Chapter Twenty-Nine: I really miss your hair in my face
As Arianna was walking to her classes the next day, she saw Severus waiting outside her Potions classroom.
“Can I help you?” She asked coolly, not entirely sure that she wasn’t still angry with him.
Although, he looked angrier with her at the moment. “Are you stupid? I set everything up for you. All you had to do was smile and nod and go along with the damn plan.” He accused.
“Well, you never stopped to ask me if I wanted to go along with the damn plan. If you had, I would have said no.” She said calmly, trying not to smile at Severus’s obvious annoyance at her.
“I was trying to make it better for you.” He argued. “I wanted to fix things for you.”
“I’m going to tell you the same thing that I told my brother, let me fight my own battles.” She said calmly. Wasn’t it ironic that she had told both of them the same thing? “I’m perfectly capable of handling this on my own. It would help if you were there to support me, but I don’t need you to try and take things into your own hands and fix things.”
He glared down at her. “What?” She asked innocently.
“Do you know how humiliating it was to go up to your damn brother and tell him all that? I made up a whole story about how you were trying to out-prank him. Of course, your pig-headed brother ate up the whole thing.” He was still irritated, but was looking pleased with himself now.
“Yes, it was very clever. Everyone bought it, to be honest.” She told him. “All the girls in my dorm are talking to me again, woohoo.” She rolled her eyes.
“You don’t sound too happy about that.” He commented, trying to still remain looking angry and not smile.
“Seeing as how they’re all bunch of fake fair-weather friends, I’m not entirely sure that I appreciate them talking to me again. Sometimes, I liked the quiet.” She told him. “It was nice to not have them buzzing in my ears all the time about how good looking my brother was.”
Severus snorted. “Yes, that would annoy me as well.” She smiled at him. “There’s something that I want to ask you.” He said, frowning a little.
“What’s that?” She asked, her anger with him disappearing. She was glad to see him. She had missed talking to him, as strange as that sounded.
“You had a perfect escape route. Sirius would have welcomed you back with open arms, all you would have had to do was laugh at me, tell him you hated me. Why didn’t you?” He questioned, staring at her intensely.
She was quiet for a minute. “That would have been a lie.” She answered simply. “I never wanted to be any part of your plan because I don’t want to hate you.”
“You don’t want to hate me.” He repeated. “What does that mean?”
She shrugged. “I’m still trying to figure that out myself. All I know is that it wouldn’t have made any sense to go back to the way things were. You’re right, it would have been easy to just let things go back to the way they were, but I couldn’t do that. I wasn’t ready to just forget everything.” She smiled up at him.
He frowned at little, like he was trying to figure her out. Some of her classmates walked by, saw her talking to Snape, and starting gossiping in loud whispers. She scowled as they got closer. She could hear what they were saying, stupid girls.
“Don’t you have something better to talk about?” She snapped. “Mind your own business.” The girls looked startled at her outburst and hurried on into the dungeon.
Severus turned to her with raised eyebrows. “That wasn’t very nice.” He commented, trying not to smile.
She shrugged. “I’m so sick and tired of people talking about me. It gets really old. Who cares that much? Those girls barely even know me, who do they think they are to talk about me?”
“I guess I’ll let you go on into class.” Severus said, glancing down at the watch on his wrist. “Ah….I’ll see you later.” He said, looking a little akward.
“Great.” Arianna said, smiling at the prospect of seeing him again. “I’ll catch up with you later then.” He nodded and she waved at him before heading into her Potions classroom.
She couldn’t keep the smile off her face as she sat down to her lessons. Normally she paid attention in this class, but her mind kept wandering today. It didn’t even bother her that the three girls she had snapped at when she walked in were now whispering to more girls in the class to pass on the information that Arianna Black and Severus Snape might not be over after all.
Remus came over and sat with her at dinner, a sign to Arianna that he was sticking to his word to be her friend again after all. They both looked down to where James was trying to wrestle with Sirius on the table as Peter squealed in excitement. Lily was pretending that she didn’t know them.
“How’s Sirius?” Arianna asked, picking at her mashed potatoes.
Remus snorted. “You know Sirius.” He said and they both smiled. At that moment, Severus walked by with some of his Slytherin friends. Arianna tried to smile at him and got a glare in return. Remus raised his eyebrows. “Trouble in paradise?” He questioned.
“Paradise? Who are you kidding?” she asked, slumping down in her seat. So much for being on smooth terms with Severus. “We can barely get along for more than five minutes. One of us is always driving the other crazy.” She sighed. “I have no idea why I was just glared at. Stupid prat.”
“I do.” Remus said, leaning his elbows on table and surveying Arianna with a small smile.
“What? Why?” Arianna asked back curiously.
“Because you’re sitting with me. I’m sure Snape still remembers all that talk that Sirius spread around about you and I being a couple.” He got a sad look in his eyes, but shook his head and went on. “He saw you sitting here with me and got jealous. He doesn’t like to see you with someone that you used to be attached to.”
“Why would Severus be jealous? He and I aren’t even technically a couple. He’s never said anything to me about his feelings.” Arianna admitted.
“What?” Remus asked, raising his eyebrows. “So you’re putting everything on the line for something that you’re not even sure about? What if Snape doesn’t feel the way that you do?” He asked.
She smiled sadly. “If you can get through it, then I can. It’s basically the same thing that I did to you” She said quietly.
Remus looked surprised at this revelation. “I’m still trying to work through that Ari. It’s not a fixed-in-one-day kind of deal. I didn’t wake up today and have my heart put back together again. It’s going to take me awhile to pick up the pieces. It wasn’t easy to come over here and talk to you, especially talk to you about him. But I’m trying. Because I guess I realized that it was better to have you in my life as a friend than not to have you in my life at all.”
She smiled at him sweetly. “You’ll always have me, Remus. Hey, my brother’s not giving you shit for talking to me, is he? Sirius and I still aren’t exactly talking.”
Remus shook his head. “We just don’t talk about it. He just kind of accepts it. I told him that you and I had talked. He asked if we were back together. Sadly, I had to tell him no. That I had pretty much handed you over to the other guy. He didn’t like that very much. But that’s all that’s been said on the topic.”
“You didn’t hand me over.” Arianna said, narrowing her eyes. “I made my own decision.”
Remus just smiled at her. “Hey, don’t give me this lecture. Tell it to your brother.” She turned her glare across the room. Her brother was still acting like an idiot with James, however, and didn’t notice.
Remus took a deep breath. “And as much as it kills me to say this to you, you should probably go after Snape and try to talk to him. You guys seem to have a lot of things to straighten out.”
She leaned across the table and hugged Remus. “You’re amazing, Remus!” She said, kissing his cheek. “I’ll see you later, okay?” She jumped up off the table and hurried out of the Great Hall, not stopping to look back as the smile slowly fell off Remus’s face as he watched her go.
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