Chapter 1 : Dear Lucius...
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It annoys me when people assume that because I’m rich that I’m happy as well. This couldn’t be further from the truth.
I sat on the floor my back pressed against the wall, my knees up to my chest. Tears were running down my cheeks. It was a year since Lucius and I were married in a lavish wedding ceremony in the south of France, a year in which I had failed to produce an heir. Lucius had been angry with me and had lost his temper.
“You are pathetic” he had yelled at me “I expect to have an heir by now!”
I had been angry too, how could he blame me for something I had no control of? I had snapped and started shouting at him “It’s not entirely my fault!” I had yelled, “Have you ever thought it could be you!” that was the wrong thing to say.
I let out a sob, I was more scared then hurt, I had never realized just how angry he could be. I was shaking in fear and anger, couldn’t he see how much I wanted a child. I had always wanted one, ever since I got my first doll at the age of five. It was my one desire, and the reason I married Lucius. I knew I could never betray my parents or family by having a child out of wedlock.
When Lucius asked me to marry him at the age of 19 I had mixed feelings, I didn’t love him, my heart was for another, but I knew it was for the best. He is not an easy man to get along with, or love for that matter, I tried my hardest. But I knew that without him I could never have the child I always dreamed of, so I stayed.
I sniffed and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand, I decided I needed to take my mind off this and just focus on something else. I was tired of Lucius always blaming me and I felt a little pissed about this. I decided to go to the local pub, and I was not going to tell him where I was going! I really didn’t care anymore.
I got up and walked into the bathroom, I cleaned my face, brushed my teeth and adding a fresh layer of mascara. The right side of my face was red and I touched it generally, it still stung. I tried to cover the bruise with concealer but it didn’t work very well. I winced and examined the result in the mirror, hopefully on one would notice in the dark pub. I sighed and walked out of the room and down the stairs, I grabbed my purse and made sure I had enough money to get pissed, then I walked into the kitchen. I conjured a quill a bottle of ink and a piece of parchment and started writing a letter to Lucius
I’m just going out with some friends, don’t worry about me, I’ll be back later tonight but don’t wait up
I decided not to tell him I was actually going alone, I didn’t think he would like that very much. I put the letter on the kitchen table and left. I walked down the stone path far enough away from the house so the anti-apparition jinxes wouldn’t affect me. I closed my eyes and concentrated on getting to the Leaky Cauldron without splinching myself. I felt my body being squeezed and it felt like I was being sucked through a pipe, when the sensation stopped I slowly opened my eyes and looked up at the sign above my head. I smiled I made it! I was standing in the middle of a dark and deserted muggle street in the heart of London, I wrapped my arms around myself and shivered, it was cold. I walked to the side of the street and pushed the door open.
The light and warmth hit me like a blast of wind as I stepped through the door into the noisy pub. I hid a smile and I walked towards the bar and perched myself on one of the chairs, I could feel some of the men’s eyes on my back but I ignored them. “A Fire Whisky please” I told the barmaid as she came to ask what I wanted. I saw her eyes widen slightly in shock at my choice but I didn’t care, can’t a girl enjoy a drink! When she returned I thanked and took a large gulp. I smiled, that was exactly what I needed.
I heard the door open behind me and felt a gust of cold wind on my back, I shivered again, I really should have brought a jacket. There was a pair of heavy footsteps that stopped beside me “Can I have a glass of Fire Whisky over here!” a gruff, slightly familiar voice asked on my right.
I was looking down at my glass, both hands gripping the side of my drink. The voice sounded familiar too me, but I couldn’t place it. I looked up slowly, peaking through the strands of my short blond hair. He looked to be my age or a few years older. His hair was black, short but messy and he had the beginnings of a beard on his cheeks and chin. His eyes were blue. My eyes widened in shock, I did know him, but this was the last place I was expecting to see him “James?” I gasped in surprise.
* * *
His head jerked up in surprise and he turned around to stare at me “Narcissa” he asked in disbelief. I nodded silently, blushing. I had had a crush on James since forth year, I still did.
“What are you doing here?” he asked in surprise.
I shrugged I didn’t really want to tell him the truth “I was planning on having a few drinks with friends, but they bailed” I told him softly. Then I turned and looked him in the eye “Why are you here?” I asked curiously
He frowned and reached for his glass of Fire Whisky draining it “Lily and I had a fight” he murmured.
I looked at him in sympathy “Was it a big fight” I asked softly
He nodded, and looked up at me “She wants a child, but I’m not sure if this is a good time, what with you-know-who still out there” I nodded, I knew that Lucius mixed with the dark arts, he refused to tell me where he went every night. But I suspected.
“She’s right to want one” I told him softly. He looked at me in surprise and I sighed “We’ve been trying to have a child for the past year, but it…. just doesn’t seem to be getting anywhere” I told him, surprising myself with telling him these private things.
He didn’t judge me though, just nodded in sympathy, mercifully not commenting on the fact that everyone knew Lucius and I didn’t love each other, it was a marriage for convenience and to please our family’s, not ourselves. If I could choose again I wouldn’t have chosen him I would have chosen the man sitting in front of me, unfortunately he was taken too.
I sighed sadly and drained the last dregs of my whisky “Another one please!” I called holding out my glass for another refill.
The barmaid came over and filled it, I asked James if he wanted another one and he nodded “Why not!” was what he said holding out his glass too. The girl looked between James and myself plainly wondering if there was anything going on, I ignored her, didn’t she have anything better to do! I glared at her until she walked away then I turned and looked at James he was watching me and I blushed slightly.
“So why isn’t Lucius here with you?” he asked me looking into my eyes to see my reaction
I looked down “Lucius and I kind of had a fight as well” I whispered, reaching up I brushed the tear that was threatening to fall. Then I turned my head slightly and picked up my drink again. I don’t know what happened, maybe the light shone on my face or something but James reached forward and took my face gently in his hands. I froze, to used to Lucius’s rough hands, but he was gentle. He slowly brushed my cheek with his fingertips then the made me face him.
“What happened?” he whispered softly, his eyes showing concern
I looked down, there was no way I could tell him, I started to slowly shake my head “No” I whispered.
He moved his hands slightly, cupping my cheek “ Narcissa look at me” he whispered softly. I sniffed and raised my eyes reluctantly. “Did Lucius do this to you?” he asked an edge creeping into his voice, I could see he was struggling with his temper.
I swallowed and very slowly, inclined my head.
Every single glass in the place shattered including the one in my hand, I flinched backwards from the raw power I could feel washing over him and I nearly fell off the stool. James reached out and grabbed me before I could fall and I could feel he was shaking with barely compressed rage “How could he do something like that” he snapped, I flinched again, that was the exact same tone Lucius used on me, and James still gripped my arm tightly.
His eyes softened when he saw my fear and he took a deep calming breath releasing my arm, he leaned back and raised his arms in a gesture of surrender “Sorry, Sorry” he muttered, turning.
The barmaid, came storming towards us “You know how much those glasses with cost” she shrieked
James glared at her and took out his wand, the women shrank from him but he only pointed it at the ceiling “Repairo” he muttered and all the glasses in the room magically knitted themselves back together. He turned to the young women “Nothing” he told her, I covered my mouth so he wouldn’t see me smile.
Once the women had gone, refining James’s glass another two times before she did, he turned back to me, a look of sorrow and pity in his eyes “Leave him” he told me.
I shook my head “I can’t” I said regretfully “I can’t disgrace my family like that,” I told him.
He reached forward and slowly brushed a strand of hair back from my face, tucking it behind my ear “You deserve so much better” he whispered huskily. I swallowed; at the back of my mind I was acutely aware that he had already had four glasses of Fire Whisky. I shocked myself when I realised that I didn’t care. I shivered and turned my face into his palm kissing it softly.
“The man I want is already taken” I told him softly, knowing he would realize it was him.
When we were at school I had made the mistake of telling Sirius that I liked his best friend. Sirius had of course told James. He always knew I liked him but his heart was for Lily, and though we always remained good friends, probably the only relative of Sirius who did, we were never anything more than that.
He nodded and took a deep breath, I could see he was struggling, maybe the feelings he had for me were stronger then I thought. His eyes were troubled and I could see he didn’t really want to take his hand away. He sat up and ordered another drink, which he drained in one gulp and promptly ordered another one five, six I thought to myself. I was still on number two. I was feeling slightly lightheaded, but that was most likely because I had not eaten that day.
I heard a muffled curse and turned my head to find James hunched over in his seat, both hands cupping his glass. I was curious “What” I asked.
He didn’t seem to really notice me, he just talked automatically “This, it’s such a mess” he muttered.
I felt my pulse quicken and struggled to keep my voice light and mocking, “What’s a mess” I asked.
He turned and gazed up at me “This” he whispered, before turning and taking another large gulp of whisky.
I swallowed “Why” I asked softly.
He sighed “I’m married” he said softly, almost as if he was ashamed “I shouldn’t be feeling these things for you” he told me.
My eyes widened, and he turned to me almost apologetically “Ironic huh” he muttered bitterly.
“You’ve had a lot to drink today” I told him, by way of explanation, I knew that when Lucius drinks he had always developed….well, more of an affection for me.
But he shook his head “That’s not it” he told me disgusted, he sighed ‘I’ve liked you for a long time” he said “Since school, when Sirius told me you liked me I was so happy”
I frowned confused “But you love Lily!” I told him shocked
He nodded “I love you both” he whispered. My breath caught in my throat did he say…. But he was still speaking and I forced myself to listen and not daydream “What do you think Sirius would have done if I had dated you!” he asked me
I smiled humorously “He probably would have killed you” I told him
He nodded “Exactly, so I kept my feelings to myself and dated Lily instead” he sighed.
I suddenly felt really sorry for him, he was with the wrong person as well, sure he loved Lily too, but he obviously liked me as well. I suddenly need to know something “Which do you love…” I began.
His head jerked up “Please don’t ask me that” he begged his eyes sad “I’m having a hard enough time trying to justify what I’m gonna do now” he told me his voice cracking.
I froze “What?” I asked
“This” he told me before he turned and pressed his lips to mine in a kiss. My eyes widened in surprise.
When he leaned back I saw his eyes were slightly unfocused and darker then I though they should be. I smiled timidly at him and he smiled back.
* * *
Suddenly I felt really dizzy, obviously drinking on an empty stomach is not a good idea, I wobbled precariously on the barstool. James looked at me concerned “Narcissa? Are you ok?” he asked softly.
I just had time to shake my head before I found myself slipping sideways. I panicked and reached out desperate to grab something, anything that would keep me from falling. I grabbed James’s arm, unfortunately due to his drinking he was not exactly completely stable either, I ended up pulling him down with me.
We landed on a heap on the floor my legs tangled in the chair legs and James lying half-on, half-off me. I hit my head on the floor and it was throbbing, I rubbed it wincing as James groaned and slowly pulled himself into a sitting position. He glanced down at me and smirked his eyes trailing over my body.
I raised an eyebrow at him and he chuckled. “Come on” he muttered. I think he had quiet a hard time standing but he managed it, then he reached down and slowly helped me to my feet.
I wobbled and his arm slid around my waist to keep me from falling. It felt nice and I seriously contemplated toppling to the floor again just to feel his arm around me a bit longer.
He looked at me concerned “Are you ok” he asked, his words slightly slurred.
I started to nod, but the throbbing of my head decided against it “Yeah” I muttered.
“Are you sure” he asked reaching up and smoothing the back of my head, soothing the pain.
“Yes” I whispered “I’m fine”
He didn’t remove his hand as he gazed at me and I could still feel his other arm around my waist. I looked at him through lowered lids, I knew he wanted me, and I wanted him to. Fuck Lucius I thought as I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his in a passionate kiss. He responded instantly, I was right. He wrapped both arms around my waist and pulled me closer until our bodies were touching. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling his face closer to mine and deepening the kiss. I could feel his hands slowly wander from their place on my hips, down to my thigh and I shivered. I could hear him breathing heavily as he stopped kissing me on the mouth and started raining kisses down my neck. I tiled my head back and closed my eyes a small smile on my lips.
“Excuse me?’ a irritated voice demanded in my ear.
James and I practically jumped apart and I flushed in embarrassment as I turned and looked at the barmaid. Her arms were folded across her chest and she had a scowl on her face. I was acutely aware that the pub was dead quiet. I could feel my blush deepen.
The girl was speaking “Do you mind!” she snapped “Some of us have to work here and I would appreciate it if you went somewhere else!”
I turned and glanced at James as he turned and looked at me, I noticed with some irritation that he was not remotely embarrassed. He raised an eyebrow “Want to go upstairs” he asked me
My heart quickened he still wanted me! I nodded. Taking my hand James towed me to the back of the room where there was a set of stairs leading to some rooms upstairs. I heard a number of catcalls and whistles from some of the men as we passed but I ignored them.
We went to the first unlocked door and slipped inside, I quickly shut the door and locked it as James walked to the window and opened the curtains. It was a full moon tonight and there was enough light that we didn’t need to light any candles.
I smiled as James walked back to me, his eyes bored into mine and I could tell he desired me. He pulled me into his arms, holding me close. I rested my head against his chest and sighed continently. “That was so embarrassing” I whispered, my face still slightly red.
He chuckled “Did you see her face” he laughed softly. I smiled it was funny.
I pulled back slightly and raised my head to look him directly in the eye I still wasn’t sure if he was doing this because he loved me, like he said, or because he just wanted some fun. I swallowed “You love me right?’ I asked
He seamed to sense my apprehensiveness and he nodded “ I’ve wanted to do this for a long time” he told me, it wasn’t exactly what I asked but I put it off. I had come to the conclusion that I didn’t care; this was too good an opportunity to pass by.
I took his hand and backed towards the bed. My hands were tugging desperately at his clothes and he was doing the same for me, I chuckled as he nearly tripped as he took of his pants. I lowering myself to the bed, and stretched my hands above my head. James lied down next to me his hand reaching out and cupping my cheek. He leaned forward and kissed me tenderly on the lips, I sighed and closed my eyes. He moved down kissing my neck, and lower still. His hands were gentle on my body; only for a moment did I stiffen as memories of Lucius’s rough hands enter my mind. But it was only James. I leaned back and gave myself to him, completely and without abandon, for the first time in my life I knew what it was like to be loved. I could feel tears of happiness running down my cheeks silently, but I could do nothing to stem the flow.
James raised his head slightly and kissed my cheek, but he jerked back and my eyes opened startled. He looked haunted, his eyes were so sad “Oh,” he gasped, “Did I hurt you…” I could hear the pain in his voice. I shook my head, determined to explain, “I’m so sorry” he muttered, his voice was cracking and he made to move away.
I grabbed his shoulders with my hands and held him to me “You didn’t hurt me” I told him. he looked confused so I decided to go on “I’m crying because I’m happy” I told him, “Lucius doesn’t make me feel like this” I blushed again.
He blinked and then he smiled raising an eyebrow “Oh” he said. I rolled my eyes. I really should stop feeding his ego. He chuckled and leaned forward kissing me on the lips so sweetly that he made me gasp. He chuckled again and started to kiss my neck, his hands roamed down my body and I shuddered. Leaning my head back I closed my eyes. Maybe ego isn’t all that bad, I mused this was even better then before.
* * *
When I opened my eyes sunlight was streaming through the open window. My eyes widened in horror and I sat up, James who had been resting his head against my chest jumped up startled. Unfortunately, he was right on the edge of the bed and ended up toppling backwards and landing in a tangle of sheets on the floor.
I swore and ran to the window quickly shutting the curtains so that there was only the barest amount of light in the room. James groaned from his position on the floor and I practically ran around the room gathering all my clothes. My bra was hanging from the ceiling light and I didn’t really want to think of how it got there.
James had managed to untangle himself and when I glanced at him, he had wrapped the sheet around his waist. I eyed his hard chest, feeling lightheaded again. He moved towards me and wrapped his arms around me, his sheet started to fall and he made a grab for it, “Shit” he muttered. I chuckled. Serves him right for steeling it I though, more aware then ever that I was standing butt naked. He glared at me.
I pointed at the ceiling hoping to distract him, “Can you get that for me” I asked. He glanced up and I saw his eyes widen, then his face broke out into a grin and he started laughing. I scowled “It’s not funny” I snapped at him “That is a very important article of clothing!” I told him, he raising his eyebrow but climbed onto the bed and got it for me all the same. I smiled sweetly at him and started pulling my clothes on.
He watched me “Where are you going” he asked softly “We’re in no hurry” I detected an undercurrent of hurt and I suddenly felt guilty.
I looked up at him “Lucius will be worried” I told him
At the mention of my husband’s name his eyes narrowed “Why do you stay with him” he asked me fiercely
I looked at him sadly “You know why” I whispered “I can’t betray my family like that, and I know to much, he’ll kill me” I told him desperately.
He moved quickly towards me and took me in his arms, crushing me to me, he didn’t seem to care that the sheet had fallen to the ground but I found it slightly…. distracting is probably the best word. He kissed me pressing his lips hard against mine.
“He doesn’t deserve you” he whispered against my ear. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against his chest. This hurt so much. He bent down and kissed the top of my head and I turned my face up and let him kiss me on the forehead.
I sighed, “I don’t know how I’m going to handle going back to him” I whispered.
James frowned “How come” he asked
I sighed “It’s just now that I know that there are better things I just don’t think I can handle being treated like that again” I told him honestly.
I felt James arms around me stiffen. “I wish I could protect you” he whispered.
I blinked the sudden tears from my eyes, he sounded like a man in love, Lucius had never said anything like that to me before. “You have lily” I reminded him softly.
He sighed softly and slowly stepped away from me “She’s the only reason that’s keeping me from you” he told me sadly.
I was shocked “But you love her?” I exclaimed
He nodded “But I love you more” he whispered. He turned away and I could see he was struggling with his emotions; he walked away and started to pick up his clothes and put them on.
I let out a sob, it was harder for him, I hadn’t realized that before. I didn’t care about Lucius so I didn’t care what happened to him. But James…James loved Lily. I knew he wouldn’t leave her. The knowledge broke my heart.
I set my shoulders and walked up to him “James” I whispered. He had just finished dressing and he turned around and looked at me with haunted eyes “Go back to you’re wife” I told him softly “She needs you”
He walked up to me and put his arms around my shoulders “If there is..” he began.
I shook me head cutting him off “Don’t” I whispered, “Just don’t” he was silent and then he slowly nodded. He gazed at me for a second then he bent down and kissed me tenderly on the lips. I looked away, I couldn’t meet his eyes afraid I was going to burst into tears.
He seemed to realized why I was so distance “Narcissa” he began, I nodded to indicate I was listening “If there was another way…” he stopped unable to finish.
I nodded, I understood, if there was any other option he would have chosen me, unfortunately that was impossible. I was married to Lucius and I couldn’t leave, James was married to Lily and he wouldn’t hurt her.
He slowly let me go, his eyes showing his pain “I will never mention this” he murmured to me before he turned around and headed to the door. He hesitated and glanced back at me standing motionless in the middle of the room. “Goodbye” he whispered softly before slowly closing the door behind him.
As soon as the door closed all my resolve shattered. I crumpled to a heap on the floor, quivering with each sob. I stayed curled up in a ball for Merlin knows how long, the sun was high in the sky before I lifted my head and dried my eyes.
I was scared now, Lucius would be angry, I didn’t want that. Slowly getting to my feet I went to the bathroom to clean my face. I washed all the makeup of my face and quickly combed my hair with my fingers, I looked tired, but I didn’t look like I was crying, the purple bruise stood out on my face and I swallowed. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes apparating to the Malfoy manor.
* * *
I didn’t get very far, Lucius was waiting on the front steps. He was scowling “Where the hell have you been” he shouted at me.
I cringed “Nowhere” I muttered, trying to ease past him into the house, it didn’t work.
He grabbed my arm “I asked where the hell you’ve been” he shouted again. He was hurting me and I told him so. He let go and pushed me away from him in disgust “Get upstairs and have a shower, you stink” he snapped at me.
I didn’t need to be told twice, so I hurried up the stairs. I could feel him watching my every move, but I didn’t care, I just wanted to get as far away from him as possible.
I ran up the stairs and into the bathroom, I turned the shower tap on and as the water warmed up I started to undress, I heard the door open and I turned around. Lucius stood in the doorway, his arms across his chest “Get out” I snapped at him. He ignored me instead he moved into the room and closed the door. I felt a moment of panic, this was just like all the other times, I quivered in fear.
He started speaking. “I’m going to ask you again” he said softly “Where were you last night”
I swallowed nervously, “I was out with friends” I told him “We were just having a few drinks but it was late before I realized it so I decided to stay the night rather then come home and…” he held up his hand cutting my babbling
He chuckled and my heart sank “You see” he told me “Now this is why I get annoyed” his eyes hardened “Bellatrix called last night, she wanted to know if you wanted to get together for drinks next week” he told me. My heart sank. He took a step closer, his face was only inches away from mine “Now that’s interesting don’t you think” he whispered to me “Especially when you were meant to be going out for drinks with her” he was angry now, despite his soft tones I could see it in his eyes and the way his hands were shaking. “Now, don’t you think you should tell me where you really were” he asked me.
I shook my head letting out a sob. I was so scared. His eyes narrowed and I could see he was going to hurt me. I shivered but he didn’t seem to notice
“Who were you with Narcissa?” he asked.
I just shook my head again, I couldn’t, I just couldn’t! He would kill James.
He move forward pressing his body against mine. His eyes narrowed, “Such a shame” he whispered in my ear. I shuddered as he ran his hands from my shoulder to my thigh.
I panicked and tried to move, I screamed at him. “Let me go” I snapped.
He chuckled and breathed into my ear “Who was it Narcissa?” he whispered to me kissing my neck softly.
Tears started to fall down my cheeks I shook my head again, I couldn’t tell him. I looked up and gulped at the look in his eyes, it was full of loathing and hatred. I knew I was going to regret defying him.
* * *
Later that night I was lying in bed, with my legs curled up against my chest and my hands covering my mouth as I cried, I couldn’t believe he did that to me, my own husband. I shuddered as the memories returned, his hands against me, his hot breath on my skin. I shuddered again and gasped for breath.
I felt him roll over and I quivered in fear, I tried to stop crying, truly I did. He must of heard me though because I heard his grunt as he slowly came awake and the bed squeaked as he moved to face me. I didn’t move from my position, even when he had propped himself on an elbow and gazed down at me “What are you crying about” he asked me harshly, “It’s not as if I hurt you” I ignored him. He sighed and got out of bed; he walked from the room and closed the door behind him. I sniffed again and concentrated on trying to sleep, it took a while, but eventually I felt my eyes drift close and I slowly lost consciousness.
* * *
A few months later…
Isn’t it funny how something good happens and then straightaway it all turns the other way. That’s exactly how I felt when I discovered I was late. I began to feel the life coming back to me after months of misery. I started eating regularly again and tried to stay healthy. Lucius noticed the change in me one day, about three months since I slept with James and asked me what happened. I decided to tell him, I was confident now that the baby would carry full term, it felt strong and I had begun to feel it kicking inside me.
I took his hand in mine as we sat at the dining table; for once he was silent, sensing that I had something important to say. I took a deep breath “I’m pregnant” I announced happily. Unexpectantly, because this was truly the last this I expected his eyes narrowed and darkened in anger. I stared in shock at his reaction “Lucius” I asked puzzled, moving my hand towards his “What’s wrong”
He moved his hand away and abruptly stood, he was shaking in anger “I marry you, give you a house, everything you could ever want and this is how you repay me!” he shouted at me.
I was shocked to say the least “What!” I asked in disbelief “I though you wanted a child” I shouted at him also standing.
He was glaring at me “I can’t have children”
My mouth dropped open “What” I whispered in shock
His mouth was a hard line as he hissed the words at me “I got sick when I was a child” he explained “Really sick, the potion that cured me left me unable to have children” he said
I stared at him “You knew?” I asked in disbelief “All this time, you have been blaming me when it was you all along” I was angry, really angry he knew how much I wanted a child, how could he do this to me!
He didn’t seem concerned “But you’re pregnant now” he reminded me softly
He smiled humorously “Who’s the father Narcissa” he asked. I couldn’t breath, I was gasping for air, my hand flew to my chest as I tried to still my racing heart and labored breath. Lucius frowned but he grabbed my arm and pulled me down into a chair. I was shaking he asked me again “Who’s the father” his voice was harsh.
I couldn’t meet his gaze. I knew it was no use trying to lie to him anymore, he knew. If I didn’t tell him who knew what he would do to me. I had to think of the life inside of me now, I couldn’t let anything happen, even if this meant betraying the man I loved. I had to protect my unborn child, no matter what the cost. I let out a sob, please Merlin let him be safe I wished. I gulped and slowly turned my face up to him “James Potter” I whispered.
A/N: Hey guys! Well what did you think? I know a James and Narcissa pairing is not exactly canon (being sarcastic) …. But I had this plot bunny for ages! I would really appreciate it if you could give me a review and tell me what you think. I’ll be forever grateful!
Thanks guys, * hugs * and I really hoped you like the story! Cheers.