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Just a little story collection to get me ready for writing LLTCC.
This chapter’s pretty depressing
And realistic, for me
Yeah, that’s why I like it so much.
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She loves him.
I didn’t think I would ever live to see the day that Lily Evans finally gave into loving James Potter.
Ever.
I mean, if you had told me six years ago, when we were just
wee little first years, that James and Lily would be in love. I would not have believed you for a second. In fact, I probably would have laughed in your face.
Loudly, nonetheless.
And yes, you would have had an eleven-year-old laughing in your face.
You’d feel pretty stupid, now wouldn’t you?
Don’t worry, I feel really stupid right now too. Like troll stupid. And that’s pretty dumb, let me tell you...
Its not that I’m not happy for them. I mean, Lily is my best friend. I support her though everything. Even wasting hours and hours on end at the library, reading and studying things I’ll never understand. Yeah, we’re
that close of friends. So close, I use my limited amount of brain cells on smart people stuff. Lily stuff. Things I wouldn’t give a crap about if I weren’t Lily’s friend. Well, I
still don’t give a crap about that stuff...even though we’re best friends...
But anyway, I am happy for them. Lily and James. Its strange to say it out loud. But, it just kind of fits, you know? They’ve always fit...even when Lily “hated” James...
That’s the part I hate most! Lily’s been raving for years that she’s despised James, and then she dates him? I just don’t get it.
Sometimes, I think that
secretly Lily has loved James all along. That she enjoyed watching him sweat. Watching him yearn. That she
liked turning him away. Kicking him when he was already down!
I hated her for that.
Lily doesn’t get on my nerves often. I don’t mind her continuous studying or fixation with her through-the-roof grades. I just
hate the way she treated James Potter.
She doesn’t do it now. They’re dating now.
(Everyone thinks they’re the perfect couple)
Which they are. They look
beautiful together.
At least better looking than James and I would be together.
Wait! No! I didn’t mean to say that...
Well, I meant to say it in my head...
But, it was supposed to stay there...
Fine. You’ve got me.
I like James Potter.
No. I don’t
like him.
I love him.
I love James Potter.
That proposes a bit of an issue, doesn’t it?
Yeah, I’ve noticed that by now.
And no, Lily doesn’t know.
I’ve never told
anyone.
I don’t plan to either.
It would just make things so much more difficult than they are.
I know I have to get over it.
But, its just so hard...
I’ve tried to get over it for the past four years,
Ever since James first started his little routine of asking Lily out...
And then getting shot down...again and again.
And again.
It hurt so bad to see him hurt.
I’ve fallen for him too hard.
Of all people I have to be in love with, it has to be James Potter!
The guy that is completely off-limits to me!
And, as much as it hurts to say this...
I’d give anything for them to break up.
I am a terrible friend.
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