole prospect of it was telling me I meant sex.
I am sure Draco thinks I am not a virgin. After all I am the Slytherin Princess. Clichť and corny I know, but all the same. Most people think that I have bedded all the guys in Slytherin except Draco and I am just making my way around to the other ones.
I have never had sex with anyone. I promised myself I wouldnít until I was sure. But when do you know if you are ready.
My mother was a virgin until she got married, no matter how many times my dad asked her.
She always told me that if I boy really loved you he would wait.
He would wait forever if he had too, and thatís what happened between her and my dad.
It was cute. Even romantic, but everyone around me was shagging.
Ron and Hermione had. That I knew for sure. Before the Final Battle. That was when most people shagged.
Scared of the idea that they would never see each other again, they gave up themselves, showing their love to each other in the greatest way possible.
Hermione told me later, that that was why she did it. Sacred and frightened that she and Ron would never see each other again, she told him.
One thing led to another, and she never regretted it. It was one of the best moments of her life, though in under any circumstance, it wouldnít have happened.
She told me that there was only her and him. No outside world, people, or thoughts. The second it was time to decide she was ready. There was nothing more she wanted.
As for Ginny, Harry was her first. I think deep down she knew that someday she would have to say goodbye to him, for a while. Not sure at that point the outcome of the war.
She took the moment and ran. She ran and flew, letting herself fall headfirst into the ecstasy that lay below.
Sure, even she said she had been planning to wait. But unlike Hermione, she would wait for the right person.
Hermione needed to hear that she was loved and when Ron shared her feelings with her she was his from that moment on. Ginny didnít need proof, she would trust the boy that held her heart and would walk beside him head held high whether he knew or not.
Ginny told me that when she and Harry had sex, it wasnít planned, and she did not hear an 'I love you' until much later.
She also said that she knew he loved her and she had no doubts. I guess she was right.
Draco was one with experience. That was something I knew. He had been with many girls throwing them around and leading them on until he got bored and threw them away.
I wasnít worried about Draco leaving me, I knew he wouldnít I just wanted to make sure I was ready.
WhateverÖ it didnít really matter right now, I mean it did, but I was bored. Everyone wanted Draco's attention and kept him busy.
Busy away from me. Everyone treated him as a prince. Sure he was handsome enough, but I wanted time with him too.
I knew this was going to happen, but it didnít have to hurt so much.
I was sitting off to the side completely forgotten. I was just sitting under a tree by myself thinking and reading at the same time.
Draco was taken away from me the minute we entered the Great Hall. He went to sit with his guy friends and so I respected it and just went away and sat next to Ginny. She gave me a smile, understanding me completely.
It continued like that. I would walk next to him and then all of a sudden someone would push me out of the way and start wishing him a happy birthday and wanting to spend time with him.
He was in the spot light and I held no resentment. I wish I would have taken up his offer of staying in bed all day.
He was no where to be found as he traveled from person to person. I had been abandoned, but honestly I donít think I could walk with him, just to walk behind. Or try to talk to him, just to be overshadowed by someone else's loud voice.
I wasnít going to complain. It was his special day, and if he wanted to spend it this way, who was I to say anything at all.
I really wished he was here with me. Dinner was in progress and the sun was setting. It was beautiful. The days were getting longer, but they still werenít the summer nights.
It wasnít cold, but a gentle breeze passed through the area every once in a while.
I wanted to share this with Draco. Just me and him, sitting here and enjoying each other's company.
I didnít know what he had gotten from people, but I didnít care. I guess I did a little. I wanted to make sure my present to him was better.
I just felt neglected a little bit. It wasnít a big deal, but I wanted to share his special day with him. He turned of age today too.
I had my birthday already. August 14th. Just before I came to school. So technically I was a couple of months older than him.
But that didnít really matter.
So I sat here, bored and totally and completelyÖ more bored.
"Hey what are you up to?" a voice said from behind me.
"Oh nothing, just thinking," I said smiling up at Blaise.
"Why, shouldnít you be with Draco? After all it is his special day."
"Well I could ask you the same thing, after all," I said using the same tone he used with me, "you are his best friend."
"Yes, but I was with him, until he discovered a not so long time ago that his girlfriend wasnít around him anymore. And now he worried."
"Is he looking for me?"
"No, he asked me to."
"Then what difference does it make. Just tell him I am fine, that you saw me, and I will come to him in a while." I said with a sigh.
"Joanna, you are my little sister. I have known you for my whole life. If you donít tell me what the hell is going on right now I will think assume was Draco's fault and go and kill him now whether it is his birthday or not."
"Nothing is wrong honestly. I'm just a little miffed. I wanted to spend today with Draco and everywhere I go with him, I get pushed out of the way. Every time I try to talk to him someone else interrupts. It's bloody frustrating." I groaned.
"Aw, donít worry about that. Everyone just wants to be around him, but if you ask him he only wants to spend his birthday with those who really care. He told me the other day that after everyone was done hounding him during the day. He wanted to hang out with his friends. Mainly me, you, Harry, Ron, Anna, Hermione, and Ginny. He said wanted to spend time with his friends before he spent time with just you."
I looked at Blaise, thanks in his eyes.
"Just so you know, his exact words were, 'I want to hang out with you lot, before me and Joanna have some of our own.' I remember laughing at him."
I gave him a hug, "What would I do with out you."
"Nothing, and just so you know this as well, he said that he was looking forward to spending time with you the most. You and just you alone, besides me of course."
I laughed at him and hit him on the arm playfully.
"Can we go in then?" he said.
"Ya, I guess."
I got up and he held out a hand to help me up. He pulled me close and gave me a hug. He kissed the top of my head and whispered, "Joanna, whatever has been bugging you for the last couple of weeks, let it go, live life in the present, donít worry about the future. Be happy, and donít worry."
"No worries Princess, now if you donít mind," he said pulling away, "I think I might have to take you back to Draco, before he kills me."
"Sounds good to me, after all I'm in for some fun tonight." I said with a smirk.
"Joanna, just promise me you won't do anything you arenít ready for."
"I promise you Blaise. When have you ever known me to do something I wasnít ready for?"
"I know that you donít, but Joanna you also never fall for someone this hard." He said looking at me knowingly.
I blushed. "I never said it was a bad thing Princess, but you take your time and make the decisions best for you and no one but you. I trust Draco, but with you, I donít he likes you too much to stop. But I know that if you ask him to stop, he will. He would wait if he had to."
"Blaise what ifÖ"
I tucked my head down not meeting his eyes. "Draco has experience, right?"
"Sex." I said barely making a sound.
"Are you asking me if he has ever had sex before?"
"Can't you answer that question for yourself? Do you really need to ask me?"
"I guess not, I know he has. He told me so."
"So then what are you worried about?"
"What if I donít do it right and I'm bad?"
He laughed. "Not funny."
"Sorry, it's just thatÖ you do realize that you donít really have to do anything?"
I blushed. "I'm sorry Blaise, I know that you probably donít want to be talking to me about this, but I donít know who else you talk to."
"What about one of your girlfriends?" he said uneasily.
"UmÖ they donít help. They have had sex before."
"So have I."
"I know, but better you then anyone else. I mean can you honestly imagine me talking to Ron about this."
We both paused, and then ended up laughing. When I finally stopped I had to catch my breath. I saw Blaise doing the same.
"But seriously, Joanna, you shouldnít worry. If all the guy cares about is sex then they arenít worth it. You will be fine. It hurts like hell the first time, so I am told. Plus I was Anna's first so I can see the pain, but it goes away and then there is a feeling like no other."
I looked at him, knowing I was glad that I asked him.
"Joanna, as long as you are ready and sure about it donít worry. If you are with the right person and itís the right time you will be fine. I know about what happened between your parents, and while any girl would swoon over how romantic it was, it may not be the right choice for you."
I was glad he said it and not me. I knew that if someone else agreed with the fact that it was okay for me not to do what my mom did and wait; I would be fine.
"And I trust Draco with you. Think about it. In that minute where you decide if you want fate to take you on that path then enter on it head held high. Just know there is no turning back and there are consequences. Whether they are good or bad it will only be told with time."
He stopped to think, before continuing.
"If you can see yourself in a couple of years, being with someone other than Draco worshipping you and caring and pleasing you more then donít do it. If you are sure that Draco is the right one to claim a gift like that then give it to him. It is yours to have and give and someone else's to take when you give and claim it for the rest of your life. The person you first make love to will stay with you for the rest of your life, no matter who you grow up to love or marry."
I looked at him in astonishment.
I never saw Blaise like this before. So serious and passionate about something. I think he was proud that he was Anna's first. If I knew him then I knew that he intended to make himself her last as well.
"Thanks Blaise, I love you."
"Donít let Anna or Draco hear you saying that." He said with a smile, drawing me closer for a hug.
"I did not mean it like that you git." I said pulling away from him.
"I know," he said giving me one last hug. "I love you too.
"I didnít want to bring this up before, but what do you think of Anna?"
"Answer my question first."
"Fine, she is a sweet girl, kind, funny, caring, but also can be serious. She is a loyal friend. She makes you happy. More happy then I have seen you in a long time, and she loves you."
"Good," he said sounding relieved.
"So now you have to tell meÖ why?"
"I was going to send an owl to her parents first. I mean they know me from previous years. I have met them at Draco's. They seemed to like me."
"You donít have to be nervous, just tell me." I said whispering soothingly.
"I wanted to ask you what you would think if I asked her to marry me after graduation."
"I would be sad if you didnít."
"Really?" he said his face lighting up.
"Ya Blaise, me and you grew up together. Your mum and my mum are best friends. Despite the number of brothers I have they are all older and younger. I love them with all my heart, but you are my favorite, whether you really are my brother or not."
I paused trying to force the tears back.
"My brothers think of you as another sibling. The older ones love you and the younger look up to you. This is the only year that there isn't more than one Sherwood in Hogwarts. My parents adore you. Love you even. You are part of my family. A family that Anna will be a part of soon; she loves you. She makes you happy. Thatís all I could ask for as a sister."
"Thanks, Joanna. That means more to me than you know."
"No thanks are in order. You look out for me I look out for you. Neither expect anything in return except for love and the promise that no matter who comes into our lives, we will always be there for each other."
"Isn't that what all of your brothers' say when they get married?" he said chuckling, also trying to push back the tears.
"Ya, but it isnít said only then. Thatís the rule my family goes by. The rule our family goes by."
"So you approve then?"
"YES! Of course! And I know her parents will give you their permission. My mum and yours will be more than happy. And our brothers will be excited to tease you about another girl of yours. It will be awesome."
He was excited by my reaction and was glad that I was happy.
"I knew that it was going to happen. So did my and your mums."
"How in bloody hell did they know?"
"I sent them pictures of all of us a couple weeks ago."
"Are you mad?"
"No, just surprisedÖ but Joanna, you can't tell anyone this alright?"
"Ya. I promise."
"I'll tell Draco once I get permission."
"Did you already send the letter?"
"No, now that I know your family and my mum approve I will."
"Good. Let me know when you get the answer."
"Thanks for everything Blaise." He knew what I meant.
"Just doing my job. Now let's get going, before Draco kills me."
"Alright," I said following him back through the doors of the castle.
I walked into the Great Hall behind Blaise. He walked over to the Slytherin table and I stopped. I saw Draco laughing at a joke someone told him. I really didnít want to interrupt.
Blaise saw me stop and I indicated that I was going to the Gryffindor table. He shook his head but nodded.
I walked over and took a seat next to Ginny.
"Hey girl," she said looking over at me.
"Where were you?"
"Why werenít you with birthday boy over there?"
"I thought he needed some time with his boys."
"I seeÖ taking the cool girlfriend approach."
I laughed. "No, but I want to make his day special for him."
"By what, not spending time with him."
"How do you know about that?"
"Hun, I havenít seen you with him all day. And when you are, you are always pushed away by someone else."
"Oh. I donít really worry though."
"Because me and him have the whole night to spend time together. These guys get him for half the day."
"Ya, not the whole night though. You are hanging out with all of us right?"
"Ya, thatís what Draco wanted so ya."
She paused, "What do you mean by all night?"
I just blushed.
"No way." she said.
I nodded. "I'm not sure, but I was talking to Blaise, and he helped so maybe."
"Ok, just make sure it's what you want."
"Why does everyone keep saying that to me?"
"Because it's your first time."
"So, you all had yours and you are fine."
"Ya, only because we were sure about it."
"Thanks. SoÖ does Draco know you are a virgin?"
She laughed. "I wouldnít want to miss the expression on his face when he finds out."
"Too bad, I donít want you there when it happens."
"Oh come on, I would love for you to watch me shag someone, why donít you return the favor?" she said fake pleading.
"Funny Gin, very funny."
I looked over at the Slytherin Table to see some guy named Jake moving over to make room for Blaise to sit next to Draco.
Draco glanced and Blaise and asked him a question I knew had something to do with me. Blaise nodded and looked pointed at me. I turned away, looking at them through the corners of my eyes.
I saw Draco give Blaise a confused look and he just shrugged. Draco went to get up and come over but Blaise put a hand on his shoulder, whispered something in his ear and Draco sat down.
I was lost now again. What did Blaise say? I had a feeling I was never going to find out.
Dinner was over. And I found myself glancing at Draco over and over throughout dinner. I caught him looking at me and just quickly averted my eyes, pretending to be looking at something else.
Everyone was filing out of the Great Hall and I followed. We met up with Anna, Draco, and Blaise and started walking up to the Room of Requirement.
At first Ron and Harry wished Draco a happy birthday once more. We all walked up the stairs. I walked towards the back of the group not really talking to anyone.
Ginny and Blaise were talking about something and so were Anna and Hermione. Ron and Harry seemed to be in a rather deep conversation, making me only slightly curious about what they were saying.
As I walked my hand was picked up and laced with another. I looked up to see blue eyes.
"You alright?" he asked me.
"Ya, positive, why?"
"I havenít seen you around all day."
"Well I havenít been around then I guess."
"You having a good birthday?"
"It could be better."
"Well I love hanging out with my friends, I really do. But today especially, I would rather hang out with you and those guys." He said indicating to all the people in front of us.
"Is that really all you can say Joanna?"
"Nothing, just tired."
"Oh and what have you been doing that made you so tired." I blushed at what he was suggesting.
"I promise Draco." I said laughing.
"Well you better not be tired, because you promised me we could fun later on."
"Well what if I said I was kidding about that."
"Joanna," he whined, "Thatís all I could bloody think about all day. I looked for you everywhere today and every time I turned around you werenít there. I wanted to spend my birthday with you really but the whole day I was stuck with some friends and just a lot of other people."
"I'm sorry Draco, but every time I tried to talk to you someone would talk over me, and when I went to grab your hand someone would push me to walk next to you."
"It's alright, it wasnít your fault, and some people are so bloody annoying." I laughed.
"Donít worry, I promise you will get your fun and your present tonight."
"Can I have a hint?"
"Draco if you donít shut up now, you will never get it."
We all walked to the Room of Requirement and sat down on the couches that were set up.
I sat on top of Draco and snuggled in close, nuzzling my face into his neck. I wiggled around of a bit trying to get comfortable. He stopped me.
I looked up at him to see his eyes closed and him taking deep breaths.
"Donít move again." He said quietly.
"If you do then I think fun will come much earlier than expected." I blushed and buried my face into his chest. He chuckled and ran a hand up and down my back.
"Joanna if you are going to sit on Draco how is he going to open his gifts?" asked Ron.
"Well, I guess I will just have to do it for him." I said.
"Nice try, but how about no." Draco said.
One by one they passed their gifts to him.
He opened Ron's first. His eyes widened.
"I know it isnít much, but I saw it and thought you would like it." Said Ron half mumbling and tripping over his words.
"It's awesome, thank you." Draco replied, his breath laced with awe.
He pulled out the bright orange sweatshirt that had the Cannons logo on it. The Cannons were Draco's second favorite team and something both him and Ron had in common.
"Yes Ron, I love it too." I said grinning.
Draco looked at me and said, "No way in hell you are wearing this one Joanna. It's special."
"We'll just have to see about that won't we?"
Next was Harry's.
He got Draco a picture of all of us sitting around the tree near the lake.
My head was in Draco's lap and every couple of seconds he would lean down to give me a kiss.
Ron and Hermione were talking to each other. Hermione teaching him something and him making faces at her, every time she looked down.
Harry and Ginny were sitting there. Ginny's head against Harry's shoulder, both falling asleep on the bright day.
And of course Anna and Blaise who were snogging the whole time, only pulling apart to breathe before going at it again.
It was the perfect picture. All the girls thought it was cute, making Harry blush. "I just thought since it was the last birthday that Draco would get to spend with us here that he should have something to remember it by when we find ourselves going different ways."
Hermione was next. Boy everyone was surprised by what she got him. I was being sarcastic.
She got him a set of potions books and Ginny a new potions set.
"Well, Draco since I am better than you at everything but this, I figured maybe you would like it." Said Hermione.
Draco laughed and then thanked Hermione obviously excited by the look of delight on his face. I think it was partly because she admitted that he was better than her as well.
"Well I thought that my gift would go great with Hermione's so I got it for you Draco." Said Ginny. He thanked her too.
Anna got him a silver chain with a dragon around it. He was excited to see that. After all Draco does mean Dragon.
Anna was nervous and when he saw it he almost threw me off of him and went to give her a hug. She was more than pleased.
Blaise's was saved for last.
Draco and Blaise had this tradition that they would give each other silly gifts to show how much they cared for each other. Honestly, I didnít understand this.
I figured it was a time of humor in their days of dark. They had carried on the tradition from then on.
Draco opened his present only to start laughing after staring at it in shock for a while. I looked at Draco surprised. What the hell could have gotten him so worked up?
Blaise was cracking up at this point to and everyone was looking at them as if they were crazy. I was sure they were.
"Care to humor us?" I asked him.
He shook his head no.
Ron got up and snatched the box from him. He looked in, turned a bright red, looked back and forth from Draco to me and then started laughing.
Harry of course was next cracking up.
I stared at them amazed.
I looked inside the box only to see a bag of condoms.
OhÖ not funny.
I walked over and slapped Blaise.
"OW! That hurt."
"Oh donít be a baby, I would have done the same thing," said Ginny.
"Come on it was totally funny and appropriate," said Harry.
That earned him a glare from Ginny.
"Well Draco you better shut up if you even want to have a chance of using them." I said whispering it in his ear.
He shot straight up; his mouth ajar, staring at me.
"Well good night everyone!"
I laughed at him.
We all sat down and talked for a while and then got up to head back to our Common Rooms.
As Blaise was about to come up to the Boys Dormitories with Draco and I, I looked at Anna begging her to stop him.
She understood and dragged him away with the prospect of sleeping with her.
Draco led me upstairs.
"I am going to get changed." He told me.
I just nodded. This was it.
He walked into the bathroom and I walked over to his closest. I pulled off my shirt and pants and slipped one of Draco's long shirts on. I slipped off my bra in order to get comfortable and ready to sleep.
I pair of arms wrapped themselves around me and lips found their way to my neck. I moaned and tilted my head giving him better access.
I almost melted there and he lifted me up bridal style without me noticing until I was up in the air and then put me down gently on the bed.
He laid me down. "You know Joanna; I havenít gotten my present from you yet."
"I know." I said softly, cupping his cheek.
"Am I going to get it?"
He looked at me expectantly. "When?"
"You tell me what you thinkÖ if you donít like it thenÖ wellÖ" he silenced me with a soft kiss to the lips.
"I'm sure I will love it."
I looked up into his face. Blaise was right all the thoughts flew out of my head.
"I am giving you my virginity."
His face was blank and then he looked at me in shock.
"You meanÖ you neverÖ everÖ" he looked considerably paler.
"Ya, never. I guess I was just waiting for the right person."
"I think I found him."
He attached his lips to mine, starting gently running his tongue over my lips and biting and nibbling my bottom lip. A little groan was all it took and his tongue was in my mouth, making me feel better than I had ever felt before.
He pulled away. "Are you sure?"
"Yes." I kissed him.
I kissed him again.
"This is something really special to give up. You know you donít get it back."
"I know." I kissed him again.
"It will hurt at first, but I'll try to make the pain as unbearable as possible."
"I am glad it is you then."
I kissed him again. That was all the assurance he needed. We peeled the layer of clothes off of each other that were blocking contact of our skins.
The touch was hot and his skin was flawless. I molded with his body in the perfect way.
The passion was growing, but all the emotion remained.
I knew Draco wanted to make my first time something both he and I would want to remember for the rest of our lives.
It was unbelievable; something that made me glad that I wasnít taken before this moment. It was faultless.
Man I could think of all the adjectives in the world, but nothing would come close to how I felt.
It hurt at first, but Draco's mouth was on top of mine, and his hands wandering over my body to distract me from the small amount of pain that was clouded by the intense sense of pleasure.
The feeling of his mouth on mine, his hands all over my body, and the feel of him inside me were breathtaking and powerful. It was an experience I wouldnít trade for the world.
It was a whirlwind of passion, ecstasy, and raw bitter emotion. It was gentle and made me wither for more.
My throat ached from screaming and I was glad of the silencing charms we put up.
As I fell over the edge I took Draco with me, a fall that ended but we remained; our bodies flushed and sweaty as we lay there in the afterglow.
He pulled me close to him and I snuggled into him as far as I could. He kissed my mouth once and then laid a kiss on my forehead.
"That was the best birthday present ever. Thank you."
"Trusting me enough to take you."
"You donít have to thank me; I can't imagine it being any other way."
And with that both of us fell into some much needed sleep. The exhaustion gave way and took us to our dreams.
Sure it hurt the next morning and I was sore like nothing else, but it was worth it.
The look on Draco's face as he came and the feeling of caring so much for someone to share that experience with them was life-altering.
The way we both glowed and acted like we were crazy for days after.
The look on my friends faces when I told them.
The way it changed me and Draco. The way we cared more and had a deeper bond and connection.
Yes, it was all worth it.
I possibly couldnít have imagined it any other way.
I gave all controls to Draco that night, and I wasnít sure if I ever wanted them back.
I FINISHED IT!! I was really worried about how this chapter would come out!
I donít really write intimate scenes, I just skip around them. Let me know how I didÖ You know you want to!!