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How To Save A Life by goodbyetoyou
Chapter 17 : Chapter 17: February 14th.
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Chapter 17: February 14th. 

A.N.: That banner of the ADORABLE couple? It was made by the ADORABLE overdose x3!!!!

A month passed and with it all drama. James and Lily and Sirius and Jamie were the golden couples within Hogwarts. Everyone was jealous of what they had and what they were. Sirius was never seen without Jamie, and Lily never without James. Jamie had improved her grades and all were currently at EE. Yet Jamie wanted O’s so continued to do extra credit and pay attention. Tyler was proud of his sister for pulling it all together. She managed her time well between school, Sirius, and Rory. However it was now February 13th, the day before Valentines Day, and Lily still hadn’t made her decision.

“So, Ms. Smith,” Sirius said as he held his arm around Jamie’s shoulder, “What are we doing tonight?” Jamie smiled slightly, and leaned into him.

“Well you are going to find something to do while your wonderful girlfriend studies,” Jamie said biting her lip. Truth was that Tyler wanted to go out with Colin, so Jamie was going to stay with Rory. Jamie hated lying to Sirius, but promised herself that soon she would tell him. Soon.

“You study too much, you know that?” Sirius mumbled as they arrived at Charms. He sat down next to her as she opened her notes and pulled out last week’s homework, “All you ever do is study. We are still on for tomorrow, right? The whole day?” Although the next day would be a Friday, Professor Dumbledore had given everyone the day off and 6th and 7th years Hogsmed access.

“Of course, what else would I do on Valentines Day?” Jamie smiled before giving him a light kiss, and then turned back to the board where the professor had just started writing something.

Sirius sat there and played with Jamie’s hair staring at her. ‘How could I have almost let this girl go?’ He watched as Jamie’s hand scrolled across the paper, not missing a word the professor said. She glanced over at his and smiled before turning back to her work. Sirius was sure that that moment would be the one he would always remember Jamie by.


“Tomorrow night I will pick you up at seven tomorrow night, ok?” James asked Lily at the portrait hole.

“Yes, I know. What should I wear?” Lily asked biting her lip. She was very nervous.

“Well if it was up to me, nothing.” James laughed, and then stopped at Lily’s serious face, “It doesn’t matter, Lils. Calm down, it’s not that big of a deal.” He quickly pecked lips cheek before running to Quidditch practice.

“That’s what worries me,” Lily muttered, “That it isn’t that big of a deal to you.”


“Are you sure you are ok staying home with Rory the whole day, Ty?” Jamie sighed the next morning, “Why don’t you have a pretty girl to take out?”

“Yes, and Rory said she is very excited for our date,” Tyler laughed, “Calm down, Jamie. I’ll be fine, it’s one night. And you are happy again, Jamie. Go have a day with your boyfriend.” Jamie smiled lightly at him before giving Rory a kiss and leaving. She walked down the great hall stairs slowly, looking for Lily. She knew Lily must have been breaking down right about now. She spotted Lily biting her nails by the end of the staircase, obviously waiting for Jamie. Lily looked up and locked eyes with her best friend. ‘What do I do?’ She mouthed, and with that Jamie ran down the stairs.

“Come over tonight before the date. Cover over around five-thirty and we can get ready, ok?” Jamie said soothing Lily, “its ok. It’s going to be ok.”

“How can you be so sure,” Lily mumbled as they walked into breakfast.

“Because, I know you’ll make the best choice. For you.”


Lily sighed as she got dressed. She was going to do this. She was sure about it now. ‘Why loose my relationship and my perfect boyfriend over something as stupid as sex,’ she thought as she slid her earrings in, ‘We’ll be careful, I’ll drink the potion now, and use the spell, and use the morning after spell.’ Lily looked over herself. She was wearing a light green dress with matching shoes. Sighing, Lily entered Jamie’s living room, wearing Jamie was sitting in jeans and a t-shirt.

“You look nice,” Jamie said lightly, smiling at her. Once Tyler left the room, Jamie shoved something into Lily’s hands. Condoms, tons of them. Different colours and sizes. Lily stared at Jamie’s face as she smiled, but one that didn’t quite meet her eyes.

*****“What’s wrong,” Lily asked sitting down, wringing her hands nervously. Jamie leaned back slightly before standing up.

“Nothing,” Jamie said picking up Rory and walking around the kitchen, looking for something for Rory to eat. After a few moments of searching, Jamie gave up. She turned back to Lily with Rory still on the left side of her hip, “I’m just worried about you.”

“Don't, Lily, just don't."

“Stop." Lily said sharply.

"I think you're wrong."

“You said,” Lily tried to keep her voice steady, “You said you’d support me. You said I’d know when it was right.” She  

“Does he love you, Lily? Is this right?” Jamie said finally.

“Jamie, come on!”

“Does he?” Jamie said, looking at Lily as if she was the one who didn’t understand. Lily looked at Jamie as if she was the one who didn’t understand, “Because it’s all that matters right now.”

“Of course he does,” Lily said thinking about all the long conversations, all the chasing James did. He wouldn't have waited seven years if he didn't. It didn't work like that. Love was so clear and real, it didn't even need to be said. 

“He’s said it?” Jamie questioned, “He has told you?”

“He doesn’t have to,” Lily said, “I just know.” There was a loud bang followed by some mumbling. Tyler came out grabbed a bandage from the cupboard, before leaving again. Lily thought the interruption would end the conversation, but Jamie just picked it up again. "Love is there and real without having to be said. You..."

“Don’t be a fool, Lily. Don’t give up something important to hold onto someone who can’t even say they love you.” Jamie pushed Rory higher up on her hip, and Rory pulled on her hair lightly.

“This is what I want to do,” Lily said loudly, “I can’t believe that you’re doing this now. After we’ve been talking about this for weeks! What happened to my friend?” That moment was the one time that Lily ever saw anger directed at her from Jamie. Jamie glared at Lily and answered her, with a cold, steady voice.

“I am your friend, Lily. That is why I am doing this.” Lily couldn’t believe this was happening. ‘All Jamie has done is tell me that I can trust herself and that I would know, and now she decided to be the enemy? Now she decided to pull back?’ “I need to go,” Lily said shaking her head and standing up. She made her way to the portrait of a female lion.

“It’s not right,” Jamie said, following Lily, “And you know it.”

“Not right,” Lily lashed, turning to look at Lily. Lily could feel the hateful words bubbling out of her mouth before she could stop them, “But with you it was right, Jamie, huh? Look at how right you were. You are just a single teenaged mother, whose child’s father made a bet that he could sleep with you. Wow, great decision making.” Jamie stared at Lily with tears swarming in her eyes. Lily could hear slow walking from behind her, and she knew Tyler had heard that last part.  

“Hey, Jamie,” He whispered, “Why don’t you go finish getting ready, and I’ll feed Rory.” Jamie nodded her eyes never once leaving Lily’s face. 

"You'll regret that." Jamie said so simply. "And you'll come here and apologize and I'll forgive you. But never once will I forget that Lillian Evans. And neither will you."

Lily sighed once Jamie left, before telling Tyler a quick goodbye. Never had she said something so hurtful, to anyone, let alone her best friend. Lily wanted to run back and tell Jamie how sorry she was, and how wrong she was, but yet she saw James ahead in a nice tux, and she knew there was no turning back. No matter how much she wanted to.


“Are you alright,” Sirius asked Jamie. They were sitting outside of an ice cream parlor in Hogsmed. It was rather warm out for a February day. Yet Jamie was sitting across from Sirius silently, poking at her ice cream.

“I’m fine,” Jamie said looking up, “I got into a fight with Lily right before I came to meet you.”

“You should have told me,” Sirius said moving to sit next to her. He put his arm around her shoulders while she rested her head on him, “You wouldn’t have had to come out. Want to go back?”

“Aw, don’t I have Mr. Sweetness?” Jamie smiled, “No, I’m fine. She just said some pretty cruel stuff to me.”

“What was the fight about,” Sirius asked looking down at her. She looked so heartbreaking, that Sirius decided the last thing she needed was to talk about how her best friend was terrible to her, “You know what? Never mind. Let’s go.”

“Where,” Jamie said standing up.

“Anywhere but here,” He smirked, grabbed Jamie’s hand, and continuing down the street.


It was an amazing room, it truly was. It had a deep red carpet, white vintage walls, and rose petals everywhere. The bed was gigantic, and extremely comfortable. There was soft music in the back round and candles everywhere. The mood was perfect for any girl’s first time.

Except Lily.

She was so thankful that James put in so much thought and tried to hard, but that’s not what she wanted. She just wanted three words. I love you. It was the only thing that mattered right now. Lily turned her head to the side as James attacked her neck. She was dressed in one of her Valentines Day gifts from James. A skimpy white lingerie outfit. She bit her lip nervously as James pulled off her top. She wasn’t sure if James noticed how incredibly nervous she was. She highly doubted it by the way he kept moaning her name. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath as James brought her hands up to undo his belt. But something went off in Lily’s head. And it kept saying: This is not right.

“James,” Lily panted, “James.” James didn’t really she was trying to get his attention until she pushed him off of her and onto the floor.

“Lily, what’s wrong,” James said softly looking at her. Tears were pouring down her face as onto to the bed, “why are you crying?”

“I’m sorry,” Lily sobbed grabbing a large black robe that appeared, throwing it on, and taking off down the hall.


“Thank you, Sirius,” Jamie said smiling as she stood by the girls’ staircase.

“Anything for my loving girlfriend,” Sirius smiled, “But I haven’t given you your present.” He reached into his pocket and pulled out a tiny box.

“What is it,” Jamie said smiling slightly. She opened it up to find a ring. It wasn’t a diamond ring, but it had a small heart and hand. It was gold, “A commitment ring?”

“Yes,” Sirius grinned, lifting up his left hand to show he had the exact same thing on his ring finger, “I know it’s usually what shows that we are a true couple, and I know how much you wanted one last time we went out. I was just being stupid by telling myself if I didn’t get you one, then I wouldn’t be falling for you. But ring or not, I did. Hard. I love you, Jamie Smith.”

Jamie remembered how much she longed for this ring as Sirius slipped it onto her hand. It meant that she and Sirius were serious. He had never given any other girl a commitment ring.

“Thank you Sirius,” Jamie said biting her lip to try to stop herself from smiling too much, “It means so much to me. I love you too.” Sirius grinned and kissed her. After a few moments of kissing, Jamie pulled back.

“I should go to bed,” Jamie said glancing at the clock. It was already 11:03 pm, “We sat at that rock talking for a really long time.” Sirius nodded, and gave her a quick kiss.

“Sweet dreams, love.”

“Sweet dreams, honeybee.” Jamie snickered as Sirius poked his tongue out at her. Jamie headed up the stairs, down the slide, and back to her room. She quickly changed into a large t-shirt and shorts. Right as she climbed into bed and turned off the light she heard a distant sob. Sighing she got out of bed, grabbed another t-shirt and shorts, and sat down. Thirty seconds later, Lily came in crying. Jamie handed her the clothes, turned around and let her change. She crawled back into bed, and told Lily to lie next to her. She rubbed Lily’s back until they both drifted off to sleep. 

A.N.: So as one couple rises the other falls, huh? The stars as I put in there from the start to the end of those is pretty much from Sarah Dessen's Someone like you, but not exactly. I took the basic idea but I changed it a bit.  Thank you to all those who reviewed last time. I hope you all review again, because believe it or not it does make me update faster. Check out my meet the authors page and def. ask me some questions. I love you all. REVIEW!!!!!!!“I know,” Jamie said not looking up at her. After a moment she sighed and looked Lily straight in the eye, “You know, it’s not the best situation I could have been in, but I think I’ve done as well as I could have.”

“You have Jamie,” Lily said, tears filling her eyes, “You are the best mom Rory could ever have. Everything I said was out of anger. Not even anger directed to you, but at me. I was cruel and completely unfair.”


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