That must've been terribly hard to write. It drained me emotionally just reading.
First of all, I'm so sorry for your losses. I've had to deal with it too in the past years and it never gets easy, you just have to learn to breathe through the pain, as you said in your story.
What can I say that can express how this made me feel? I've never read a Draco/Hermione story before and the summary made me curious. And I was amazed at how you described them and their interactions without words, just by gestures and how they affected everything around them.
In a way, it's only fitting that Hermione should move on this way. Everybody in her life linked her to Ron in a way, Harry, Ginny, the whole Weasley family. She married her childhood sweetheart and her whole life revolved around him. I can only wander, when your whole life is so tied up with that of another, how do you move on your own?
Draco was heartbreaking in this story. How the mighty have fallen, losing his only son and having an ex-wife that's so troubled herself that they can't even bond over their mutual loss because she can't feel it or even understand it. In a strange way, Scorpius loving Rose made him love Hermione and that was his gift to them.
This was beautiful and so raw and powerful it's brought tears to my eyes! Cheers to you for writting such an emotional story!
Author's Response: MissMdsty,
Thank you for your condolences... and yes most times breathing through the pain is all that one can do. Life is heartbreaking when we lose the ones we love. People do respond differently to grief and I wanted to portray this with the four of them; Draco, Hermione, Rose, and Blade. Grief can change people and give them a completely different perspective on what is important, it can leave them debilitated, and some... angry with the world.
It is amazing to me that you would give my story a chance, considering this was the first Draco/Hermione that you've read. Wow. It makes your review all the more heart-felt to me. I appreciate it more than you know.
When I entered the 'No Dialogue' Challenge, I asked myself what would make these two interact in such a way as to know what they were feeling without words? And given what I had been through this year, I just knew that it had to be grief. It is the thing that could realistically render them both speechless, while at the same time have them understanding each other without speech.
Thank you for your compliment about their interaction without words. I love that humans have this 'other language' that we fully understand... the way someone carries themselves, body language, glances. But then there is the saying that 'action speaks louder than words.' And certainly, when Hermione threw every last one of those books into the fire, her action spoke everything that she wanted to say, but couldn't. And he certainly would understand the significance of that action. Even his conjuring roses the next morning was saying a lot without him actually having to say it. Sometimes there truly are not words, as in a simple 'Thank You' doesn't seem like enough gratitude for someone who deserves much more.
I'm happy to read your comments about how Hermione should move on. You are so right about Ron. He and his family and their children were everything... her whole life. You ask, "How do you move on your own?" It truly is a heartbreaking question. One of the people we lost this year, my grandmother-in-law, was widowed multiple times. When people asked her how she survived it, she would tell us how she kept her faith and kept busy living. Advice to remember.
And Draco, yes, the mighty have fallen. Clearly, the person that showed up at her door was not the same man of the past. What could possibly cause him to break so much as to render him devastated? Well the only thing I could think of was the death of his only son. And to that end, no comfort from the mother, his ex. And how could that happen realistically, it would be Astoria's inability to understand what was happening. I nearly wrote her saying, "Where is Scorpius? He should be here to see all these flowers." But then I remembered, it was 'No Dialogue' and erased it.
I love your comment, "Scorpius loving Rose made him love Hermione and that was his gift to them." Your words are incredibly insightful and truly adds to the believabilty for this ship. I've come to think that most people that don't like the ship struggle with believability. It is certainly something that I am mindful of when writing them. I try my best to make it believable and give them real/realistic reasons to be together.
It brought tears to your eyes? Oh, my, that really is saying something and it is much appreciated as it is humbling to know that I was able to evoke such emotions in readers. I think it is difficult to do, especially those that don't ship them in the first place.
Thank you dearly for this review and your wonderful compliments to me and especially... for giving it a chance. It is much appreciated. My apologies in taking so long to respond, but reviews such as yours always take me much time to figure out exactly what I want to say.
"Thank you" just doesn't say enough.
My heart thanks you,