Carina walked downstairs, through the common room, and into her dorm. All the beds were made, and the room was empty. Carina sighed, and flumped down on the bed, covering her head with the pillow.
“To hell with secrets.” She muttered to herself, “Secrets suck.”
She lay on the bed for what seemed like hours. She didn’t know if it was dark outside or not. At this moment she didn’t really care. She was tired.
‘What was that?’ She thought, and looked up with wide eyes, scanning the room. Her eyes shifted to the window. It was dark outside. But she didn’t pay much attention to this, as her eyes had settled on a large brown owl, with bright yellow eyes, and a letter clutched in its sharp talons. Two words were written clearly in loopy black script. Handwriting Carina knew too well.
Carina S. Meadows
Four words managed to string themselves together in Carina’s head.
This. Can’t. Be. Good.
The door opened in the head’s dorm. Lily’s eyes opened too. Yet when she looked around there was nobody. The room was just as before. Lily’s heart jumped.
“Carina? Is that you?”
There was no reply. The room stayed as silent and empty as it had a few seconds ago. Lily turned her back to the door, frantically searching the room, for anyone, anything.
She heard a chuckle. Oh god, there was somebody in the room.
“You alright Evans?” Lily whipped round to see James Potter standing beside the closed door. Her jaw dropped, and she groaned.
“God! It was you! You scared the hell out of me!”
“Sorry.” James shrugged. He slumped down on the sofa, kicked off his shoes, and ran a hand through his hair.
Lily pulled a disgusted face as she saw the mud-caked shoes hit off the carpet.
“Were you playing quiditch, Potter?” She asked, raising an eyebrow.
“He looked at her with his sharp hazel eyes and nodded, “ Yeah.”
“And you still love her?”
It all came flooding back. Everything. Lily even felt the horrible pang of disrespect as she heard the conversation play on through her head. No matter what, she couldn’t lock it out, it was like James and Sirius stood on either side of her brain booming their conversation through megaphones.
Lily wondered if James and Sirius knew what a megaphone actually was.
“You know what, Padfoot? I think I love her more than ever.”
“Oh. Quiditch is uh… interesting.” She lied.
Block it out, Lily, block it out!
James raised an eyebrow, “Do you know anything
Way to go Lily, she thought, he noticed.
Instead she just laughed. James didn’t say anything. “I’m going to go and look for Carina, Potter.”
James looked up from trying to clean his shoes with some sort of cleaning spell. “And you’re telling me this… why
Lily was hurt, but tried hard not to show it. She snapped back, “So don’t wreck the place, Potter!”
Before James could open his mouth to speak again, she stormed out of the room, charging down the stairs, and heading straight for the common room. The fire illuminated the room. Lily saw a bundle of first years grouped together by the doorway. Carina was nowhere to be seen. She pushed past the small mob, and headed for the girls dorms.
She walked up the stairs, and pushed open the dormitory door.
Carina wasn’t there, either. Lily breathed in the familiar scent of the dormitory. She used to come here every night, and tell Carina about all the horrid things Potter had done. She remembered how they had a schedule in the mornings and how everything was great.
The skies were a deep black, and there were a few clouds that just covered the full moon. What was revealed shone onto the lake like a large round ghost. Lily sighed and leaned against a tree.
She missed home. It was her second year at Hogwarts, and she still missed her parents. Watching the stars appear one by one in the sky made her feel so much better. She’d never be alone. Not if the stars were with her.
Lily pulled her robes tighter round herself. It was in the middle of autumn, and it certainly wasn’t hot anymore. The leaves had turned magical shades of red, gold, and brown. Lily wondered whether or not Dumbledore put spells on them to make them so sparkling. It seemed like something he would do.
The thoughts of leaves were pushes swiftly out of her mind as she heard, a crunching noise against the frosty grass.
“Get out of here,” said the voice. Lily whipped round, shaking slightly. To her surprise, nobody was there.
“I beg your pardon? Who is that? Come out right now!” Lily was trying not to let her fear show in her voice or facial expression.
A hand appeared in the middle of the air. Lily blinked. The hand grabbed the air, and tugged.
James Potter stood in front of Lily, his eyes wide, gasping for breath. He looked at her accusingly.
“You aren’t supposed to be out here!”
“You aren’t either!” She barked.
He looked at her, his brows furrowing together. Lily rolled her eyes.
“Don’t think too hard, Potter. “ She said.
“No time for that. You need to put this on. It’s my invisibility cloak. Get to the castle as quick as possible before the moon comes out, alright?”
“You have an invisibility cloak!” She asked.
“I said no time, now hurry, Evans.”
Lily went back to the castle obligingly. She complained to Carina about how Potter interrupted her ‘me’ time. Carina was beginning to get bored with they ‘I hate Potter More Than I Hate The Giant Squid’ speech.
“Just go snog him, Lils.” She had laughed.
She sadly slumped down on the bed that she had once slept on. She wondered whom it belonged to now. It smelt strange, different, and just not like her.
It was when she was about to close her eyes and lay down that she noticed a small, piece of parchment laying on Carina’s bed. She stood up, and approached it with caution, almost as if it could read out and grab her right then.
She lifted it off the crisp sheets, and read the parchment, carefully.
I am sorry to tell you of an incident, involving close a close family member. I have been keeping you up to date with owls on this relative. I cannot say any more in case the letter is intercepted, I do hope you understand. Meet me in my office tonight, whenever you feel ready.
Lily’s eyes scanned the page. Every second made it harder for her to read the parchment; her eyes were slowly filling up with tears. She sniffed. She had to comfort her best friend. This was important.
She silently walked out of the room. A hot tear rolled down her freckly cheek. She had to get to Dumbledore’s office. And as fast as possible.
“Evans! Evans!” She heard James’s voice from behind her. “LILY!” She whipped round this time.
“Yes?” She asked, faking a small smile despite the fact tears slipped down her cheeks every other second.
“Would you like me to do the rounds tonight, on my own?” He asked, obviously knowing that asking if she was all right would be a bad idea.
, James. I don’t think I can make it, tonight. Carina needs me.”
“Oh.” He nodded, before adding; “I’ll see you when you return to the dormitory tonight.”
She nodded. She wasn’t going to tell him she doubted if she’d get back tonight. She might just stay with Carina, for this night only. That’s what best friends do, after all. They comfort each other through the hard times. She turned and continued to walk at the fast pace.
By the time she had arrived at Dumbledore’s office, Carina was already there. She was leaning against the hard stonewall, and sobbing. She saw Lily and ran straight into her, giving her a huge hug.
“It’s my dad, Lils. He’s gone.” She wept. “He’s really, really
“It’s okay.” Lily cried, “ Everything is going to get better. It has to.”
Carina laughed, “If it gets any worse, I am seriously
going to scream.” Her sobs returned quickly after.
“It won’t. I promise you, honey. We can look forward to a better future, okay?” Lily said.
Carina choked on a sob, so she just nodded. Lily held her friend closer.
“A better future with Sirius?” Carina raised an eyebrow.
“You’re not serious
, Carina?” Lily looked her friend in the eye. They both burst out laughing.
“I wonder how often Sirius has to listen to that?” Carina giggled.
Lily didn’t stay the night in Carina’s dorm. Carina insisted that she was going to have to get used to living without her dad, and to be honest, she didn’t see him much anyway.
Lily told her friend that wasn’t the point.
Carina said that Lily should go back to her dorm. James, would be alone if she didn’t.
Shit, she thought, I forgot about James!
So she walked back to the Heads Dormitory alone. She was on the enchanted staircase when she saw the time. It was one AM! James would have given up on waiting for her ages ago. She felt so bad about it.
She arrived at the door. She turned the handle and walked in. She didn’t even want to look in the direction of James’s room. She walked straight to her own bedroom.
“Thank you James for waiting until the early hours of the morning for me to return just like I said I would.” James grinned, he was sitting on the sofa, with PJ bottoms on, reading a book on potions.
Lily turned round, “Thank you James for waiting until the early hours of the morning-”
She stopped talking. She was crying now. She didn’t know why but she was crying, but she was.
James stopped smirking. He held out an arm, obviously signalling for a hug. Lily walked over slowly. She slipped into the space between James’s arm and the sofa. He let her cry. He didn’t mind.
For the second time that week, Lily fell asleep with tears running down her face.
Hey guys! I have updated! At last! I got my keyboard fixed! I might do this chapter again beause I don’t know if I really like it or not… What do you think? I don’t know what you guys think of these you know! So feel free to review. :D
22/11/07 ~ papa drmmond, r.i.p