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Chapter 25: Finally
I looked sideways and sighed. Should I forgive him? Would I be an idiot if I didn’t? Questions circled around my head as I hugged my knees to my chest.
“Jen? Why are you up so early?” Carisma yawned.
I shrugged. Carisma propped herself up on her pillow and observed me carefully, “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, I just have a lot on my mind,” I responded with a smile. Carisma nodded and crawled back to bed, knowing that she’d find out what was bothering me soon enough.
I stretched and decided to get ready for the day. Strolling to the Great Hall, I was surprised when someone placed their hand on my shoulder. I turned around to see Lily.
“Hi, what are you doing up so early?”
“Nothing, I was just thinking…” Lily twirled a strand of hair between her fingers.
“About James…” I accidentally blurted out. Lily stopped dead in her tracks and gaped at me, “I mean…were you?” I added lamely.
“No…” Lily mumbled guiltily, “Well…maybe…”
“Why the sudden change of heart?” I smiled.
”I don’t know!” Lily cried, “What should I do?”
“Talk to him, the bloke deserves a chance after all these years of you putting him down,” I suggested. Lily looked at me pitifully.
“You have no choice,” I stated firmly.
As Lily and I chatted animatedly whilst eating breakfast, Carisma rushed in and fell on to an empty seat next to me, “Why didn’t you wake me up!?” She accused Lily.
“Oh, sorry, I headed out for breakfast early today,” Lily replied trying not to laugh at Carisma’s disheveled look.
Carisma grumbled angrily as she reached for a piece of toast, “So what was bothering you this morning?” asked Carisma.
I looked away. Lily tilted her head to the left questioningly, “Sirius problems?”
My head shot up in shock, “How’d you know?”
“Well, it hasn’t been a smooth ride with the two of you, has it now?” Lily pointed out wisely.
“It’s nothing really, just something that I’ll have to sort out myself,” I pursed my lips.
As soon as class had ended, I ran off to be by myself. I found an empty patch of grass by the lake and began picking at a daisy in front of me. I sighed and groaned out loud. What was I supposed to do? I stared distractedly at the lake and pondered about what I should do.
“You look like you need some company,” Someone sat down next to me, nearly scaring me to death.
I smiled, “What are you doing here, Potter? Aren’t you supposed to be out pestering Lily?”
James sighed dejectedly, “You know, countless of people think I’m delusional for spending all this time on Lily when I could have gone through a hundred girls by now…”
“I’m guessing one of them is Sirius?” I smirked as James chuckled, “So what’s wrong? You seem a little troubled,”
“I don’t know, it’s just that it’s been years and it feels like I just keep hitting a dead end…” James trailed off and stared at his hands.
“You might be closer than you think…” Jen’s eyes twinkled secretively as she pushed herself off the ground, “I have to go now…” She grinned.
Finally registering what she had just said, I darted after her, “WAIT! What did you mean by that?”
She pressed her finger lightly to her lips and shrugged, “I can’t tell,”
“You mean…I have a chance?” I cried out brightly.
Jen chuckled, “You might…I don’t know,”
“Just tell me, please…” I shot her my most irresistible puppy dog eyes.
“That look doesn’t work on me,” Jen rolled her eyes, “Just don’t give up,” She added as an afterthought before heading off in the opposite direction.
I grumbled out loud. What is with girls and secrets?
I began walking back to the common room, deep in thought about what Jen had just oh-so-subtly hinted at. All of a sudden, I collided in to someone.
“Ouch! Watch—” I stopped when I saw who it was. Lily was on the ground, rubbing her hip painfully.
“Here,” I held out my hand for her. Lily looked up at me and my jaw dropped in shock when a blush crept on to her cheeks. She grabbed my hand and I gently pulled her up.
“Are you all right? I’m sorry, I didn’t mean---”
Lily cut me off, “No, that’s quite alright,”
“Are you going back to the common room?” I shifted uncomfortably.
Lily nodded, refusing to look at me.
That’s it. “Are you okay? You should’ve cursed me twice and asked me to go to hell three times by now,”
Lily finally looked up; I was startled to see a guilty expression on her face, “Sorry about that,”
“About…not cursing me or cursing me for all these years?” I asked slowly.
Lily bit her bottom lip nervously, “Cursing you all these years…I guess,”
My jaw dropped as I gawked at her in shock, “Did you just…apologize?” Lily nodded and turned beet red.
“Lily…I…do you want to walk with me?” I finished lamely. Lily looked up and smiled as we strolled back together to the common room.
Should I? I shouldn’t. Yes, I should. No. Yes. No. Yes. No.
ARGH! I almost yelled out in frustration but stopped just in time when I saw two figures in front of me. I ducked behind a pillar and upon closer inspection; I was startled to discover that it was actually…Lily and James.
I strained my ears and tip toed as close to them as possible without being seen. As they started walking, I followed them slowly. Keeping a safe distance from them, I ducked from pillar to pillar trying my best to not be caught in the act of eavesdropping.
“Listen, I know I’ve asked you this about a million times but there’s a Hogsmeade weekend—“
“I’d love to,” Lily interrupted. James and I both dropped our jaws in shock.
“James, why did you forgive me?” Lily tucked a strand of flaming red hair behind her ear.
“What do you mean?” He raised his eyebrows.
“I mean, I’ve been nothing but spiteful and nasty to you, yet…you forgave me,” Lily murmured shamefacedly.
James moved closer to Lily, “When you find out that you really love someone, you’ll forgive them no matter what they do because they are the air you breathe, and they are the essence of your life…you can’t live without them…” James whispered.
At that moment, I jogged away to give them a bit of privacy. A smile appeared on my face, not only because of James and Lily but because James had finally made up my mind for me. I dashed back to the common room only to collide in to someone near the portrait door.
“Have you talked to Jen yet?” Remus asked as he lowered his book. I shook my head in response. Sighing, I got up and decided to go outside for nice long walk.
As the portrait door swung open, I rammed in to someone who was just on their way in. Rubbing my arm painfully, I looked down to see Jen on the floor, wincing in pain, “Oh bugger! Are you all right?” I held out my hand of her.
She gratefully took it and I pulled her up gently, never letting go, I shuffled my feet uncomfortably in front of her, “So…”
“Don’t say a word, I’m not mad at you, I don’t blame you for anything and thank you,” She smiled, “For keeping my secrets safe…”
Before she could say anything else, I lifted her off her feet and swung her around, “You’re not mad at me,” I cried out happily.
“But why? I thought you’d be furious with me!”
“Let’s just say…a certain…couple,” She winked, “Made me realize something,”
“Right…” I said uncertainly.
“So you’re an animagus? Does anybody else know?” Jen inquired.
I nodded, “James, Remus and Peter…”
It suddenly dawned on Jen that our nicknames might have something to do with this, “Prongs…Padfoot…Moony and Wormtail…” She listed slowly.
I nodded and grinned, “What else?”
“I thought you lot were just being idiotic,” She admitted truthfully.
“Glad to know you think so highly of me…m’lady,” I embraced her tightly.
“Well, you’re awfully happy…” Carisma wrinkled her forehead as Lily strolled in, a huge grin plastered on her face.
“I’m just having a good day,” Lily smiled mysteriously.
I chucked a pillow at her, “Come on, we’ve known you for seven years, you don’t think we’d know when you’re lying?”
“James asked me to Hogsmeade today…”
“Oooh…big surprise, he does that everyday,” Carisma rolled her eyes.
“I said yes,” Lily blurted out.
“I’m sure---“ Carisma whipped around as she widened her eyes, “You actually agreed?!”
I squealed in delight and threw my arms around her. Carisma was still gawking at Lily, astounded that she had actually agreed to a date with James Potter without any of pressuring or pestering her to.
“Lily!? Are you sick? Do you need to be escorted to the Hospital Wing?” Carisma leaped across the room and felt Lily’s forehead.
She slapped Carisma’s hand away and grinned, “I’m fine…I’m just…”
“HE MUST HAVE SLIPPED SOMETHING IN TO HER DRINK! A LOVE POTION! AHA!” Carisma declared proudly.
“Shut your mouth!” I smacked Carisma’s arm, “She’s fine…she has finally come to her senses…”
“Did he slip something in to your drink?” Carisma tapped her foot impatiently.
“Carisma, what’s wrong? Shouldn’t you be happy?” Lily questioned as she kicked off her shoes.
“It’s just a little hard to adjust to…” Carisma added, “After 7 years of constant bickering…”
Lily laughed, “I guess times have changed…”
“You can say that again,” Carisma shook her head morosely.
* * *
That night, I snuck downstairs after twenty minutes of tossing and turning in my bed, only to find Sirius up and awake by the fire. I slid next to him and laid my head on his shoulder.
“Hi, what are you doing up? Couldn’t sleep either?” He kissed me lightly on my cheek.
I nodded, “I’m getting incredibly worried,” I looked pointedly at yesterday’s Daily Prophet, which had headlines about You-Know-Who claiming lives all over it.
Sirius tightened his arms around me, “I’m troubled by it too but don’t you worry about it, no matter what happens, we’ll go through it together because I’ll never leave your side…”
“How are you so sure about that?” I retorted.
“Because…” He caressed my face lightly, “You’re the one for me…”
A/N: Hope all of ya liked this chapter, the story is almost done :(...You know the drill, pleeeease review! Thank you!