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A/N: WOW. It feels so good to be back. My fingers have finally fulfilled their own craving to write again. Lol, I like when chapter titles have more the one meaning. Thanks for the reviews. I was impressed. I was shocked. I was undeserving. Enjoy...
Chapter 20: A Craving Fulfilled
Sirius and James walked out of their Defense Against the Dark Arts class glowing with their usual confidence. Not feigned by the weight of the detention slips in their hands, (for, in their opinion, the note passing had been worth it), they marched directly down the center of the corridors in heated conversation.
“You think what?” James practically yelled as several Slytherins ahead of them turned around to glare.
Sirius made a face at them to prompt them to continue walking, and, as if any of them would openly defy him since he was a Black after all, they resumed walking.
He then turned back to his best friend who was at this point quite flustered and wanting answers.
“James, I told you. You must be doing something right with Lily. I think I know a thing or two about girls, and what other reason could there be? Why else could she not talk to you specifically about her problem? It makes sense, mate,” Sirius said as they started a descent down the staircase leading to the front foyer of the school.
They took the stairs two at a time, until, reaching the bottom, walked right past the doors of the Great Hall and straight for the doors leading outside. Sure it was lunch, but when the two marauders were in the middle of an interesting conversation, sitting with a bunch of people around them was the last thing they wanted to do. They opened the doors to a beautiful day. Not a single cloud in the sky.
“Um, hello Sirius! What other reason could there be? How about the fact that this is the girl who has sworn her dislike for me multiple times over multiple years. It’s perfectly in character for her to not want to talk to me,” James said.
Sirius shook his head, accidentally making his hair fall into his eyes. He quickly brushed it away.
“I’m telling you, she likes you. But there is someone else in the picture too. And it’s messing her up,” Sirius said, smiling, “I think you can win this one though. And I’m telling you that as your best friend, not as a marauder.”
James couldn’t help but smile at the look of sincerity on Sirius’ face. How he had found such a great person to be friend’s with, he still wondered about sometimes.
“Sirius, you’re always a marauder,” James said, as he picked a single flower from the ground.
Sirius laughed before replying, “can’t argue with that. And I wouldn’t want to even if I could. Shall we go back and eat something? Besides, I don’t want to be seen with you if you are going to be picking flowers.”
James agreed after throwing a playful punch in Sirius’ direction and they headed back from their short walk towards the school. Within ten minutes, the boys were opening the doors to the Great Hall, smiles on their faces. They soon found their usual spots at the Gryffindor table and were a little surprised to see Lily sitting next to Remus.
Sirius took the seat across from the other marauder, and James sat directly across from Lily. Within a second of sitting down, James whipped out the flower he had picked from his walk and handed it across the table.
Lily took it, and spared a small glance towards Remus before smiling.
“Wow Evans, you smiled,” James said to his own surprise.
“It must be one of her little hidden talents, Prongs,” Sirius answered with a smirk.
Lily just shook her head, laughing a little before telling the two to be quiet.
“So where were you just now? Did you have to stay that long after class?” Remus inquired, trying to get his mind off the fact that his best friend had just given his girlfriend a flower.
“Nah,” Sirius answered through a mouthful of food, “we were there for like ten seconds...”
“...long enough to get detention mind you, ” James added.
“Yeah, and then we went for a walk. Important matters to discuss and such,” Sirius finished.
Remus had a look of disappointment on his face. Usually he was involved in important matters to be discussed.
“Well, what was so important that couldn’t wait until after you’d eaten?” Lily asked, interrupting Remus’ thoughts.
“Boy stuff,” James instantly replied.
Lily laughed before answering with, “let me remind you that just last week it was me who you were having boy talk with, James.”
This automatically made James smile. He still hadn’t really gotten used to her calling him James instead of Potter. He liked how she said it.
“I’m sorry, lovely, but we can’t let you in on this one,” James said in a voice as if he was talking to a first grader.
“Oh, come on, don’t keep secrets, let me know!” Lily whined, and almost got James to give in without realizing the consequences of what he could say until Sirius came to the rescue.
“Hey Evans, are you wearing your black bra today? Or is the lacy one? Or….” Sirius started.
“Okay, Sirius! I get it. You don’t want to talk about it,” Lily said sheepishly, her face feeling warmer by the second.
James smiled at Sirius, who was currently in the middle of raising an eyebrow at Lily. Remus, no one noticed, was looking very awkward and uncomfortable.
After a minute or two of silence, (awkward for some at the table), Remus got up abruptly mentioning something about wanting to go to the library.
Sirius and James let him go with a wave of friendly dismissal, but Lily suddenly looked a little upset by this random action.
“Lillllly!” James said in a singsong voice, “earth to Lily! What’s wrong?”
Lily, realizing she had a look of sadness on her face quickly got rid of it and looked up to see the two familiar hazel eyes staring intently into her own.
“I just was…well…he didn’t even say goodbye or anything,” she stuttered out.
Sirius spared a glance at James, both looking confused at to why Lily would be so personally upset by this.
“I’m sure he was just wanting to get out of here in a hurry,” James answered at last.
But this answer did nothing but make Lily, if possible, seem more upset.
Sirius motioned at James to do something, and thinking on his feet, James put on a smile and put out his hand.
“Come on, Lily, come with me I want to show you something.”
She looked into his eager face but didn’t take his hand.
“What is it James?” she asked with a sigh.
“It’s this new room that Sirius and I found the other day. We can spend our spare in there, but we have to get there before class starts again,” he replied.
At this, Lily took his hand and stood up.
“Ooh, is it the red room with the bunk beds again? The one that Sirius took me to? With the fire going? And the little messy desk with all the magazines and books all over…” she started, getting excited again as she described the room Sirius had taken her to previously that day on her other spare.
“I’m sure it’s a different one, Lily,” Sirius interrupted quickly, a look of pain on his face as he faced James.
James turned to Sirius, eyes wide.
“What room exactly did you take her to, Padfoot?” James asked even though he already knew the answer.
Sirius smirked, quickly stood up, turned and walked briskly out of the Great Hall without even a glance back.
James rolled his eyes as he faced Lily again.
“Do you know where this room was? Do you want to show me?” he asked her.
Lily smiled and nodded as they walked out of the Great Hall together, hand in hand, not realizing the stares they were getting or the rumors that would be circulating later that day.
Just as James had feared, they ended up in the third floor corridor, and were currently walking past a very familiar spot on the wall three times.
As he knew it would, a door appeared and Lily stepped forward to open it.
Together they walked into the room she had described at the lunch table, and James closed his eyes, mentally making a note to curse Sirius later.
After the door had closed, and Lily had run and jumped onto the bottom bunk bed, James spotted his book of pranking on the floor and immediately went over to pick it up.
Lily laughed before telling him that that book had reminded her of him the first time she had been brought here.
James sat down on the floor next to the bottom bunk, and, shaking his head, raised his eyebrows at her. He might as well get the awkwardness over with sooner rather then later.
“Did Sirius tell you what room this is?” he asked her tentatively.
Lily rolled over to face him from her spot on his bed.
“Yeah, the Room of Requirement. It’s so cool! Any room you imagine will appear!” she answered quite excitedly.
“Well, yes, I know, we found this place years ago, dear. But I meant ‘this’ room specifically. Do you know which room he imagined?” James asked.
At this, Lily rolled her eyes to the left in thought, trying to remember if the other marauder had mentioned it hours before.
“Erm...no. No, I have no idea. All he said was this was the place he felt the most at home, and I have to say I can see why. It’s so comfortable in here. I felt safe and a feeling of familiarity the moment I laid down on this bed,” Lily answered.
James looked at her with interest. This was the place where Sirius felt the most at home? Maybe he’d only curse Sirius a little bit later.
“Well, believe me when I say I know what you mean. And that makes sense for Sirius to say that. When he ran away from his house, he slept on that top bunk every night for the rest of the summer, and will continue to every summer until he becomes of age,” James said, as if reminiscing about past memories.
“But I thought Sirius ran away to your house?” Lily said in confusion as she rolled over onto her stomach and stared directly into James’ eyes.
James laughed and shook his head before motioning around the room.
“Honestly, you’re the smartest person in our year, and you can’t figure this one out? Sweetie, this is my room,” he said as he picked up the Quidditch magazines off the desk as if to prove his point.
Lily was silent for a few seconds before…
“Ah. Well that makes perfect sense,” came her polite response.
James put down the magazines and leaned over to the bed so that his chin was resting on it right by her head.
“You mean you’re not going to freak out? You do realize that this is James Potter’s room. Seriously, I’m sorry if you’re going to be scarred for life, dear, that wouldn’t be very good now would it, you might as well go now before any permanent damage is done,” he joked to her, even though he was sure she probably would be scarred for a little bit.
Lily then turned on her side so that she was now very close to James’ face before answering.
“Have I really made you think that I hate you, James? And I don’t want to leave, I like it here,” she said quietly.
If this had been any other girl James would have taken her last sentence as a confirmation of a crush on him, but since this was Lily, his mind jumped to different things.
“Erm…what? Are you kidding me? All the names, jokes, insults, shut-downs, not to mention curses over the years, and you’re telling me you don’t hate me?” James asked incredulously.
“Of course I don’t hate you. I’ll admit, your arrogance was starting to really get to me. Until switching with Sirius. Maybe I realized that it was just an easier front to hate you then anything else. I mean what would people say if we suddenly came out and said we were friends?” she answered, laughing as if this was just a nonchalant thing to say.
James stammered on his words. Something he hadn’t done for such a long time.
“First of all, who cares what people think. And second, what are you doing to me?” he asked turning the conversation serious.
Lily looked confused.
“You know what I mean. First you hate me. Then you want to be friends. But you want to still pretend to hate me to please other people?” James stated.
“Can’t we be friends in secret?” Lily asked playfully, not quite realizing that James was starting to get into a little rage.
James looked at her as if she was insane.
“I’m sorry, but I can’t do that. You know I would love to be friends with you, Lily. You know I think you’re the smartest, most beautiful girl in all of Hogwarts. I mean, hell, I’ve asked you out like a million times. But I’m sorry; I can’t afford any more major secrets. If we’re going to be friends, I want everyone to know it. I want people to see that I’m talking to most wonderful girl in the school, and…”
“Oh my god,” Lily said in awe, stopping him mid sentence. But that was all she said.
Normally she would have been disgusted by the compliments she heard so many times from him but it was different this time. She had just realized something and was going to do something that she had been waiting to do for quite a while now.
And James’ head still resting on the bed next to her only made it that much easier.
“Oh my god what?” James asked.
And he got his answer in a way he never would have expected.
Lily had placed her hand in his messy hair, (the first time she had ever touched it), and forcefully smashed her lips onto his.
Although still completely confused, James didn’t argue or resist. The girl he had been dreaming about for years was finally kissing him. Only when she motioned for him to come join her on the bed, (his bed), did he pull away.
“I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, what are you doing to me?” James said, still in a dream-like state. Her lips had been so soft, something he had been unknowingly craving for a long time now.
“Acting on impulse?” She replied.
James turned away, unsure of why he was doing this.
“Look, Sirius told me you were torn between two guys. If you’re not going to pick me, then we should just stop,” he said sadly.
Lily looked very surprised.
“How did you know you were one of them?” she asked exasperated.
He smiled, “hopeful wishing?”
She made him turn to face her again.
“James, this is so weird. But that felt so right to me. I thought it would be completely awkward, and that I would finally know for sure that I should be with Re…the other guy,” she said.
And with that statement, Remus came into her mind.
What was she doing to Remus? He was the nicest person she had ever met. But things were clearly uncomfortable between them. Sure they had only been together for a couple of days, but it was enough to tell that it wasn’t meant to be. Surely he felt the same way?
But on the other hand…she couldn’t be with James either. She hadn’t realized she had feelings for him until very recently. Maybe it was just teenage hormones? Tons of girls had fallen into his trap. And what would everyone say? She knew she shouldn’t care, but everyone would be talking about them, and she did care. It would be so much easier if she just stayed with Remus Lupin, and they came public with their relationship. They were clearly the better match.
“So what’s it going to be, Lils? Shall we brush this off as impulse? Or are you going to finally see that we should be together,” he said, knowing what her answer would be.
What her answer always was.
Besides, he figured, he didn’t want some other guy to be mad at him. He had enough enemies already with the Slytherins and didn’t need any more. If he had been dating Lily Evans and some other guy kissed her, he knew he would find a bucket full of testosterone somewhere inside of him and the other guy wouldn’t know what had hit him. But then again, she wasn’t dating someone else or he would know, wouldn’t he have? And it was totally different when he
was the other guy.
It was her call.
“I’m sorry I was so mean to you. You were right this whole time,” she said.
And with that she got off the bunk bed and sat down in his lap, (where he was sitting on the floor), facing him. Smiling once more she kissed him again, more delicately this time. He responded by pulling her closer.
This was the girl he had been wanting forever, and he had known that he wouldn’t ever have been able to resist her. Especially after the first kiss.
He would deal with the ‘other guy’ at a later date. He never had trouble talking to people, no matter the situation. Hell, he could talk his way out of anything. The guy would be fine.
He stopped his thoughts and focused on the red hair now running through his fingers.
For now, they would just live in the moment.
A/N: Woot Woot.