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Goodbye, My Lover by bee_lily
Chapter 1 : Goodbye, My Lover
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Did I disappoint you or let you down?

You have gone and left me without a warning, Professor, why have you passed? This is my fault, I am sure it is. If all those nights ago Voldemort had succeeded, you would be here now and no one would have to sit here in front of your white tomb. What can I do now?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

I am so sorry, Ginny. It is not you, and it is not me. It is powers we have no control over. I do not want you in danger. I love you, but I must leave to protect you.

Cause I saw the end before we’d began.

He kills all who are close to me. My parents, my godfather, and now my mentor, they are all swept away by Voldemort’s swift hand. I have lost so much, I cannot bear anymore. Please understand, Ginny.

Yes, I saw, you were blinded and I knew I had won
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.

The short time we had together I will never forget. Your heart is mine, and mine I extend to you in hope of your acceptance.

Took you soul out into the night.

I saw him scream the unforgivable words. I saw him kill you. I saw his face when he realized he was successful. My father so long ago tortured him with schoolboy pranks; is this his way of revenge, to take the only remaining stable factor in my life? I am just drifting now. I have no emotion. I am numb.

It may be over but it won’t stop there
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart

You opened a wound that will never heal, my Ginny, but only scar.

You touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals

Thank you for your patience. I would be lost, stumbling in the dark of the world were it not for you. You have stood by me through the pain. You have revealed knowledge that now only I have. You have saved my life countless times, whether with or without my knowledge. For all this I thank you, Professor.

And love is blind and I knew that when
My heart was blinded by you.

There was never anyone else for me. You were always there, it is simply your role that has changed. You were once my little sister, then a friend and ally, and now, my love. What can I do? I want your safety above all. If my heart is shattered in the attempt to achieve that greatest desire, so be it. Suffering only strengthens our love.

I’ve kissed your lips and held your head.

We have both made mistakes, but they did not matter. When your lips touched mine that first time, the electricity flowing through me was breathtaking. When you cry, all I can do is put my arms around you, trying to give you comfort. But now your grief is parallel to mine. And there are no loving words I can whisper, for they are emotionless, cold.

Shared your dreams

Professor, I will continue your mission. Your drema of peace, I will bring to life. My life will be thus. I will find the Dark Lord’s soul; I will kill him piece by piece. And later, when the only remaining sliver of soul is inside him, I will feel your power radiating through me. I will finish what you have begun.

and shared your bed.

Last night was magical, beautiful Ginny. There is no more I can say, for fear of the unbearable heartache.

I know you well

I know what you have done for me, and I understand why you have done it. I know what your every movement means—meant—a nod, a smile, a wave. So much in so little! But there is the world in each little gesture you make; there is so much left unspoken.

I know your smell.

Your sweet scent precedes you into the room. And when you enter, I am lost in your eyes, your face, your hair, your hands, your hips. I am lost in you.

I’ve been addicted to you.

Yes, indeed I have been. And my reason- you are my North Star, leading my way with your soft light.

Goodbye my lover.

You have given me hope. You have given me peace. You have given me love. You have given me more than I could ever wish for. You have been loyal. You have been kind. You have been my love.

Goodbye my friend.

I cannot lay you to rest yet. Your spirit is still here, in all of us. You were taken by the one you most trusted. Who can I believe and trust now, if even you were mistaken?

You have been the one
You have been the one for me.

My only, Ginny.

I am a dreamer, but when I wake

The world crashes down, and you are the only one still standing with me, supporting me.

You can’t break my spirit- it’s my dreams you take.

My dreams of us together in front of an altar on a distant day, saying vows we can never break. They have been swept away.

And as you move on, remember me.

Watch over me, sir. I was never spiritual, but I know you are somewhere up in the heavens, smiling at us, at our tears. Remember my promise to you. I see only a white tomb now, but your spirit lives on in me.
Remember us and all we used to be.

I’ve seen you cry.

I have dried your tears and rocked you, trying to quiet your sobs. But a few years ago, I was the cause of your tears, and now, I am their remedy. I’m so sorry, Ginny.

I’ve seen you smile.
When you were pleased, or amused, or simply contented. That smile was all I needed, because all the pain was worth it. What some would do to earn a smile from you! What pride fills my heart when I know you are pleased with me! And I will never see that soft, approving smile again…

I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.

This morning. You were so peaceful among the starched white sheets. I stroked your face as the sunlight danced on your profile. You slept without a care in the world, you slept happy, and that moment is now my home. You did not know yet. You were unaware, and you slept. You slept and I watched over you.

I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.

Our lives have met in this short time, but now we have arrived at a crossroads. You go left, I right, and our fingertips barely touch as we distance ourselves from each other. But I pull you back for one last kiss. I tell you everything in that one moment. How I wish it were not so…

I know your fears and you know mine.

Your strength lives on in me. You see, Professor, I ma not afraid for myself anymore. It is only resolve now, resolve and revenge. I mourn two losses today, but my determination-or is it stubbornness?-is victor against my grief. I will leave not tomorrow, but today. I will track these Horcruxes, and I will battle to the end. For I cannot live while He survives.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine.

All those misunderstandings were such a waste of precious time! If I had seen you then as I do now, we could have had ages…months, years…instead of the mere months of this reality. Oh, Ginny, I break my heart as I break yours; tis a double-edged sword that cuts deep.

And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

There is no one else for me. I cannot live without you, but life does not care for such trifles as broken hearts and bitter soul; it merely carries on, not showing emotion despite the tortures we go through. I will wait for you forever. I will not blame you for not doing the same. You have stolen my love, but it is worthless. Surely, you will find someone more worthy to be with you all your days. I will visit you when you are a busy mother with little children. And perhaps…perhaps we can reminisce of those long-ago days when we were happy. Happy and together.

Goodbye my lover.

I will have to tell you soon.

Goodbye my friend.

I just stare at your casket and listen to the merpeople’s song. Tears are ignored as they slide down my cheeks. Oh give me strength in this, the most impossible of tasks!

You have been the one
You have been the one for me.

How can I end it now?

And I still hold your hand in mine.

We cry together. You do not know yet, but I mourn two losses, death blows to my fragile soul.

And I will bear my soul in time
When I’m kneeling at your feet.

The ceremony is over. I turn to you as sobbing people stream past us.
Goodbye my lover.

I am so sorry.
I cannot speak. But you understand. You always do. I hush. You smile. The tears are flowing down both our cheeks. I lean in for the last kiss. Now there is only one thing left to say.

Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one

Thank you, sir. Albus Dumbledore, Headmaster of Hogwarts, lies sealed in a tomb, cold and dead. My friend is gone forever. Thank you for everything. I’ll see you on the other side…

You have been the one for me.

And there is only one thing more I must tell you, my Ginny, and it is this:
I will always love you.

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